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Author Note: Hey guys! Sorry it has been so long but I am back! Lots of stuff has been going on, college, life, my security on my computer expiring so I had to get a new one, yada, yada, yada. But anyway, here it is Chapter Nine! Please, please Review! :D

Chapter Nine: Assault

Clover opened her eyes, surprised to find herself amongst the interior of what seemed to be a throne room. She gasped at the horrifying sight of bodies that lay everywhere, drenched in blood and lying as still corpses.

She backed away from the sight, covering her mouth as she held back her screams, tears pouring from her clenched eyes as they tried to blink out the sight. The sound of footsteps alerted her to a presence behind her. Turning she came face to face with a silver haired man dressed in armor, a bloody sword held at his side. He was a horrifying sight, a bloody reaper that smirked at her in amusement. But what held her sight most of all was what else he held in his other hand.

His smirk widened, as if taking glee in her reaction to it. And to push it even further, to make her squirm and cry harder, he held it up like a trophy. A woman's head, she looked serene, eyes closed, brown hair clutched in the hand of her murderer.

Clover shook her head. No, she did not want to remember. This was not how it was supposed to be.

She watched as the man dropped the head to the floor without a care, staring at her as if waiting. Clover stumbled forward, quivering, falling to her knees before crawling over to the head. She gave a chocked sob as she picked up the woman's head gently and held it to her, burying her face in the blood matted hair.

"…Mary…."

"You don't wish for her to die…do you… any of them?"

She looked up at the man, who was now smiling happily down at her.

"You can stop it, you know."

Now he seemed to be laughing at her.

"Zara…."

She frowned, the word he had said had been partially blocked out. But in the back of her mind she knew exactly what he had said. It was a name…her name…

Her real name.

"NOOOOOOOOOOOO!"

"Commencing boot up of Program Lemegeton. Now interfacing with the Zohar."

Clover opened her eyes with a gasp to see she was now in a lab, surrounded by many people. They looked like scientists. And there before her, standing tall and majestic was the Original Zohar.

"Commence."

There was a flash of light and everything was lost in the blinding illumination.

When it cleared she opened her eyes and found herself standing on the porch of a home, and before her was a beach, the ocean and the bright sun. In the water a woman laughed as she played in it. Gazing at the woman she gasped as the woman looked exactly like her only her hair was long and straight, flowing down her back. Her eyes were hazel. She smiled brightly, her white dress twirling around her and she spun around in the water, getting herself wet as she splashed about.

The woman then looked up past Clover and waved.

"Andy, come play with mommy!"

Clover gasped and turned to look down at a boy that looked like a much younger Commander Cherenkov running over in swim trunks, smiling hugely as he charged for his mother laughing as she took him in her arms and swung in in the air.

She gazed upon the two in utter shock and turned sharply to not look at it only to find herself in a hospital room. There another her was sitting on a medical table smiling as she looked at the screen the doctor showed her, pictures of two growing babies. She had short blonde hair this time that stopped at her cheekbones, her eyes were a bright green. Next to her stood a man that held her hand, kissing the top of her head.

"Congratulations, Mr. and Mrs. Yuriev, looks like you'll be having twin boys."

The happy expecting parents smiled at one another.

The woman than turned back to the monitor, "My little Rubedo and Albedo."

Clover backed away, hand reaching up to her stomach as she felt a loss of something there, looking down she gasped and screamed in horror as her hand came away with blood, a gaping hole in her stomach.

"NOOOO!"

Clover fell to her knees in the puddle of blood pooling out around her and sobbed, clenching at her stomach as she heard her own final breaths of life, the man's…her dear Dimitri's anguished screams of pain and loss, the doctors announcing the still birth of her children.

"STOP IT!"

Then everything went quiet. She no longer felt the pain or gaping hole in her stomach, nor the warmth of her own blood. Looking up she gasped as she found herself on what looked like Miltia, a bright blue light sparking before her that seemed to weave a child seemingly out of thin air.

A child…her younger self in the appearance of a 5 year old.

The younger her opened her eyes and looked around confused and disoriented, standing nude amongst grass and flowers.

"Doctor!"

She turned her head to find many scientists and Doctor Mizrahi staring at her in utter disbelief and shock, realizing they were standing in the gardens of the facility she grew up in.

"You will not escape again…."

Clover gasped turning to find herself no longer in the gardens anymore but back in the room with all the others. She turned to see all of them coming to and realized that they too must have experience something similar to her.

She tried to calm herself down, ignoring the sweat on her brow and the tears leaking down her face and neck. She clenched her hands in to fist at her sides before wiping away the sweat and tears quickly.

He head then snapped over to Jr. and she tried not to sob as she gazed upon him or run over to him and clench him in her arms.

