Buffy and Angel said goodbye to the Scooby-Gang and made their way through the sewers back to the house and then went into the kitchen.

"I'm really hungry." Buffy says opening the fridge and looking for in something she can eat, she then turns around and sees Angel smiling at her. "What?" Angel's eye line moved to Buffy's hands and she smiled. "I said I was hungry." Buffy is holding a big chocolate bar and in the other hand a pack of ham and cheese.

"Weird combination." Angel says shaking his head.

"You've never tried chocolate, cheese and ham?" Buffy says in shock. Angel shakes his head. "Look Chocolate and cheese good together, ham and cheese together is good also…. The ham and cheese is okay. Put all together is very nice."

"I'll take your word for it." Angel smiles and goes to the table and sits with her. She starts to eat and Angel takes a few bits here and there.

"It was all of them, mostly Giles."

Angel looks up to see Buffy fiddling with the tablecloth looking down. She was about to open up and Angel made sure he was alert to take it all in, even if he didn't want to know what she had to go through.

"Every day I would see them, they scared me. I thought I could trust them but they are monsters."

"The demons were monsters not your friends."

"Right that's what I mean, I think the shape shifters chose to look like people I call my family."

Angel nods, hoping she will still remember that the demons that hurt her were not her friends.

"I-I…." Buffy shook her head finding it hard to recall everything.

"It's okay Buffy. Don't need to tell me everything." He takes Buffy's hands in his and squeezes them a little. She looks into his trusting eyes and gives a small smile as two tears fall down her cheeks.

"I hate it." She whispers.

"I know."

"No, you don't understand. I hate the fact it was real" Buffy says, Angel looks confused." If it was just my soul that was tortured it would be easier I think, but it wasn't. I came back with the cuts and scars and they're taking forever to go. I can feel the dirt on my skin and fell the heat from where I was and the fear that turned me cold all the time. It wasn't just my soul that went to hell; I was in a hell dimension. My body was there. This body and I can't change it. This is the body they did stuff to. That they broke. I want to stop feel this." Buffy cries more and Angel moves to hold her.

"It's okay. I know we can't change it but things will get better Buffy. Please trust me."

While angel held his love he felt a very small nod from Buffy acknowledging that Angel spoke the truth.

Wow I know short chapter, so sorry for that after such a long wait but I need to get back into the story, I'll make the next chapter longer for you. Review anything that you want including in the fic and I will try and make it happen.

Thanks for reading.