A/N: This story is so contrasting with Unbreakable but that's the thing about Tony, he has so many layers there will never stop being good fics about him and the Avengers. I love how Marvel made him so adaptable so etcentric witha hint of mad genius, throw in a dash of self hate and a sprinkle of a very strong facade and you have the best characters of the fictional world.

"Stark what were you thinking!" Fury yelled at Tony for disobeying him

"Excuse me Fury maybe I was thinking I would save 200 lives! And guess what I did!" Tony was not going to take the heat for a fallen building that hadn't even hurt anyone

"I gave you a direct order!"

That's it! Tony snapped for the first time in over twenty years, he was relapsing "Oh well Captain America goes against orders; he gets a medal and is called a hero. I do it and I'm an arrogant bastard!" Of course he was referring to Steve's first rescue mission where he had gone in blind and unauthorised with only his father and Peggy Carter as help, Steve had come out with 200 soldiers who everyone thought was dead. They save the same amount of people they did the same thing; so why is it that while Tony was scolded by his father and now by Fury while Steve was raised above the rest as a selfless hero and praised.

"Stark how did you know about that those files aren't even on our systems?" Fury was about to grill Tony out for breaking in and finding the paper copies.

"You don't think the Great Howard Stark used to tell me how amazing Captain America is? Or how I am nothing compared to him; or how I should just die so he won't have to bother with me anymore, not that he ever did; or how I'm such a screw up I can't even kill myself correctly!" shit. He had relapsed. He hadn't relapsed in 2o years, he hadn't thought about that dark time in his life when he was just a kid desperate for his fathers love or even his approval when he had tried to kill himself via overdose, of course he had taken too little and Howard had managed to pass it off as a kid being stupid and taking too much by accident. Only Maria, Jarvis and Howard had known the truth and he'd never told anyone.

They would think he was weak. They would hate him. Just like his father hated him, like how Obie hated him and how the world hated him. He couldn't deal with the closest thing he had to friends besides Pepper and Rhodey slip away. He couldn't let him leave him alone again. But he couldn't stop them either they would just walk out of his life and not look back, they didn't need him. He was replaceable, expandable.

And that my faithful readers, is when Tony Stark started hyperventilating.

A/N: It's a short fic, I'll keep it short.