Hi all. How is it going? I am just curious to know what you guys think so far about this story. I have not heard back as much so I don't know if people like it or hate it or think its dumb? Please let me know :) Thats why I have not updated because I just wasn't feeling it for a bit. Each time I hear a song that reminds me of OTH or see James, or Bethany it inspires me even more and so thats why I wanted to continue :D Thank you. Anywho, I hope you enjoy this chapter. Its pretty short.

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Haley decided that she wanted to give Nathan a chance to explain himself. She had a note written to him because she was a little nervous about talking to him and texting him. She took a deep breath and walked toward his locker. She was usually earlier than other people, but she noticed that Nathan was near his locker talking to Tim. She couldn't tell what they were talking about but all she saw was his anger as he punched his locker, then he turned right around and walked away.

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"I cant believe this. I thought that these things were going to help me" Nathan asked Tim angrily.

"Dude, they do help but they are not gonna help your school work" Tim said.

"Fuck! I know. If I cannot pass this stupid class I'm gonna be benched this week. Ugh!" he said frustrated punching his locker. "Fuck!"

"Calm down dude" Tim said but Nathan was so mad at himself that he just walked away with bleeding knuckles.

He needed help. He decided to go to the tutoring center to meet with his tutor that he never really met with. He never understood him or got the material like he did when Haley tutored him. He walked into the tutoring center in hopes to see her but she wasn't there yet and neither was his tutor.

He decided to walk out and go to practice, because with everything going on he did not want to hear it from Whitey either. As he was walking out of the door he bumped into someone.

"Oh sorry, I..." it was Haley.

"Oh no, I'm sorry it was my fault" she said looking down, she did not know why but he made her nervous.

"No, really it was me...but hey listen I'm actually glad I crashed into you because I need to ask you something. Can we...talk somewhere?" He asked her.

"Uhh. Well, lets go in here... there is no one really here so it will be ok" she smiled.

"Ok" he said. He couldn't really argue with her because this is the first time that she was actually talking to him. They sat down at a far table and set their things down. As soon as they sat down Nathan was feeling the effects of the drugs and he was fidgeting. He set his hands on the table forgetting his bleeding knuckles.

"Oh man Nathan, wow your hand looked bad" she gasped, she got up and grabbed a first aid kit.

"You do not need to do that Haley, I'm ok" he told her. "Dont be dumb Nathan, here gimmie your hand" she immediately started to clean the cut and then bandaged it up
"See there, not so bad" she said and put the first aid stuff back.

"Thank you" he said giving her a little smirk. She quickly remembered that she was still upset at him. "this does not make up for anything, you know that right?" she said.

"I know, I ...listen I need help. I am failing English so bad, and If I cannot pass it I am going to be kicked off the team." he said.

"Nathan, I'm not your tutor anymore" she shrugged.

"I know, but listen. With you, I understand things better. I don't know why but I get it. You know" he said.

"Look Nathan, I.." she started getting butterflies in her stomach. Even though she was furious at him for everything, he still had a magnetic force around him that attracted her to him. She ran her hands through her hair. " I don't think it would be a good idea for me to help you. I don't trust you. I don't know if I can forgive what you have put me through" she whispered so that there wouldn't be a chance of anyone overhearing.

"I know Haley, and I'm sorry. How many times do you want me ask for forgiveness. How many ways can I show you that I mean it." he asked her.

"I don't know if you really can. Listen, I will talk to your tutor. He is a great tutor, and you will do great OK, but I .." she was cut off by a voice behind them.

"Is everything OK here Haley" Brendan asked as he approached their table, glaring at Nathan.

"Yes, yes everything is fine Brendan" she told him.

"Well, are you ready to go?" Brendan asked her.

"Cant you see were talking here" Nathan told him, gripping his hands to the table.

"Nathan, let it go I was leaving anyway I have somewhere to be" Haley said getting up.

"your lucky Scott, because I was just about to punch your face in" He said getting closer to Nathan as Nathan stood up. Haley got between them and tried her best to push them away. The few people that were in there had started to stare. "Stop it! Stop it" she said. She was so mad they were trying to fight right there in the middle of the tutoring center.

"Is there a problem here" Mr Romero asked, coming over to see what the commotion was about.

"No sir" Nathan said. " I was just leaving".

"wait Nathan, don't forget your tutor information" she said, handing him the letter she wrote him.

"Yeah, thanks" he said taking it and storming off.

"What the fuck was that all about" Brendan asked as they were walking out the door.

"whoa, what is with that language" Haley asked surprised.

"I'm sorry, its just. I don't like him around you. He's a jerk, and he has treated you like shit.. why do you still acknowledge his existence" he asked.

"Look Brendan, I'm a big girl I can take care of myself. Besides, he needed his tutor information because he forgot it and I was just helping him" she said, getting annoyed at him. They were going to go to the movies, but Haley was not feeling up for it anymore. She went anyway, but she was so annoyed that she did not even watch the movie.

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Nathan got home and set his things down. He showered because he left the gym without showering. He just needed to get out of there.

When he got back to his bed he noticed that he had dropped the envelope Haley gave him. At this point, he was willing to do anything to get his grades up even if it meant that guy as his tutor. He just realized it was odd that she gave him his tutor information because Nathan already knew all that information. He was curious so he opened up the envelope. His heart skipped when he read the first line, it her curvy handwriting. He knew this was not information.

Nathan,

As I sit here writing this, I do not even know where to begin. I cannot gather up the courage to tell you this in person, or phone call so here it goes. I had high hopes for you. I thought that maybe just maybe you really did care for me. I thought we had this amazing, awesome and special connection but I guess I was wrong. I'm so mad while writing this letter, that I am not even making any sense and probably have all sorts of grammatical errors. I guess I just want to know why. Why did you do that. Why did you lead me on like that, only to watch me fall. I know that you never cared for me in that way but why did you have to break my heart apart in that way. Yes. I'm broken. I do not even understand why I am broken. But I am. We never dated, we never kissed, heck you were probably repulsed by me. I just don't know why I was stupid enough to fall for you. Even when you were with Brendan's sister. It hurt. I was hurt. I couldn't believe that you had chosen her over me. I asked myself all the time "Why not me, why her". Ive never been this way about anyone. Never. There is something about you, and I guess I fell into the Nathan Scott trap. I think I was starting to fall in love with you. I really liked the caring Nathan, but I guess that was all an act that I fell for. I really was in love with you. I don't know why. But I was. Which, is a good thing you messed that all up because you know what? I am better off for it. I wont be the laughing stock of the school anymore because eventually everyone will go back to forgetting that I actually exist. My heart hurts as I write this because I am so mad at you. I don't even know If I should give this letter to you. I don't even know if I want to give this to you and if I do I will probably regret it. Maybe one day I will forgive you, and that could be today tomorrow or never. I don't know. I guess I just wanted you to know all this.

Haley.

He read it about 5 times before he let it sink in. She was in love with him? Or she had been in love and he screwed it up. He didn't know what to do. He had felt the same way about her, and he screwed it up by dating Kim, then by blaming her for shit that was not even her fault. He had to talk to her, he had to tell her that he loved her. That he had been falling in love with her but that he had been scared to admit to himself because he had never felt that way before. With Peyton, he never felt the way he felt with Haley, heck he never was in love with her either, and they had known each other longer than Haley and him. She was right, they had never kissed or dated or anything but it was her. The way she was caring, passionate, funny, dorky, amazing, beautiful. He loved all of her and he needed her to know that he would forever be sorry but also that he was in love with her. Now, if only she would forgive him.