No Regrets, Just Love Chapter 10, a glee fanfic

Hello, my dear readers :3 The songs I used for this chapter are Aftermath by Adam Lambert, Broken Wings by Flyleaf and Fall To Pieces by Avril Lavigne. Enjoy!

Amanda didn't understand. As she walked down the hallway, the other students looked at her with jeer, pity, and some of them even with disgust. The girl kept walking, looking down to avoid the gazes of the people. She got to a very crowded hallway. Boys and girls were looking at something on the big board that was hanging on the wall, and Amanda walked towards them to see the object of their curiosity. As she passed next to then, the students stood aside, like she was part of the royalty or something. Finally, Amanda got to the board.

The girl almost fell on her knees when she saw it. It was a picture of her, performing at Sectionals. You could clearly see her wrists and the red marks on them. Underneath, there was a small title: "The emo queen of the Glee Club."

Amanda felt all the judging looks on her. Her vision clouded with the tears forming in her eyes, which soon fell down her cheeks. The girl turned around and ran away. Who could have done such a thing? It was so cruel… Amanda bumped into someone.

"Hey, Morticia, be careful!" Sue said, but then she noticed that the girl was crying "Are you okay?"

Amanda shook her head and covered her face with her hands. Sue put an arm around her shoulder.

"Come with me." the coach said, leading her somewhere.

The girl couldn't see where they were taking her, but she didn't even care. Sue kept her arm secured around her, and it made her feel protected. She heard someone knocking a door.

"Sue?" Emma said, opening the door of her office "What happened?"

Then, she noticed the crying girl next to Sue. Without a word, she took her hand and made her enter her office. Sue stepped inside too. Emma helped Amanda to a nearby chair and gave her a glass of water. While the girl drank, the woman rubbed her back comfortingly.

"What happened?" Emma asked.

"I don't know. She bumped into me and she was crying, so I brought her here."

"Amanda, can you tell me what happened?" Emma asked in a soft voice. But the only answer she got was Amanda's loud sobs.

Suddenly, Steven entered the office without knocking. Sue and Emma looked at him, surprised.

"Amanda." he said.

When the girl saw him, she stood up and ran into his arms, weeping. Steven wrapped his arms around her and let her cry into his shoulder. Emma shot him an interrogation look, but he shook his head subtly. He would explain later. Right now, comforting Amanda was the most important thing.

Elizabeth ripped the poster from the board and turned to look at the students that were standing there. She was furious.

"Who did this?" she hissed, holding the paper in her hand. No one answered "Who the hell did this?" the girl asked again, louder than before. Some people flinched.

"Lizzie, calm down…" Lucy said.

"Do you think it's funny?" Elizabeth exclaimed, ignoring her friend. She crumpled the paper and threw it on the floor "Who did this poster?"

"I… I know who did it." a small freshman girl said, stepping forward "Ted Nichols did it."

Elizabeth ran down the hallway, followed by Lucy, David, Hannah and Anna. The girl found the person she was looking for, standing in front of his locker. She grabbed him by the neck of his shirt and slammed his body against the lockers.

"Why did you make those posters?" she asked to the terrified boy, whose big, thick glasses were about to fall.

"They… they told me to…" he choked out.

"Who?"

"The jocks. I didn't want to do it, I swear." Ted Nichols said, shaking under Elizabeth's grip "They told me that they would beat the shit out of me if I didn't… I'm sorry, please don't hurt me…"

Elizabeth let go of him, and the boy ran away. Before her friends could say anything, she started to walk to the opposite way.

"Where are you going?" David asked, following her.

"To find those jocks and beat them to death."

"I'll come with you. I've wanted to do that for a long time…" Lucy said, and everyone nodded.

The kept walking down the hallway, but they stopped when they saw Steven and Amanda walking towards them. He had an arm around her shoulder, and she looked paler that usual. Elizabeth was the first one to run to their encounter.

"Is she okay?" she asked, whispering.

