Title: Looking back with no regrets and onto the future
Rating: anyone

here we go with chapter 10 :) hope u like :)

Chapter 10
Sians p.o.v
Thursday 3rd November 2010 sun was shining for a change especially as its winter the sky was clear you would expect it to be summer if it wasn't so cold, today Carla is taking me out to search for Sophie... I looked over towards the alarm clock 9:45 am I've had about 8 hours sleep, As I got up I was welcomed back by my friend headache, I swung my legs over the bed to stand up as I grabbed some clothes and headed to the bathroom, after about 15 minutes I came out and went down the stairs to find Rosie, Carla Rita and Sally sitting at the table
"Am I the only one that went to bed last night" I asked curiously especially as Rosie was up
"no Kevin went up after you actually" Sally said while nursing a cup of tea
"right ok then so what's happening about this Party" I asked trying to change the mood in the room, Sally looked completely wrecked she was off in her own world joining in conversations at random moments, she was with it but something was missing and you could definitely notice...
"We've got it all planned for tomorrow and Sophie will be back" Sally replied again sounding like she was trying to convince her self more than anyone. I walked over to the medicine cupboard to take some paracetamol then made everyone a fresh brew and my toast. Kevin had come down the stairs walked into the kitchen made him self a brew
"Sorry would of made you one but didn't know you were here" I said coldly towards him he just nodded his head in return as I went and sat at the table...
"So love how are you feeling today" Rita asked me
"good, my head still hurts but im good" I replied not wanting anyone to worry I felt like complete Shit with a capital S
"Right im off to work" Kevin said as he stormed out of the kitchen
"why are you going into work" Sally questioned bringing her self out of her day dream
"well one of us needs to work Sal and as your not then I am and I can't just sit around here and do nothing can I" I could understand where he was coming from but Sally wanted him here with her...
"So yaw just gonna go to work and do nothin instead" Sally shouted as she got up from the table and walked over to Kevin
"Sal what do ya want me to do heh click my fingers and make her come back it don't work like that" his tone was a bit harsher than needed after all he's the reason Sophie took off in the first place
"I just want her back, I want her back" Sally voice broke as she started to cry, Kevin wrapped his arms around her tight trying to calm his wife, Rita had got up took Sally in her arms and told Kevin to go to work...
"Sally you need to get some sleep all this stress isn't doing you any good and I promise I will wake you up at the first sign of news on our Sophie ok" Rita walked Sally over to the sofa and ordered her to go to sleep after a little while of protesting Sally finally went to sleep.
The time was now 10:35am Me and Carla were just about to leave when there was a knock at the door, Rita had answered it,
"Hello im PC McAdams and this dci Procter" I heard a man introduce him self
"right come in I'll just wake sally up" Rita came back in and mouthed police as they walked in behind her
The man well he was a boy couple of years older than me tall short brown spiky hair athletic build and the other was a woman brunette brown eyes bout 5,4 in her 30's I think looked like it anyway...
"You must be Sian im DCI Procter this is PC McAdams, heard you gave this lot quite a scare yesterday" the woman introduce her self and her colleague
"why what happened" the man asked
"I collapsed from exhaustion yesterday...Er how did you know" I asked really confused letting out a puzzled sigh, looking from him to her as I answered, I hadn't met her before,
"I was around here yesterday while the doctor was here, you didn't look to good either" she replied, I nodded my head in reply looking over to sally.
"Sally...Sally love the police are here they want to talk to you about Sophie" Rita said softly
"Sophie why what's happened to Sophie" Sally panicked at the mention of Sophie's name
"Nothing as of yet Mrs. Webster we have just come to ask you some questions and we will need the most recent picture of Sophie" Pc McAdams reassured Sally
"oh right so there's no news yet" Rita asked as she calmed Sally down
"no but once we have got her picture circulating the local areas someone is bound to of seen her"
"Sian you ok" Carla asked
"yeh im fine" I replied
"Don't lie to me Sian" she pressed
"Ok im just tired that's all" You couldn't hide anything from Carla, I pulled a picture of me an Sophie out of my purse that was taken last week by sunita in the shop, I was sitting on the counter with my head rested on Sophie's shoulder as she stood between my legs with my arms wrapped around her waist, that day was fun as I remembered we all had driven dev out of the shop by winding him up it was quite funny but I was snapped back to reality by
"you don't look to good" PC McAdams spoke up
"LOOK I SAID IM FINE..." I snapped at all of them
"im sorry but I will be a lot better when Sophie's back...heres a recent picture its was took last week" I handed the picture to the man as he showed it to his colleague
"are you ok here mam I just thought that the quicker we get this going round the quicker we will find her" he asked cautiously, don't know why but I don't like him there's just something I don't trust about him...
"Yeh you go ahead" she said to him and he left, which was what I wanted to do...
"can we go now" I turned to Carla and asked
"no" she said calmly a bit to calmly for my liking
"what Carla you said" I was annoyed now, how could she do this to me
"I know what I said but your health is more important so were gonna go and see the doctor again"
"Carla seriously...urgh... I HATE YOU" I shouted at her and ran up the stairs
"1...2...3 and slam, right on cue anyway can I get you a brew" Carla pointed with her fingers counting the number then asked the DCI

