Just Livin' My Life Chapter 10 and 11, a twilight fanfic

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Chapter Ten: Bella's POV.

I drove home, not caring what the speed limit was. I was fuming. Literally. But deep down, I was happy because I was finally able to tell them how I felt.

Sensing my car, the portal opened automatically. I pulled my car in the driveway. Each of us had his own garage, so I stationed my car into mine.

While taking the elevator, I decided that it was time for some music, because singing and playing instruments always seemed to make me relax. I headed towards the theatre. Thanks to Safya, we had almost all the music instruments that the human people could imagine. I smiled. Karaoke time!

I choose "Gone" by Kelly Clarkson. I loved this song because it described me perfectly.

What you see's not what you get
With you there's just no measurement
No way to tell what's real from what isn't there
Your eyes they sparkle
That's all changed into lies that drop like acid rain
You washed away the best of me
You don't care

You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You were wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone

Sometimes shattered
Never open
Nothing matters
When you're broken
That was me whenever I was with you
Always ending
Always over
Back and forth, up and down like a rollercoaster
I am breaking
That habit
Today

There is nothing you can say
Sorry doesn't cut it, babe
Take the hit and walk away
'Cause I'm gone
Doesn't matter what you do
It's what you did that's hurting you
All I needed was the truth
Now I'm gone

What you see's not what you get
What you see's not what you get

I choose next "Weight of the world" by Evanescence, one of my favorite songs by one of my favorite band.

Feels like the weight of the world,
Like God in heaven gave me a turn.
Don't cling to me, I swear I can't fix you.
Still in the dark, can you fix me?…

Freefall, freefall, all through life.

If you love me, then let go of me.
I won't be held down by who I used to be.
She's nothing to me.

Feels like the weight of the world,
Like all my screaming has gone unheard.
And oh, I know you don't believe in me.
Safe in the dark, how can you see?

Freefall, freefall, all through life.

If you love me, then let go of me.
I won't be held down by who I used to be.

If you love me, then let go of me
I won't be held down by who I was

If you love me, then let go of me
I won't be held down by who I used to be

I finished with "Walk Away" by Kelly Clarkson. I loved this song because it was so lighthearted while breaking up with someone at the same time.

You've got your mother and your brother
Every other undercover
Tellin' you what to say (say)
You think I'm stupid
But the truth is
That it's cupid, baby
Lovin' you has made me this way
So before you point your finger
Get your hands off of my trigger
Oh yeah
You need to know this situation's getting old
And now the more you talk
The less I can take, oh

I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why are you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away

I waited here for you
Like a kid waiting after school
So tell me how come you never showed (showed)?
I gave you everything
And never asked for anything
And look at me
I'm all alone (alone)
So, before you start defendin'
Baby, stop all your pretendin'
I know you know I know
So what's the point in being slow
Let's get the show on the road today
Hey

I wanna love
I want a fire
To feel the burn
My desires
I wanna man by my side
Not a boy who runs and hides
Are you gonna fight for me?
Die for me?
Live and breathe for me?
Do you care for me?
'Cause if you don't then just leave

I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why are you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away

If you don't have the answer
Walk away
Just walk (walk) away
(Just walk away)
Then just leave
Yeah yeah
Walk away
Walk away
Walk away…

Only then I noticed a figure leaning against the door frame.

"What the hell are you doing here, Edward?"

"Bella, please listen to me, love…"

I sighted. This was going to be a long, very long conversation…

IMPORTANT: I'm sorry because I know that I'm disturbing your peaceful reading, but I decided to put chapters 10 and 11 together. Otherwise, it's too short.

So the text you're about to read is originally chapter 11.

Enjoy!!

"Love, I'm so sorry. I left to protect you. To protect you from my kind… You didn't know how much it broke my heart to leave you there. Everything that I've told you was a lie, Bella."

I stood there, silent. I just didn't know what to do anymore. All of my practice to reject him seemed like nothing.

I couldn't let Edward walk back in my life like nothing ever happened. No, I couldn't do that. I wasn't that weak human Bella anymore. I would stand my ground.

