****I don't own Twilight**** a/n so this is my first story ever! so I hope I'm do a good job at the lemon part! Please review and let me know what you think and how you think this story should go!

Ch 13

Bella POV

I was getting more and more nervous as we got closer to the old house. I knew Jasper could feel my nervousness coming off me because in a few seconds I felt a wave of calm come over me. I looked up at Jasper and gave him a smile, I returned my gaze to the forest that was flashing by my window and before I knew it we were pulling up to the house. Jasper got out of the car and was at my door opening it before I could even move an inch, I extended my hand to Jasper and he pulled me into his arms.

"Bella if you want we can go straight back to your house, you don't have to do this if you don't want to."

"No I want to see them, I miss them so much Jasper."

Jasper pulled me closer into his arms and sent another wave of calm to me. I smiled back up at this wonderful man. "Thank you Jasper, it means so much to me that you are here with me."

We turned to the house and walked up to the door; we didn't even have a chance to knock on the door, Carlisle was opening the door before our hand was motioning to knock, "Bella my girl, it has been too long!"

"Hello Carlisle, I have missed you guys so much!"

Before I knew what was happening Esme had ran over to me swooping me into a big hug. "Bella my daughter I missed you, oh I am so sorry about how things went down could you ever forgive me?"

"Esme there is nothing to forgive; this was not your fault."

"Thank you Bella, now please come in and sit down."

Esme sat me back on my feet and Jasper came to my side and put his hand in mine. I looked down at my hand and back up at him, he had the largest smile on his face. We walked into the house hand and hand and sat down on the couch. Carlisle and Esme followed us taking a seat on the couch facing us. We sat there for a awhile just smiling at each other. Carlisle smiled and was the first one to break the silence, "Bella my girl how have you been, how is your father?"

"Charlie and I are both fine, I have moved out of his house and into one of my own."

"So I hear, when Jasper had told us of your relocation I didn't want to believe him at first."

"Well I figured that I was getting to old to be staying in my father's house under his rules, so I felt it was time for me to move out of my father's house and into one of my own. I also work full time at a store in Port Angeles."

I had noticed that Esme was fidgeting, which I thought was weird for a vampire.

"Esme what is on your mind?"

"Well Bella, I just feel so bad. I mean we all did what my son had asked for your safety and look you're still not safe. Now you have a mystery vampire or whatever after you. You're still not safe even though we left."

"Yah, well then again we all know that I am a danger magnet, you could put in me in a padded room and danger would still find a way to get to me."

We all had a laugh at my comment and then continued to talk about what I have been up to lately. We talked about work, school, friends and then Jacob. Carlisle was taking the news of my best friend being werewolf better than Esme.

"Bella how could you be so reckless and befriend a werewolf. I know they really are not that bad once they are use to everything but at first they are kind of reckless. I just don't want anything to happen to you, we just got you back!"

I looked at Esme and just smiled at her, even though we were separated for 3 years she still has the motherly affection towards me.

"Esme thank you for your concern, I understand where you are coming from but Jacob is different. He is a strong man and he cares for me very much, I trust Jacob with my life and I know he would never do anything to hurt me."

"Well Bella if you can trust this new wolf, then so can I! Now why don't you tell us about these new friends of yours?"

"Who the girls? Well they are friends I made from work, we hang out all the time and we are just very close. We treat each other like sisters, and we don't keep any secrets......well I keep just one but that is about it. Now why don't you tell me how everyone is."

Esme looked over at Jasper then back at Carlisle with such a sad look on her face, I was starting to get worried when Esme didn't answer me yet continued to look in Carlisle eyes.

"Esme what is wrong?"

She didn't even look at me; she just looked down at her hands. Carlisle put his hand on hers and was the one to answer me.

"Well Bella my dear things are ok, Rose and Emmett have gone off to travel, Alice has also left to find her past, and Edward.........well......let's just say Edward has closed himself off to an existent but he also has thrown himself into getting another music degree."

