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Wednesday – week 2
Even though Kyon is still ignoring me, I'm not at all discouraged. It just means I'm going to have to fix everything I originally broke, and the fact that I was able to surprise Kyon yesterday meant I was making progress. If I keep this up I should be able to mend things between me and Kyon soon! I'm not sure what I'm going to do today though…
What's worse is that ever since Sunday I've been feeling like I haven't been myself. I can't explain what it is, but I started realizing it yesterday when I got that weird score on my test. I thought that this was just something I needed to deal with, but that's not the case… All I know is that it has to do with Kyon. After I fix things between us I'm going to find out exactly what's been going on with me!
That'll be our first new investigation!
After yesterday's slight success I was able to walk into class with a bright smile on my face. It's something I haven't been able to do for a while. I set my bag on the side and quickly sat down. Since I don't really have a plan on what I need to do today, I thought about just winging it. It's either that or I'm going to have to think about everything that went wrong last week and come up with some kind of plan to fix everything…
I looked over to Kyon and as I expected, he wasn't even looking at me. I smiled to myself though, he may be ignoring me now, but I won't let it stay that way.
"Suzumiya?"
I looked to the voice in front of me; Kunikida was still in the seat in front of me.
"You seem like you're distracted by something."
Over the past two days I've come to tolerate this guy. Unlike Kyon's other friend, at least he doesn't get on my nerves. Besides, I don't know how long I'll have to sit here so at least I'll have someone to waste time talking with.
"I'm just bored." I sighed and turned my head back to the window. "I guess you could say things haven't been going so well for me lately."
"Why's that?"
My eyes darted towards him, "That's not important."
He was quiet for a moment but seemed like he wanted to pursue what was bothering me, "is it about, Kyon?"
"No." an immediate response. "It's none of your business anyway.
Kunikida looked at me with slight concern, "Are you sure? Every time I bring him up you always seem so—"
"I said it's NONE of your business!" I stood up and slammed my hands down onto my desk, shouting my words; I was so close to him that our noses were practically touching. The realization of what I had just done was suddenly plastered on my face. I looked at Kunikida and he was as far back as his desk would let him go.
I slowly sat back down and remained as quiet as I could possibly be. Kunikida had turned around and put his focus back onto Mr. Hiraga.
…What the hell is going on with me?
I feel so… unstable today. The rest of that period, Kunikida didn't say a word to me. I was tempted to try and say something to him but I decided against it. Maybe 'not feeling myself' was an understatement. Ever since Kyon started ignoring me I not only haven't been feeling like myself, but I feel as though I'm starting to hate the things I used to do.
I can't think of anything for us to do in the clubroom anymore, I haven't looked for anything strange or supernatural and I haven't even tried to organize a city search. All I can think about is that idiot, Kyon! He's not even a part of the club anymore and all he does is annoy me! I let my head hit the desk and tried to fall asleep.
Just then, the lunch bell decided to ring and if that wasn't bad enough, a familiar face decided he wanted to eat lunch with Kunikida today.
"Kyon! You want to eat lunch with me today?"
He looked over to Kunikida, "Sure, why not." He pulled up a chair and began opening his lunch. Just then his other friend decided to join in.
Whatever his name is threw his arm around Kyon and began to pull him close to his chest, "Kyon! Buddy! How have you been man?"
Kyon pushed himself away with a small grunt and sat back down, "I've been okay. It's been pretty boring lately, but it's actually kind of nice."
I couldn't help but sit in my desk and desperately try to ignore whatever conversation they were having. But my interest got the best of me and I began listening anyway.
"Oh! I almost forgot! Happy birthday, Kyon!" whatever his name is brought out a small box and handed it over to Kyon.
Kyon looked at the box with slight suspicion, "What is it?"
"Open it and find out!" He smiled and began opening his boxed lunch.
Kyon sighed and unwrapped the lazily done ribbon on the box. Inside was a tiny, cheap looking ring. Kyon just stared at it. "What would I need this ring for?" He looked at his friend.
"To give it to Suzumiya of course! I hear something big happened between you two on Sunday! I was out for three days and no one really tells me anything about what happened though." He laughed and slapped Kyon on the back, "But I can only guess that you guys finally started going out! Congratulations buddy! Before you were just one of her henchmen, but now you're actually DATING the queen of weird!"
