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As soon as I was sure he was gone I scrambled to my feet and ran to my front door. I locked it with the key. I sighed a small sigh of relief. How can such a wonderful night back then turn into such a nightmare? Was this my punishment... it must be.

I headed over to the small cabinet that we... I kept my keys in and hung up the key. My hands froze as I pulled back. My eyes widened with fear and anger. My dad's house key was gone! That bastard took it with him and now has access to my house at any time he pleases. My hands both covered my mouth making me feel sick at the very thought. I slid down the wall and took a few deep breaths. As I thought about his last comment before he left.

My desperate hands reached for my phone. I scrolled down my contacts list and hovered on Paul's number for a few seconds and carried on to Seth. My fingers fumbled to dial it.

'Hello' he answered sleepily.

'Hey S...Seth' I replied my voice cracking.

'Lj what's wrong? Are you ok?' he asked worried. I broke down on the phone.

'Seth can you come over? I just I really need someone and you know me better than anyone, please I don't feel safe. I'm on my own and I don't know what to do...please'

'Sure I'll be there real soon Laila, just stay where you are don't move from the spot you are in' I heard him mumble 'shit' before he hung up.

I just sat in the spot I was in just staring at the door praying that he didn't come back for a second helping tonight. Someone knocked on the door and I nearly jumped out of my skin. I hesitated before I opened the door. I flew straight into Seth's arms. I let the tears continue flowing until they dried out. Seth didn't say anything he just rubbed small circles on my back.

Once I could speak I told him everything including tonight's little incident. When I had finished I looked at him. His knuckles were white and to say he was shaking violently would be an understatement. Seth was livid. He didn't say anything for a long time.

'I can't believe him!' he spoke through clenched teeth. 'Who else have you told?'

'No one. He told me it was all my fault that my dad was gone and for everything that has hurt people here and that Paul doesn't love me that no one loves me. Seth I believed him. He said he was the only one who could ever love me and that still wouldn't be very much'.

'Lj that's not true'

'Well tell me then who could ever love me, a monster like me? Who?' I started to cry again. He wrapped me tightly in his arms.

'I know a few people who could love you and in so many different ways and as much as I hate to say it, Paul does love you more than you could possibly imagine!'

We sat down on the love seat and just cuddled. 'Lj you can relax now I promise he will not get to you, you will have at least one person from the pack around you at all times'

'Interesting choice of words' he looked confused.

'What do you mean?'

'You said pack' he didn't even bat an eyelid.

'yeah you know our legends about the wolves being our ancestors, well we do something really freaky, it's good and bad but it's still really awesome' this is it he's finally going to tell me the secret.

'What is it Seth?'

'well we liken ourselves to the wolves, you know calling ourselves part of a pack keeps us all together as a tight knit community and then we act like superhero's and help people who need us... that's why we bulked up so much'. He looked very confident as he delivered that little speech.

'Wow superhero's? That's a little lame don't you think' I let a small whispery laugh pass though my lips. It was the first time I had laughed since my birthday.

'Hey you laughed; well my best friend job is done. I made you happier. And lame what about being a superhero is lame huh?'

'Well I bet you don't have super awesome costumes like I did' I smirked at him.

'Well no but would kind of costume could we wear? We can't exactly go around wearing wolf ones can we?' I giggled at the thought.

'Well no but you could wear ones that have a wolf emblem on it and have WM on the front' I nodded my head.

'WM?'

'Yeah wolf man' I smiled broadly at him. I love how Seth can cheer me up in a matter of seconds. We laughed until the early hours of the morning.

'Seth will you stay with me tonight please, he has a key' I almost begged him to say yes.

'Sure now I'm not a lame superhero' he grinned cheekily.

'Thanks' we went up to my room and he looked a little awkward.

'Seriously after all of our sleepovers as kids you're going to get all awkward now. Come on its only me and trust me if I wanted you like that we wouldn't be stood here right now wolf man' I winked at him.

'Wolf man hmm I like it! Ok I'll stay in your room but you sleep on the floor and I have your bed' I just looked at him like he was a nut job. 'What's that look for?'

'Once you've seen my bed you'll understand' we entered into my room.

'Holy shit you could fit 3 of me in that thing! Did you have a fat stage in England or something?'

'Hm something like that... I'll be back in a second I'm just going to get changed, I'll also find something of my dad's for you to wear'

I thought about how hot Seth's skin was and went for a pair of short baby yellow shorts and a white cami top. I got him a pair of long shorts that dad wore once a long time go. In truth he hated them, the only reason he wore them was because mom took away all of his trousers claiming that they cost a lot of money and she picked them out special. Dad agreed with me, my mom was trying to make him look like a teenager again.

