Chapter 10
She let the words from the Headmaster roll over her like the water lashing at her back. She could still hear his words reverberating in her head as if he was standing in the stall next to hers repeating it again. She couldn't sleep because she was sure the nightmares would come. She sat on her bed most of the night thinking about what Dumbledore had said. When she felt she couldn't sit there any longer, she got up and went to the showers. It was really early so she knew no one would be up. Now she sat on the floor wondering what she should do next. The Headmaster had said that she would be trained on how to use her other powers, but this wasn't the part that was bothering her. She was afraid, no, terrified of talking to either one of the boys she loved. When she came out of the office, they were waiting. They walked in silence as they left the office and she quickly made an excuse of going to the bathroom and ran away from them. She ran towards the common room and then straight to the bathrooms. She viciously vomited anything that she had eaten earlier, but she couldn't stop the hot tears from coming. Now she sat on the shower floor with the now cold water rolling down her back. She left the shower when she heard a group of girls entering, realizing that everyone was up now, she got up off the floor and dried off. She didn't want to leave her room at all once she returned. She didn't want to leave because that meant facing the boys, and that was one thing she didn't wanted to do even if it killed her.
Draco and Harry stared at each other as she ran away down the hall. "What did you do?" was their simultaneous accusation. They both grimaced at the fact that they had said that at the same time. "I didn't do anything" Harry started "All I did was wave to her in the entrance hall before dinner" he continued. "Well all I did was…" Draco started and then stopped as he remembered exactly what had happened between the two of them earlier that night. His mask was firmly in place, so Harry couldn't see the guilt Draco felt. Harry frowned at Draco "All you did was what?" he asked. "Nothing" Draco said and then walked away leaving Harry alone in the corridor. Harry stood there for a few minutes before heading back to Gryffindor Tower. He entered the common room and found a livid Ron and a confused Hermione. "What?" he asked walking over to sit next to them, not noticing that the eyes of almost everyone in the common room were on him. "What the hell were you doing running around with Malfoy?" Ron asked, his face almost as red as his hair. "Ron, calm down" Hermione said putting her hand on her boyfriend's arm. Harry frowned at the two of them "Jordyn was missing, so me and Malfoy went looking for her. We found her in Dumbledore's office talking to him, but she wouldn't talk to either of us after we left. She just ran from us" he said with a hurt expression. Ron calmed at his friend's words. "What was she talking with Dumbledore about?" the red head asked. "I don't know. Like I said, she wouldn't talk to either of us" he said upset. Ron looked at Hermione who was almost as upset as Harry and then turned back to Harry. He opened his mouth to say something, but Harry stood up "I'm going to bed, I'm rather tired from running all over the school" he said before walking up to his room. He fell onto his bed defeated without even changing into his night clothes. He couldn't sleep as he thought of the girl who had completely changed his life. She was the beacon of light in Harry's dark future. In that very moment he realized that he was in love.
Draco walked through the halls of Hogwarts with a heavy heart. Was it really his fault that Jordyn was so upset earlier? She had wanted to go further with him than he had gone with any other girl and he stopped her. His thoughts rolled over and over in his head until he reached the common room. He scanned the room for her, but didn't see her. He sat in the largest armchair in the room in front of the fire and starred into the flames. He didn't sleep at all that night as he thought of her. She was the driving force in his miserable life and he didn't want to lose her. He sat there deep in his thought and then sighed and put his head in his hands. "I love you Jordyn" he whispered to the floor. He let his Malfoy mask slip as he sat there alone in the Slytherin common room. One lonely tear rolled down his cheek as he thought of the fact that he might have lost the only girl he ever loved.
The next morning, Hogwarts found three very sleepy individuals sitting in the showers moping. They moved around like robots, not even Harry let on t his friends how miserable he really was. He had placed a mask that envied Draco's on his face and walked down to the Great Hall. When he sat down he looked over at the Slytherin table to find Draco sitting there with the same bags under his eyes. He nodded to the blond and the blond mirrored his action. He sat at the table at such an angle that he could see both the Slytherin table and the door in case she came in. Draco was just as disappointed as Harry to see that she hadn't bothered to come to breakfast the next morning.
