A/N: I just want to address a couple of guest reviews I got on the last chapter and I have to say that I respect everyone's opinions but to be told my story is creepy seems a bit of a stretch, TO ME. I get that it might not be everyone's liking and for that there is nothing I can do. But to outright say it's creepy because of their relationship just doesn't sit right with me, I get their relationship isn't conventional but not everyone's is, hell I've been in this position at one point in my life and while I don't know how the person on the other end of the friendship/relationship whatever you want to call it felt, but this Ana is in many ways based on some of the things I've gone through and if you don't like the way the story is going you don't have to read it, I'm not having a rant at you because I respect your review not that I expect you to read this but I'm sure could pick up that I'm talking about you.
The second one is you are correct Elena is indeed a BITCH!
rustyarbor50: Elena does indeed like them young and we'll just have to see where this whole, Ethan and Jose thing goes…it's even a mystery to me at this point…watch this space
That being said here is the next chapter. Much Love,
Xxx Aby
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"You always did have a smart mouth on you Ana…" I place her back on the ground after spinning her around and she looks up at me.
"You know I would hit you for that comment if it wasn't so true…one of the many things my mother hates about me…the fact that I am so head strong and won't bend to her like everyone else does…" I have to smile at her comment.
She is one of the strongest women I know, she doesn't put up with anything as far as I can remember and yet I know that she is just like every other woman. She has feelings, she has her down days but she never shows it, at least not like she did when she was little. I remember the day she was at our house because her parents had to take Frankie to the hospital and she was upset because she was being bullied by Kelly, that was one of the first times I ever felt like I wanted to hit a girl for making one of the nicest girls I knew, cry. I didn't because I wasn't that type of person until she turned me into one.
I honestly look back on the six years that I spent in that relationship with her and I don't feel sorry in the least for hitting Elena in her dungeon as a Dom because when I think back on it now, it was my revenge for the person that she was turning me into, from the ages of Fifteen to Twenty-One I thought that the only relationship I could have with a woman was a Dom/Sub relationship and when it got to the point that she did nothing for me I stopped it and she didn't like it. That's why to this day she still tries to control my relationships with any woman including my mother and my sister, but when it comes to them they are always going to come first because as much as I didn't show it, I love them and they mean everything to me.
There are two different sides to me, there's CEO me and then there's this me, the one that wants to act his age and have fun, and just live but when I look back on that time I feel nothing but guilt and repulsiveness, how anyone would want to be associated with me after they find out what I did is beyond me. I will more than likely be known as a woman basher, of course that's worse case scenario I guess but still who wants that title? I sure as hell don't.
Anyway back to what I was saying, from Fifteen to Twenty-One I was her puppet and she made me realise who I didn't want to be. During the first two years of trying to get GEH off the ground (Twenty-Two and Twenty-Three) I only had two subs and it was just to see if I still felt the same, Alannah Simms was my first sub after Elena, she was brunette, brown eyed, about 5'7 and had a rocking body but the excitement of pleasuring her that way only last for four weekends, one month and then for the next three months all I wanted to do was throw up, I couldn't stomach it and I thought it was just because when I looked at her I saw Ella so I ended things, of course that didn't happen easily because she had fallen for me, not that I wasn't flattered but I just didn't find her all that attractive except for her body and that was good because she was just my sub nothing more.
After that Kaitlyn Tennyson walked in, she was a red head, that was super model gorgeous, about 5'9 and she could do everything that I wanted her too, hell I never thought that I would have a problem with her being my sub but that changed within the first month when I caught her at the club with three other guys, dancing making out and drinking. I guess she didn't find me that accommodating anymore because I wouldn't let her touch me wherever she wanted, she didn't follow rules well and for that she was punished it was the one thing that I was happy to punish either of them about.
Since then, over the last four years I've had the occasional one night stand with some of the woman I met at various bars, or while travelling internationally, hell even at the odd Dom/Sub Club that I went too, not by choice of course, turns out most business men are into that sort of stuff, watching it more than participating in it but still it was good to know how the deal worked. It made it easier for me to get my rocks off, no commitment, no contracts, no having to call afterwards. It felt good to just act my age. Although for the last year I haven't had sex and that is getting to me, especially the last two nights when I've been with Ana and she's had next to nothing on and just then when she was getting dressed it took everything in me not to stop her from changing and taking her on the couch just so that I could get rid of the constant hard on I seem to be having in her presence.