Kyon rolled his eyes and put the ring back into the box, "I don't know what you're talking about. I had a small party with my parents on Sunday. Besides, I don't know any Suzumiya."
Whatever his name is looked completely confused, "What are you talking about? She's sitting right over there! You've known her since the beginning of school!" He pointed to my seat as I tried to hide my face in my desk.
Kyon looked over to my seat with the same look as Monday, "There's no one sitting there."
I heard his friend choke, "What are you talking about?! Kyon, either you need to get your eyes checked or there's something going on here. Haruhi Suzumiya is sitting in that desk right there!" He pointed once more, "Suzumiya, say something!"
"Hi." I said impulsively.
Kyon looked back over to my desk and after a moment of silence he looked back to his friend, "Did your imaginary friend say anything?"
What's his name was completely dumfounded. "You're joking aren't you?"
Kyon gave him a straight look, "No, I'm not."
His friend had lost all the energy he had before. He just looked at Kyon and looked up to me. He got up and walked over to me.
I grunted and turned my attention to the window.
"Hey, Suzumiya?" I heard him behind me.
"…What?"
There was a short silence between the four of us. I could only hear the sound of Kyon eating. Kunikida hadn't said a word since asking Kyon to eat with him. "…Nevermind." I guess his other friend knows better than to get mixed up in other people's problems. "Maybe this is some kind of game or something…" He rubbed the back of his head and sat back down in his seat.
I sighed and looked back at them. Kyon's friend's attitude changed from before. In fact he went from being extremely energetic to looking completely awkward and looked uncomfortable. There was the occasional conversation between the group of three but they sounded forced and felt as if they were just dodging the conversation they really wanted to have. Neither of them had the nerve to ask about why Kyon was ignoring me. Either that, or they doubt he would give an actual response even if they had.
Lunch had ended a little while after that and class finished that day without incident. I quickly made my way out of the classroom before anyone even had the chance to start packing up. I wanted to leave that classroom as fast as I could. Being there only made my problem worse. My trip to the clubroom was short but sweet; I was able to calm myself down before entering the clubroom. "Hey everyone!" I shouted.
"Good afternoon, Ms. Suzumiya." Koizumi gave me his classic smile and placed a card on the table for his solitaire game. "How were your classes?"
I sighed, "Boring, like always." I walked over to the computer and set my bag to the side, "I've been trying to come up with some place for us to visit, but so far my search as come up dry!" I groaned and lied back in my chair.
Koizumi was quiet, "I see." My brow rose slightly, looking at him with slight interest.
"What's wrong…?" My voice hinted with a little concern.
"Oh! It's nothing Ms. Suzumiya, I was just thinking of what I could do in my game here. It's quite a puzzling game so far." He lifted his hands and shrugged his shoulders, showing me he was stumped.
I sighed and stared at the black computer screen. "Hey Yuki, what are you reading?" Her gaze left her book and met mine.
She lifted the book she was reading, it was call Hyperion or something. "Oh… Cool."
This was torture. It feels as if all of my energy is being sapped away from me. I feel like nothing excites me anymore! I'm reduced to asking my brigade members for what they're doing! Even the SOS brigade clubroom is starting to bore me!
I looked over to Mikuru who was serving her tea. I didn't even want to force her to change into a different outfit… Nothing felt interesting to me anymore. I was beginning to get bored of everything again. My search for the strange and supernatural didn't seem important to me anymore.
Nothing did.
I was about to succumb to my boredom and leave when something I never expected happened.
The door suddenly opened up and for a second, I thought it would just be a client. But instead, it was Kyon.
"Hey." He waved.
Wh-What is he doing here?! Did he come to rejoin? Or did my trip to his house yesterday do more than I thought?! Whatever the case, I had better act natural.
"Kyon! I didn't expect you to come back so soon!" I smirked and walked in front of the computer, "I guess you came back to rejoin, eh?" I put my hands on my hips, "I can't say I blame you, life outside of the SOS brigade can get pretty boring!"
He began to walk towards me.