She quickly peered into the Great Hall and saw both boys there. She summoned a bagel from the nearest table and went back to her room. She sat there and faced the fact that she was going to have to see them in class, so she got her books ad walked to her first class for the day. She sat on the floor outside the classroom and picked at her bagel. She pulled out her textbook and began looking at the next chapter, trying to keep her mind off the two people she knew would creep back up no matter what. She sat there in silence until a shadow came over her. She closed her eyes and prayed that it wasn't the same shadow as before. As she slowly opened her eyes, she saw the smile and immediately knew it wasn't him. She fully opened her eyes and saw none other than Hermione Granger smiling down at her. "Hello" she said trying to hide the sadness in her voice. Hermione caught it however but didn't say anything about it. "May I sit down?" she asked motioning to the floor next to her. "Sure" the Slytherin replied. Hermione sat down next to her and they sat in silence for a few minutes. "If you ever need to talk, I am here. However, I know that you will doubt my trust because I am friends with Harry but I promise you that I would never reveal something that is a secret" Hermione said looking at the girl with a look of comfort. Jordyn looked into her big brown eyes and saw that she was being completely honest, not that she needed to look in her eyes to know that. She knew that she could trust Hermione. She nodded as a reply to the girl "I know that I can trust you, however, I do believe that you will judge me harshly for what I will say" she said. The brunette didn't change expressions at all "I do not judge that quickly. If what you say is honest, there is no need to judge you. If what you say is a lie, then you should be judged solely for the fact that you have lied and broken a trust" Hermione said. Jordyn nodded again "Will you do me a favor and sit with me so I don't have to sit with Harry or Draco?" she asked quietly. Hermione didn't acknowledge the hurt that came with the utterance of the two names. "If it will help you focus then yes I will" she said and Jordyn nodded. They fell into a silence and Jordyn looked down at her watch. "Its almost time for class, people will be arriving soon. Do you think the classroom door is open?" she asked standing up and holding her hand out to help the other girl. "I don't know, let's try shall we?" Hermione said as she took Jordyn's hand and stood up. They tried the knob and the door opened so they went in and sat down and awaited the arrival of the rest of their class.
Harry was so distracted he didn't pay attention when Ron said that Hermione was going to go to class ahead of them. He didn't pay attention when Ginny threw him a look of concern. He didn't even pay attention when they reached the classroom and didn't find Hermione waiting outside for him. He sat down at the back of the room while Ron went to talk to Hermione and didn't even flinch when someone sat down next to him. Assuming it was Ron he didn't even bother to look at the person sitting next to him. He stared out the window that was a little ways away from him and notice that it was still raining outside. He looked around the class and saw that Jordyn was there. He sighed as he looked at the back of her head. She wouldn't even look at him. He looked next to her and saw Hermione was sitting with her. He frowned and then turned to who he assumed was Ron and opened his mouth to speak. When he saw who was actually sitting next to him he closed his mouth and turned away. He wasn't really bothered by the fact that he was sitting next to Draco Malfoy. It was more the question of why he was sitting next to him that bothered him. He looked over and saw that Ron was sitting with Neville. Ron turned and shot him a look that said 'Why didn't you save my seat?' and then turned to face front as McGonagall entered the classroom. He turned to Draco to find that the blond was just coming to the realization that he and Harry were sitting together. Draco shrugged and then did what Harry was planning on doing, pretending to pay attention to whatever McGonagall was talking about.
"Mr. Potter. Mr. Malfoy. Would you two please like to join us?" Snape said, breaking the two boys from their distracted reveries. They both looked up at him "Sorry sir" they said simultaneously causing a lot of people to gasp or throw questioning looks in their direction. Snape narrowed his eyes at the both of them. "Well then, now that we have everyone's attention, let's continue shall we?" he addressed to the class. The rest of the class listened to him and began brewing their potions. There was only one table in the entire room that wasn't even moving. They were too distracted to care about what he was saying, as a matter of fact, they were too distracted to care that they were sitting together, again. Snape heaved an annoyed sigh, but didn't say anything to the two boys until the end of class. "Mr. Potter and Mr. Malfoy, would you two kindly join me after the bell rings" Snape said from his desk. The two gave nods of acknowledgement and then got their stuff ready. When the bell rang the two boys walked up to his desk and stood their both bracing for the ear lashing they were about to receive. However, it didn't come. Snape looked at both boys pensively before opening his mouth. "The headmaster has informed me of the conversation that he had with Ms. Bradley last night. I am going to assume that that is what has the two of you so distracted today. Has she told you about this conversation?" both boys shook their heads sadly. "She won't even look at us" Draco said sadly. Snape frowned at this confession "I wish I could tell you what it entailed, however, that is her story to tell. I will tell you that her ignorance of you is not something that either of you caused" he started. Both boys heaved a sigh of relief "It was caused by both of you" Snape finished, causing their sighs to turn into groans. Snape smirked "Well, that is all, however please try to at least look like you are paying attention to your other teachers today" he said. The two boys nodded and then left towards the Great Hall for lunch.
