The stupid sun was shining in my room and I had to get up early (not as early as yesterday) for a captains meeting. I didn't bother to brush my bed head hair or smooth out the wrinkles in my uniform. Captains meetings were such a bother. Why couldn't they just use hell butterflies?

I stepped through the meeting hall doors and saw the Sou-Taicho and Unohana-taicho standing in their places. While I took my place, many other taichos shunpoed to their places. Its been only a couple of minutes and I was bored to death. "Captain meetings are torture, Kurohime-chan! Maybe we should send our prisoners to one of them and see how they like to hear the Sou-taicho rant on and on about minor affairs," Youruichi-sama said once to me. I chuckled lightly at the memory and stopped when the Sou-taicho slammed his cane to the floor.

"I call this meeting here to order. There have been reports of hollow activity in the northern distict of Rukongai and the Southern district of the Seireitei. Captain Hinamoto, I believe that you have fought them just yesterday. Wht do you make of this?"

My whole body stiffened when the Sou-taicho and the rest of the captains looked at me. "Uhhh, I am very sure that it might a disturbance, but I'll take full responsibility to send out my units to examine this, Sou-taicho." The sou-taocho nodded and said "Very well, you may go and-" The emergency alarm blared and a voice that can be heard throughout the soul society cried "Hollows rampaging the northwest quadrent of Rukongai. I repeat, hollow rampaging through northwest district of Rikongai.!"

The Sou-taicho looked a me and nodded. I tossed away my haori and left the room so fast that a smoke image of me was probably left behind. The hollows there were incredibly weak and were of no trouble, but the huge hollows were a pain in the ass. Like yesterday, their numbers didn't decline but increased more. Suddenly an echoing roar sounded throughout the hollows from above. I looked up and was frozen to the ground I was standing on.

Damn it, Menos Grande! But how, I thought. Charging at full force, I slaughtered countless number of hollows before a menos approached me. I jammed my fist into it face and filled it my reiatsu which blew it up. When I was watching the one I killed dissolve, a group of menos grande formed a circle around me and opened their jaws. The density in the air was suffocating as a red light appeared in their mouths.

I barely got away as they fired their ceros at each other and killed themselves. The garanta in the sky was growing in size and if I didn't do anything about it more would come out. I decided that I would save Shirobarakaze for closing the garanta. So I quickly zoomed out of my body . . .

***

Toshiro filed out with the other captains when the Sou-taicho dimissed them. Hinamoto was such a showoff sometimes. When she had left, she threw away her haori and it landed on Ukitake-taicho with the added plus that she left black scorch marks on the polished floor of the meeting hall. As soon as his foot stepped out the door a tremendous amount of reiatsu coursed throughout his frame and almost sent him back into the meeting hall again.

"That must be some battle between Hinamoto-taicho and the hollows, boy."

Hitsuguya nodded and continued to walk back to his barracks. The reiatsu didn't decline but went up more. He could feel Hinamoto's reiatsu spike up with frustration and fury and the hollows would roar in defiance over the distance. Then a monstrous wave of reiatsu spread throughout the Seireitei, this time snapping a tree in half that was just above him.

"I think this has gone long enough. Shouldn't you be going over there to help her?"

He sighed and took off, careful to avoid towering structures that could fall on him. When he arrived he could see Kurohime glowing with a poisonous red and her eyes turning to a molten silverish-redish color. The menos that had been preparing to fire a cero at her glowed with same violent reiatsu. They contorted with both pain and defiance. She turned around to the hollows and him and opened her her mouth. Then her purple lips whispered the word "kill."

The hollows' movement at first hesitated, then with blinding speed a menos fired a cero at another menos and instantly killed itself. It rained blood and and various body parts of hollows, but Toshiro silently watched in disbelief as hollows killed each other. When he looked over at Kurohime, he could see an wicked smile spread across her blood-splattered face.

The smile didn't falter as a hollow ran its spiked tail through Kurohime's right shoulder and her blood dripped slowly off her arm. The she slowly drew her zanpaktou and threw it high in the air. "Sashi Muko, Shirobarakaze." The katana shattered into pieces and rained its shards around her. A blast of wind then surrounded her like a mini tornado. "Izayoi Gekko." Her wounded arm was lifted up and it was directed at the huge garanta looming over them both, then a concentrated blast of wind hit the hole with full force. He watched with silent awe as the garanta closed with a loud boom, thus severing the menos that were trying to get through.

When Shirobarakaze returned to its sealed form, her eyes reverted back to their oringinal color. Then those wine colored orbs widened at the sight of him. "Toshiro."

