Heyyy! I'm back with another chapter :)
Before anything I wanna say thank you so MUCH for all your kind reviews, it truly means a lot to me that you seem to think I'm such a good writer :D And of course to everyone who have favorited and alerted my stories :) THANK YOU GUYS!
Sorry if the beginning is horrible, but I had a bit of a writersblock to start with :/
And I still don't own Big Time Rush or the songs which are used in this.
Oh, and this chapter is after the 8th one again, just so you guys know :)
Katie's POV
I heard Kendall groan from the couch where he sat with another gossip page up on his laptop as I entered the living room.
"Oh come on, Kendall, you know better than to read that!" I told him. He didn't seem to notice me though. He was far too concentrated on what ever the story was now. "What is it this time?"
"Some shit about James. A little about me, some about you, but mostly it's about Logan and James. Most of these people says that Logan's just using you, that he's a douche for cheating on Camille, that you're a slut for sleeping with him… And obviously people are hating on James and me."
"They can all talk, say what they want about us, nothing even matters. It's not like they know the real story," I said. Kendall's face lit up.
"Katie! That's awesome! You just gave me a great idea for a song," was all he said before he ran off to his room and came back with his guitar and his songbook, which honestly was just a notebook with lots of ideas for songs, and some proper songs. He started playing a few chords, and slowly a song formed. We had gotten parts of a basic melody down and the chorus when James and Logan joined us. James gave Kendall a quick kiss and sat down next to him as close as he could get without actually being in his lap. Logan gave me a quick kiss as well, sat down on the couch beside me and scooped me up into his lap.
"Whatcha guys doin'?" he asked.
"We started working on a song. Kendall got an ide out of something I said," I told my boyfriend.
"Cool, whatcha got so far?" he asked and Kendall started playing the melody and we sang the chorus together.
"They can talk, say what they want about us, nothing even matters," that's the chorus, I explained while Kendall kept playing and we moved on to the single verse we had. "This wall we built together, there ain't no way of knocking it over, we'll be here forever, Getting closer and closer."
"Sounds pretty good so far," James said pleased.
"Let me guess, it's about the haters?" Logan asked.
"You bet it is," I smiled and kissed him.
"In that case, I think I have something that would fit in," he said and started singing to the same melody.
"It's like one for the haters and two for all of those
Who try to shut us down, they don't really know
There ain't nothing they can do that can tear us apart, no
I don't care about the money, don't care about the clothes
When we're together, baby, anything goes
'Cause we don't even need to prove what we feel in our hearts, no." All the while he sang, he looked directly at me with a look in his eyes that told me every word of it was about me.
We all came with a few sentences here and there, and before long the song was completed. I have to admit, it's definitely one of the better ones we had written, especially because this one held a special meaning to all four of us. It would be a lot better with some more instruments to it, but it was pretty good the way it was too.
James looked at the watch on his left wrist that Kendall had gotten him for a birthday once. We had all thought the clock seemed to be such a prized position to James, now knowing how he felt about the man whom had given it to him it made so much more sense. He figured we had time to head over to the studio and get Gustavo to take a listen to it, which is exactly why we ended up in the studio singing the newly written song. On our way out of the Palmwoods, we had picked up Carlos who was by the pool chilling with his girlfriend, Stephanie.
The three boys who had written the song were in the sound booth, while Kelly, Gustavo, Carlos and I were on the other side of the glass, me obviously because I wasn't in the band and Carlos because he didn't know the lyrics just yet. Kendall had his guitar out and now started playing the melody of our new song. Our song, that sounded kind of awesome.
"Cause the world stops
When I put my arms around you, oh, woah
And nothing even matters
And nothing even matters"
The three guys sung the chorus together beautifully, before Logan continued alone.
"It's like one for the haters and two for all of those
Who try to shut us down, they don't really know
There ain't nothing they can do that can tear us apart, no
I don't care about the money, don't care about the clothes
When we're together, baby, anything goes
'Cause we don't need to prove what we feel in our hearts, no," he sang, all the while looking directly at me, just like he had when he first sung it to us.
"This wall we built together
There ain't no way of knocking it over
We'll be here forever
Getting closer and closer, baby."
This part belonged to Kendall, and though he probably wouldn't admit to it, he was sneaking looks at James with an almost dreamy look in his eyes while the rest of his face kept calm.
"'Cause the world stops
When I put my arms around you, oh, woah
And nothing even matters
And nothing even matters
They can all talk
Say what they want about us, about us, oh, woah
And nothing even matters
And nothing even matters"
This was repeated together.
"It's like the sound goes off and the people all freeze
They disappear and it's just you and me
Anything you want to do, anything that you please, oh, woah, no
Forget about our problems, forget about our past
I've seen the future and I know we're gonna last
Every second I'm with you just goes so fast, woah, oh, woah."
Once again Logan sang directly to me, and this time he preformed it so beautifully that chills ran down my spine and goose bumps appeared on my arms.
"This wall we built together
There ain't no way of knocking it over
We'll be here forever
Getting closer and closer, baby
'Cause the world stops
When I put my arms around you, oh, woah
And nothing even matters
And nothing even matters
They can all talk
Say what they want about us, about us, oh, woah
And nothing even matters
And nothing even matters"
All of this the three guys sang together.
