Everything you say or do I am always there for you
I woke up on the floor, I looked down and realized I was holding nicks jumper, I got up slowly and the memories of yesterday came flooding back, I sat on my couch and stared into space.
Whether you're laughing or you're screaming No one else could take your place
I was dragged out of my blankness by my phone, I looked at it hoping it would be nick but instead it was Kevin. (Jess, Kevin just for this phone call)
Hello I cracked out.
Hey. He said I found out what happened.
It wasn't what nick thought it was kev, I promise, nick just came in and started yelling...-
Were not talking about that yet, he cut me off, are you okay? Emphasising the you.
I'm fine, I stopped breathing for a bit and that but Jake helped me out. I coughed.
What's
nick doing here anyway?
He heard your
voice mail, and decided to come out two days earlier because he
missed you and
we had nothing else to do.
I immediately felt guilty.
Where
are you?
In
the tour bus on our way to New York
Kevin said slowly.
And nicks on his own?
Yes.
Where
the hell is he? I
cried.
Jess
calm down, nick can take care of himself just tell me what
happened.
Nothing
happened, jakes gay!
I half yelled.
Oh jess, he sighed sympathetically nick will come around I promise he's probably outside right now waiting to apologize.
Sure he is. I said note the sarcasm.
I looked out the window hoping Kevin was right and to my surprise he was, he was sat in his car looking at something, he looked really messed up.
I will always see your face when I'm awake and when I'm dreaming.
You know your brother to well Kevin.
What?
I got to go bye.
And I hung up.
Because I believe there's a place for you and me in this crazy world
I got up and straightened out nicks boxers and hoodie I was wearing, I grabbed a pair of stripy socks and shoved them on.
'Here goes nothing' I said to my self and opened the door.
If you come running back to me I'll be here waiting Cause I still believe in a love worth saving
I
closed the door quietly behind me and walked towards the car.
He
didn't seem to notice me and carried on fidgeting with his hands,
obviously deep in thought.
I took a deep breath and opened the car
door, which surprisingly wasn't locked.
He looked up with his
swollen, bloodshot eyes and stared at me with no emotion on his face.
If you could see the sad look on my face you'd be in your car headed back to my place
Nick I whispered.
Why did you do it jess. A slight crack in his voice.
I didn't do anything I said blankly.
Your still saying that after what I walked in on, jess I thought you were better than that. I could see the anger building up in him.
Nick, what you walked in on was Jake giving me a shoulder to cry on, we talked, well I complained and he put on a few movies to calm me down and we fell asleep, end of.
I said in a matter of fact voice my hands in the hoodie pockets, looking at the floor.
Come back to me, I'll be here waiting because I'm on my knees and my love's not fading
As much as I want to believe you jess, I just can't, I can't bring myself to do it, what I saw hurt me so much and now here you are making up stories about some guy I don't even know.
He said placing his hand on the door getting ready to shut it but I got in the way.
Nicholas jerry Jonas, you are so unbelievably stupid, you do now him, I've told you about him on the phone, and you know Jake? The gay one! I shouted at him.
If you could see the sad look on my face you'd be in your car headed back to my place
Oh jess I'm so sorry he said getting out of the car and wrapping his strong arms around my small body.
You should be I said in a high pitched voice before breaking down in his arms.
I'm so sorry he whispered repeatedly in my ear before picking me up and carrying me inside.
I know you can stop saying it now, I said wiping away the stains the tears left on his face.
I like your clothes where did they come from? He laughed looking at what I was wearing.
Hey I missed you I said defensively before pecking him on the lips.
I
sat down next to him but something seemed to catch his eye, he got up
and I followed.
Jess what are those? He asked slowly looking at my
tablets.
I picked them up before he could read them. Nothing I
said quickly.
Jess… he said slowly.
Okay fine sit down. Okay confusion was written all across his face.
I took a deep breathe and began to explain.
Promise
you wont freak out,
I started. And he just nodded.
Well
you know the day you went on tour,
he just nodded.
Well
after you went, I got your text and I started to freak out and then I
fainted. He looked
shocked, he was about to say something but I carried on before he
started.
And when your mum told you I was sleeping, I was in bed being checked up by the nurse, the next day I went to the hospital and I had a few tests and they told me I had a heart problem.
I
heard him gasp but I avoided eye contact and continued. They
said my heart couldn't take the stress and the pain I was going
through so now I have to take these pills I
said shaking them.
I
have to have one a day to keep me healthy and one when I have like a
fit type thing and in a month I can go to one a week, I didn't tell
you because I didn't want you to worry, but I promised that I would
tell you when I saw you in new York but since you're here there it
is.
I finished and made I contact, he looked confused and sympathetic and just pulled me into his arms and sponged kisses up the back of my neck.
No, don't wanna let you go
Jess
if I knew, i would have been right here you know.
He whispered.
I
know, but your fans needed you and I couldn't take you off that
tour, it could ruin your career and I'd be the most hated girl in
America for not allowing all the teens to see you.
I said laughing at the last bit.
I
don't care, all I care about is you.
I smiled, nick was back.
Nick?
Hmm
I'm sorry I hurt you.
You didn't babe, I hurt myself for not listening.
But still I'm sorry.
Me too.
Nick?
Yeah
I
love you
I love you too.
Things were back to normal.for now.
Jess do you have everything ready for new york?
Yeah I have a suitcase upstairs.
I think your gonna need a bigger suitcase.
Why?
It's lonely in my bunk.
Girl, you belong in my heart, in my arms, in my bed
Girl, quit messing with my head
Awh.
I cried writing this, I am really that sad. I've just been really
depressed, I feel dead ill, I'm really hungry but everytime I go to
eat something I start to feel dizzy. So annoying. I watched the first
burning up concert on youtube. I was in tears anyone who seen albl
will understand, poor nick, he truly is honestly amazing, the way he
sang that song was amazing too, it really gets to me. And joe crying
as well, I don't really know what Kevin was doing they didn't
film him much but they should of, they are amazing ! I was also
reading a bulletin and apparently a girl got a magazine with a nick
and joe poster yet no Kevin. What is the world coming too ?
that
magazine should be ashamed. Poor Kevin doesn't get half the credit
he deserves. People who are like yeah I love the jonas brothers
except Kevin doesn't even make sense, Kevin is a jonas brother,
duh!
well it keeps thundering here and I think theres gonna be
storm my tv keeps crackling and im home alone, its shitting me up
tbh.
Well enough with my Rant I've probably depressed you as well.
Review please
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