I could see the blood dripping from his clentched fist and the infuriated expression over his was more than obvious of what had just happened but as I watched him turn away from me I felt myself go hard like body was no longer my own and my breathe was trembling as I waited for him to of his face began to flutter in my I was broken and beyond repair but once my biggest delima was a silly had I done?I knew the pressures of high school but never once did I think it would change my world as I knew it.I broke from my thoughts to finally adress Darien.

"What were you thinking?" I shrieked at him

"I wasn't"

"How about you start?This doesn't concern is my buisness and you should bud you and ray should"

I stormed away not quiet sure why I let myself get so over whelmed but I couldn't help life had spiraled out of control so add to the list I still had no clue what to say to Sammy or my parents.A part of me enjoyed that night excluding being raped and all that fun stuff but I was tierd of it.I was tierd of always being dorky little serena with her big bun pigtails.I was tierd of being innocent and fragile little most of all I was tierd of always being much as it is so strange I felt such a rush that night and I'm not going to lie , I liked it.

I walked towards my house and before walking in to the front door I took a big sigh before walking in the white door which confronted me .I opened the front door to the bright clean house with not a sound in the house.I walked in to the kitchen where I could see my dad reading the newspaper while drinking coffee and my mother was preparing dinner.

"Mommy,daddy?" I spoke in a gentle tone

"What is it darling?" my mother looked up from the stove with her sweet welcoming smile

"I wanted to tell you guys what Sammy told you was right and I understand what I did was irresponsible and reckless "I paused "But I was wondering if I could go to Ray's house for the night and do some shopping I really need some girl time"

"But honey, it's a school night" my farther spoke

I gave a pouty look while begging to turn away.

"Fine. But you better be in school tomorrow young lady and my Visa'

S on my dresser. Think of it as a early Christmas present"

"Oh thank you! Thank you!"

I went up to my farther and gave him a tight squeeze

"But Serena, don't break my bank account alright?"

I giggled as I ran up to my room.

I grabbed together a purse with a few essentials before curling my hair and applying my make up like the night before but now it was time for clothes.

I arrived at the mall and as pre usual everyone was running around chaotically trying to get there shopping done before the mall closed. I first hit a store called "One Step" where I bought like six new pair of heels. Of course, I was nowhere close to done and don't get me wrong I would feel horrible for this but I would pay him .

After that I went in to a store called "Wet Kisses" it was an odd name but it was where everyone got their clothes. Well anyone who was popular and rich. I walked in to the store where almost everything was made for Hollywood boulevard. I saw a woman standing wearing a black V-neck with short sleeves with her cleavage hanging out and an extra short pink and black plaid skirt. I could see her giving me a disgusted look from the corner of her eyes. You could tell she thought I didn't belong in this store and she was right. I approached the red head and her name tag read Beryl.

"Beryl is it?" I questioned

She nodded.

"I'm assuming you got what your wearing here "I paused "So, I'll take that and make me a wardrobe, I'm a size 3 in bottoms and shirts medium"

She nodded as she gathered together a collection of V-necks and short skirts along with some skinny , black shiny tights , blouses and a bunch of way over revealing clothes. But that wasn't the best of it .Next came a black glittery short dress which I adored or at least I forced myself to believe I did.

Tonight was going to be a night I would never forget. If he stole my innocents well than its gone and I'm not going to fake it.

Written In Third Person

She walked threw the crowded streets ignoring the stears she got from people passing by hair swung down her back curly and flowing and her face covered with was not the same girl she once looked like a prostitute with higher class as the black glitery dress hit high up on her thigh with her long legs that went on forever.

She walked in to the nearest club with the music were dancing up against eachother and with the flashing lights she reached to grap her remembered the club she went to last of it was clear in her lights were brighter and it was much more regardless it was still an escape. She marched to the bar not quiet sure what to order but she knew she needed something very strong.

"Bartender" she hollered "The strongest you got"

The bartender nodded and brought back her drink which she gulped took about naother ten more of those and she began to feel a the first time since it happen she didnt feel like she was dying truth of the matter was she didnt feel much at all.A young man with blonde hair.

She began to grind against his swayed her hips with the music as he placed his hips around her two moved in sync with lifted her head closer to his face and began to kiss him she broke away from the kiss she smiled and whispered in his ear.

"so,you got a car?"

he nodded.

"How about you take me to your place and ill show you a real good time"

"I think i'd like that" he said before nibbling on her ear

"But you have to drive me somewhere tomorrow morning"

"thats all?Sure thing" he said before grabbing her wrist and pulling her towards the door.

Author's Note: New chapter up soon! I think I like this chapter, I'm trying to go more detailed, But you're the readers so REVIEW! Please:(