Jordyn glanced at the two boys before she left the room with Hermione. They did look rather distracted. 'Maybe I should talk to them' she thought. She shook her and then tapped on Hermione's shoulder. The brunette turned to her and smiled "What's up?" "Could I talk to you? Alone?" she said looking around at Ron. Hermione looked at Ron who shrugged and went into the Great Hall by himself. Jordyn watched him leave and then motioned out onto the grounds. Hermione gave her a puzzling look "You know it's pouring out right?" "Yes, but it won't be for long" she said knowingly. As soon as they stepped out onto the grounds, the rain stopped. Hermione gave her a questioning look as if she had stopped the rain with her words. Of course, she had stopped the rain, but she wasn't about to tell Hermione that. Jordyn led her to a rock on the edge of the Lake and sat down. "So what's up?" Hermione asked sitting down as well. "It's about Harry and Draco. But you have to promise you won't tell anyone, and you won't be mad at me" Jordyn started. Hermione nodded and Jordyn continued "Okay, now I know this will sound weird, but, I'm in love with both of them" she finished. She looked up at Hermione and saw that her mouth was wide open in shock. "I didn't know that you and Harry were close in that sense. I thought that you two were just friends!" she started. "I had ideas about you and Malfoy, but I had no clue about you and Harry! I thought he was just tutoring you!" she finished looking really confused. "Hermione, shhh! He was tutoring me, but that wasn't all we were doing" Jordyn defended. Hermione was still confused "Wait, how did you meet Malfoy?" she asked. Jordyn looked at Hermione equally as confused as Hermione "I live down the street from him. What does that have to do with anything?" she said. "Nothing really, I was just wondering" Hermione said. They sat in an awkward silence for a few minutes. "So how did u happen to fall for both of them?" "Well, I had feelings for Draco first, since he was the first boy I meet, but then I met Harry and immediately fell for his eyes. I knew that I liked him when he kissed me at Ron's house. It took a little longer for me to realize my feelings for Draco, since he is so guarded, but then he kissed me and I was immediately confused. I wasn't sure if I was betraying Harry since we weren't really together, but I did like him. After he kissed me, I knew that he liked me, and I had already liked him. So as I said, I was a little confused, but then we came to school. I don't really know what I would call my relationship with Harry, but yesterday Draco asked me to the Halloween Dance, so I assume that we are a couple. I originally wasn't sure about this arrangement, because Harry would be the "other man" and I didn't like that. Its hard because I see Draco all the time, but I love Harry as well" Jordyn said. Hermione nodded at her to continue and she did "Its hard to explain, but Draco is truly a good person. Deep down beneath the Malfoy indifference, he really is a nice, caring person, but I don't want to have to wait until we are alone for him to show his true colors. With Harry its completely different because he is always honest with everyone as to how he is feeling and that is what I love. I agree that one should show at least a little control when it comes to emotions, but you shouldn't be a lifeless shell" she paused for breathe. "I honestly do love the both of them, but its really weird and I don't know whether or not to tell them, or just talk to them individually and hope that one of them just thinks of it as a casual relationship" Jordyn finished, heaving a sigh and wiping the tear that had escaped her eyes. "I'm sorry, but I don't think that either of them thinks of it as a casual relationship" she started patting Jordyn on the shoulder. "I've never seen Harry happier, and sometimes I catch Malfoy looking at you with the same look in his eye that Ron gets when he looks at me" Hermione said. Jordyn groaned "I figured that, but I hoped I was wrong. What do I do?" she said, another tear escaping her eyes. Hermione looked as though she were seriously debating what to tell her. "You should talk to both of them. Alone of course, and don't tell them about the other, but talk out your feelings and talk about your reservations. Tell them why you doubt your feelings for them, but don't let on that there is someone else" Hermione said. Jordyn debated this comment for a few minutes before she turned back to Hermione. "That sounds like a good idea, but, who do I talk to first?" she asked. "That part is up to you" Hermione replied "Yea, I figured that much" Jordyn said giggling. Hermione began to giggle as well. Neither heard the two sets of footsteps running from tree near the lake to the castle.
I just finished this one... let me kno what you think.. honesty is the best policy... k.. well. enjoyy!!
ps... im sorry it took me so long.. but between work and getting ready to go back to college on saturday.. its been crazy.. i will try to get the next update soon.. until then..