"Oh Carlisle I am so sorry for everything, this is all my fault, if I had never moved here then I would never had met Edward. Carlisle I am so sorry for braking up your family please forgive me!"

I could feel the tears start to well up as I threw myself into Carlisle, wrapping my arms and baring my head into his chest. I could feel the tears rolling down my cheeks and Carlisle wrapping his arms around me. As I sobbed into his chest Carlisle started to rub his hand down my head while trying to calm me down. "Ssshhh is okay my sweet girl; don't be sorry for coming into our lives. Bella it was not a mistake for you coming here, it was a blessing. You stumbled your way into our lives and have brought the light with you. Yes Edward at this point in time has shut the world out but that is only because he feels so bad about how everything happened. It is not your fault that this family has split, Rose and Emmett always go on vacation and it was time for Alice to find out who she really is. Please my sweet girl don't blame yourself."

I looked up through my tear filled eyes at Carlisle who just had a smile on his face and I could see in his eyes that he was truly sincere about his words.

"Thank you Carlisle, I just missed you all so much!"

"Well Bella my sweet girl we are here now, but it looks like it is getting late and I don't want to keep you up the whole night. We will stay here for a few more days while we try to figure out who is behind this whole mess. But for now, please go home and get some rest."

We all got up from where we were sitting and took turns hugging. I wiped away my tears and said my good byes and promised that I would be back before they left. Jasper walked me to the car and opened my door, "So darlin' how was it, I hope seeing them wasn't too hard on you."

I couldn't believe that Jasper thought seeing my favorite vampire parents would be hard, the only thing hard was hearing about Edward. Come on girl get some control, he left you and now you have the hottest looking cow boy vamp in the world holding the door open for you. I put my hand on top of Jasper's hand and gave him a kiss on the cheek.

"No silly that was not hard at all, now why don't we get back home, I have to work in the morning."

We both got in the car and started to drive back to the house, the whole ride home all I could think about was how my family and dispersed and moved on. Do any of them really miss me? I know Esme and Carlisle miss me, but what about Emmett and Alice? I know Rose would never miss me and I know Edward doesn't miss me, but yet they said he had closed himself off to the world and is throwing himself into some more work! Why on earth would he do such a thing? He said he didn't love me anymore and that I was not good enough for him. He much just feel bad for stringing me along all the time! Well fuck him he just about killed me emotionally and he disserves all the pain he is getting!

"Umm...darlin what's wrong?"

Damn, I keep forgetting to keep my emotions in control.

"Oh nothing much just thinking."

"About what, I don't mean to pry but your feelings are going all over the place. Lonely, happiness, sadness, anger, regret, then anger again."

"Hmmm....how am I to put this. Well I know Carlisle and Esme miss me but I was just wondering about the others. Alice was my best friend yet she has not tried to contact me in any way, and Emmett was like a big brother to me and I can understand that he doesn't try to contact me since Rose hates me to death. And I know Edward's reason but still Em and Alice it just doesn't make sense."

"Darlin' don't worry about them, they will come around when they are good and ready. Please don't worry, and trust me they miss you very much I could feel the pain and sadness flowing off them in tidal waves whenever they thought about you. Please Bella just don't worry about them, let's focus on you and keeping you safe."

I gave Jasper a smile and a nod and we both sat in comfortable silence the rest of the way home. We parked the car and walked up to the house and there by the door was a box with my name on it.

"Hmmm.....I wonder what this could be." I picked the box up and gave it a quick shake. I opened the door and carried it into the house. I sat on the couch with the box still trying to figure out who it could be from since there was no name on it other than mine.

I opened to find the box filled with boxes of Scooby snack, bags of popcorn, a DVD copy of Monster Squad and a note.

Bells,

I am sorry for how I acted and I hope you won't stay to mad. Next time we will watch the movie at YOUR house on YOUR terms and please tell Jasper that I am sorry too. Bells please forgive me!

Jake

"Ahhh so the pup has a heart."

"Jasper that is not nice, Jake feels bad about how he acted." I closed the box and turned to Jasper. "So why don't we go to bed, it's been a long day."