"She's been crying for a while." Steven answered, whispering too "Ms. Pillsbury called her parents, they'll pick her up in an hour or so."

Elizabeth looked at Amanda. Her eyes were fixed on the floor, and her hair was falling over them. The girl had one hand in her pocket, and the other one was secured by Steven's hand. The boy was drawing circles on the back of her hand with his thumb. Amanda looked so fragile that Elizabeth felt like hugging her. So she did. Amanda relaxed in Elizabeth's arms.

"It's okay." Elizabeth whispered.

"Can we… can we go to the choir room?"Amanda asked, and Elizabeth could hear the tears in her voice.

Elizabeth nodded. She knew why Amanda wanted to go to the choir room. For the kids, it was like a safe sanctuary. No one would bother them there. They could go there during recess and have some time alone if they needed it, or they could go during the Glee Club lessons and be with the other kids. The choir room was the only place in school where they could do and be anything they wanted, and no one would criticize them for that. There, they could sing out loud, and instead of laughter and sneers, they would find reassuring smiles and standing ovations. For them, the underdogs of McKinley High, the choir room was the most wonderful place they could think of.

When they entered the choir room, everyone was already there, even Alma. As soon as Amanda stepped inside, holding Steven's hand, and followed by Elizabeth and the ones who were with her in the hallway, they stood up with worried looks on their faces. No one said anything, they just looked at Amanda, expecting her to do or say something. Instead, the girl broke out crying again. Not even a second has passed before she felt everyone surrounding her, hugging her, comforting her.

"We're here." Steven said, placing a strand of hair behind her ear "You're not alone, we're here."

Amanda nodded, but the tears kept falling down her cheeks. Only this time, she felt so protected and secured that she didn't feel embarrassed about crying. She knew they understood.

"That's so cruel!" Adam exclaimed.

"I know! She felt better when she left, but she still looked so sad…" Barbra said.

She had just told him about the incident with Amanda. Adam loved to hear everything that happened at McKinley, especially the stories about New Directions. And now that he was confined to a hospital bed, having Elizabeth and Barbra telling him everything that happened to them at school was the best part of the day, given that nothing interesting happened to him.

"I want to leave this freaking place!" Adam exclaimed "It was just a stupid concussion!"

"Adam, you were in coma for a week."

"I know, but I feel better now!"

"It's good to hear that." Adam's doctor said, entering the room.

"Dr. Walker, I want to leave!" Adam said, sounding like a little kid. Barbra rolled her eyes.

"I'm here to talk about that." Dr. Walker, a tall woman with long, blonde hair said. She smiled at him "We have to run some final tests, and if everything turns out okay, you'll be free to go."

The huge grin that spread across Adam's face could outshine the sun. He turned to look at Barbra.

"Did you hear that?"

"Yes, I did." Barbra said, taking his hand.

Then, Kurt, Blaine and Elizabeth stepped inside.

"Lizzie, dad, papa!" Adam exclaimed "The doctor said that they have to run some tests, and then I will be able to go home!"

"That's great!" Blaine said.

"You act like a little kid sometimes." Elizabeth said, sitting on the bed next to her brother "It's kind of adorable."

Adam flashed her a huge grin, and she chuckled.

"Where are mom and dad?" Barbra asked.

"In the cafeteria. Finn was hungry." Blaine explained.

"I thought that Finn's insatiable appetite would decrease over time, but it didn't." Kurt said.

"I have a theory that a very hungry monster lives inside Finn's stomach." Blaine said.

"Hey!" Finn said, coming in through the door with a huge sandwich in his hand.

"I'm sure that feeding a whole country would be cheaper than feeding Finn." Rachel joked, stepping inside after her husband.

Everyone laughed at her joke, even Finn.

The girl lowered her head as she walked down the hallway. She didn't want anyone to see her. She just wanted to disappear. That way, she wouldn't have to face the humiliation and the judging looks of everyone.

