Hey guys! So I finally got to chapter 10! I am very happy that I shared my story with you. Don't get me wrong. The story isn't over it's just that 10 chapters was a milestone for me.

About this chapter- I am sorry that it is so dark and that I keep torturing Sydney but I just can't help it. Anyways I hope you like it and I promise the next chapters will be much brighter and happier. Be sure to review. I love reading what you thought about the chapter and I have to say it definitely motivates me.

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"Bite me…"-I was dying in less than 8 months. I didn't have anything to lose after all.

Chapter 10

"Sage you don't need to do this. I'm sorry I pushed you."

"I know you wouldn't hurt me plus you are right- it will make me feel better."

"Maybe you should sleep on it, make sure that's really what you want me to do. I don't want you to be sorry about this in the morning."-he was as nervous about this as I was.

"I trust you and I know I won't be regretting it. But right now I need you to do it because I don't feel very well."

"Ok but I want you to know I'll stop the moment you want me to. Don't be afraid to tell me to stop."

"Believe me , I know."

I removed my hair from my neck and waited to feel his teeth on my neck. He got very close to my neck and my pulse started racing. I felt his lips kissing me and then I felt his teeth piercing my skin. It was painful but I forgot about the pain in less than a second. The endorphins flooded into my blood and I could definitely say this was almost as good as sex. The experience was totally different from the one I had had with the strigoi. I did get the same feeling as the first time I had been bitten but this time was so much better. I was with Adrian and it wasn't against my will, it was with the man I loved. He took me in his arms and continued drinking from me. I hadn't gotten high before but I bet this was so much better. All the sudden he moved away from my neck and looked at my worriedly. I wasn't happy about that but I was so wasted that I couldn't even ask for more. I bet he could see it in my eyes all though I don't know if I was showing anything with them. I totally didn't know what I was doing.

"Syd , are you ok?"

"Mhm…"-I mumbled. That's all I could say.

I had forgotten all my problems. Even now I couldn't think of the reason I had told Adrian to bite me but I was so happy I did.

"Do you want some more because I'm all for it."-I didn't know if he could understand the words I was saying.

"I think that's enough… for a while."-he laughed. He laid me on the bed and I rested my head on his chest.

I couldn't measure the time but it felt like the next second he got out of the bed.

"I'm gonna go make you something to eat."

"You don't need…"-he didn't let me finish.

"Oh believe me – you do." –he got out of the room.

If I wasn't totally ok with this before now it was my second best thing to do. The first was being with Adrian. So this combined my two favorite things.

I really wanted to get some fresh air so I tried to get up. It took me awhile but the more I was moving the more I felt how much energy I actually had.

Adrian's POV

I made Sydney some toasts and went back in her room. I shouldn't have drunk from her so much. It's just that with her I always lost track of time and her blood was so sweet. I had done this before once with Rose but doing it with Sydney was so much better. I opened the door and the bed was empty. The place I immediately checked was the bathroom but she wasn't there. Then I turned and got back in the room and realized the balcony door was open. I ran outside and saw Sydney walking on the edge of the balcony.

"What the hell are you doing?"-I yelled and I immediately realized I shouldn't have done that because she was on the edge of a balcony and she could very easily fall just from being yelled at. She lost her balance for a second but didn't fall. My heart skipped a beat or a few. "Sydney , please come down."- I asked her very calmly although right now I was everything but calm.

"It's ok. I won't fall. And if I do you'll catch me, you always catch me."

"Syd please honey just let me take you down."

For a moment she stayed silent and then leaned on the outer side of the balcony. I ran and caught her right before she would've fallen. We both fell on the floor and she started crying.

"Why did you do that?"-she yelled. She tried to get out of my arms but I didn't let her. "I was going to be with my Adrian forever there.

"You still are going to be."-I tried to assure her and I think she kind of realized she wasn't herself.

"Oh my god are you ok?"-it was Jill and Eddie.

"How did you…"

"You're emotions were on the edge when she almost jumped. They woke me up."-she explained. "Oh my god Sydney what did you do?"-Sydney didn't say a word. She was just staring at the ground."Why was she out here? Why did she try to jump?"-she saw the answer for herself. She saw the mark on her neck."You drank from her? Adrian do you know how dangerous this is in her condition? And not only for her, you can get cancer just from drinking a drop of her blood."-I immediately gave her the answer in my head and let her see it. "Fine, but I still think it was stupid of you."

"I know but she was feeling sick and tired and I wanted to help her."-she saw that I was sorry for doing it and immediately regretted she yelled at me.

"Let's get her inside."-Jill said.

"I'll take her."-Eddie took her from my hands and got her inside her room. When I got inside she was already asleep and Jill was lying next to her. I decided to make some good for a difference and started taking from her room everything she could kill herself with. I didn't know if she tried to kill herself because of how high she was or if she had actually tried to kill herself and not just thought she could really fly. Anyway I wasn't taking a risk again.