"…Christian? Are you even listening to me?" I shake my head to clear it of my very non PG Thirteen thoughts and look at her smiling.
"No sorry, was away with my thoughts…what were you saying?" of course I could have added that I was picturing her naked, legs wide, hair sprawled on the cushions, skin flushed with heat and sweat and my name falling from her lips like a prayer but she might just slap me for even suggesting that she was that kinda girl, you know the one who just drops everything for sex like her life revolves around it….yeah, yeah, I know I'm a pig blah, blah, blah…I've heard it all before ladies, come up with something original would you.
"Shouldn't you finish getting ready to head to your parent's house for lunch?" Oh right crap I forgot about that, that's a first maybe it's because I haven't had any texts or calls from my family to remind me, or Jason to tell me that I was running behind.
"Come with me..." she cuts me off smiling.
"You know that's the second time you've said that to me in less than twenty-four hours….if I didn't know any better Christian Grey I was say that there was an innuendo in there somewhere…." She smirks at me biting her lip and I can't help but smirk back at her. God knows I want to make that happen but I will be a gentleman and not do something to push us backwards.
I sigh and look down at her. "If I was going to be that guy I would have done it last night when you were passed out on my bed, wearing nothing but my shirt, and trust me that crossed my mind a number of times but Necrophilia really isn't something that turns me on…Now if I can finish what I was saying" It's not really a question but she looks a little taken aback by what I said just then, surely it's not that much of a surprise considering how beautiful she is, and after all I am a grown man and can think of nothing but sex right?
She nods her head looking at me while she's playing with her hands. Fidgeting I guess is what you could call it but it reminds me of when she was younger and she was nervous about telling me something.
"Come with me to my parents for lunch…" she stops fidgeting and looks at me and her eyes go wide and she pales more, if that's even possible. Okay, clearly that comment shouldn't have left our mouth…
"I don't think that's a good idea Christian, I can barely stomach the thought of having to face my father and siblings, let alone your family. That article is going to cause a lot of problems for everyone and Elena knows that, this is what she wanted, she wants everyone to hate me and she's going to get it…I know what you said last night at the bar, but look at it from my point of view…I've been away for college, I've been back for less than two weeks and I've already managed to make a fool out of myself and my family, being accused of being after you for your money hurts Christian but not as much as the slandering my family got for supposedly being bankrupt, I can't even begin to think what this is going to do to Daddy's business…" I'm amazed that she remembered to breathe during that big spiel.
"Ana my family won't believe what is written in any paper, online site or anything, they only go by what the people directly involved tell them. They have known you and your family forever, they would never think anything bad of you and they would be the first to step in if they thought that your family was in need for anything…including money. What I said at the bar last night was the truth, it is all bullshit and I wouldn't care if you were after my money, I have more money than I can spend and if it meant that you were happy then that's all that would matter to me…" okay so that may have come across more of a boyfriend statement than a friend statement but it's true. I've only ever wanted her happy, even when we were younger. I wanted to be the one to make her smile and laugh when she had been upset and I have overheard from Mia and Frankie how miserable she was during Middle school and High School. She had only a handful of friends but she only trusted one of them and she never got close to any guys, from what I could gather in the odd conversation I was listening in on. I don't know if that's because she only wanted to be close to me or because of what happened between us, she just never felt she could trust any male that wasn't family. Okay sounding a little full of yourself at the moment buddy….
"I….I just don't know, I mean your Mom and Elena are great friends but if I see her today even when I'm around your parents I'm going to go postal and I don't want to put you in a position that you can't get out of, I know that you need to be the one to tell your family but if she makes me mad enough I will tell anyone who is willing to listen what I know…even if it means that I have to lose you again…" I stop her there the only way I can think of and I will probably get slapped for it but it will be worth it.
I place my finger against her lips and I taking a step forward I lean down moving my finger from her lips placing my hands against her neck and I press my lips to hers kissing her gently. I kiss her a little deeper pressing my body against hers and I feel her grab my arms and push back against me so I step back and look at her. God I've wanted to do that for the last two days and now she's gone and pushed me away, I guess I read the signs wrong from her. You and me both buddy, I could have sworn that she's been checking us out when she thinks we weren't looking….
