The next morning when Kara woke up, everything was fuzzy. She tried to remember what had happened the day before but kept coming up blank. It was something big, something very important; she could sense that much. Did it have something to do with her family? Was she hunting something? Then it all came flooding back to her, her head pounding as the memories from the previous day surfaced.

"You're being so stupid about this"

"You have no right demanding that information. It's between Angel and me!"

"It's great to catch up with you Riley."

"Why do you have to be so perceptive?"

"Angel, I invite you into my home and any homes I will have in the future."

"Shawn played jealous boyfriend so we fought."

"There was a fire in my veins and it made me kill them."

"I want you to Angel."

Kara's hand shot up to her neck and sure enough, there were two fresh wounds.

"Fuck." Kara jumped out of bed and looked around to see if Angel was still there. He wasn't anywhere in the room so she ran out of the room and into the living room. She didn't find Angel but she did find Dean in the kitchen standing over the stove. Kara quickly covered up the marks and walked over to him.

"H-Hey De. What are you doing." Kara asked, smelling something delicious coming from the kitchen. Dean turned around with a plate in his hands, making Kara smile. On the plate was a large stack of pancakes and two cinnamon rolls.

"Merry Christmas Carebear." Dean said with a smile.

"You didn't have to do this De." Kara told him.

"I wanted to." Dean assured her as he placed the plate down on the kitchen island in front of her. "Now eat."

"You didn't do anything to it, did you?" Kara asked, smirking up at him.

"Shut up." Dean said, throwing a napkin at her. Dean brought his own plate over and sat next to her.

"So let me take a guess…" Kara started.

"Don't even ask that." Dean said, sensing what she was going to bring up. "We're having a good day and not bringing it down by mentioning…"

"Dad's on a hunt." Kara finished. "He won't be back and Smammy's still at school."

"Damnit Kara." Dean said, turning to look at his sister. "What did I just say."

"I'm sorry but I had to say it." Kara said. "We're celebrating a family holiday with half a family."

"We're still family though." Dean put his arm around Kara's shoulders and hugged her, kissing the top of her head. "Us two is all we need."

"I still miss Smammy." Kara said sadly.

"I do too." Dean said softly. They sat there for a few moments in silence before Kara took her fork and swallowed a bite of pancake.

"This is really good De." Kara said surprised.

"Well I didn't do it alone." Dean admitted as he finished off his breakfast.

"I knew it!" Kara said laughing slightly before it quickly died down. "Wait, who helped you?" Before Dean could answer, there was a knock at the door. Kara just looked at Dean before getting up and walking over to the door and opening it, revealing Angel.

"You like your breakfast?" Angel asked, looking down.

"You helped De make it?" Kara asked, surprised. She never knew he cooked.

"Yeah, I thought you'd like it." Angel answered nervously, still looking down. "Can I come in?"

"Y-Yeah." Kara nodded and moved out of the doorway, letting Angel into the apartment. Kara closed the door once he was through and came to stand in front of him in the middle of the apartment.

"Angel, glad ya came back." Dean said, causing Kara to look at him weirdly.

"Dean, don't scare me like that." Kara said. "Last thing we need right now is a sign of the apocalypse."

"Be quiet carebear." Dean said, small amusement in his voice.

"I'm serious De." Kara told him.

"You know, I always liked Angel for you." Dean said, looking like approving older brother as he ruffled Kara's hair and went back into his bedroom.

"What did you do to my brother?" Kara asked, turning to look at Angel with confusion in her eyes.

"I didn't do anything to him." Angel told her. "I left about two hours ago so Dean wouldn't notice I was here over night and when I came back to make sure you were okay, he was being all nice, telling me that even though you were more rebellious, he liked how you were happier when we were together." Kara didn't know what to say, she just stood there and looked up at him.

'Damn those chocolate puppy dog eyes.' Kara thought to herself.

"You wanna watch a movie?" Kara asked suddenly.

"What movie?" Angel asked.

"A Christmas Story will be playing all day." Kara told him. "They have that twenty four hours of A Christmas Story every year."

"I remember when that movie first came out." Angel said as they both sat down on the couch. Kara flipped on the television and saw that it just started.

"You know how old you sound right now?" Kara asked with a small laugh. Angel chuckled softly beside her as they sat away from each other and watched the movie. Kara and Angel randomly quoted the movie, showing how much they'd seen it.

"This is very sad." Kara told him.

"Hey, just be glad I don't feel like quoting the entire movie; I know I could." Angel told her.