Amanda felt someone grabbing her hand, and she jumped, startled. But when she saw it was Steven, smiling warmly at her, she relaxed. They kept walking down the hallway. This way, walking side by side with him, it was easier to keep her head high.

"How are you feeling?" Steven asked.

"Better."

"Good."

Amanda looked at him, and he met her eyes.

"I thought you were mad at me." the girl said.

"Well, not really. I was frustrated." Steven said, shrugging "Anyway, right now you need someone by your side. I won't let you face this alone."

Amanda couldn't believe it. How could the boy be so good?

"Steven, where are we going?" she asked, when she noticed he was taking her away from the biology classroom, where they were supposed to be.

"You'll see."

They got to the auditorium, and Steven opened the door. As they approached the stage, walking among the seats, Amanda could see that all the kids were standing there, wearing white clothes.

"What's going on?" Amanda asked.

"You're not alone, Amanda." Sam said "We're here for you."

"We want to show you that you can count on us." Barbra added, and everyone nodded.

Amanda wanted to say something, but she couldn't find the right words. Steven smiled at her.

"When you first joined the Glee Club, I told you that we were like a big family." he said "Well, I wasn't lying. This is our way to show you that, no matter what, we got your back."

As soon as Steven climbed on the stage, the music started. Looking straight into Amanda's eyes, the boy started to sing.

Have you lost your way?
Living in the shadow of the messes that you made
And so it goes
Everything inside your circle starts to overflow

Elizabeth stepped forward and sang, looking at her too.

Take a step before you leap
Into the colors that you seek
You'll get back what you give away
So don't look back on yesterday

All of them sang the chorus together. Amanda couldn't believe it. They were singing for her, only for her.

Wanna scream out
No more hiding
Don't be afraid of what's inside
Gonna tell you you'll be alright
In the Aftermath
Anytime anybody pulls you down
Anytime anybody says you're not allowed
Just remember you are not alone
In the Aftermath

While he sang, Steven kneeled down in front of her and held out his hand for her to take it. With his help, Amanda climbed on the stage, and looked into the boy's eyes.

You feel the weight
Of lies and contradictions that you live with every day
It's not too late
Think of what could be if you rewrite the role you play

Elizabeth placed her hands on her shoulders, singing. Amanda looked at her, her eyes shining with unshed tears.

Take a step before you leap
Into the colors that you seek
You give back what you give away
So don't look back on yesterday

As she sang the chorus with her friends, Amanda let the tears fall.

Steven took her hand and sang to her, wiping a tear from her cheek.

Before you break you have to shed your armor
Take a trip and fall into the glitter
Tell a stranger that they're beautiful

Everyone sang the next lines together, holding hands.

So all you feel is love, love
All you feel is love, love

While Steven sang, Amanda wiped away all her tears.

Wanna scream out
No more hiding
Don't be afraid of what's inside
Wanna tell you you'll be alright

Once again, all of the kids sang together.

In the Aftermath
Wanna scream out
No more hiding
Don't be afraid of what's inside
Gonna tell you you'll be alright
In the Aftermath

Steven's eyes didn't leave Amanda's, and their hands remained linked during the rest of the song.

Anytime anybody pulls you down
Anytime anybody says you're not allowed
Just remember you are not alone
In the Aftermath
In the Aftermath

While the kids sang the final lines, Alma watched them from the door, smiling.

Gonna tell you you'll be alright
In the Aftermath
In the Aftermath
Just remember you are not alone
In the Aftermath

When they finished, Amanda smiled broadly at them. It was the first time she smiled since the problem with the posters.

"Thank you." she said "You're amazing, guys."

They smiled warmly at her.

"Group hug?" Amanda suggested with a smile.

Alma smiled from the door, watching them as they hugged, laughing.

Elizabeth's eyes kept darting to the wavy haired girl sitting in front of her. This didn't escape Barbra, who was sitting next to her cousin.

"When are you going to stop being so stubborn and apologize?" she asked to Elizabeth.

"Excuse me? I'm not the one who should apologize."