She tried not to cry at the knowing thought that Commander-her dear Andy was gone once again, her baby boy was gone!

Clover began to hyperventilate as her efforts proved in vain.

She then felt a hand take hers and looked to find Chaos looking at her in concern.

"Are you okay?"

She stared at him a moment before she felt herself calm as she used his powers.

She smiled at him in thanks and nodded. He grinned and both turned as KOS-MOS' pod opened with a hiss, steam coming out. The Android then rose seconds later and looked around at all of them.

Shion stood and gave a tiny smile at the Gnosis weapon, "Good morning…KOS-MOS."

KOS-MOS looked at her, "Good Morning Shion."

Chaos still held her hand as they all stepped onto the Bridge of the Durandal where Lapis was waiting for them

Shion walked forward and handed over the data, "I present to you the memory bank data from the anti-Gnosis Humanoid Weapon System KP-X, KOS-MOS. Protection level AAA, with no possibility of alteration."

Lapis nodded as she took it, "Memory bank data accepted, please remain within the Miltian star system until you are cleared of all charges."

With that the military Realians and Lapis left, leaving everyone to sigh in relief.

"Whew, well I am sure glad that escapade's over and done with" said Mary.

Shelly nodded in agreement and looked at Jr. "You don't look very happy, did something happen?"

At first he seemed to not have heard her and gave a start when she even spoke as if just aware of everyone's presence, "Hmm...Uh…yeah…you could say that."

Next to him Momo looked down and seemed to coil in to herself, lost in her own thoughts.

The elevator to the Bridge alerted them as it came up and they turned to find Lapis there with Gaignun.

"We have another friend of yours to release to" said Lapis.

Shelly and Mary gasped in joy, "Master Gaignun!"

They both ran for the man, Gaignun opening his arms to allow both of them to hug him, Molly wrapping her arms around his neck and Shelly around his waist.

Gaignun chuckled before looking at Jr.

The redhead grinned, "Hey."

"You have done well."

"Ahh, no big deal…but...it sure brought back a lot of bad memories" said Jr. and then turned to Shion, "Hey Shion?"

"Yes?" asked the brunette, turning from talking with Allen.

"That girl…she called herself Nephilim, right?"

"That's right. Why?"

Jr. looked down in thought but did not say anything anymore. Gaignun also looked a bit taken by the name but did not show it so openly.

Clover sighed as she sat in her room on the bed, looking at her hands, memories were plaguing her vision lately since then.

"Nephilim Verum."

A flash of an older version of Nephilim that looked like her.

"Rachel Cherenkov…."

A flash of the brunette hazel eyed woman holding a newborn baby boy, her Andy.

"Genève Yuriev."

A flash of a happy wedding and a blonde haired version of herself in the arms of the man she loved as the two laughed amongst many friends.

"Clover Uzuki…and…"

A flash of Mary's severed head.

However, she did not know that name…nor did she know the names and other lives she could see clouded in her mind. The lives she led before this one.

Clover closed her eyes and fell back to lay against her bed. Everything was just so confusing to her.

"Clover?"

Clover blinked at the tiny voice coming outside the door to her room and sat up, "Come in Momo."

The door slid open and Mom walked in, looking sadly at her feet.

"Momo? You okay?"

The small pinkette did not answer for a moment before looking up, "Um…I can't sleep…."

Clover looked at her then smiled, "Well, I don't think I can sleep by myself tonight either."

Momo smiled at her and then ran over once Clover patted the bed for her to come over.

Chaos walked through the halls of the ship thinking over his conversation with Allen. Thinking over the person whose tears he wished he could have stopped.

Entering his destination he walked over to KOS-MOS' sleeping pod and sat down against it, sighing as he closed his eyes.

"…Mary…."

"They've completed their review of KOS-MOS' subconscious domain records today. And the Federation Fleet is preparing to leave the area. The charges against 2nd Miltia and the Kukai Foundation will be officially dropped tomorrow. That's quite the job you've done there."

Gaignun grinned, "We could not have done it without you. You have our thanks,"

His eyes lingered to Jr. who was sitting on the bed of Gaignun's office, Shelly and Mary sleeping there behind him, exhausted. Jr. still looked far away, eyes unseeing anything around him.

He looked back at the screen, "So, Mizrahi's 100 series seems quite important."

"Yes, I doubt they'll let her go that easily. You'd better be careful."

Gaignun nodded, "And what of…Clover Uzuki…."

Helmer frowned, "That…was asked for by Vector's CEO. I don't have the detail on her, but she seems very important to him."

"I see…did you find anything on the data I sent you?"

"Nothing much, only that…this is not the first time she has appeared."

Gaignun frowned, "What do you mean?"