"But that doesn't mean I'll just allow you to come back without any repercussions! Quitting the SOS brigade is a serious act!"
He was getting closer.
I gulped, "B-But we'll worry about that later! Let me be the first to welc—"
"Nagato." He walked right past me.
"…wha…?" I turned to see that Kyon was holding a book in his hand.
"Thanks a lot for letting me borrow this yesterday. It really came in handy today." He was smiling at her.
I stood there, completely frozen.
Yuki looked at him and took the book from his hands. "Don't mention it."
Koizumi quickly stood and walked over to Kyon, "Excuse me, Kyon. I need to talk to you for a second."
"Sorry, I've got some things I need to take care of at home! I just came by to drop off the book!" He was beginning to back up and made his way towards the door. "Ms. Asahina, you look great today!" He had opened the door and began to wave goodbye.
Koizumi made his way to the door, "Kyon, it's important that I speak with you—"
"Wait! Kyon!" I shouted, cutting off Koizumi.
He quickly walked out and shut the door behind him. His footsteps could faintly be heard until the sound was no longer there. My arm was extended towards the door.
So many things were flooding into my mind, all at one time. There were so many things I started realizing at this exact moment. But first, I needed to be alone.
"Ms. Suzumiya…?" Koizumi took a step towards me.
"Leave."
He stopped where he stood. "B-But—"
"You're all dismissed. Leave."
Koizumi looked over to Mikuru and to Yuki. They all nodded to each other and quickly left the room, Mikuru even left without changing, but she had grabbed her clothes before she left.
After the click of the door, I was alone. Almost immediately, I felt my knee's buckle and I could feel myself fall to my knees and then to the floor, catching myself from falling on my face. I stared at the ground.
He ignored me. He completely ignored me. He only came up here yesterday to get a book from Yuki and he came here today to return it. I was such an idiot. I actually thought Kyon was here to rejoin the SOS Brigade? How naive can I be?! How could I fool myself for even a second to think he would be coming back…?
It was then that I started realizing how much of a waste of time yesterday was. Sure, I got Kyon to see me telling his parents the truth. But where did that get me? Nowhere. I started to think how useless it would be for me to even try to fix things between us the way I had originally planned.
I can't fix this.
What am I supposed to do? I went to Kyon's yesterday and now his parents hate me. Can I blame them? Of course not! And how am I supposed to fix what happened on Tuesday?! Kyon and I are probably banned from ever going back there! The same thing goes for Thursday, his parents hate me! Because of my impulsive decision to go to his house yesterday, any chance I had to meet Kyon outside of school is gone!
Kyon hates me. Everyone in his family hates my entire being. There's nothing I can do to fix that. There's nothing I can think of to change that. And it's all, my fault. How am I supposed to fix things with Kyon when all he does is ignore me all day? And I can't just give up on him. There's just this feeling I'm having that is just so strong towards him. I don't think I've ever felt this way…
For a moment, I felt something well up inside me. All I felt was despair and I just wanted to let it all out. But I know that if I had done that now, I would have given up.
That's not something I do. Not now.
I pulled myself together and used the table as support to pull myself up. For a moment, I lost myself there. This isn't me. If there's something I want, I reach out and grab it! Just because things look a little bleak now, doesn't mean they'll stay that way! I may not have a plan right now, but I can't just give up! If I give up now, I'll lose Kyon forever. I don't want that. I don't even want to think about that…
Grabbing my bag, I quickly left the clubroom. I needed to go home and I needed to seriously start thinking of what I was going to do. Being here was only depressing me.
I quickly stopped and ran back into the clubroom; I grabbed a piece of paper and wrote "club is cancelled today" on it. I slapped it on the front door with a piece of tape for tomorrow. NOW I need to go home. I locked the door and began my walk home.
I've been going through weird phases today. No doubt this has to do with Kyon ignoring me, but I can't let it get to me now. I need to stay focused.
I need to get Kyon back.
Sorry if this one was a little short you guys, but thank you all for being patient with this next chapter! We're starting to reach the home stretch! Haruhi intends to get Kyon back THIS WEEK! I hope you'll all continue to read the story until the very end! If you've got any criticism please let me hear it!