"Yes, you should. After all, you started the fight, and now you can't live without her."

"Yes, I can."

"No, you can't. You're in misery. You both are." Barbra said, trying not to laugh.

"Shut up, Barbra, you don't know anything." Elizabeth said, scowling.

"I just know that you and your girlfriend are the most stiff-necked pair I've ever seen."

"Well, you and Adam are not far behind."

"What is that supposed to mean?"

Elizabeth didn't answer. She pretended that she was listening to the teacher, but in reality, she was thinking about Sam. Maybe Barbra was right, and she should apologize to her. After all, she really missed her… But her pride didn't let her do it.

Sam turned to look at her. Both girls were surprised when their eyes met, and they looked away quickly.

Sue was reading the newspaper at the teacher's lounge when Alma sat in front of her. The coach raised her eyebrows, surprised.

"Can I help you, Adele?" she asked.

"Amanda told me that you helped her the other day." Alma said.

"Morticia? Well, she was crying, what did you expect me to do?"

"Actually, I would expect you to make a cruel joke and walk away. Since you hate the Glee Club and all his members, and you're the cruelest person I know, that would make sense."

Sue put the newspaper down and looked at Alma. She was right. Under normal circumstances, Sue would have done that. Actually, when she thought about it, she was surprised about her actions.

"Do you know why I like Little Porcelain so much?" Sue said.

"Um, no, why?" Alma asked, surprised by the sudden question.

"Once I met a boy. He was one of the bravest kids I've ever seen. This boy had to deal with a lot of bullying for being who he was, and not being afraid of showing it. But despite all of the abuse he received, he never broke down or let them bring him down. He always walked down the hallway in those ridiculous outfits, giving them his best bitch glare. And he always kept his head held high."

Alma didn't understand what that had to do with anything, but she listened anyway. After all, having a decent conversation with Sue Sylvester was a chance in a million.

"Being different is not easy, Alma." Sue continued. Alma was surprised that Sue had called her by her real name "It takes somebody very brave to keep being who you are after being judged and hated your whole life. And this boy did it. Do you know what his name was?" Alma shook her head, and Sue smiled "Kurt Hummel."

"Elizabeth's father." Alma thought. So that was the reason Sue was so fond of Elizabeth. She was fond of her father too.

"But, what does this have to do with Amanda?" Alma asked.

"This girl, just like Little Porcelain and her father, is being bullied for being different. And you know what? I can't stand it. I'm the only one who can make fun of the Glee Club losers." Sue stated "And when I saw her crying, I knew it was about those stupid posters some dickhead had made. It wasn't fair. I wanted to find that asshole, and kill him. But more importantly, Morticia needed my help." Sue leaned forward and said: "I can be mean, but I'm not heartless."

Alma couldn't be more surprised. She didn't expect that from Sue. It was like she had been abducted by aliens and replaced by a failed copy.

"Ugh, I said too many good things." Sue said, standing up "Now I have to rinse my mouth with sulfuric acid."

Sue left, leaving behind a very confused Alma. Had Sue really said all those things, or it had been just a dream?

"Surprising, isn't it?" William said, sitting next to his daughter.

"Did you listen to the whole conversation?" Alma asked. The principal nodded "Wow, I can't believe that she said all those things… I mean, it made me think that maybe, hidden in a very deep place of her chest, she has a heart."

"Sue can be the most horrible person you have ever met." William said "But it's at times like this, when you realize who the real Sue is."

William smiled and Alma looked at her hands thoughtfully. Maybe Sue wasn't that bad after all…

"Where's Amanda?" Alma asked, looking around.

"Here." she said, stepping inside the choir room.

Everyone turned to look at her, surprised. For the first time, her wrists weren't covered, and they could see the red scars shining against her white skin. Amanda was wearing a big smile, and she didn't look uncomfortable at all.

"Amanda…" Steven said, more surprised than anyone.

"It feels good, you know." The girl said, tugging at her sleeveless shirt "I'm not suffocating anymore."

