It had been the single most painful experience Sasuke had ever experienced ever in his entire life. He had been completely and utterly violated, touched in ways that made his stomach churn and he was sure he had scars forming from where Naruto was too rough with him. He had managed to sneak out the blondes apartment with little trouble, the key having been easily found amongst the clothes thrown over the floor.
Shaky hands helped him put on his clothes, although he barely made it out the door before he had begun crying, leaving him to this very moment wandering the streets, trying to find a sign in the dark and through his tears that would lead him home. Something that would signal he wouldn't have to go back to that house, back to those people.
He vaguely remembered screaming out for his brother, a phone call only getting through to the answering machine and the taste of fresh vomit in his mouth. He couldn't walk straight, he felt drunk on panic and fear.
What if Naruto woke up and came after him? Would he be able to survive having to see the blonde again, the first friend he had made who so rottenly touched him? Taking small breaths to calm his heart, Sasuke finally found something he recognised, making the long and drawling walk home, hoping to some extent that his brother had heard the disgruntled message he had left, and was on his way, but also hoping his brother would never find out, not wanting to have him look differently to the younger Uchiha.
Finally at the door to the house, Sasuke pushed it open with ease. It hadn't been locked, or someone had already been in the house. Looking around and seeing no sign of his brother, the younger Uchiha frowned. No, he couldn't have already left, he would have seen him. Sitting on the sofa, in his rain drenched clothes, Sasuke meekly turned on the TV.
As the television flicked on, a news report was playing. "And how long has it been Mary?" The lady asked the other half of the screen. "Well Janet, the crash occurred early this morning, the two vehicles have been crushed together and fire fighters are struggling to free the two trapped individuals. At this moment, we cannot identify the victims bodies or if they're still alive," Mary replied. Janet gave a solemn nod. "And fire fighters are working on the scene, many believe one of the cars may have been speeding with a drunk driver behind the wheel, neighbouring houses report screeches and then a crash, can you confirm this Mary?"
"Yes we can, a witness was watching it happen and said one of the males appeared drunk and the other tried to move out of the way, yet resulted in a head on collision and then called the ambulance and fire fighters. It is uncer- wait, hold on, they've got one of the bodies, seemingly unconscious or we have just taken an extra person on the road toll!" Mary cried, ushering the cameraman to follow her as he moved forward, seeing the fire fighters pulling up a limp body covered in blood, glass shards and metal digging into him, long ebony hair matted in his face.
"Yes, we have a body, it will now be transported to the hospital and we will see what medics have to say," She said as the camera passed, very briefly, over Itachi's unconscious face, blood splattered and a deep slice across his cheek running up to his forehead. "We'll keep you updated as it comes to us, thank you Janet." "Thank you Mary, and now to the weather..."
A cold shiver ran over Sasuke's spine as his brothers face flashed on the screen, he felt new tears trickle down his face as he thought back to Naruto's words. It was his fault, everything in his life that had gone wrong, could all be linked back to Naruto in some way, and now his love... he could be dead.
Letting out a chocked sob, unsure of what to do, Sasuke wandered over to the phone, picking it up and dialling the number for the services, immediately asking for an ambulance and the police. He would report his rape and demand to be taken to the same hospital as his brother, maybe he could find solace there.
After a few minutes-due to the ambulance being close in the area due to the car accident- the ambulance had arrived and had pushed open the door, a stretcher behind them. One of the female medics moved close, her blue hair bouncing and- "Sasuke? Sasuke, oh god, that was YOU?" Konan asked as she moved forward briskly.
She'd only been told to pick up someone who'd been raped and take them to hospital. How was she to know it was her friends baby brother. She gestured for the two other medics to come forward and she gently lifted him onto the stretcher. "Good lord, you look horrible, here, I'll help you up, take you to the hospital and call your parents or your brother," She said. She'd been at work the whole day, so she didn't have time to listen to the news, and her other colleagues had taken the opportunity to go to the car crash incident.
His hand reaching out to Konan with a force even he didn't think he had, Sasuke grabbed onto the front of her uniform and pulled them face to face, his eyes narrowed in anger and fear "Don't you dare call my parents, and in case you missed it, my brother was just in a fucking car crash, so shut the hell up and get me to the hospital, I need to see him" Letting his hand drop as if he hadn't just violently spoken to the only person that seemed to be on his side, Sasuke let his head drop forward, his hair covering his face and hiding his shame.