Edward seemed to be waiting for me to say something. I opened my mouth, but no sound came. I took a deep breath and said:

"Look Edward. Right now, I harbor no feeling for you whatsoever but hate. Right now, I'm restraining myself not to slap you. And don't you ever call me love, please. That's the only request I'm asking you. Edward you don't know what might have happened during the last 50 years. Right now, I may have a boyfriend, a husband, a mate. Someone who'll never, ever leave me.

If you love me, than let go of me. And maybe someday, I'll come back to you. But right now, it's impossible. Let us be less than friends, okay?"

He had a really pained look on his face.

"… Alright. Just know that I'll always be there if you need any help…"

"Thank you." I smiled, even thought my eyes were not smiling. I still hated the guy. Well, maybe not hated, but more like disliked.

"Yeah. Bye, Bella…" he said, turning and walking away.

After making sure that the main door was closed, I teleported myself in my room. There, I saw my dear iPod touch on my bed. I grabbed it and put it on shuffle mode.

The first song was "Missing" by Evanescence. I remembered back when I was human, this song always made me cry every time I'd hear it. It's one of the most depressing songs ever. No kidding.

Please, please, forgive me
But I won't be home again
Maybe someday you'll look up
And barely conscious, you'll say to no one
"Isn't something missing??Isn't someone missing me?

You won't cry for my absence, I know
You forgot me long ago
Am I that unimportant?
Am I so insignificant?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please, forgive me
But I won't be home again
I know what you do to yourself
I breathe deep and cry out
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone
Isn't someone missing me?

And if I bleed, I'll bleed
Knowing you don't care
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something

Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone
Isn't something missing?

Next was ''Since U Been Gone'' by Kelly Clarkson.

Here's the thing we started off friends
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone…

You dedicated you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah Yeah
Since you've been gone

And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I pictured me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
What I want
Since you've been gone

How can I put it? you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

How come I never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
I guess you never felt that way

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone

You had your chance you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get
I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know)
That I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone

I just didn't want to think of Edward anymore, so I put Safya's favorite song:

Wake up in the morning
Feeling like P Diddy
[[ay what up girl]]
Grab my glasses
I'm out the door
I'm gonna hit the city
Before I leave
Brush my teeth with a
Bottle of Jack
Cause when I leave for
The night I aint coming back…

I'm talking pedicure on our toes (toes)
Tryin on all our clothes (clothes)
Boys blowin up our phones (phones)
Drop topping, playing our favorite CD's
Pulling up to the partys
Tryin a get a little bit (TIPSY)

Don't Stop
Make it Pop
DJ blown my speakers up
Tonight I'ma fight
Till we see the sunlight
Tick tock on the clock
But the party don't stop
No oh, oh oo whoa oo whoa oh
Oh oo whoa oo whoa oh

Aint got a care in the world
But got plenty of BEER
Aint got no money in my pocket
But I'm already here
And now the dudes are lining up
Cause they hear we got swagger
But we kick em to the curb
Unless they look like Mick Jagger

I'm talkin bout
Everybody getting crunk (crunk)
Boys try to touch my junk (junk)
Gonna smack em if they gettin too drunk (drunk)
Night night we going till they kick us out (out)
The police shut us down (down)
Police shut us down (down)
Po po shut us (DOWN)

Don't Stop
Make it Pop
DJ blown my speakers up
Tonight I'ma fight
Till we see the sunlight
Tick tock on the clock
But the party don't stop
No oh, oh oo whoa oo whoa oh
Oh oo whoa oo whoa oh

You build me up
You break me down
My heart it pounds
Yeah you got me
With my hands up
You got me now
You got that sound
Yeah you got me(ohh oo)
You build me up
You break me down
My heart it pounds
Yeah you got me
With my hands up
Put your hands up
Put your hands up
(Uuuuppp! )

Now the party don't start till I walk in...

Don't Stop
Make it Pop
DJ blown my speakers up
Tonight I'ma fight
Till we see the sunlight
Tick tock on the clock
But the party don't stop
No oh, oh oo whoa oo whoa oh
Oh oo whoa oo whoa oh

I let the darkness consume me and closed my eyes to sleep... (AN: since she has so many powers, she has to rest and sleep.)

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