Title: Over the Grief
Author: Daisy
Rating: T
Pairing: Danny/Lindsay
Content Warning: Drama/Romance
Summary: Set in season 4- Danny and Lindsay are trying to figure out their relationship. Can they get over the past hurt and move on?

A/N 1: Hi, everyone! Many apologies for the extremely late update. I meant to post this earlier, but to be totally honest I just didn't have the energy, because my life was too hectic last year. But finally I settled down to relax after my twin boys graduated from high school in March and moved to Tokyo so that they could start their new lives and ventures at college. Anyway, I have decided to end this story, even though I don't know if there is someone who still is interested in this story.

Thank you so much to everyone who read the ninth chapter or set up story/author alerts! I'm so happy that so many people read my story and for that I cannot thank you enough. I'm also grateful for every single comment you left to let me know what you think of it. Huge thank you to those who left sweet and favorable reviews for me!; MesserFamilyFan100, Csifan326, maggie, RandomTVFan30, Y. Furu, Brinchen86, afrozenheart412, Reese. I would like to offer you guys huge hugs. And special thanks to Y. Furu and Reese, who kicked my ass to write and post the last chapter! :D

Here is the last chapter for you. I'm pretty sure there are a bunch of spelling and grammatical errors. All mistakes are mine. I hope you like and enjoy this even just a little.

-Over the Grief-

・Chapter 10・

Not a single day passed but Danny and Lindsay spent time together - even if it was only a little. They couldn't just be separated from each other. They didn't care even if they just sat on the couch, cooked together in each other's apartment, or took a short stroll in Central Park due to their tight working schedule. What mattered was that they were together. When they had days off though, he took her out on a date to various places he thought she would be pleased. For both of them, however, it was no longer just a time for having fun. Far from it, it was a time for enhancing and deepening their understanding and love for each other. They both wished for deeper and more profound understanding, trust and love.

Looking back their relationship before Ruben died, they found it had been fragile and, as it were, a cushion full of seams coming apart easily and with the boy's death as a trigger, their relationship had come very close to unravel at the seams completely. Now that he had experienced the fear of losing Lindsay once, Danny didn't ever want to go through that fear again. He wouldn't absolutely be the cause that would break her heart again. For that, true to his promise, Danny didn't have any hesitation to show Lindsay his heart, body and soul was only hers by opening up completely to her, sharing every little thing with her, which opened his eyes to a lot of stuff that he'd been blind to before then. They spent talking about anything they could have missed during the time they spent apart, let alone about their childhood, their family, their lives before they met and as a result of that, they learned about the internal psyche of each other: it was a precious, invaluable and soulful level of intimacy. He wasn't also hesitant to show his affection for her in public, which startled everyone who knew him. The two were occasionally seen exchanging light kisses in their shared office or the locker room, leaving the lab hand in hand after their shift. There was nothing but smiles and happiness radiating from the two.

It took Danny two weeks to be allowed to kiss Lindsay since they gave another shot. He sensed she always had a little fear about giving him everything, so he wasn't going to press her to jump into bed anytime soon. Of course, he couldn't deny that he longed for closeness and intimacy with her physically as well as mentally. There was still a lot of things Lindsay needed to work through though, and Danny would be there for her. He would rack his brain over to develop their relationships at her pace, in this new open-and-honest relationship. He would wait until she was on the same page no matter how long it would take. She was more than worth it.

For her part, slowly, just so slowly, with the help of Danny - Lindsay brought back her brightness once she had carried. He did everything in his power to help her stimulate her appetite and recover physical strength and she didn't refuse his help no matter how hard it was. Still, there was a time she occasionally worried that he might shut her out and even walk away from her at a moment's notice, but she gradually learned a greater faith in their stable, fixed and firm relationship. There was a time Lindsay was staring at a distance sadly once in a while, when all the grief and pains seemed to come flooding back to her. He knew she was harboring all the grief and pains in her chest; his betrayal, having lost their baby, her parents' death. At such a time as this, he just sat next to her, held her in a tight embrace as her body shook with sobs until she turned to look at him a small, sad smile playing on her lips. There were also countless nights she tossed and turned, unable to fully rest, when she seemed to have a nightmare. During those nights, he comforted her telling that it was going to be fine, wrapping his arms around her tightly, stroking her hair gently - until she woke up fully from the nightmares.