Konan blinked, some of the medics moving forward but she stopped them by holding up a hand. No calling parents? Fine, she wouldn't, then she'd call-- She froze. Her eyes widened and tears came to them. A... A car crash? Had that... That one that she'd missed... Itachi was in THAT car crash!?
"Oh god..." She whispered, tears running down her cheeks as she nodded, turning to the other medics. "You heard him... Get him to hospital, he needs care and he needs to see his brother," She said, her voice shaking. "GO!" She demanded as she pushed Sasuke back onto the stretcher gently and started to move it back towards the ambulance. She was in complete shock. One of her friends brothers, raped. Her friend, in a car crash. That was... Tragic.
But tragic could hardly explain how the youngest Uchiha felt. He had no-one else to turn to. His parents, abusers, they didn't deserve to see him again, Naruto a rapist, they would never be the same again, Itachi's friends unreliable, except maybe Kisame but he didn't know him, and Itachi himself, in hospital, and Sasuke couldn't help but blame himself.
If they had stayed in bed, or cuddled longer, or even eat slower, than his brother wouldn't have been hurt, and neither would he. "I.. You need to test me, don't you?" He asked softly, dreading the answer. The last thing he wanted was to be prodded, but he knew it had to happen.
Pushing the stretcher into the back, Konan hopped in with Sasuke, shutting the doors as the other medics got around and went into the front. Sitting down, Konan stared at her hands, tears running down her face. "Yeah, they have better equipment and skill at the hospital, so they'll do it there," she said softly.
She wanted to try and get the two in the same ward, or somehow get Sasuke to see Itachi. She wanted to see him too, but not in this state or she'd be in tears for ages and she'd be having nightmares about it. She'd come back when he got better... Well... If he got better... This was a car crash, not the flu...
Turning to look at Konan, Sasuke whimpered slightly, hugging himself as he felt his insides turn in fear and horror "Will I be able to see him? Is he okay? I need to know, its all my fault..."
Konan looked up at Sasuke. "My instinct is telling me to comfort you, or hug you or something, but I don't know if you're like your brother and refuse to have anyone touch you or can stand hugs," she said softly as she then sighed, shrugging.
"But I don't know, I can get you to see him, but I don't know if he's okay. I've heard stories of people dying in the ambulance on the way to hospital or dying hours after arriving at hospital. It depends on how serious his wounds are," She said softly as she shook her head. "It's not your fault," She said softly.
Huffing loudly, Sasuke rolled on his side so he wasn't facing Konan any more, instead he was curled up against the wall, his arms wrapped around himself. "You're real comforting" He said softly, sniffing as he thought about his brother dying. He didn't want him to die, he needed him now more than anything, without his brother, he really would be alone
Konan blinked before sighing, shaking her head. "I'm sorry, but I'd rather not tell you he's fine and waiting for you, because then if you get your hopes up too high and something, god forbid, happens to him you'll be even worse, and I'm just stating a fact," she said softly as she felt the ambulance stop.
They'd arrived at the hospital. She kicked the door open, turning to Sasuke's stretcher and starting to move it. "Come on, we'll go find him now, if they took him to the ambulance earlier than he should be in the wards somewhere either in operation or recovery, we'll have to check which," She said softly as the other team of medics helped put the stretcher to the ground before starting to push it in towards the hospital.
Pulling up a hood over his head, still damp from the rain and water he had spilled on it, Sasuke mumbled softly, curling up ever more on his side, wanting nothing more than to be swallowed into the earth, his usual distance persona becoming even worse as he tried to ignore all that was around him, only thoughts of his brother being okay keeping him from running and locking himself away somewhere forever and never moving. "I just want to see him" He muttered softly.
Konan pushed the stretcher through to the reception desk, mumbling a few things back and forward before the lady nodded, smiling and pointed in a certain direction. Konan nodded and smiled, going back to pushing Sasuke's stretcher.
"He's just come out of an operation, some glass and metal was apparently wedged into him and they took it out, he'd in recovery now, but not awake," She explained softly as she pushed him through the halls carefully.
Shaking slightly, Sasuke mumbled a reply. He just needed to be with him, even if it was for a few moments, if he could just lay with his brother, he would feel safe again. He was thankful to have been found by one of Itachi's friends, and he was dreading the tests he would have to go through, but he knew he would do it, and he knew that when this was all over, he'd go over to Naruto's house and burn the fucking place down.
Konan pushed the stretcher outside a room with a shut door, a steady 'Beep' sound heard through it. "He's still alive, in there," She said softly as she pushed open the door, tears welling in her eyes. He was the palest she'd ever seen him and here was bandages everywhere on his shirtless body, one of his eyes was covered by a bandage that seemed to circle his forehead and cheek as well. She turned to Sasuke.