"I sent you the data. I mean it Gaignun, be on guard, you are cornered on all sides here."

The connection was cut.

Clover's eyes snapped open and she bolted up with a gasp as a haunting voice in the air shook her. She turned to find Momo up and gazing out the window in horror. Looking she gasped as she saw Gnosis in the air and Federation ships burning.

The elder Pinkette quickly got dressed and followed Momo out of the room to the bridge where they met up with Jr. and Gaignun, slowly everyone was coming up, alerted by the Gnosis attack.

"Start evacuating the civilians!" ordered Shelly before turning to Jr., "If all else fails we must evacuate the Foundation, it that acceptable?"

He turned to her, "I'll leave it to you," he then turned to the crew as a whole, "start evacuation of all Civilians into the Durandal!"

"Acknowledged!"

Not a second later alarms were alerting all in the foundation.

"Where is KOS-MOS? With the Hilbert we can buy time on the evacuation."

"Shion."

Shion turned and grinned as KOS-MOS came upon the bridge, "Ready KOS-MOS?"

"Yes."

"Gnosis penetration reported in colony precinct 32!" called out a Realian.

"They have also penetrated precincts 18 and 27!" called another.

"What!?"

"KOS-MOS!"

"Acknowledged. Activating Hilbert effect."

"Momo, Clover get in!"

Clover turned to her "Go ahead, we'll catch up. There are some injured here!"

Shion nodded and went into the shuttle which took off the moment the door closed.

"You'll be okay, I'll close the wound with some non-spray" said Momo to the woman she was treating.

Soon as she was done she moved to other injured while Clover helped them on the shuttles available. People ran to escape pods in a panic, some by themselves, others being helped by others. Parents carried their injured children…some carrying children already passed, too far gone to even realize. Some even got there and died.

"Daddy!?"

Clover frowned and turned to find Momo running off.

"Momo!"

She ran after the tiny girl as fast as she could pushing past those who were running from the carnage to get to the escape shuttles heading for the Durandal.

"Momo!" she called but it seemed the girl was not listening to her or just could not hear her.

Eventually she lost the girl in the crowd. Clover cursed calling out for the girl and looking everywhere she could.

"MOMO!" she screamed at the top her lungs, worry eating at her.

Cursing once again she took out her phone and called Shion.

"Clover!? Where are you!?"

"Shion I can't find Momo!"

"What!?" she heard Jr yell.

"She ran away from me and when I called out for her it was like she could not hear me…and she kept yelling for Dr. Mizrahi as if he were there but…."

"Calm down Clover, Jr. will have the Realians find her. For now come back, the evacuations are almost complete."

"Right."

Closing her phone she put it in her pocket and looked around to see if Momo was anywhere before running back for the shuttles.

"Soon, soon you will be born into this world. And when you are born you must do many good deeds. If you do good deeds you can become human. You can become my Sakura."

There was a crack as a silver haired man smirked down at the Realian before him before he began beat her.

Momo opened her eyes and looked at the silver haired, black fair skinned Realian that was slowly losing the life from her golden eyes.

"No. #0097…thank you," Momo reached out and kissed the girl on her cheek, "Good night."

The Pinkette then stood and turned to glare at the door where she knew the man who did this to her sister was. He would pay. Without fear she stepped forward to face the monster.

She never noticed her Realian sister's hand jerk to life.

Clover Looked out of the Durandal away from the others, closing her eyes as she felt it.

He was there.

Her Albedo.

'Oh, Dimitri…what have you done….'

It seemed like every second she was reliving her past lives, even amongst the carnage occurring all around her. The moment she would close her eyes a memory would flash there.

She listened to the song in the air, the song that she heard Jr mention as the Song of Nephilim. A song that 14 years ago…she had caused against her will.

"Hey, do you guys hear that?" asked Shion.

Clover turned to look at her.

"Hear what Chief?" asked Allen.

Shion frowned, "A song…it's faint…but it's there…a…haunting song."

Allen frowned and looked around, trying to listen, "I don't hear anything Chief.

But it was clear others heard it.

Turning back to look outside she closed her eyes and prayed Momo was okay.

Momo walked through the darkness, holding a hand to her nose as the smell she smelt earlier got stronger and strong the more she walked.

"I knew it…I knew I was not imagining it."

She walked a bit more and gasped as she hit something with her foot.

Looking down she gave a cry as she laid eyes on many Realian bodies littering the ground. She backed away and upchucked, holding her hands to her mouth and fell to her knees, tears leaking from her eyes.

"Tears…"

She gasped and looked up.

"Surely they are the most precious substance in the world."

She glared at him.

"But…are you worthy to shed such tears? The act of mourning the dead belongs to the realm of humans."

Momo stood, "You did this…didn't you!?"