"That is so incredibly sad." Kara said with a laugh. When her laughter died down, it got awkwardly quiet again. Kara reached her hand up and brushed her fingers across the marks that Angel had caused only a few hours earlier.

"Hey Carebear, I'm going out for a little bit." Dean said as the credits started rolling.

"Where are you going?" Kara asked, looking up at her big brother.

"Somewhere. I won't be long." Dean answered as he walked out of the apartment, leaving Angel and Kara completely alone. The awkward silence returned just as A Christmas Story started over again.

"I'll be right back." Kara said as she stood up and walked out of the living room and into her bedroom. She paced the small area, trying to figure out what to say to Angel. She knew that they needed to talk about the previous night but she didn't know how to do it.

"I'm sorry." Kara jumped at the sound of Angel's voice. She had been so caught up in her thinking, she hadn't heard him come into her room.

"It was my fault." Kara told him. "I'm the one who told you to."

"I didn't have to do it though." Angel said. "I could've backed away and left the room."

"No, you couldn't have." Kara told him.

"My self control has been strong in the past." Angel said.

"But I broke through it." Kara said. "I was vulnerable and in turn your self control dropped. I know what I can make you do Angel."

"It wasn't your fault." Angel told her.

"So if I told you to bite me right now, you wouldn't do it?" Kara asked, taking a step toward him. "Tell me that if I begged you to bite me again right here, you would just walk away." Kara stood before him and tilted her head to the side, revealing her new marks.

"Kara." Angel said in a growl, looking away. Kara could tell that Angel was really fighting it. Kara tilted her head back and looked up at Angel.

"See, it's all my fault." Kara said. "So I am sorry."

"How about we just forget that ever happened." Angel offered. "No harm, no foul?"

"Yeah." Kara nodded, hugging the tall vampire. Angel kissed the top of her head and pulled back.

"So you want to watch something else?" Angel asked. "Or go somewhere?"

"Can we go for a drive?" Kara asked. Angel just looked passed her and out the window where the sun was hidden behind heavy clouds.

"Of course. You should get dressed though." Angel said, pointing to her pajamas. Kara nodded and pushed Angel out of her room and closed the door. She grabbed a pair of jeans and a black sweater, quickly slipping them on and brushing out her hair, making sure that the small wounds were still covered. She grabbed her cell phone and walked out into the living room where Angel was still standing and waiting.

"Where are we gonna go?" Angel asked as he ushered her out of the apartment and down to his car.

"Just around." Kara shrugged as she got into the car and Angel started it up, heading down the quiet street. Kara loved driving with him, it was different than driving with her father to a hunt. It was just Angel and her with nowhere to be; it was soothing.

"So no where specific?" Angel asked as he took a right and continued down the street.

"Not really. Just keep going." Kara told him. Angel nodded and followed his orders. Kara looked at Angel out of the corner of her eye and couldn't help but smile. She loved how he dropped whatever he had to do in L.A. just to see her for Christmas. She also loved how he and Dean seemed to get along now; Dean now saw what Kara had seen when they first met.

Kara didn't even notice that the car came to a stop until Angel was opening her door. Kara got out of the car and smiled at the sight. Angel had taken her to a park where there was a big Christmas tree that lit up the evening. Wait, evening. Kara looked down at her watch and noticed how much time had passed. It was now seven at night. Kara never realized how much time passed when she was with Angel.

"It's beautiful here Angel." Kara smiled up at him as they walked over to the tree.

"I didn't see a tree at your house so I thought it would be nice to bring you here." Angel explained. Kara shivered slightly so Angel handed over his new leather jacket.

"You know, I do remember giving you your own leather jacket." Angel told her.

"Yeah, I know. It's in my room on my chair." Kara said softly. "I put it on when I feel sad and need to feel better."

"It makes you feel better?" Angel asked.

"It reminds me of you and you make me feel better." Kara answered, smiling up at him. Angel kissed the top of her head and then looked back at the Christmas tree that lit up the night. Angel wrapped his arm around her shoulders and Kara snuggled closer to him. She loved how Angel could make her feel like this.

Kara started to feel guilty now as thoughts of Shawn crept into her mind. They hadn't officially broken up, which meant that she had officially cheated on Shawn; something that she promised to never do to any of her boyfriends. She pulled away from Angel who looked down at her confused.

"Kara?" Angel questioned.

"I can't do this Angel." Kara told him. "I love you, I know I always will but we can't be together anymore."

"Kare…" Angel started.

"I'm a hunter, I'm supposed to kill you. There's no way I can be with you. You tried this with that blonde bitchy bimbo in Sunnydale and you two couldn't make it." Kara went on.