"I'll give you some time alone with him," She said softly, nearly choking on her own words as she turned, starting to walk off. She didn't want to see Itachi in such a weak and pained form, and she didn't like listening to the heartbeat monitor.
After Konan had gone, Sasuke slowly crawled off his stretcher and over to his brother, happy to see there was enough room for him to cuddled up against his brothers warmth, not actually touching him in case he hurt him. Whispering softly, Sasuke recalled everything of the night, telling his seemingly unconscious brother, tears welling up in his eyes as he clung to what little warmth he could. His finishing words to what he thought would make everything better being
"I love you, I need you, don't leave me big brother"
There was a horrible silence. The only thing that made sounds was the machine beside the limp body of Itachi and Sasuke's whispers. Although, the elder had slowly regained some being when he'd heard his little brothers voice in... Distress?
Hearing certain words over others, his heart felt like it was racing in panic. Rape? What? Naruto had RAPED him?! He slowly opened his eyes, feeling horrible heavy everywhere, looking at Sasuke with the one eye that wasn't underneath bandages he saw tears and slowly reached up, brushing the tears away weakly. "He raped you?" he asked softly, weakly, voice straining as he looked down at Sasuke. It hurt to see the boy upset, and he didn't like it.
Looking up to his brother with wide eyes, not realising that he was actually being listened to, Sasuke slowly nodded his head, his heart leaping in his chest "...Yes.." He said softly, his hands clenching in his brothers hospital gown.
Hearing Sasuke actually confirm this, Itachi felt tears forming in his eyes. "I'm sorry... I'm sorry I was late and couldn't pick you up... I'm sorry that had to happen to you Sasuke..." he whispered softly, trying to wipe the younger boys tears away and suppress his own. He felt like such an idiot. The one day he had to pick Sasuke up on time no matter what, and he went and got in a stupid car crash.
Pouting, his own voice shaking as he spoke to his brother, Sasuke let his lip tremble pathetically "D-don't.." He said softly before trying to make his voice sound slightly calmer "Don't say sorry.. You.. It was my fault.. I forgot there was no school" He let out a small chuckle, his eyes showing his true feelings of sorrow before he fell silent.
Itachi watched Sasuke. He felt so bad. Why couldn't he have protected him like he'd said, why!? He'd broken his promise and what happened? Sasuke got raped. He felt like a horrible big brother. Not to mention forgetting something like the fact that his little brother had the day off today. He'd even checked the calender, looked RIGHT at the words saying 'DAY OFF' and forgotten. "I forgot too," he said softly, gently reaching out and taking Sasuke's hand.
"He.. I think.." Sighing softly, Sasuke looked away from his brothers eyes "I have to be tested soon..."
He blinked. Tested? He nodded, tears running down his cheeks now. "Okay," he said softly, as he gently let go of Sasuke's hand, gently pulling the other down and kissing him softly on the lips. "I love you," he said gently as he tried to move,but pain shot through him.
"And I love you" Sasuke mumbled softly, letting a small hiccup pass over his lips before letting his hands move around his brothers waist gently, hugging him slightly. "L-love..." Sasuke mumbled softly, the word distant to his mouth but needing some sort of base with his brother to help him relax
As Sasuke's hands moved around his waist he winced slightly but let Sasuke hold him, wrapping one arm around Sasuke, the other covered in bandages to the fingers."I want.. I want you to be with me when I'm tested.. even if you're on the other side of the curtain.. Please Itachi" Sasuke muttered softly, his lips dry and his mouth trembling still. Itachi looked up, nodding. "I'll be with you, I promise, I wouldn't want you to be alone, this is very hard for you," he said softly as he gently kissed Sasuke's cheek.
"D-did the doctors tell you anything yet? Are you going to be okay?"
Itachi then blinked, looking down and shaking his head. "I woke up and realised you were talking, I don't know. I can't remember much, just screeching and then a crash, so much red everywhere and then nothing until I woke up here," he said softly. "I'll have to speak to the doctors," he said softly.
Letting out a shaky sigh, Sasuke's fingers slowly moved up to gently touch the wraps around his brothers head and over his eye, careful not to press onto them, just gently touching the fabric. "I could ask for one to come in.. they could.. they could test me and tell you of how you're doing.. would you like me to do that big brother?"He asked softly, his eyes locked on his fingers, still touching the fabric.