Carla's p.o.v

"yes please, you sure she's alright" DCI Procter asked
"yeh she's fine just upset about Sophie she will calm down in a minute or so im used to it" I said walking off into the kitchen leaving them to speak, I decided to ring doctors to make an appointment for Sian while I made the tea.
"Hello Gail...yeh its Carla...there ok holding there own...yeh erm are there any appointments for to day...one in ten minutes...nope that will be great...bye" I hung up, walked through to the living room placing the cups on the table and ran up to Sian I opened Sophie's door but she wasn't there so I tried the bathroom door and it was locked
"SIAN open this door right now" I banged on the door
"GO AWAY" her tone was pissed off and upset.
"SIAN U GOT DOCTORS in 10 minutes no wait make that 9 and a half now open this bloody door" ok bit more angrier than intended
"why do you care" Sian retort, Right the tough approach clearly not working,
"Sian look im sorry ok im just worried about you I don't want to go looking for Sophie and not find her and you collapse again ok so come open this door please" that's more like it I thought as I heard the door unlock and watched as it slowly opened to reveal Sian she was a right mess
" right come on missy lets get you sorted" I pushed her back into the bathroom as I grabbed the brush took her hair down brushed it back up into a side pony tail so it hung over her right shoulder and sorted her make-up out
"Im sorry Carla you know I don't hate you right"
"Its ok and I know, but really we have to get going, doctors in less than 5 minutes good thing were only 30seconds away" I smiled at her and gave her a hug
We walked down the stairs I told them I was taking Sian doctors and we would be back shortly...

Lucas p.o.v

Its 7:20pm I know what your thinking I left the Webster's at 10:40am and you was thinking that I was gonna come straight to Sophie but I had to do my job first and it was long I had to brief the teams on the situation go around town circulating the picture asking if anyone had seen her, follow up on the leads we were given but nothing and it took forever...but of course I knew where she was but I promised her I wouldn't tell anyone Including her family..
So now im at the hospital, I walk into Sophie's room were all three of them are laughing and joking
"So get much thinking done in here" I asked as they turned around to look at me
"yeh she did actually" Brogan said laughing at something what it was I didn't want to know
"im going back as soon as I get out of here tomorrow which will be god knows, how ever long its takes I guess the doctor said around 6pm the latest" she was still laughing along with Brogan while Louise just sat there not looking to impressed with them...
"Wow half of your birthday spent in a hospital how exciting..." I said sarcastically
"should I tell her the state her girlfriends in or should I leave it if I tell her it might convince her to let them know where she is" I thought to my self...

Sians p.o.v

As we walked into the doctors there wasn't that many people It was dead silent a few moans from a couple of little kids but that was it, we walked straight up to Gail who told us to take a seat and two minutes later the doc walked out and called me in,

" Im really not in the mood for this I want to be out looking for Sophie not stuck talking to the doc, but Carla was only looking out for me, I guess that's the mother roll taking over" I thought to myself as I left Carla talking to Gail...
"how are you feeling today Sian" He asked in a positive manor which I didn't return
"the truth I fell like crap, My head is banging, I feel sick and dizzy and im fed up of people asking me how im feeling" I told you I didn't return it
"right well from what your body encountered yesterday it needs plenty of rest" I cut him off from all his doctors crap
"I have rested Ive taken tablets and I know what I need and no one knows where she is" I got up and stormed out of his office, as I might of over dramatized the whole storming out act the way I flung the door open an that...
"Sian wait where you going" I heard Carla's voice
"doctors sessions over" I shouted looking over my shoulder and stormed out onto the street
"Sian wait" I stopped reluctantly outside the rovers waiting for Carla to catch up

Carla's p.o.v

I was talking to Gail about well I don't know what about actually im not paying much attention, I heard the door open it sounded like it was gonna fly off its hinges, Sian stormed out

"great here we go again" I muttered under my breath
"Sian wait where you going" I called out after her
"Doctors sessions over" she shouted looking back to me as she stormed through the doors an onto the street
"Sian wait" I ran after to her as she stopped out side the rovers she's quite fast when she wants to be
"what happened" I looked at her as she started to cry
"c'mon lets get you back" she nodded as she lent into me letting me guide her back home. As we got back into the house the DCI was still there. Sian had stormed off back up stairs
"I really don't know what's gotten into her she just stormed out of the doctors nearly taking the door off its hinges in the process" I said as I walked through to Rita and Rosie
"I'll go and have a talk to her" Rosie jumped up and ran upstairs.
"she's just upset it can't be easy for her not knowing anything, if Sophie's ok or not she just needs time to get her head round it all" Rita said sympathetically as I sat down at the table and let out a shaky breath bringing my hands to my mouth leaning on to the table...
"that's just it Rita look at what she like at the moment and we don't know anything I can't even begin to imagine her if we find out bad news about Sophie...I mean what if she has actually already taken the booze an...I can't even bring myself to say it" I trailed as I actually couldn't bring my self to say it...