I walked back into my room and saw Seth holding a picture frame. I figured that it was the picture of me and dad at the beach when I was 12. I sat down next to him with a fond smile on my face remembering that day. I looked over his shoulder and saw he was looking at the picture of me when I was 15 right after I had given birth holding max.

'He's gorgeous you know' he stated. I knew he would be unhappy I never told him.

'Yeah'

'What happened?' he asked curious.

'I gave him up for adoption' I said with no emotion in my voice, 'and I regret it every day'

He slightly nodded to show he understood. 'My max' I whispered.

'So where are your blankets for the floor?' I pushed him gently.

'Such a joker now move up and let me go to sleep'.

I woke up to a snoring Seth. His arm was wrapped around my waist and I wished it was Paul's. I got up and went downstairs and made us some breakfast. I am so glad it's the weekend. There was a tap on my back door. I didn't want to open it, Seth wasn't up I had no one to protect me. There was no way in hell I was going to open that back door.

Soon enough the tapping stopped and it was time to wash up. I turned on my radio and it started to play I won't back down by Johnny Cash. This was my dad's favourite. I was too busy washing the frying pan and singing that I didn't notice a key being turned in the lock and the footsteps approaching behind me.

There was a loud clapping noise whilst the song was still playing. 'Well it's nice to hear that I haven't knocked the tune out of your body yet'.

'What do you want?' I asked coldly

'now, now there is no need for that is there, I just wanted to get a kiss before I headed out this morning, just had to say I like what your wearing for me, easy to remove' he winked.

'Are you seriously deluded, I wouldn't wear this for you, hell I wouldn't do anything for you, you freak!' he came at me again so I grabbed the frying pan and swung it as hard as I could. It smashed into his head with an almighty bang. He fell down to the floor. My eyes were wide open with shock. Whoa where the hell did that come from? I kept a tight grip on the handle and ran up to Seth screaming the whole way. He ran out of my room and met me in the hall.

'Hey are you ok?'

'No! He's downstairs. I whacked him with the frying pan' Seth began to laugh uncontrollably. 'Not a laughing matter, psychopath just walked into my house and suggested that we have sex!' wow one thing is for sure, Seth can run really fast!

'oh I see I told you that Paul wanted to get in your pants so you let the rest of them have you first, you are no better than a filthy whore' he sneered.

'Get the fuck out of this house before I rip your legs off and leave you for the crows you worthless piece of shit' Seth snarled. 'And leave the key you stole'

Scott looked human for a minute before he threw the key at me.

'You know we were best friends Seth, we could go back to that. We could both have so much fun with her' he said pointing at me. Seth looked like he was going to throw up.

'You disgusting and vile little c**t (A/N I hate that word to no end and I just wanted to emphasis my hatred for Scott and I couldn't think of a better word) get away from me before I kill you' Scott turned and left us.

'Wolf man...thanks for helping me. But you know at any chance he gets he is going to make me pay for that and for giving him a concussion right?'

'I know but he won't get the opportunity' he sniffed the air 'is that bacon I can smell and eggs and tomatoes'

I grinned at him 'yep and toast and mushrooms and sausages, I made you a full English breakfast, I used to crave them like crazy all through my pregnancy' he hugged me.

'Thank you! You are an awesome cook and I feel cultured now' we sat down and laughed about the ways wolf man and his crew could become cultured and how he could save the English from their tea and crumpets.

Seth had to go so he called up Embry to come and look after me. I went and got dressed in sweats and one of dad's shirts again. Even though I'm getting better without him I can't let go of him just yet.

Embry came over and we sat and watched a film. I knew I shouldn't but I just needed to feel like my dad was around so I cuddled into him like I did with my dad. It was almost like he was still here. Embry even gave me a kiss on the top of my head.

'I've missed you Em' I said to him after the film finished.

'Me too, we haven't really spoken since the bonfire' I nodded in agreement.

'I know and I'm sorry, but I'm glad you're here now' I snuggled in closer to him 'you're just like a big teddy bear, all soft and cuddly. My Embry bear' he rested his forehead on top of my head.

'I can't stand seeing you like this. I promise Lj I will fix you no matter what; even if it means giving you up to Paul I'll do it. I just want you to be happy again' he whispered into my hair.

It was in that moment that I realised what I was. I'm not lonely, depressed, angry, guilty or hurt.

I am broken.

=) it was almost an all Seth chapter. Hope you don't mind I made Lj stick up for herself so soon. I have a few more things in store for her. Next chapter up soon.

Sunny xoxo