Chapter Ten-

"I'm nervous," Sebastian said as he paced the living room. "I don't fucking get nervous."

"You also didn't used to date," Hunter pointed out.

Sebastian scowled at him, "You aren't being helpful."

"Who said I was going to be? This is amusing, isn't it Mr. Puss?" Hunter petted the top of the cat's head.

"I hate that thing," Sebastian growled. "What if he changed his mind? I mean, he's already five minutes late. He could have decided that I wasn't worth it. Or, he could have gotten back together with Blaine. What if they are sitting around laughing about this?"

Hunter rolled his eyes, "I highly doubt..." the doorbell interrupted him. "See, you are freaking out for nothing. I'll get the door, someone should try to warn Kurt away from this."

"Wait...are you being serious? Hunter I swear to god..." Sebastian stopped in the middle of the hall. Hunter was laughing, holding open the door to find Kurt standing at the door and soaked from head to toe.

"Kurt?"

"If you don't stop laughing, I swear to god I'll kick you in the balls. And throw your cat in the pool." Kurt said with a finger pointed at Hunter.

Hunter gasped in shock and headed off, mumbling something about non-animal lovers. Sebastian focused on Kurt, "What happened?"

"It's raining," Kurt pointed out. "Which would have been fine if my car hadn't stalled out about half way here, so I had to get out and fix it."

Sebastian grabbed his hand, pulling him into the house and closing the door behind him. "I'm sorry. Do you want to borrow something of mine?"

"That'd be nice," Kurt said, "thank you."

"No problem," Sebastian said with a smirk. He lead Kurt up the stairs and to his room. He grabbed a pair of his sweats and a t-shirt. "You can change in the bathroom. Use anything you need."

"Thanks," Kurt said. He towards the bathroom but turned around and walked back over to Sebastian. "By the way, hello." He pressed a soft kiss to Sebastian's cheek and then shut the door behind him.

Sebastian walked back down in a daze and Hunter started laughing. This time, Sebastian did chase him. They were in the middle of a battle, Hunter holding his cat and Sebastian holding a water gun, when Kurt came back down the stairs. The sweats were a little too long on him, but the shirt fit perfectly and Sebastian felt a thrill go through him at Kurt wearing his clothes. He had his own clothes in his hands, "What are you two doing?"

"He's being an ass," Hunter hissed. "Do you want me to hang those for you?"

Kurt nodded, "Thank you." Hunter dropped the cat, who shot off down the hall, and reached forward to take the clothes. He went up the stairs, winking at Kurt just to see the seething look on Sebastian's face. "And here I thought I was the only one who liked to rile you up for fun."

"He and his cat are pure evil," Sebastian said with clearly fond smile. "So, I guess your date plans are out the window."

"I guess so," Kurt said.

Sebastian smiled, "Lucky for you, I think I can save the day. I've got a theatre here and we can order Chinese sometime later. Hunter said he'd leave us alone."

"You have a movie theatre, in your house?"

"Well, my dad's a pretty big movie buff even though he's never here to use it." Sebastian lead Kurt down the hall and opened a door to his right. Kurt stepped inside and gasped. At the front of the room, a large screen was hanging down and projector was facing it. In the corner of the room was a shelf full of candy, a fridge full of drinks, and a popcorn machine. "Holy shit," Kurt said under his breath. He turned to the back of the room, one side had leather movie theatre chairs but the other side had love seats.

Sebastian grinned, "Dad's a hedonist. He liked expensive things like this. You should see the cars."

Kurt's eyes lit up, "Cars?"

"Maybe next time," Sebastian said. "So...movie seats or cuddle couches?"

"Depends," Kurt looked over at him, "you gonna cuddle with me?"

Sebastian smiled softly, "I've never done it before. I might suck at it."

"I doubt that," Kurt replied.

"Pick out a couch and I'll put something in," Sebastian said and he headed towards the back of the room. Kurt could tell he was nervous, just in the way that he walked. It was kind of cute and Kurt couldn't help smiling to himself as he picked a couch.

Sebastian killed the lights in the room and took a deep breath. He'd never done a date, and especially not one this...private. He couldn't deny that he was nervous but he tried his hardest to relax as he sat next to Kurt on the couch. "So, the first rule of cuddling," Kurt said in a soft voice as the movie previews started, "is to relax."

Sebastian laughed, "Am I that obvious?"

"Yes and no," Kurt responded. "Is this okay?" Sebastian looked over to see that Kurt had pulled his legs up on the couch beside him and was leaning towards Sebastian's shoulder. Sebastian nodded, unable to really speak words, and wrapped an arm around Kurt as he moved in. Kurt's head was resting on his shoulder, his upper body pressed along Sebastian's side, and Sebastian's arm wrapped around his waist. "See...not so bad right?"

There was a certain breathy quality to Kurt's voice that let Sebastian know how much the closeness to each other affected him. The movie began to play and they relaxed into each other. It felt...nice, to be so close to another person without any expectations.

"You aren't paying attention," Kurt's voice whispered.

"Nope," Sebastian replied. "How did you know?"

Kurt curled up closer to Sebastian, "Wanna talk?"

"About?"

Kurt's eyes stayed staring at the screen but Sebastian couldn't help looking down at him. "How long have you known?"

"Since Jeff's party," Sebastian admitted. "I picked up on your reactions before that, but I wasn't quite sure what it was. But when I found you in the kitchen and you kept blushing. I've seen that kind of blush before but I would have never expected it from you. Until I remembered the screen name of my mystery guest."

"StuckinOhio," Kurt whispered. "Guess that wasn't the smartest name."

Sebastian chuckled softly. "Do you want to hear a secret?"

"Sure."