"I….I'm sorry, I didn't mean to do that…" I can see her shaking slightly and I'm waiting for her to get angry but it never comes.
"You so meant to do that…" she mumbles as she looked up at me with a smile on her lips, but her eyes aren't matching the rest of her face at the moment.
"It's okay Christian, I'm not mad at you, you just caught me a little of guard but I get that you wanted me to shut up so what are you going to say now…" I can tell there's more to her explanation but I won't push her, if she wants to she'll tell me and I will listen to her.
"I'm going to be late, you're coming with me and I am not taking no for an answer, if Elena happens to show her face, we'll cross that bridge when we come to it, until then my family will love you and you will enjoy the food and more than likely your brother and sister will be there anyway so it will be like you're having lunch with your family too…" I head into the bedroom, not allowing her to answer, I'm not going to have her stop hanging out with my family because of all of Elena's bullshit, she's caused enough hell in my life and I'll be damned if I let her ruin anything else.
I head to my wardrobe to find a shirt to wear with the Black Abercrombie and Fitch Slim Straight Chinos that I already have on, I manage to find a brown t-shirt with short sleeves that I forgot I had and slide it over my head and then grab my Suede Classic Mid Black and White Puma shoes and grab some socks sliding them on and head back out to the lounge to find Ana on her phone.
"No Kevin, that's great thank you so much…let me think about it and I'll get back to you by the end of today…No problem, thanks again. Bye…" she blows out a breath of air before turning around jumping as she sees me and she smiles. Has she got a boyfriend…oh hell you may have totally just crossed a line there buddy, you're on your own on this one…PUSSY!
"You still manage to scare me…I still swear that you're a ninja…." She laughs and then looks me up and down and I'll be damned if I didn't feel like she was undressing me, not that I would care, I'm proud of all the hard work I've put into my body, with the running every day, the workouts with Claude, the healthy eating I have nothing to be ashamed of.
"I almost forgot what you looked like in normal clothes…I've seen you in suits so many times I was afraid that's all you wore…" So she has been keeping an eye on me, I don't know whether to feel stalked or flattered. Either way, I can't say that I'm bothered.
"Who was on the phone? Sounded like they had good news for you" Okay if she tells me something about being with another guy I may just be tempted to get another sub to take my jealousy out on.
"Oh that was Kevin…Mr Prescott from your PR department, he was offering me the job that I interviewed for…." She looks at me and smiles gently. Could I really handle having her in the same building as me only three floors down Monday to Friday?
"Wow, that's great so are you going to take it?" I try to act happy for her but truthfully I don't think I could handle knowing where she was and not being able to touch her. How hypocritical would it look if my employees saw me being intimate with Ana, when I have a strict no relationships within the office rule?
"I…I don't know, he wants me to start tomorrow, which seems really soon but he's given me till the end of the day to think about it…who knows maybe Kate will stake her claim on me and then you won't have to worry about seeing my face all the time…" She says that last bit with a slight chuckle but I think I also see a little disappointment there, clearly she has a few things going around in her head at the moment that has her in a weird place.
Well why don't you distract her you idiot and take her to our parent's house and get some food into her, after all she didn't really eat much of her breakfast, not to mention that fact that you pretty much forced yourself on her…
He has a point and for now I will listen to him. I reach my hand out and she takes it sighing and I walk to the foyer grabbing the keys for my Audi R8.
"Heading to my parents Jason, taking the R8…" I know he would have heard me either because I'm in the foyer and his office isn't that far away or because he would have seen me grabbing my keys on the camera, he will follow me…not that I'm in much danger going to my parents but with the way Elena's acting I'm grateful that he is so competent at his job as my CPO, it is good to know that there are another set of eyes out there watching over my wellbeing.
I push the button for the elevator and step into it when it arrives with Ana coming in beside me as we turn around and I push the button I catch her staring at me and I can't help but look at her and smile.
"Really are we going to play this game all day, you stare at me, I stare at you, yet neither of us says anything?" I ask leaning against the wall spinning my keys in my hand.
"I wasn't staring, I was checking you out. So sue me for it, you look so different out of a suit and it's been years since I've seen you in ordinary clothing. It's freaking me out if I'm entirely honest…" she smiles at me.