Itachi watched Sasuke's hand and fingers with his visible eye, feeling worried, sad and hurt at the same time. "Yes, that would be good Sasuke, but, if it hurts to move..." he trailed off, shutting his eyes. They were hurting.
A lot.
"I want to know if you're okay, so have them test you first... I... I don't know what I'd do if you'd gotten an illness thanks to that brat," Itachi said, pain and anger in his voice. Oh yes, once he found Naruto, that could be the tester on his new sword he'd received from Pein... yes... First murder victim for hurting Sasuke so much...
Letting his fingers drop to his brothers cheek, the younger Uchiha leant forwards, pressing his soft lips to his brothers rough ones, his eyes slipping closed briefly as he relished in the fact that he still had his brother near him for the time being, before hesitantly pulling away, his face flushed.
Itachi kissed back gently, not wanting to move too much. Everything was in pain at the moment. When Sasuke pulled away he looked up to his little brother, trying to give a reassuring smile.
"I'll go get the doctor" Sasuke said softly, crawling out of the bed and wincing as he started to walk to the door.
"Okay," he replied as he watched Sasuke leaving, shutting his eyes. Why had this happened? It wasn't fair. At all. Perhaps if he was stuck in hospital, he'd need to find someone to care for Sasuke... Shisui. Yes. He needed to somehow contact Shisui and get him to come so he could talk to him and tell him to look after Sasuke, in his house or in the house that they just moved to. It didn't matter, so long as Sasuke cold be looked after while he was here.
Before the pain that came with sex didn't seem to hurt as much, but now that Sasuke was thinking about it, it hurt a lot more than his first time with his brother. Slipping out the door, Sasuke looked around, hoping to spot a doctor.
There was little movement, a few doctors passed through the hall, clipboards in hand and stethoscopes around their neck.
Walking calmly up to one of the doctors Sasuke saw walking past, he touched their arm softly. Turning to him, one of the doctors blinked a few times before offering a small smile "Can I help you sir?" They asked, causing Sasuke to nod slowly "Ah.. I would like a.. a rape test?" He muttered softly, his gaze lowering to the floor so he didn't have to show his shame "And.. my brother would like some information on the accident he was in.." Feeling a hand squeeze his shoulder, Sasuke looked up, met with a gaze of sorrow from the doctor. His heart leapt to his throat, was his brother okay?
"When were you raped?" The doctor asked softly before shaking his head and walking Sasuke over to the room he had come out of. Momentarily ignoring the other male on the bed, the doctor let Sasuke sit on another bed, pulling a screen to separate them.
"A few hours ago" Sasuke replied as he sat down, his face flushing softly at the pain that shot up his back from such a simple movement.
"May you remove your clothes please, and I'll talk you through what is going to happen" Watching as Sasuke began hesitantly removing his clothes, the doctor placed his clipboard down.
Itachi opened his eyes as Sasuke entered the room. He needed to calm down, but when he saw the curtain go up and hide his little brother he felt panic rising. He wanted to know what was going on, why was Sasuke being hidden from him? He was his BROTHER damn it! Though, when he heard the request for Sasuke to remove his clothes, he felt a tinge of anger and slight jealousy. Damn it, Naruto had screwed everything up. The boy was DEAD. No, worse than dead, once he thought of what was worse than a slow torturous death...
"Do you know what rape is?" The Doctor asked, not wanting to upset the teen before him.
Itachi nearly scoffed at such an idiotic question as to what rape was. No, he just picked a random word in the dictionary, liked it and said that had happened to him. What was the doctor stupid??
"Of course I know!" Sasuke spat before whimpering, trying to see his brother through the curtain
"I didn't mean to offend.. but I'll give you the full run through." Taking a small breath, the doctor continued "Rape is any form of forced sexual activity that you don't agree to, ranging from touching to penetration. Rape is a crime. It's a crime even if you already know the person who attacked you, including a spouse, another family member, a friend or someone you work with. It's a crime even if you didn't fight back. It's a crime even if you were drinking, taking drugs, given drugs or were unconscious. Anyone can be raped, including men, women, children and elderly people." Smiling softly as the boy nodded his head, the doctor continued with his test "Have you removed or changed any of your clothes since the attack?"
Listening to the doctor explain what rape was Itachi felt his heart sink slowly. It was real. He didn't care that he'd just come out of a car accident, he didn't care that he was in extreme pain. No. Sasuke'd been raped because he was late to pick him up. He was such an IDIOT.
"No.." Sasuke said in slight embarrassment. Should he have? Letting his dark orbs look to the lighter ones of the doctor, Sasuke bit his lip softly.