Sophie's p.o.v

Today has gone so quick its now 5:40pm and I have made two new friends yeh there older than me but its good to talk to people in the same position as me as in the me and Sian situation not the one im in now...I have told Louise and Brogan how me and Sian met leaving out the bit were she rejected me because she still doesn't forgive herself for it and she wishes that it hadn't of happened, then we moved onto how they met when they were little and how they found out that they liked each other and when they began dating funny and embarrassing stories about our families, the doctor said that someone will be down in a little while to do an evaluation on my 'mental state'... I wasn't really listening I was to busy trying to figure out why 'Louise had stayed by my side all night and she's still here now I know I asked her to stay but she could of said no and left but she didn't. don't get me wrong but I know she saved my life and that but I just can't help but wonder why...I mean I only met her yesterday and it feels like we've all known each other for ages, she reminds me of Rosie the caring side that is not the slapper side...right im gonna ask her why...and what Lucas was on about earlier...here goes nothing' I thought to myself as I found the right words to ask the question that has been driving me wild all day...
"erm Louise...why are you here" she just looked at me as I've just asked the most stupid question in the entire world
"don't get me wrong but ...erm ...what Lucas said earlier about you getting worked up and not wanting to call my parents" I asked cautiously, she looked at Brogan for a minute and I could see that they really loved each other the same look as when I look at Sian...

"I wish she was here...see Webster you just had to go a cut above the rest didn't you...but I don't want her to know what I did " my train of thought started rolling again until Louise spoke up
"I know what its like to be where you are now" Louise said slowly and nervously
"what do you mean " I was confused it took me a couple of seconds to clock onto what she meant my eyes went wide with confusion and shock as I looked at her I didn't know what to say but she started talking so I didn't have to...
"yeh and im not proud of it, I thought I had lost everyone...My dad told me that I brought shame down on his well respected family because I had fallen in Love with his best friends daughter" she pointed to Brogan
"which is where I fit into the story" Brogan spoke up smiling at me
"anyway they stopped us from seeing each other this was a year after we were dating but no one knew, but we got found out by her aunt who then told her mum who then told her dad who then told my dad who both stopped us from seeing each other to protect their family titles, then Brogan and her family were involved in a car crash" I cut her off by a sharp gasp
"what OMG...sorry" I voice was a bit high pitched and in shock then apologized for interrupting
"no its ok well I was Ok nothing happened to me actually" Brogan spoke up but soon went quiet when Louise squinted her eyes giving her a dirty look.
"sshhh im telling the story" she received a evil upset look off of Brogan as she went back to telling the story
"ANYWAY as I was saying" she glared at Brogan again " Brogan and her family were in a car crash and my dad told me that she had died which wasn't true they had just moved afterwards but I didn't know that at the time, which lead me to go off the rails a bit"
"A BIT...sorry" Brogan held her hands up in surrender as she shut up as she received a cold stare from Louise
"Yeh a bit...basically drinking staying out late partying...ya know dragging down the family reputation a bit more which is what I intended to do at the time until I couldn't handle it no more so I ran away, I was out on the streets for about two weeks until everything that had happened started taking its toll on me that's when I found myself waken up in Hospital from a coma they told me that I overdosed but I couldn't remember I remember getting the drugs but I don't remember anything after that even till this day, But on the upside I woke up to find Brogan next to me, My mum had found her and told her everything that happened and eventually she split from my dad for the way he treated us and lying to me about Brogan she saw it as him that put me in hospital not myself and she never forgave him for it "
"so do you still talk to your mum"
"yeh I see her every Sunday actually" she replied while keeping her eye contact with Brogan
"I would leave you two to it but Im kind of stuck in the bed" I laughed at them as they finally broke out of each others captivating gaze
"sorry...erm that's why I was so worked up and I knew that you didn't want your parents to know" Louise went back to being nervous like she had done something wrong.
"but how" I questioned she was right I didn't want my parents to know or Sian for that matter
"because otherwise you wouldn't of runaway if you wanted them to know you would of done it at home if you had done it at all" I could understand what she was saying and I guess she was right in away...
The time was now 6:30pm and Louise and Brogan have just made them selves scarce because the doctors have just come into to do my psyche evaluation
"Miss Webster"
"that's me" I had cheered up a lot after talking to Louise about everything its made me realize just how stupid I was to even take at least one pill with alcohol its definitely a big no no and Im definitely not going down this route again no matter how low im feeling this whole experience has scared the shit out of me...

Thanx for reading... :)