I have to say I'm not surprised in all the photos anyone has taken with me I'm in a suit and in the odd photo that is taken of me by the paparazzi I'm in my running gear or Jason is in front of me. Although this conversation could get me into a lot of trouble I'm just glad that I can talk to her and not have to worry about Elena and everybody else while we're travelling together, we could actually talk, and talk properly.
"Well I'll have you know that I won't sue you just for checking me out, make fun of you maybe but never sue you…besides there would only be one thing I would want from you…and I couldn't get it in the court of law…" of course that's not entirely true, I'm sure I could persuade someone in the Justice Department to get an order that means she has to sleep with me and be my girlfriend but somehow I don't think that it would feel the same as it would if she was doing it for her own free will.
"Well you can make fun of me then…" I take her hand as we reach the parking garage and I push the button on the keys and the RX unlocks and I look at her and she seems surprised but not shocked, not that I expected her to be, I always said that when I could afford it I would by any car I wanted and I always liked going fast so it just seemed to suit me, I'm not really a Ferrari person, not sure why they just never appealed to me.
"After you Miss Steele…" I say to her as I open the passenger door for her, hearing her giggle sends some light back into me after the downer she seems to have been on for the last twenty minutes or so.
"Why thank you kind Sir…" Okay what the hell just happened? I thought I had lost all my Dominant reactions to that…but having her call me Sir is doing something to me I haven't felt in years. Hell not since she was little and she used to call me Ristin because she couldn't say Christian until she was about five and a half years old and she finally learnt how to pronounce her words properly…it makes me feel alive again…like I'm coming out of the Grey area that I've been in since she entered my life in a sexual way.
I feel whole again having her close, her saying my name, smiling, laughing just being with me. I climb into the car next to her and put the key in pulling out of the parking garage and head off to my parent's house. It's good to be behind the wheel of this car again, I haven't driven it since Grandpa Thomas Grey passed away in August of last year, not sure why, I guess because whenever I would travel to his house he wanted to go for a ride in it, it was our car in a way, he would always help me if I asked him questions but otherwise it was just something we did together any way I digress….
The drive to my parent's house is quiet, I look over at Ana every now and then and she is playing with her fingers looking out the window, I guess this whole thing has her in a bad space; that much was evident at Escala, she wants to run but she doesn't at the same time. It's hard to explain unless you could see it in person. The best way I could probably explain it is if you've ever had that friend that was always completely honest with you and you could tell when they were lying or not being their normal self with you…that is how Anastasia is acting at the moment, she's brooding.
I think it has to do with the fact that she thinks my parents are going to react badly to what was written in the article but I'm almost positive that if anyone wasn't going to believe what was written it would be my mother. She has always seen the good in people, hates to find out that she was wrong and that is one of the reasons that I haven't mentioned Elena to her. I remember one of the girls that Elliot brought home during High School, acted nice as anything, was polite and gave the normal sweet impression, until the day Mom came home and saw her trying to get it on with our pool cleaner while Elliot was in the bathroom, let's just say that I had never seen her so angry in my life, she doesn't like being made to look like a fool and she holds her family close and expects us to all be treated with respect and she only wants what's best for us, so you could say that when she finds out about Elena, and I mean when not if, she will more than likely be three times as angry as she was with Elliot's girl, I can't even remember what her name was but then again I never really bothered to pay attention back then.
When I pull into my parents driveway I see Jason in my rear-view mirror and I never even noticed he was following me, probably because I am trying to figure out what Ana is thinking but I learnt early on that she would never give it away, she would tell you if she wanted you to know, but I can't let her go inside like this, my mother will know something is wrong straight off the bat and I'm sure neither of us want to talk about anything to do with the article or Elena.
I walk around open her door and hold my hand out for her to take. She looks at me and sighs before sliding her hand into mine and I pull her up and out and lean her against the car closing the door and leaning in front of her with my hands on either side of her head.
"Bity I know you and something is going on in that pretty little head of yours but if you are going to go inside then you need to try and hide what's really going on unless you want my mother interrogating you until she gets the answers she's looking for…" she looks at me for a moment and then a smile takes over.
"You haven't called me Bity since I was six years old…" she giggles and she bites her lip. "I'll try Christian but I can't promise you that I'll be all smiles all the time…you're asking me to keep a secret from people I care about when you know as well as I do that once it's no longer a secret she holds no power over you…" I know she's talking about Elena but I'm not interested today.