***

I returned to my body as soon as the garanta was closed. A wave of pain coursed through my body, but I didn't care. My whole body stiffened and I was suddenly disgusted with myself and my lack of control. I could see it in his eyes too. The familiar look of shock and disgust was in there and I couldn't blame him. "Toshiro," I whispered. But he turned around and shunpoed away.

I realized that I had lost the only friend that had cared about me. My old memories drowned me in my thoughts and I wanted to drown for real. The only chance for me to fit in with other people was gone. I quietly shunpoed back to Squad 4 barracks to have my right arm bandaged and to check on Soi Fon.

It was a painful process because Kotesu-fukutaicho poured half a bottle of iodine onto my arm, but all I could think about was the look on Toshiro's face as he departed. Then I followed a nurse to a room at the end of the hall. I went in and sat down in a chair near Soi Fon's bed. She looked so peaceful and I suddenly had an urge to go to sleep.

I walked back to Squad 2. "Hinamoto-taicho, you came back," said a guardsman. "Of course she'd come back, you idiot. She's a captain" said another. I just gave them a small smile and ask them if anyone was looking for me, tell them to come back later. They nodded and I went back into my room to take a shower, then I went to sleep.

***

Toshiro was still in disbelief when he was back in his office doing paperwork. He was torn between his conflicting emotions. The one that accepted Hinamoto as a comrade and the one that branded her as a blood-thirsty monster. Then his mind pulled him back to the memory of the happy Kurohime giving him a carefree laugh and the one of the merciless demon that had smiled even when blood was being spilled.

"Master, why don't you visit her to see if she is okay?"

Toshiro thought about this and was about to back down from the suggestion. After a while, he gave in and shunpoed to Squad 2. The guards stationed in front of the barrack doors blocked his entrance. "Hitsuguya-taicho of squad 10 here to see Hinamoto-taicho!" One guard looked uneasily at the other one and both shook their heads. "Hinamoto-taicho is currently treating her wound and would like no contact until she is well."

"Looks like she doesn't want to see you right now."

Hitsuguya frowned and proceeded to walk through the doors. The spears let up hesitantly and when he was further away from the door he could hear frantic whispers of "we can't refuse a captain" and "Hinamoto-taicho will not be happy about this".

He walked to her office and found no one there. After wandering to other places that Hinamoto-san was likely to be, he went directly to her room. He tried to approach her with small talk. "Hime-san, are you okay? Matsumoto was pretty worried." No answer. He tried again only to end with the same results. A vein threaten to pop, but he suppressed his growing annoyance and just barged in.

There he found a sleeping Kurohime lying in a futon on the floor. When he came closer he saw her robe torn on her right shoulder, exposing her bandaged arm. He couldn't help but gawk at the figure next to him. Her hair was splattered across her pillow and her mouth was opened slightly. He turned to leave, but one word stopped him. "Mother."

Toshiro whirled around to find Hinamoto-san crouched into a ball and trembling slightly. "Hey, Hime-san. Wake up." He shook her but her small frame shook harder. "Onee-chan! Mother! Maybel! Who would do this to you?" Tears threatened to spill from her eyes and she was pulling herself tighter and tighter together. "I swear that I would kill the ones who did this! I would kill their families before their eyes before killing them! Then they'll see what they put me through."

She turned on her wounded shoulder which caused the cut to reopen and spill blood over her pristine white covers. Toshiro tried to pick her up and lay her on the floor but she was racked with sobs. "Miss Saihete, no. Stop you fiends! It's me you wanted, right? Put her down and take me instead. Don't hurt her, please don't hurt her."She clung to Toshiro's haori and the current of tears was spilling onto his jacket. "Help me, mother! I'm scared. I'm sorry I was not as brave as you. I just don't want to see anymore blood spill." Then she buried herself in his chest and sobbed harder.

"No more blood, please. I can't take this any longer." Her eyes snapped open, but they were never the purple-red eyes he expected, but the silverish-red. It was disturbing to see tears flowing from those eyes. They seem to rip apart his soul to reveal the most horrible moments a person has. "Kurohime-chan, wake up." Suddenly a force pulled Tosiro from his world to another. He could see a woman with a katana through her chest that had piereced through the bloodied wall, a girl and another woman next to him that stared at the world with dull, lifeless eyes, an angry mob brandishing weapons with blood dripping off of them. An entire town reduced to rubble with a single girl standing above the corpses of the townspeople. He felt all the emotions that were once someone else's pour through him. All the sorrow, disgust, and pent up rage felt like it was his and his alone.