Her friends were still shocked. Amanda laughed at their faces.

"It was easier than I thought, coming to school like this."

"And why did you decided to… show your scars?" Anna asked.

"Well… I talked to my parents about it, and they sent me with a psychologist. She made me realize that I shouldn't be embarrassed about these scars." Amanda explained, showing the red marks "But I won't cut myself anymore. It's not good, for me and for the people that cares about me." she smiled at them "You guys helped me a lot. You gave me courage to show myself as I am. And I want to thank you for that."

Amanda told something to the band. They nodded and started to play. The girl smiled at her friends and began to sing, her voice pure and sweet.

Thank you for being such a friend to me

Oh I pray a friend for life,

And have I ever told you how much you mean to me?

Oh, you're everything to me

She smiled softly and kept singing, looking at each and every one of the people sitting in front of her.

I'm thinking all the time how to tell you what I feel,

I'm contemplating phrases

I'm gazing at eternity,

I am floating in serenity

Amanda extended her arms, and they could see their scars clearly. They were healing. Just like her.

And I am so lost for words

And I am so overwhelmed

Her voice was so beautiful that anyone could think it was an angel singing. That's what Steven thought.

Please don't leave just yet

Can you stay a moment please?

We can dance together

We can dance forever

She smiled broadly, closing her eyes and pouring her whole heart into the song.

Under your stars tonight

We'll live and breathe this dream

The change in Amanda was obvious. She looked so serene and happy… For the first time, she was exposing herself to the world as she was, without fabric to cover her up or lies to hide the truth from the rest. Now, it was just her, singing a song to her friends.

So close your eyes, but don't dream too deep

And please pass me some memories

And when I fall you're underneath

A thousand broken hearts, carried by a thousand broken wings

A thousand broken wings

Amanda finished the song with the same smile she had at the beginning. She sighed and looked at them.

"Thanks, guys. For everything."

"Group hug?" Alma suggested, and everyone laughed.

"Group hug." Amanda confirmed, and everyone stood up to hug her.

Sam squeaked when someone grabbed the back of her shirt and pulled her back inside the choir room.

"Lizzie?" she asked when she saw the girl standing there, red as a tomato.

"Sit down and listen to me." Elizabeth said, pointing at a chair.

Sam obliged. Elizabeth looked at her and sighed.

"I'm not good at apologies." she started "Most of the time, I'm too proud to admit that I made a mistake. But this time, I will. Because you're important to me, Sam, and I won't let my pride get between us."

Sam raised her eyebrows, surprised. It was weird that her girlfriend apologized, but it was nice. She smiled.

"Okay." Sam said.

"And since a simple apology doesn't seem enough, I prepared a song." Elizabeth said.

As Elizabeth connected her iPod to the speakers and selected the song, Sam smiled again. So typical of her, to sing when she had trouble with expressing her feelings. Sam loved that about her.

Elizabeth turned around and looked at her when the music started. She began to sing, looking into Sam's eyes.

I looked away, then I look back at you
You try to say the things that you can't undo
If I had my way, I'd never get over you
Today's the day I pray that we make it through

Sam smiled at Elizabeth, and she smiled back at her, singing.

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

Elizabeth shook her head, singing the chorus without taking her eyes from her girlfriend.

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

Elizabeth sat next to Sam and took her hand.

You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

The intensity of Elizabeth's gaze could have melted a metal bar. But her eyes were gentle and soft, as she tried to communicate her feelings to Sam with both her voice and her eyes.

The girls pressed their foreheads together while Elizabeth sang.

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything

Elizabeth stood up and so did Sam.

She took both of her hands, singing the chorus again.

Sam could hear Elizabeth's feelings with every word she said, their gazes melted together, blue and brown.

I'm in love with you
Cuz I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

"I'm sorry." Elizabeth said, biting her lip.

"I'm sorry too. We both acted like idiots."

Elizabeth smiled and Sam kissed her.

Fluffy ending :D Please leave a review :3