For once I can enjoy a family Sunday lunch because Ana will be there and I won't be the one without someone sitting next to me anymore. It's been hell seeing Frankie and Justyce at these lunches without Ana, but then again I never thought she would come anyway, but since I have realised that I love her, I have to see if we can actually handle being around each other for long periods of time, there's no use putting it out there if I'm sure that she doesn't want that. It would be pointless to tell her how I feel.
"Then this is what you are gonna do. If you feel like you're about to lose control, you can grab my hand or my leg, whatever you need to do, so that you know that I'm there and nothing is going to happen and I will make sure of it…and if Elena shows up, we'll do what we did last night, act like we're together it drove her crazy, we'll be walking away from her and this time she'll have to see it head on and then if she starts to make a scene you can say whatever you need to because I won't hold it against you…" I murmur as I lean closer to her. God what I wouldn't give to kiss her again, but I can't force myself on her, if she wants another kiss from me she's going to have to make the first move...then I'll know that we have a possibility of working out, and a possibility of a future together.
She looks at me and shakes her head. "I'll do my best to keep my anger in check if she shows up, until then I will be happy go lucky Ana and we will all get along just fine…" she leans up and kisses my check before ducking under my arm and up to my parents front door. I nod to Jason who has been standing by and he heads off around the back into the kitchen like he always does and I head inside, I can't wait to eat, not because I'm hungry but because I'm actually looking forward to spending time with everybody, I am starting to feel like I might have a reason to stop being such a closed of Son of a Bitch, okay so maybe I'm not that bad but still, surely you know what I mean. Sunday Family Lunch here I come…
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I'm sitting here staring at my phone after finishing my conversation with Annie, that girl maybe a lot of things but she has never lied to me, that much I know, she has always been honest with me, about everything in her life, she wouldn't lie about being slapped by her mother. Now I know that her and her mother haven't always gotten along but to think that Carla would hit her is so far from the woman I fell for that I don't know what I'm supposed to now. I can see her falling deeper and deeper into Elena's ways and I'm pretty sure there is nothing that I can do to stop it.
For years I've been noticing how close she's become to Elena Lincoln and I have never liked the woman, not even when she was married to Linc, trust me that man got our sympathy when he told us that she was cheating on him, he didn't deserve it, hell how many of us actually do. Anyway I never trusted her and I know that Carrick has finally started to have his doubts too; after all The Greys have known her longer than we have, but being in the Military you learnt quickly how to read people, so I guess that it's only natural that I take everybody with a grain of salt until I see fit to look at them otherwise. Carrick and I get together during the week at the golf course and play a round or two and then grab a beer and just talk like guys do, but the wives and children do happen to come up in the odd conversation so naturally at one point or another we've made our points clear on where we stand with one Elena Lincoln, however for our wives sake we bite our tongues when she is present. At least I will until she comes after my family then all bets are off.
I'm so sick and tired of Carla only giving me half the story all the time, I could handle it when the children were younger but now it's driving me insane, I have enough to worry about with Steele Carpentry without having to deal with her shit too, especially after this stupid article that was written about Annie and our family. I remember when she was about Six - Six and a half years old and it was Louise's birthday and she wanted to buy her a present but she had no money because it wasn't time for her pocket money. She got upset because I offered to pay it to her early and she said that it wouldn't be fair on her siblings and when I brought the present she wanted to get Louise she got so mad at me that she sulked around the house for a week, I even got a picture of her after Three days of her sulking in her favourite hoodie just staring straight at the camera, and her blue eyes were so clear and it was eerie looking at the photo, it just happens to be my favourite photo of her, I trust her completely and she would never use Christian like that. Now I'm not one to act like everything in my life is perfect, but it's not exactly close to good either. I walk from the kitchen into the family room where Carla is sitting on the couch.
"Carla, why is it that our twenty-one year old daughter just told me that you slapped her yesterday, in front of Justyce I might add, when this morning you were telling me she was disrespecting you and Elena and then she just took off?" I hate being lied too, but more than anything I hate the idea of a hand being laid on my children by anyone and while Frankie and Anastasia aren't biologically mine I still feel exactly the same about them as I do about Justyce and Clarissa.
"Come on Ray, you really think I would slap my daughter, I tapped her cheek at best…you know she over reacts to everything that happens to her, she's always been like that…" I close my eyes and hold the bridge of my nose, how she can think so little of one of our children is beyond me. I'm amazed that they haven't torn each other's hair out at this point, although it's probably because Ana has hardly been home since she's been back in Bellevue.
