Sorry for the late update but I couldn't finish it yesterday because I took a First Aid course. But here it is!

Disclaimer: I own a certificate of First Aid now ;)

It had only been 3 hours since Mark came and visited her. Between now and then, Alex and Callie both had come to visit her but she didn't mention that Mark had come. At least, not what she remembered. She knew that it was essential to tell them or Derek every time she remembered something, but this? No, she was keeping this a secret. She had been so cruel to Meredith, so angry with Derek and now she finds out she did it herself? Unbelievable.

"Addie! How are you?" Derek's voice got her out of her reverie.

Addison looked up startled, "Um, I'm good."

"Headache?" He asked, scribbling something on her chart.

"Yeah." She answered softy.

"Can you still move your toes?" He questioned.

Addison wiggled them instead of answering. Secretly, she hoped, no scratch that, she prayed that Derek would just leave. Derek could see she was getting anxious but decided not to push anything.

"Okay, well I'll see you later. Take care.

"Yeah." She agreed softly and turned on her right side which prevented her from seeing Callie entering.

"Hey, how are you?" Callie asked, making herself comfortable in one of the chairs next to the bed.

"Fine." Addison answered, her tone was monotone.

"What's wrong?" Callie asked cautiously.

"Nothing, I'm fine." Addison answered using the same tone she answered with before.

"No you're not, you can tell me you know. That's what friends are for." Callie said a little less sweet than before.

Addison sat up straight, cleared her throat and put her hair behind her ears. She started fumbling with her fingers. "Mark visited me." She confessed.

"Did he do something to get you this sad? 'Cause I swear to God, if he did-"

Addison cut Callie off, "No! No, Cal. He, I, -" She sighed, "I remembered something."

"You remembered something." Callie repeated slowly, studying Addison's face closely. "Specifics?"

Addison looked around to check if no one was spying on her. She knew it sounded ridiculous but she didn't have to remember anything to know what Seattle Grace nurse's craved gossip.

"I had an affair with Mark." She whispered and was shocked to find Callie smiling. "This is not funny! I've got serious problems!"

"I'm sorry, it's not funny. It's just. You remembered and that's a good thing." Callie explained, scooting over so that she could put her hands on Addison's. "It's a good thing, remember that."

Addison nodded, "It's all so complicated. What is up with all the men in my life?"

"About that." Callie started, "What's up with you and Alex. You like him?"

"He's my friend of course I like him." Addison answered, ignoring what Callie actually meant with her question.

"Addie, are you falling for him? There's nothing wrong with that you know."

"I don't know. He's sweet, caring, funny and God knows he's not bad to look at either but. Are those really the things that make you fall in love? I mean, I do like him sure. Every time he kisses me goodbye or hugs me or when we're talking, it just feels familiar in a strange way. You understand?" Addison explained.

"Yeah. I understand." She paused, "Look I gotta go back to work now. See you later?"

Callie waved one more time and rushed out of Addison's room, looking for Alex. It didn't take long for her to find him. "Alex!" She shouted and walked over to where he was sitting.

"What's up?" He asked, reading over a chart.

"I just had a little talk with Addison." Callie started and that was all it took for Alex to listen.

"Apparently Mark visited her and she had a flashback. She remembers she cheated but she thinks the affair is still a secret." Callie went on but was interrupted by Alex.

"Oh great, yet another lover she remembers that's not me." He said sadly.

"Let me finish!" She slapped him lightly on the shoulder. "She talked about you. Well I asked her about you and she said that whenever she's with you, it feels familiar. Alex, I think that one, she's close to remembering you and two, she might be falling for you even if she doesn't." Callie concluded excitedly.

"Are you serious?" Alex asked.

"Why would I make that up?" Callie answered.

Alex stood up and got ready to go to Addison's room. He had to see the signs for himself. When he got to her room he stared through the window for awhile. She was resting on her right side, her back to the door. Her red hair was spilled all over her shoulders. He knocked lightly, not waiting for a response to get in. "Hey." He greeted casually, walking over to peck her cheek as usual but as he did she pulled away. In one second his world crashed down once again. "What's wrong Addie?"

She sat up straight once again, sighed and started, "Look Alex. I know you like me and to be honest I like you too but we can't do this. I'm not a good person and you are Alex. You are such a good person, you're sweet and caring and loving and you're amazing and I'm me."

"Addison what are you talking about? You're not just you, you're Addison. You are a good person and you are amazing." Alex asked, hurt evident in his eyes.

"I cheated on Derek, I had an affair. I'm not a good person. I hurt people and I don't want to hurt you too. I think it's best we just stay friends." Addison concluded.

I think it's best we just stay friends.

Alex repeated the sentence in his head a million time. Callie had got his hopes up. Just when he thought he could have a future with Addison, it was all taken away. He believed and it was all for nothing.

I think it's best we just stay friends.

Maybe it is.

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