"Kara…" Angel tried again.

"But I actually found someone I can be with. He's nice and funny, okay he is a tad jealous but that's because he loves me." Kara finished. "I can't do us anymore Angel."

"Alright." Angel nodded and looked down. "I'll take you back." They both walked back to the car in silence and Angel drove her back to the apartment complex.

"You wanna come up? Watch a movie for a little bit?" Kara asked, looking back at Angel who continued to look forward.

"Can't. I need to get back to help Cordy and Doyle." Angel told her.

"Alright." Kara said as she got out of the car. "Thanks for surprising me like this Angel. It was really nice." Angel just nodded. "Bye." Kara awkwardly shut the car door and turned to the building. Behind her she heard Angel take off quickly. She tried to hold back the tears as she walked into the building and up to her floor. Instead of going back to her room, however, she knocked on Shawn's door. She waited a few seconds before Jack opened the door.

"Hey Kara." Jack said weakly.

"Hi Jack. Shawn here?" Kara asked.

"He's in his room." Jack told her, moving so Kara could walk into the apartment. As Kara walked up to Shawn's room, Eric came out of his and blocked her.

"What did you do to Shawnie?" Kara instantly felt guilty, remembering what Angel had done.

"He was making me mad by demanding stuff he didn't need to know." Kara told him.

"There's gotta be more than that Kara." Kara instantly knew something was wrong when Eric didn't call her Karey. "He's been in his room all day."

"I'm sorry." Kara said. "I just need to talk to him." Eric nodded and walked to the living room where Jack was standing. Kara took a breath and knocked on Shawn's door.

"What?!" Shawn snapped from inside. Kara slowly opened the door and walked in, closing the door behind her.

"Hi." Kara said, her voice small.

"What?" Shawn asked again. This time, his voice was different; sad and broken.

"Merry Christmas." Kara tried again.

"Right back at ya."

"Damnit Shawn, I'm sorry!" Kara yelled.

"You did nothing wrong." Shawn said looking away.

"Will you just fucking look at me." Kara had tears streaming down her face, too many emotions hitting her at once; anger, sadness, fear, heartbreak. Shawn turned to her and instantly jumped out of bed when he saw the tears.

"Kara, don't cry." Shawn told her. Kara didn't listen but instead continued to cry. "Why are you crying?"

"Because I love you, you dummy." Kara said. "And seeing you all distant was too much, especially after what happened."

"Kara…" Shawn started, not sure what to say.

"Just tell me you forgive me, please." Kara begged.

"You didn't do anything." Shawn told her.

"Just say it." Kara rushed, before looking down sadly. "Just please say it."

"I forgive you Kara." Shawn told her, unsure of why she needed to hear it. Kara continued to cry in the middle of the small, dark room. Shawn wrapped his arms around her while she cried into his chest. "Kara, what's wrong?"

"I…" Kara started, unsure of what exactly to say. 'My ex boyfriend is a vampire and since you made me mad, I let him drink my blood' probably wouldn't be the best thing to tell him at the moment. "Last night I was upset and I kissed Angel and I'm so sorry, nothing more happened, I swear and I'm just so sorry and hurt and I didn't mean to do it and…" Kara was cut off as Shawn's lips covered her own. Before Kara could respond to the lips attacking her own, he pulled away.

"I told you I forgive you." Even though he said the words, Kara still knew that he was hurt by her revelation, though he didn't seem surprised.

"But you can't. I know that once you knew Angel and I had a past, you were scared that I'd go back to him and I did and it was a complete accident and I'll…" Kara was again cut off as Shawn's lips descended upon hers. This time, she was able to respond and kiss him back, her sadness quickly leaving her.

"I love you Kara." Shawn said.

"I'm so sorry." Kara said for the thousandth time that day. Shawn led them back to his bed and laid them both down, pulling her close to him.

"Not that I'm all jealous or anything…" Shawn started.

"Angel's driving back to L.A. as we speak." Kara answered for him. "He won't be back for a long while."

"Just checking." Shawn said, kissing her temple.

Sorry it's been a while. I've just been real busy with school and stupid "friend" drama again, it just all kinda tired me out. But I am still here and kickin. :) I will hopefully have A Beautiful Lie updated tonight; I have a birthday party to go to for my nephews but after that, i will be back here and ready to write. lol.

Hopefully after I update that, I will update Going Under and then maybe Looking for Light in Darkness, and then maybe all my others. Again, I know, I have another idea for a story and I will probably type that up some time this week and post it maybe next week.