"I don't want your excuses Carla, she is an amazing woman in spite of us, the fact that you failed to tell me that you slapped her hasn't slipped past me but if you want to fix this, you have to apologise to her, until then I doubt she'll be anything but mad at you and I will not be getting involved. Sort this shit out now and leave me the hell out of it. If you have a problem with her and what she said about Elena than take that up with her and then with Elena but if you ever lay a hand on any of our children again, we will have major issues you and I…" I have not nor will I ever condone any sort of physical punishment on one's child and that has me more pissed off than anything.
She looks at me and she seems shocked by my answer but I couldn't care less. I turn to leave and I hear her following me. "You can't honestly take her side over mine, I'm your wife and you love me, she's not even your daughter, so why has me hitting her got you in such a piss poor mood…." Seriously, she wants to do this now, while I'm already boiling to the point where I will blow?
I turn on her and step back so that I don't lay my hands on her, I maybe a lot of things and have seen more things than I care to remember, but I will never be a woman beater.
"Don't start with me Carla about taking sides; it's pretty clear you chose your friend over your own daughter, so forgive me if I take what you have to say to me at this particular point in time with a grain of salt. She may not be my daughter biologically Carla but I have been there for her, I've been to the father daughter dances, the parent teacher interviews, I've been around for Homecoming, Prom, Graduation…I've been there for everything, I found the time in my busy schedule for that…but you, you work on the social society and that's all you do yet you missed all of that…I don't know how many times we are going to have to have this same damn conversation. SHE DIDN'T CAUSE FRANK TO DIE, SHE HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH IT, SO STOP TAKING IT OUT ON HER…She was a god damn baby and for 20 years she's had to deal with your grief about his death. I'm over it and I'm through with trying to keep both of you at bay from killing each other. Sort it out Carla…or I'm done…" I've seen it in the way she looks at Ana when she's happy, she can't stand the fact that Frank's not here and for years I've been trying to make her as happy as the girls are without their real father but it's been to no avail. I've been the fill in all these years, I believe at one point she loved me but never as much as she loved him and now I have to put up with it because she is my wife and we have two children together but really we have four.
"God Ray so you're the parent of the fucken year, what do you want a bloody medal for it?" Oh my God, now would be a really good time for someone to drive into the house or something like that just so that I could use that as an excuse for her to get hurt.
"No Carla, I want you to be a God Damn mother and one they all deserve, God forbid any of them turn out like you…I'm leaving right this second and don't expect anyone home tonight if I have anything to do with it. You need to fix things with all your children…all of them…best you start with Anastasia…" I grab my keys and reach the door slamming it behind me and get in my car and drive.
Seems to be what we're all doing at the moment, I guess because she's toxic, or we're afraid to end up anything like her. Cold and distant and only wanting what she wants. I arrive at the country club and head into the bar and order a scotch as I sit down sighing. I pull my phone out and text the girls and Justyce:
*Best you give your mother some time to cool off tonight, I'm happy to pay for your rooms if you decide to stay at a hotel, if you need me for anything call my cell…Love Dad x*
God I'm sure Frank would be appalled if he saw the way that she was treating their children, especially Ana. Frankie told me she was leaving home because she didn't want to be around her mother and she couldn't bear to see the way Ana was being treated. If anything Frankie acts more like a mother to Annie than Carla ever did and that's not how it's supposed to be, I'm just glad that all our children had the two housekeepers to lean on when she wasn't willing to be a mother figure for them. I know it may seem harsh coming from me, considering I've been busy with Steele Carpentry but at least I haven't push any of my children to the point where they want nothing to do with me.
I don't know if I'd handle not being able to be there for them, they have brought so much joy to my life, considering I never thought I would ever have children. I just thought that I'd go straight from the Military into carpentry and be a bachelor all my life, but then fate intervened and I wouldn't change anything about my life now…except maybe how Carla has been, that I wish I could change but it's not my job and she has to handle to fall out. I just hope that she's not to late…
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A/N: Please feel free to R&R, I wrote this chapter while on medication so if it rambles I apologize I have re-read the chapter and changed what I've picked up, however if I missed anything feel free to inform me. Much Love,
Xxx Aby