The silver haired man smirked and looked at the Realian he held in his lap, sitting upon a throne, "Ah, my beautiful Kirschwasser," he held up the Realian's limp hand, "…but still…can you really call this a corpse?"

Momo gave a small cry and gasp as the Realian's arms fell off and splattered in a bloody mess on the floor. The man cackling in glee as he stood, the dead Realian in his arms.

"Frailty, thy name is woman…no, that's not right. You little Realians weren't even born from a woman's womb" he said as she made his way towards Momo, throwing the Realian body aside like garbage.

Momo gasped in a panic as the man grabbed the back of her head by her hair and pulled so that she was force to look at him.

"The human race, fearful in its weakness built this world in a futile attempt to elude the abyss they call mortality. Culture…civilization…all delusions created by a powerless race and of little use, like a barren woman."

Momo whimpered as she felt hair being pulled from her scalp and dared not heave a sigh of relief once the man let go, fear rising as she circled her.

"But amidst all this, you continue to exist as an unfettered soul."

She shivered in disgust as he ran a hand over her face.

"Free from the shackles of flesh and blood. A completely pure consciousness…an eternal spiral, undefiled by impurities…."

She watched as he backed away from her, admiring her.

"A fusion of fire, breath and spirit. What can we call you…but angels?"

Momo frowned, willing herself not to back away from this man that made no sense to her.

"New, unadulterated psyches…but what you lack it…reality. And that is what I shall provide you with!"

Momo closed her eyes, whimpered at the sound of blood splattering the floor. Opening her eyes she looked in shock at the man who had just severed his own arm, only to gasp as it slowly grew back.

"Boo…"

She gave a cry falling to the ground as the arm burst to existence in her face, watching the man as she flailed the arm about and cackled like a madman. She closed her eyes, tears leaking down her cheeks.

'Jr.'

"The Rhine Maiden."

Clover backed away, not liking one single ship above…or rather…one person on the ship.

"Clover?"

She turned to Chaos and then looked back at the ship before excusing herself, claiming she was not feeling good and leaving the bridge. Chaos looking after her in concern.

Clover walked through the halls of the ship that were empty as everyone was currently on alert of the attack. Sighing she leaned against the wall and looked out at the window at space, trying to calm down.

She suddenly gasped in startled shock.

Reaching up she choked as she felt leather covered hands clawed around her neck.

"There you are…it's time to come home…little fairy."

Clover tried to scream as she phased into the wall and vanished. She felt cold for a brief moment but soon gasped for air as she was thrown to the ground, released from that suffocating darkness.

"Ah, there you are."

She gasped, eyes widening before looking up to find the man of her nightmarish vision.

The man stood from where he sat and walked over to her, Clover willing her body not to move.

He knelt and grinned at her before reaching out and cupping her cheek with a hand.

"I have waited a long time…" he said, red eyes dulling into maroon.

Before she could do anything he was kissing her.

"My Love…."

She sighed smiling as she was held from behind, a mouth kissing her neck.

She shoved him away and stood, the white haired man grinning at her glaring face as he stood to his feet as well.

"Our play has thickened it seems."

She snarled at him.

"Lost lovers are reunited, yet…the Princess scorns her Prince."

"Stop it!"

"Reunited at last…after so long…after so many years…thousands of years," he approached her, not stopping as she hurried to back away, "You have thwarted me countless, countless times. Skipping from one life to another…but that ends now…Zara-."

"Don't call me that!"

"Why not…? I gave you that name. I made you," he rose a hand and took a piece of her hair, running his fingers through it only to have his hand smacked away.

"You don't own me…not anymore…Pontius" she seethed out.

Clover cringed as the screams of a man shook her to her very core, the beating of hammering iron into flesh. She clenched her eyes shut, willing the vision to go away.

"It hurts…doesn't it?"

She gasped and looked at him, "No! You don't get to do this again! You will not manipulate me!"

"But you can make it go away… you've done it so many times already…even before that woman poisoned you against me. You have that power…to change the eternal clock of time…Zara-"

"SHUT UP!"

"Thu-"

"STOP IT!"

"Stra."

Something inside her then shattered and she screamed, blue light enveloping her entire being, tearing away her clothes. The silverette held up a hand, a shield coming up to block the great overwhelming power from harming him. However his hand soon became scorched, flesh falling off like dust. Clover's body became to solidify as it rose a few inches into the air, white electricity encircling her.

Pontius or Wilhelm as he was known in this life grinned as the power cleared. His scorched hand that was now mere skeletal bone slowly began to regrow the muscle and skin like new. His red eyes lingered on Clover's crystallized form, like a floating crystal of beauty.

He grinned, "Welcome home, my beloved…Zarathustra."

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