"Good" was his reply as the doctors picked up his chart, flipping through the pages to a clean page, making a few notes "Your name?"
"Sasuke Uchiha" Watching the man's eyebrows shoot up, his face showing disbelief for a few moments, the doctor nodded his head slowly. "I know your parents, they haven't yet been informed of your brother, but when they are its most likely they will be told of your own condition as well"
Making a move to protest, Sasuke was silenced with a hand raising to quiet him "They have to be informed, sorry.. shall we continue?"
Wincing as the doctor said there parents were going to be informed about both of them Itachi shut his eyes, turning his head away. No. They couldn't be told. As soon as their father heard... No... As soon as their father got a hold of them, they'd be punished severely for leaving the house. Itachi could see the two of them back in hospital with broken bones and bruises the size of their fathers fists littering them. He shuddered.
".. Okay" Sasuke said softly.
Moving as he explained, the doctor began to collect evidence from Sasuke's clothes and some semen that had trickled down the boys legs "The doctor in the emergency room will examine your body for injuries and collect evidence. There may be pieces of evidence such as clothing fibres, hairs, saliva, semen or body fluid that may help identify the attacker. In most hospitals, a "rape kit" is used to help collect evidence. A rape kit is a standard kit with little boxes, microscope slides and plastic bags for collecting and storing evidence. Samples of evidence may be used in court."
Blinking a few times and shuddering as he was touched so intimately, Sasuke looked at the doctor "I know who did it.."
Looking up with surprise and cursing himself that he actually forgot to ask if the boy knew who it was, the doctor nodded his head "Who?"
"Naruto Uzumaki" Sasuke said with distaste, hating how the name that once sounded so nice on his lips, now sounded like dirt.
Letting the boy know he was listening by a small nod of his head, the doctor continued, this time standing up and going over to one of the draws in the room, pulling out a needle and tube
"Next, the doctor will need to do a blood test. Women will be checked for pregnancy and all rape victims are tested for diseases and infections that can be passed through sexual contact. Cultures of the cervix may be sent to a lab to check for disease, too. The results of these tests will come back in several days or a few weeks. It's important for you to see your own doctor in 1 or 2 weeks to review the results of these tests. If any of the tests are positive for disease or infection, you'll need to talk with your doctor about treatment" He added softly "Of course, until we find out the results it is advised not to participate in sexual activities, however the risk of getting a sexually transmitted infection during a rape is about 5 to 10."
Taking a sample of blood from the younger Uchiha, the doctor finished up his explanation "Being raped can have a huge effect on your life. You may be upset, and you may feel disbelief, fear, anxiety and guilt. You may have an upset stomach or feel nervous. About half of all people who are raped say they are depressed sometime in the first year after the attack. It's important that you keep appointments with your doctor. Be sure to tell him or her about any physical, emotional or sexual problems you have during this time, even if you don't think they're related to the rape" Giving the boy a small pat on the shoulder, the doctor handed him a hospital gown and took the evidence with him out the room, leaving his goodbye as "I'll send a doctor to inform you of your brothers condition"
After hearing the rest he kept his eyes shut, facing the ceiling. After he was sure the doctor had left he let out a deep shaky sigh. "I'll try help you as much as I can little brother, I know you're not okay, but we can hope you will be and I'll be with you no matter what, okay?" He said softly through the curtain as he opened his eyes, looking at his brothers shadow sadly.
Walking around the curtain, Sasuke nodded his head, sitting on his brothers bed, his feet swinging over the floor as he hummed softly, feeling better now that the test was out of the way.
Itachi gave a sad smile, gently rubbing Sasuke's thigh as the other sat down before pulling his hand away, hearing footsteps. He blinked, looking up as he saw another doctor enter the room, smiling. How odd. "Hello, Itachi Uchiha isn't it?" He asked with a smile as Itachi mumbled a quick 'yes'. He couldn't nod, it felt too much like his neck would snap if he moved it too much.
"My name is Hatori Yagami, I was the lead doctor in the operation you just came out of," the doctor said, sticking out his hand.
Itachi raised an eyebrow, feeling faint and dizzy. "Operation?" He asked softly. How was he to know? He'd just... Gone into operation.
The doctor smiled, picking up the clipboard at the end of his bed. "Yes, it went rather well, we thought we'd lost you a few times, you're quite the strong man Uchiha," he said as he studied the first page, flicking through as Itachi's face paled. He'd nearly died?! What kind of a hospital was this? And the doctor said it so cheerily, as if he was just another bloke who'd nearly died in operation.