"Master, feed you reiatsu into hers and wait."

He ws still shaken, but he let his reiatsu pour into her and the silver dissolved to reveal dull wine colored eyes that were replaced by sharp all-knowing look that he was so familiar with. "Hitsuguya-taicho, what are you doing here?" He looked at her. She was biting her lip and there were tear streaks that ruined her pale but reddening face. That multiplied when she realized she was still holding his collar, exposing most of his muscular chest. "I'm sorry, Hitsuguya-taicho. I can assure you that nothing was going through my mind if I did that intenti-"

She cut off and bowed her head to him. Toshiro stood up and straightened his robe. She tried to stand up also but collasped at the pain that seemed to torture her with every second. "I better go to Unohana-taicho and change my bandages. Excu-" Toshiro knelt down next to her and reached into his robes. He pulled out a roll of bandages. "Hitsuguya-taicho, you don't need to go through all that trouble, please." But he didn't listen and started to unravel her bandages. She stopped spluttering and just sat through it.

"Why did you come back, Taicho. Aren't you frightened at all?" Toshiro looked at her. She had her head facing the ground although he could see traces of red on her face. "You saw everything, didn't you? The power that brands me as a monster." Her head hung even closer to the ground like she was begging for forgivness. She winced and Toshiro replaced using his hand to only his fingertips. She looked up and he smiled at her which caused her to blush and return it. "By the way, you should stop using your right hand for everything, especially for hitting hollows."

***

After my little rant, I sat there while Toshiro finshed up. His hands were cool and warm at the same time which was a puzzle to me since other people said my skin was ice cold. When he was finished, he tossed the used bandages in the waste basket. "Now, shall we go get some dinner, Hinamoto-taicho." I froze and cautiously said "Where . . .?" "I don't know, where would you like to go, Hime-san?" I got up and walked out the door. "Follow me."

We stopped at a restruant and walked in. Being the person I was, I got a table in the back because my experience in the Omeitskidos had rendered me as paranoid. A waitress walked to our table and asked what we wanted. I said a bowl of miso noodles while Toshiro ordered red bean. I was through my sixth bowl when Toshiro said "I have no idea how you could eat that much and not get fat." I stopped in mid-slurp. "For your information, I happen to have a slim frame. My guess about you is that since you're still on your first bowl is that you're on a diet, are you fatty?" He stopped poking at his half eaten bowl of noodles and gave me a huge smirk. " You should be on a diet. I don't know if that "slim frame" would hold forever."

"Hahahaha, very clever, mister I'm-on-a-diet-and-won't-admit-it. You felt like a bag of bicks wrapped in skin when I-" Toshiro was paying full attention to me now. "When I what, Hime-san?" I quickly buried my face in my bowl as a hope of distracting him, but the kid was on something. "I get it now, Hime-san. Did you like what you felt?"

Shirobara was gasping for air and probaly on the verge of passing out. I hated that he got me, but a quick glimpse of yesterday flashed in my mind and I flashed a triumphant grin. "What about yesterday, Hitsuguya-taicho? You seemed to have enjoyed the view that caught you eye when I fell . . . if you know what I'm talking about."

Shirobara was deperately trying not to laugh but it came out as snorts and Toshiro's face was bright enough to be counted as a christmas light. "That was yesterday . . . never mind." If Shirobara didn't stop laughing now, she'd be in a loony house. "Ahhh, you did like it, you perv." I was trying to keep on a straight face and so did Toshiro. I was on the point of hysterical laughter when I saw a small trickle of blood run down his nose. He turned around and wiped his face. "Check, please."

I paid for my bowls even though Toshiro volunteered that he would. It was night already and there were only drunks on the road. One drunk that turned out to be Matsumoto came up to me and said, "Taicho *hic* I-I didn't know you were going out with Hime-taicho. Good f-for you." Then she turned to and whispered "You picked a *hic* good one. Be nice to him." Then she passed out on the road and we stepped over her even though I wanted to pick her up and take her to Squad 4.

It was awkward during the walk back, so Toshiro used it chance to tease me. "Your face was redder then mine back at the restraunt. Are you sure that you didn't like it because it seems your zapaktou spoke with mine. She didn't stop laughing one bit, though. She also shared with me and Hyorinmaru your exact thoughts when your little hug dawned on you. Oh well, fatty."

I reminded myself to kill Shirobara. After he walked me back to my squad he said goodnight. But I noticed the stupid triumphant smirk he wore on his stupid face.

Reviews. I was real stressed so if any errors then tell me