Sydney's POV

I woke up and looked around. I was surprised to find Jill sleeping next to me and Adrian on the couch. Jill immediately woke up the moment I moved.

"Sydney, you're awake."

"Hi, Jill! Sorry for the question but why are you next to me on the bed and why is Adrian on the couch?"

"You don't remember?"-I actually remembered the whole accident.

"Oh believe me, I do."

"Are you sure? Do you remember the part where you almost jumped from the balcony?"

"I actually do and I wasn't trying to jump. I was trying to get down."

"Really?"-I could feel the doubt in her voice.

"Yes, I was up there because for a moment I really thought I was very near to the ground and nothing could happen to me but then I realized I was much higher than I had thought and tried to get down but I slipped and thank god Adrian caught me."

"So you're not mad at Adrian?"-she asked surprised.

"Why would I be mad? I made him drink from me. He didn't do it against my will."

"I know he didn't do it against your will but still."

"Really Jill , it was totally my fault."-I looked around and realized something was wrong."By the way what happened to my room?"

"Adrian felt very guilty and was very worried that you would try to kill yourself the moment you woke up so he took all the things you could kill yourself with he could find."

"And he thought I could kill myself with my alarm- clock?"

"Yeah that was kind of extreme. It's just that he was really worried and I was kind of hard on him."

"Please don't be."

"I won't, I realized I didn't have the right to blame him."

"By the way Jill I wanted to ask you something."-I tried to change the subject. I didn't really want to talk about last night because I really didn't try to kill myself.

"Shoot."

"Would you be my maid of honor?"

"Me?"

"Yeah you, who else? If it wasn't for you I wouldn't be here with Adrian right now."

"I guess you are right."-we laughed. Adrian moved but didn't wake up. We both looked at him. "He didn't sleep all night."

"So what do you say? Would you be my maid of honor?"-I asked again taking away her mind off of her guilt.

"Yes, of course! We are going to organize you two the most beautiful wedding in the world."-she screamed a little bit and this time Adrian woke up. He got up very quickly when he realized I had woken up.

"Hi!"-I said awkwardly.

"I am so sorry."

"You don't have anything to be sorry for. Really I wasn't myself for a moment."

"It was all my fault."-I explained to him what happened and I think he forgave himself or at least didn't feel as guilty as before.

We chilled for the rest of the day and decided on the guest list. The wedding was going to be small since we wanted for it to be intimate plus we didn't really know so many people.

I called Dimitri, Sonya and Amy and invited them over for dinner. Me and Jill made some lasagna while Eddie and Adrian set up the table. I heard the bell and went to open the door. They had climbed the stairs. I guess everything was a practice for dampires.

"Hey guys come on in."-I hugged them all and let them get in.

When we were ready we all sat down and started eating.

"So me and Adrian have some news."-I announced.

"Oh yeah? I hope this time they're good."-Sonya said with a smile.

"They are. We decided to get married."

"What? Congratulations!"-Sonya jumped from her seat and hugged me very tight. Dimitri also got up and gave a friendly hug to me and more importantly to Adrian. I was so happy that Adrian didn't have bad feelings for Dimitri anymore. "So what's the date of the wedding?"

"We don't know yet. We just know that it will be soon. Actually it really depends on when Lissa and Rose will be available.

"Actually yesterday I talked to Rose and she told me they were going to visit us next month."-Dimitri said.

"That's perfect."-I guess I was going to become Mrs. Ivashkov next month.

"So how is your research going?"-Adrian asked.

"Well we actually stopped it for a while. Right now we are trying to find as much information as possible for the healing which is kind of part of the spirit so I guess we haven' t exactly stopped working on it. We are just taking a different direction and we found some helpful information."

"Oh yeah? What did you find?"-he asked curiously.

"Well I read that not only do we need three moroi that control the spirit but also one of them is supposed to lead the whole process, you know like pushing in the right direction but that person will be using more energy than the others and it may be dangerous."

"I'll do it."-Adrian immediately responded. I didn't even want to argue with him and didn't say anything.

"The good thing I found about this ritual is that we can fill objects with our power which can protect you about 90% so it will be pretty safe."

Jill realized I was uncomfortable with this conversation and changed the subject."So we were thinking beach wedding. Sonya is that ok with you all though it probably won't be earlier than 5 pm but still it can be pretty hot."

"Oh sure that's fine with me. I'm used to the high temperatures so it won't be a problem. Oh, Sydney you are starting chemotherapy next week ,right?"

"Yes , I am."

"If you want me I can come with you. I mean I am sure that the others will want to come but if you want some company I'm free."

"Sure, that would be great."-I knew that if she came she would try to convince me to agree to be healed. The scarier part was that I was kind of starting to think about it. I mean they would probably be just fine. Stop it Sydney. You are so selfish. You don't have the right to risk other people's lives.

"Who wants desert?"-I asked and with that we all continued the rest of the evening with more random conversations about the wedding and about our plans but I couldn't stop thinking about what I should do- allow my friends to heal me and risk their lives or to have less than 8 months with them and then disappear forever.