Then I fell into the world of darkness that I had lost myself to the first time, but this time, I was wide awake.
The sun's rays teased my dilated pupils as I lay on my bed, staring out the window at the clouds. It was sunset and Sai and I were in my room; stoned. We had been sitting there for hours, talking.
Time seems to pass slower when reality is warped. After a long time of silence, Sai sat up on the floor. I turned my head from the window to look at him. He looked back at me and smiled. I smiled back at him and assumed my smile looked just as fake as his.
The whole world seems fake in this state of mind. I couldn't suppress a giggle when Sai stood up and wobbled a bit. He regained his balance quickly and walked over to the bed.
I gazed up at him and he stared down at me. His eyes wandered from my eyes to my neck and then down my body. It was odd. Not odd in a bad way, but rather in a good way.
I suppose that's what made it so odd in the first place.
His smiled slowly faded back into just a straight line and his lips looked wet and silky. I sat up on the bed and just stared at them. They parted slightly, as though he were going to say something, but then closed again.
I couldn't stop myself from reaching up and putting my hand at the back of his neck and pulling his face down to mine. I put my forehead against his and we just stayed like that for a moment, sucking each other's essences in.
Then I leaned closer and placed a tender kiss on his lips. He tasted like oranges. I found that funny and smiled when he pulled back to examine my lips. He cocked an eyebrow at my lazy yet amused face. I simply giggled and pulled him back into another kiss.
Sai's mouth was so soft, almost like feathers. And his kiss was so much more gentle than Neji's….
Why would I notice that?
I disregarded the thought and continued to kiss the pale boy leaning in front of me. I noticed his discomfort with the position we were in and smiled a bit through my delirium. My hands slid from the back of his neck to the little red straps on his shoulders and I grabbed them and pulled him closer. His body fell forward a bit and he caught himself by placing his hands and one knee on the bed.
He smirked a bit as he continued this movement, using it to his advantage; he pushed me back onto the bed and crawled on top of me. I wasn't pinned down, but getting free from this position would be a bit difficult. At the moment though, I didn't really care about it, I just wanted him to kiss me again.
My wish was granted when he leaned down and placed his feather kisses on the corners of my mouth and chin down to my neck.
Neji didn't do this…
I mentally slapped myself because of that thought.
What do I care if Neji didn't kiss me like Sai does? He isn't my boyfriend or lover. In fact, he's someone else's lover!
I knitted my eyebrows together at the thought of Neji and Ten-Ten together. I didn't notice my physical irritation, but Sai did.
"Is something the matter?" he asked as he pulled away from the spot he was kissing on my collarbone. I shook my head, trying to ignore the annoyance it had caused me. Sai sat back on his heels, still straddling my waist and just stared at me.
"What?" I asked, a bit peeved by the lack of contact between us. He tilted his head to the side and gave me his plastic smile.
"The books say that when someone makes a face like that then something is bothering them." He replied as though he were reading from said book at the very moment. I sighed and bounced my hands on the bed, making dull thudding noises.
Sai cocked his head to the other side now and his smiled vanished. He examined my face and body language like a therapist would. It added to my irritation.
"Does it matter?" I sat up a bit and leaned back on my elbows.
At that moment, the door opened.
"Renzo, dinner's ready if you're-"
Hinata stopped talking in mid-sentence. She stared at Sai and me for a second before turning red and slamming the door shut and stuttering at us from the other side.
"I'm so s-sorry Renzo-kun! I didn't know you had c-c-company!" we listened as her footsteps quieted and eventually disappeared from the building.
I couldn't help but laugh.
I just laughed and laughed, holding my stomach so I wouldn't ache. Sai just continued to stare at me, puzzled. I suppose I was laughing to try and distract my mind from all the annoying thoughts, but he wouldn't understand something like that.
He got off of me completely and stood up, shaking his head.
"I'm going to go now. You need some time to think, it seems." He then winked at me and disappeared in a poof of smoke.
I stared blankly at the space he had been and groaned. I had actually let thoughts of Neji ruin my high and scare away a hot boy. How aggravating.
But then I thought back to yesterday at the lake.
Neji was so intensely immersed in our kisses. It was like there was only he and I. And when I was with Sai, it was nice, but I was aware of the rest of the world.
Neji has a girlfriend…
I cursed the voice in the back of my mind for reminding me of that fact once again.
But Sai doesn't…
Is that voice trying to set me up with him?
He seems to like you…
I guess so.
And he is your source...
My source for what?
You know what…
I shook my head and covered my face with my hands. I then stood up and made a series of hand signs before placing my hands on the floor.
In a puff of smoke, Sekaita appeared and screeched. I smiled at him and he jumped up onto the bed with me. He nuzzled my face with his beak and purred a bit. I giggled and rubbed his leathery skin.
"I knew you would cheer me up, Sekaita." I grinned when he just looked up at me and blinked. I continued to think about the whirling conflicts in my head and then eventually fell asleep, foregoing dinner.