Another six months passed. Capable of believing Danny was always honest with her and willing to share everything with her, Lindsay culminated in a complete faith in him. Now that she was convinced of his unwavering love for her - both in his words and in his behavior - there were no fears, doubts and insecurities inside her.

"Make love to me, Danny," she whispered. Her voice was so soft and sincere that Danny could feel tears well in his eyes.

"Are you sure?" he whispered with a shaky tone and she nodded firmly in return feeling herself trusting in him beyond a shadow of a doubt.

"I love you, Lindsay."

"I love you too, Danny."

Hearing her saying love for him for the first time since they got back together, Danny realized he finally got her love and trust back. He cupped her cheeks softly between his hands and stared at her with intense loving eyes for an eternal long moment before he finally leaned down to kiss her deeply as he gently laid her back down on the bed.

And for the first time in a hell of a long time, they gave everything to each other. They filled them with each other exchanging gentle kisses, hot breaths and passionate words instinct with love without a pause. They took in every inch of each other, which made them unable to get enough, want more and more. The endless intense sensation of pleasure that they could finally reconnect physically as well as mentally spread all over both of their bodies, the dazzling waves of ecstasy washing them away over and over, till at last they melted into one, their soul soared higher and higher on cloud nine.

Closing his eyes Danny lay on his back for a while allowing himself to bask in the sensation that lingered on after exchanging of their love. Just remembering how she had reacted to his touching, kisses, Danny felt marvelously massive warmth spreading through his body. Opening his eyes slowly, he shifted his gaze to the beloved woman sleeping in his arms, breathing softly, a soft smile finding its way to his lips. Moonlight pouring through the window illuminated her serene features and Lindsay looked incredibly beautiful. He instinctively brushed his fingertips onto her cheek gently and affectionately, who was sleeping so peacefully, a sweet satisfied smile gracing her lips.

"Thank you...MY Lindsay," he whispered in her ear in a tearful voice with too much happiness appreciating her strength of love that she had chosen to come back to him with strenuous efforts before he captured her lips one more time and pulled her tightly into his body.

＜BACK TO THE PRESENT＞

He was staring at her, not finding any words to speak to her.

Lindsay was looking down at the rainy view out the window with her back leaning against the kitchen wall of their apartment. Their apartment; they hunted for a new apartment and moved in this place a month after their first love-making. The day he realized his love for her and at the same time he lost her. If someone heard this, they might laugh it off, but Danny had been thinking of his future with her since that day: moving in a new apartment together, marrying her, having their kids. And they had already taken the first step.

Lindsay seemed to be deep lost in thoughts without noticing him. Though her expression on the face wasn't to be seen from the place he was standing, it was obvious that she had something on her mind. Danny wanted to rush to her and ask her what was bothering her even though she radiated an air that made him hold back. He had to find it out.

A pair of large arms came around her waist from behind, pulling her close. "Hey, babe... I thought I'd find you here, is this your new spot?" He inquired her in a soft tone.

" Did I have an old one?" Lindsay asked him back.

" Yes, you did." Danny replied as he pulled her more closely into his chest. "Right here."

A small smile tugged at the corners of her lips as she felt his warmth flowing into her body through his chest.

"Couldn't you sleep?" he whispered, planting a lingering kiss on her shoulder.

"Yeah..." she replied, feeling shivers running down her spine at his gentle kisses.

"You're trembling, Linds. Are you cold?" Danny asked worriedly his arms rubbing up and down her arms trying to warm her up.

A delicate blush rose to the apples of her cheeks, "No, it's not that. Danny...Did I wake you up?"

"Yeah, lack of warmth in the bed woke me up," he said warmly, even more playfully.

"You missed me?" she asked.

Looking at her tantalizingly sexy and bewitching smile reflected in the window, Danny felt his heart skip a beat. Blushing a little, he itched the tip of his nose with his fingertip. "Yeah, I missed you...so badly, love," he whispered into her ear, his hot breath mixed with sweet but sincere voice of calling her 'love' made her heart overflowed with warmth.

A moment later all the more seriousness in his voice, Danny asked her gently, "What were you thinking about?"

Without replying to his question with her gaze out the window, Lindsay leaned her back against his chest.

"Lindsay...?" he asked worriedly resting his chin on her head.

