MULDER'S POV

I rolled off from on top of Scully and closed my eyes. Scully was panting real hard and she closed her eyes, and then looked at me.

"Get out." She said quietly as she tried to regain her breath.

"What?" I was also trying to regain my breath and trying to figure out what she was talking about.

"Get out of my apartment." She looked me in the eyes as she said the words. "I don't want you here anymore." Scully pulled the covers up around her body.

"Scully, you can't just kick me out after what just happened. We obviously have feeling for each other. You said it yourself that you are in love with." I scooted closer to her. "If we have feelings for one another than we should do something about it."

"Mulder, I did say that, but you never said it back." She looked at me, and then touched my face.

"You never gave me a chance. You kissed me." I defended.

"You're right, I did kiss you, but before I kissed you-you kissed me." Damn! She had me there. "As far as a chance of they're being an us, it won't happen. You said it yourself: you're leaving. Also, I'll always be a reminder of the pain you suffered while being on the X-Files if we did decide to stay together. If I know that I'll cause you pain than we shouldn't be together. Besides, I'm the skeptic and you're the believer, it won't work out and it never will." Scully touched her lips my own, and then she pulled back. It was obvious that I hurt her because it was as clear as day in her eyes.

"Scully, I…"

"Mulder, may you please leave?" This wasn't the brave Scully who wasn't afraid of anyone or anything asking me, it was a scared and hurt Scully. She was confused and didn't know what to do. I realized about a few seconds ago that I already hurt her, but this was way beyond hurt. She was wear and vulnerable. Scully would never show weakness if she could help it. Now I understood her barriers and why she was closed off. Guys would hurt her emotionally and I wasn't any different.

It probably would've made a difference if I said 'I love you, too", instead of just getting straight to sex. Or I could've talked to her about it and made her realize my feelings, but I made her feel like a piece of meat. Dumb ass! Even though she may have known what she was doing she can't help, but to feel the way she does.

I didn't know what to say to her. Words couldn't describe how much I felt like a stupid jerk. I gathered my things, and then put on my clothes. "I'm sorry, Scully."

MULDER

I thought she knew how I felt. I thought that I didn't need to say the words, but I was wrong. It's been a while since I saw Scully before last night and I can't believe I expected her to take it well. She was right: I was being selfish.

"Mulder, how can I help you?" Skinner asked as he shuffled some papers. He was having a hard time not saying agent.

"I changed my mind. I want to stay." I said as I looked at my hands.

"May I ask why? You seemed so determined to leave yesterday and now you're staying." He was glad Mulder was staying. In fact, he hadn't gotten to do Mulder's paper and good thing, too.

"Scully, talked some sense into me. She made me realized that there are other people out there and it would be selfish if I left after I found what I was looking for."

Mulder, it's not selfish if you've put in some many years and your heart into it. She was probably upset." Skinner was a bit upset himself, until now.

"No, she was right. I wouldn't had left if Samantha wasn't found. Years ago, I told Scully about how these people have no one, and then I do this. Upset or not Scully had a point. They have no one who looks out for them other than Scully and myself and that's all they need. We have the drive and determination to save these people. If I were to leave now after Scully talked some sense into mw, I would make sure that there is some agents trained enough to handle the X-Files. But, I'm not going to do that now. I can't because if I leave now they win."

"Good to see that you have your head back on now, Mulder."

"Good to have it back on." Mulder got up to leave. "I just hope Samantha understands. She was really set on staring over."

"Agent Mulder, starting over doesn't necessarily mean moving. It's more like having a new outlook on life. I thought that moving would be the answer when I got divorced from Sharon, but it just made the problem worse. It would makes sense that I would move since we were separating, but we needed closure. So, I moved back in for a while, and then I saw what the problem was: me. I changed some things about myself and I felt much better and happier. My whole outlook on life was changed and my relationship with Sharon. Were good friends now."

"How is Sharon doing?"

"Well. She remarried. It hurt at first, but then I got over it. She deserves happiness and someone invested into the relationship. I couldn't give her that, so I understood."

"Well, I should get down to the office. Thanks for the talk." I said as I walked towards the door.

"No problem and have a nice day, agent Mulder." Skinner emphasized Agent. "And you still have that time off for that private investigation."

MULDER

I opened the door and saw Scully sitting at my desk. She was reading an article and the other two agents were looking over old case files.

"Agent Mulder." Agent Imperio said. "I thought you quit."

"I did, but I got some sense talked into be, and then I decided to come back to work." I looked at Scully who didn't bother to look up at me. "Can we talk for a minute, Scully?"

She got up and walked into the hallway. I closed the door after her.

"We're leaving tomorrow if you're still willing to help me." I said as I kept my distance between us.

"What time?" Scully folded her arms, but wouldn't look at me.

"Noon. Dulles International. The ticket will be waiting us at the airport."

"Alright." Scully bit her bottom lip, and then looked at me. "We need to have a serious talk. I don't know when, but I'm tired of feeling like some confused person. I need to know where we stand because this is ruining me in the process. It's ruining us and out friendship. If we can't be lovers we can at least be friends."

I wasn't used to Scully being straightforward. She usually hinted at things about our personal relationship, but she never said it outright. Now if that was professional it was a different story, but personal…I had more luck proving little gray men than having her open up.

"I know this isn't like me, but you've been nothing, but a real bastard these past few weeks. I understand why, but not the way you did it. I know I didn't help matters, but what I did was out of confusion and angry. I knew what you were planning on doing and it hurt me. We are both to blame because we run around in circles and play these silly games. I tired of running, are you?" Scully looked me in my eyes and I thought back to yesterday.

"Yes." Scully began to open the door. "Scully."

"Yeah?"

"I love you, too." She stopped in her tracks and closed the door, and then leaned her head on it.Even though it wasn't showing on her face, I could see her smiling.

"That's all I wanted to know." She whispered. I walked up from behind her and put my hands on her waist.

"Well, I'm glad to let you know." I whispered back. I was taking a big chance, but I put my hands lightly on her waist. She stiffened slightly, and then I kissed her below her ear. "I love you. I am in love with you and I want to be with you. I could never be unhappy when you are around."

"Before we make any decisions about a relationship we need to talk first. We need to know what the other wants out of the relationship. Clear up the misunderstandings and make sure that we are on the same page." Scully leaned into me. "We need to get back in the office before someone sees us like this, and then they separate us and we get in trouble."

"Yeah, that sounds reasonable." I let her go and Scully opened the door slightly.

"And no more touching or holding, until we talk." She then walked into the office and sat at HER desk, which is my old desk. I guess I have to earn it back. What I don't understand is why she let me touch her in the first place. Things are getting out of control between us and we really do need that long overdue talk.

TBC…Feedback Welcomed!

A/N: The chapter wasn't supposed to turn out this way only the beginning, but it seemed right. Scully POV will be the next chapter and she will explain her actions. I was laughing when I read the reviews and someone did agree with me about Scully in the last chapter. I guess I did that because I wanted Scully to break loose, you know. She always kept to herself and I didn't want that to happen anymore. Oh and if my chapters seemed rushed of confusing it's because I have a hard time expressing myself as I would like to most of the time. I do the best I can and sometimes that isn't enough for me. I'm my own worst critic or sometimes things don't some out the way I would like and I know that I could do better.