"Nothing even matters, woah
And nothing even matters, woah
We don't even need to fight
Everything will be allright, oh, yeah
Nothing even matters but you and I," Kendall and James sung, turning to each other, not being able to take their eyes off the other. With the way they were looking at each other, their eyes so filled with love, I couldn't help but to cover my eyes with my hands, expecting a full-out make out session which earned me an amused laugh from Logan.
"'Cause the world stops
When I put my arms around you, oh, woah
And nothing even matters
And nothing even matters
They can all talk
Say what they want about us, about us, oh, woah
And nothing even matters
And nothing even matters
'Cause the world stops
When I put my arms around you, oh, woah
And nothing even matters
And nothing even matters
They can all talk
Say what they want about us, about us, oh, woah
And nothing even matters
And nothing even matters."
The guys let out a relieved breath as their nerves could finally say good-bye. An almost painful silence spread out across the room and seemed to go on for hours, but I knew better than that, and assumed it had really lasted for less than a minute.
"That's actually a pretty good song," Kelly said, finally breaking the silence. She looked over at a thoughtful looking Gustavo, and we all seemed to hold our breaths in anticipation.
"I agree," he said, making the boys cheer, and for a second there he almost reminded me of Griffin in his behavior, very authoritatively to say the least.
"But it still needs some more instruments on it and some finishing touches, then you should be able to preform it and release it." This caused another cheer from the boys of Big Time Rush.
"Wait, it'll be on our next album?" Logan suddenly asked, as the words seemed to really sink in.
"You dogs, actually managed to write a good song, and it seems to have a lot of meaning to you guys." He was still halfway shouting, but his words came out much softer than they usually did. He might be a stressed out, angry man, but he wasn't heart less and he seemed to really understand that neither of the guys were going through an easy time of their lives.
Two months later was the first time they preformed it live at a radio station's concert. They had already preformed two songs, which was Love Me Love Me and Invisible.
"So uh, over the past few months, we've been working really hard on this one song that means a lot to us, and yeah, we hope you like it," he said while pacing the stage before they broke out singing.
The crowd went nuts as they could see all the emotion in the guys' performance. There was no denying that this crowd was a bunch of rushers, and they all liked what they heard. Okay, probably not everyone, but as good as everyone did.
As the song ended the crowd was cheering wildly and the guys rushed off stage. Kendall and James were almost making out before they got off the stage and Logan kissed me passionately.
"That was an amazing performance, guys!" Stephanie exclaimed cheerfully and kissed her boyfriend, Carlos. "Especially that last song. It was so heart felt and… and… Just soooooo good!"
The guys laughed, and looked flattered. "I agree," I told them, "it was definitely one of your best performances."
Logan smiled brightly and gently kissed my lips again. Somehow I had a feeling that things were definitely going to get better from here. I think the haters had lessened in numbers now.
As the days passed and interview after interview, it became more and more clear that I had been right. A lot of people were starting to show their support of James and Kendall's relationship, as well as Logan's and mine. But he was asked a couple of times what the nature of our relationship was, which got him blushing and looking uncomfortable as he told the truth; our relationship wasn't sexual and neither intended to be until I at least turned 18.
"I don't need a girl to sleep with me for us to have a good relationship. We can have an equally healthy and fulfilling relationship without it," he said when asked how he could live with no sex in the relationship. Seriously, why was that so hard to believe? Why couldn't people just accept the idea of a decent guy who didn't demand a relationship to include sex, and that love really could be shown in other ways?
There is something wrong with these people, I thought. But hey, if they don't believe it that's fine by me. I know that every word Logan said was true. We didn't need to sleep together to have a great relationship. We had each other, and that's all that really mattered.
After a long day of interviews and promoting their upcoming album, the guys and I were so worn out we almost collapsed the very moment we entered the apartment. I leaned at Logan's shoulder for a few seconds. He wrapped his arms around me, sending me a bit of his warmth and kissed the top of my head. Then, looking into my eyes, he leaned down just a little and picked me up off the ground and carried me to my room, bridal style and gently laid me down on my bed. Having gotten me into bed, he turned around to leave but before he had even reached the door, I called his name and patted the empty spot beside me.
"Stay with me tonight."
Logan's face lit up, I knew he enjoyed waking up with me in his arms as much as I did, which for the record was a lot. I didn't need to ask again as Logan gently lay down in my bed next to me. He stripped of his t-shirt and his jeans so he was left in only his boxers, leaving me with a nice view of his abs. I really didn't understand why he didn't walk around shirtless as much as James did. Pulling out of my thoughts, I followed Logan's lead and stripped down to my own underwear before we snuggled up against each other under the covers. Having been together for almost three months now, we found the most comfortable position quickly.
"I love you, Logie-bear," I whispered, caressing him with my hot breath. He smiled at the nickname his mother had used on him when he was younger. He never let anyone but his mom and me use it. He said hearing me say it made him feel special, which he absolutely was, and not like he was being mocked as he did when others used it.
"I love you too, Katie," he said and kissed my lips.
It didn't take much time after we then closed our eyes before sleep embraced us welcomingly.
Aww, Logan is so sweet sometimes :) I think this was a kinda cute ending to the chapter, and sorry if it was a lot of talk about sex, but I just felt like that was the kind of issue they would have had to deal with :)