"I liked you before I knew it was you. When you were just StuckinOhio. I get so many different kinds of guys, but you were so different. You treated me...well like I was a person. The way you talked...just clicked with me. Then you stopped showing up and I knew I had to do something. Just...I wanted to be around you."

Kurt pulled himself up, facing Sebastian on the couch. "Why?"

"We clicked," Sebastian whispered. "Didn't you feel it in the private show?" Kurt nodded, biting his bottom lip nervously. "Do you want to know why I do the show?"

"You don't have to explain it to me," Kurt said quickly. He meant it too. At first, he wondered why Sebastian would do the shows when he obviously didn't need the money, but it didn't bother him anymore. Who was he to judge someone else?

"I want to," Sebastian whispered. He took Kurt's hands in his, "If we do this...and I mean it when I say that I really want to do this, you should know some things about me. I don't want to hide things and then have you leave later."

Kurt reached up, cupping Sebastian's cheek. "I agreed to this date knowing that you have things in your past that you might not want to share. I also agreed to it knowing what you do online. So don't think that I'm going to back out just because you aren't like Blaine. I don't want another Blaine...I want you Sebastian." Kurt leaned in a pressed his lips softly to Sebastian's. "But I'll listen to whatever you want to tell me."

"I like sex. I'm not ashamed of it and I don't think it's something bad or evil. My father would disagree, but my mother...she's kind of a free spirit. She believed in owning your sexuality, in exploring what made you feel good, and not hiding it away like some dirty secret. She was the first person I told when I realized I was gay. The next day, she took me to a male strip club. When we left, she asked me one question. She asked me if it made me happy. That was all she cared about, was happiness. She believed that pleasure and happiness could never be wrong or dirty. And she taught me that." Sebastian ran a hand through his hair, "But not everyone thought that way. My dad especially."

Kurt could tell just from the empty house and what he'd seen of Mr. Smythe on tv that he wasn't the kind of father that would approve of a gay son. "Is it the sex or the gay part that your dad doesn't like?"

Sebastian laughed, "Both I guess. We don't really talk much. Or you know, at all. He has these people, who's only job is to make sure that I don't fuck up. So the only time we talk is when one of them reports something to him."

"I'm sorry."

"It is what it is. Anyways, after the thing with Dave...I wanted a change. It wasn't so much the sex aspect as it was the anger. I'm not exactly a nice person, but I was so angry at the time that I hurt everyone that came into my path. And then Hunter showed up and he was even more damaged than I was. His parents shipped him off to military school as soon as he was old enough. He had just as much anger and resentment that I did. After the steroids scandal, we made a pact. We would stop doing things out of anger and start being ourselves."

"So...you stopped having sex?"

Sebastian looked down at the couch, "Yes but it wasn't really the sex that was the problem. It was more like, I choose the worst people to be with. It was always the challenge of it...who's boyfriend could I steal? That guy at the bar with all the attention, I was going to be the one to take him home. It was a game and it had stopped being about sex for me. It wasn't making me happy, it was masking my anger."

Kurt nodded, squeezing Sebastian's hand. He knew how hard it was to tell something your secrets like this.

"So, I stopped going to Scandals and deleted my Grindr. But I wanted...needed something to remind me what it was about sex that made me happy. I wanted to remember all the reasons that I had loved it in the first place. So I started the show. Simple stuff at first, but the more guys that came, the more I showed off. I'm a bit self-absorbed, so it was pretty amazing at first. Then I remembered, the reason I loved sex was because I liked pleasing other people. I liked watching people fall apart under me. To know that in that moment, I'm the person that is making them feel blissful and boneless and free...that's what I love about sex."

A spark went through Kurt's body even as he tried to stop from imaging Sebastian doing that to him. "That's...good."

Sebastian laughed, rubbing his thumb over Kurt's hand softly. "Are you good? We can stop talking about this if it is too...intense."

"No," Kurt said quickly and blushed at the smirk that Sebastian gave him. "I mean...not if you want to keep talking."

"Ok then. I started getting private show requests and I thought it would be impersonal. But it was like...being so wanted by someone so much that they paid for time to see me. Just to watch me. To let me be the one that made them come."

Kurt bit his bottom lip and try to keep from doing something, like moaning out loud. He knew first hand how hot Sebastian's shows were, how good he was at it, and how much he really did provide pleasure to his viewers. "I..."

"But it's not the same, as touching someone. I know what it feels like to run my hands along a guy's body, to kiss all the spots that make his hips buck up and his eyes roll, and I missed it. But I want all that with someone that I like, someone that I can go out with and that I find interesting. I started imaging things when you started talking in the shows."

"What...what kind of things?"

Sebastian's eyes darkened, "I'd imagine what he'd taste like, what he'd sound like, what he'd feel like."

Kurt's eyes shifted away from the intensity in Sebastian, "You weren't...disappointed?"

"Hell no," Sebastian whispered. He pulled on Kurt's hands, pulling the boy closer to him. "I'm sorry about the things I said when I first met you Kurt. At first it was to throw you off your game and get Blaine, but at the end...it was more like a game. You always hit back as much as you got." Sebastian reached up and cupped Kurt's cheek, "You are gorgeous. I don't know what's in the water in New York but god, you got like muscles now. You are sexy, you wear those strange clothes now as more of an accent to your own sex appeal rather than a shield."

"I..."

"It might take some time for you to trust me, but I really am attracted to you."

Kurt moved, letting go of Sebastian's hands and straddling his lap. Sebastian's arms instinctively wrapped around Kurt's tiny waist and his hands settled on the small of his back. "You could prove it," he whispered.

Sebastian groaned, "Don't be a tease."

"Who said I was teasing?" Kurt leaned forward and pressed light kisses along Sebastian's neck. "I said I wasn't going to sleep with you, I didn't say anything about making out."