After moments of silence she finally spoke, "A rainy night like this reminds me of the one I was taking a rain walk."

"...You regret?" asked he in a worried voice, bringing her in more closely to him.

Lindsay shook her head slightly, "No. It's not that. I...I mean I'm just a little mushy."

Grabbing her shoulders gently, Danny turned her around to face him. He put two fingers under her chin and made her look him right in the eyes. "Lindsay...are you happy?" he asked gently.

"Of course, I am! Why couldn't I be happier that I have you?"

His deep blue eyes were met with a pair of brown eyes and a smiling face.

His fear receding, Danny found a relief back to himself. "I'm glad to hear that," he said.

Her eyes staring at him had no hesitation and regret, her face was radiant beautifully with happiness. There was only love and trust for him in there. Once more he was reminded of what a beautiful woman he was going to share the rest of his life with.

"Lindsay, you're beautiful."

Danny was certainly feeling a massive surge of affection for her from inside himself. He could say for sure that it could grow even bigger with each passing day but never perish for the rest of his life and would love her to the last drop of his blood. He himself was happier than he ever thought he could be.

"I love you," he said putting a hand on her cheek, his fingers caressing her cheek as he brushed her hairs away. He leaned down to kiss her softly, her mouth opened to welcome him willingly. The kiss was so soft and loving that they got lost in each other for a dazzling intense long moment.

Finally a moment coming when they broke apart, he held her tightly from behind once more, they silently looked at the rainy view out the window. After another silence, Danny opened his mouth once more. "...After tomorrow, we'll visit your parents."

(FLASHBACK)

On the following day he talked to her oldest brother during his second visit to Montana. He made a stop at her parents' grave along the way instead of heading directly for the airport so that he would board on the plane for New York. Kneeling down beside the twin gravestones and place a bouquet of roses on the fresh soil, he started to talk bit by bit to her parents, lowering his head deeply.

"Mr. and Mrs. Monroe, I know you two don't want to see my face. I'm sure both of you hoped she lived happily with me, but despite your wish, I...I've broken her heart into thousand pieces. Thinking how deeply your hearts ached for her, you had to leave your beloved daughter hurt brutally behind with painful reluctance, how much you regretted having gone into eternity hearing her last voice so depressed in grief, I can't find enough words to make an apology. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry for everything; the grief, the pain, hurt I've caused her. I will do anything I can make it up for her for the rest of my life. You might turn it down, but...give me a chance to show her how much she means to me. I love her with my life."

After quite a long time, he finally raised his head and paid his last respects to her parents before leaving.

"I swear to you two the next time I visit you, I will never fail to take her with shining smile."

(END FLASHBACK)

"Will you go with me?" Lindsay asked.

"Of course." Danny responded without hesitation. " Like I told you before, I promised your parents. By the time we visit them, I have made you happy."

"Thank you, Danny."

"That's my words. Thank you for giving me a chance to show you how much I love you. Thank you for giving me the future with you."

First he placed a tiny kiss on the proof of his love for her shining happily on the finger of her left hand, then shifted his mouth to her lips, where he planted a gentle kiss before deepening it.

The drenching rain let up as thunders heard rolling in the distance had faded away before they knew it. With the arch of the rainbow over the sky, dawn broke when the sound of birds chirping pronounced the world beginning to awaken. The first rays of the sun pouring through the window lit up their faces standing by the window, a good omen after such a rainy night.

Over the pain, they found the light at the end of the tunnel.

Over all the grief, they found 'home', a place their hearts return in each other, their future in each other. Now that they have just launched out into the sea of life, there was no knowing what was awaiting them ahead the journey, but no matter how rocky and rough it would be, with a strength of love, they would get over it. Together.

Today they are going to start a new chapter of their life, together, he brought up and gained her willing consent two weeks after they moved in here.

Today, Lindsay Monroe will accept her new name Danny Messer yearned her to make the change permanent: Lindsay Messer.

*The end*

A/N 2: I want to thank each and every one of you for your support and reviews. Your encouragement and support are greatly appreciated, and I cannot thank you enough for reading this story. I have had a wonderful time writing it, and I hope you have had a wonderful time reading it. There is a possibility I will post one more story about Danny's marriage proposal to Lindsay that happened in this story, so keep an eye out for any that may pop up.

Until then, bye!

Daisy