We walked up stairs to our rooms to get things ready for bed; I could hear Jasper in his room so I headed off for the bathroom. Once I was done with my night time rituals I walked into my room to see Jasper sitting on the edge of my bed.

"Bell I know you said you forgive me for that night but I still feel really bad about it."

I walked over to where he was sitting and sat down next to him. I grabbed his hand and held in my own. "Jasper please don't apologize for anything, I don't hold you responsible for how things ended. So please Jasper don't blame yourself."

"Bella I am so....." I couldn't let Jasper go on blaming himself, so I stopped him right in his tracks with a kiss. This will keep him from blaming himself for something that was his fault!

I still can't believe how good it feels to kiss him. It is out of this world how our lips feel together, Edward was always so protective with me when we kissed but Jasper..........well Jasper.......he is just better! I let his hand go and moved my hand to his head running my fingers through his hair and pulling him closer. I knew we both felt an attraction to one another but I was still not sure how deep his feelings went. I climbed on top of him straddling his legs, running my other hand into his hair as well while he put his arms around me and pulled me closer. I ran my tongue across his bottom lip hoping that he would grant me access and he did. I can't explain the feeling of our tongues together moved against each other; it just sent a tingling sensation throughout my whole body. Edward never kissed me like this, I love how this feels!

Jasper started to pull away and I thought he was going to break our kiss but instead he pulled me with him. I was now once again straddling on top of him on my bed. I could feel his hands tracing my back and finding its way under my shirt. His hands felt so good on my skin, it was the sweetest torture to have his cold hands on my bare skin! I let out a moan in his mouth as I felt him move his hands up and down my back. Jasper broke our kiss but he never let his mouth leave my body, instead he trailed kisses from my mouth to my collarbone. The tingly sensation got even worse when he would blow on the spot where he kissed, and each time I let out a soft moan which I knew was turning him on. I let out another moan from Jasper sucking on my ear and before I knew what had happened Jasper had flipped us over and was on top of me staring at me. Oh god please don't make him stop! I smiled at him and bit my bottom lip.

"Bella......I don't know if this should be happening."

"Jasper please, I know you are attracted to me and I am to you also. Please Jasper don't deny me this, I need this Jasper please!"

"Bella, I just don't kno..."

There was no way in hell I was going to let him get away that easily! I smashed my lips back to his pulling him back down on top of my and wrapping my legs around his waist. That outta keep him here! I through all the lust and desire I had for him into my kiss again running my tongue against his lip begging for entrance, and once I was granted entrance I seeked out his tongue and showed him how much I needed this! I ran my hands through his hair and grabbed onto it, while he ran one hand from the side to my ass pulling me closer into him. I knew he would not deny me what I wanted once I felt his member pulsing against my entrance.

I broke our kiss and trailed kisses from his lips down to his collarbone and ran my tongue back up to his ear blowing air on the fresh wet trail. I heard a low growl escape his chest when I planted my lips at the end of the trail and then moved to nibble on his ear lobe. I heard another low growl when I tugged on his ear with my teeth and he pulled me closer into him and I could feel his member even more rubbing against my pajama shorts which in turn made me even more turned on! I removed my hands from his hair and made my way down to his chest; I traced the outlines of his muscles and imagined us together and having the most amazing sex ever! Oh I hope I hope I hope we get to! Just as I was going to start pulling his shirt up I heard a tap at the window! WHO EVER THE FUCK THAT IS, IS GOING TO DIE A SLOW AND PAINFUL DEATH! We both looked over to see my big brother Em sitting in my tree with his mouth hanging open! I turned my head at Jasper and just smiled, he gave me a smile and a chaste kiss on my lips before pulling himself away. I looked over at Emmett now standing in my room by my window with such rage that I wished my looks could just blast him right through the window! I looked back over at Jasper when I heard a crashing sound and when my eyes returned to where Emmett was standing he was no longer there and my window was smashed into many little pieces.

We ran over to the window to see Emmett standing below my window itching his head probably wondering what happened. I looked over at Jasper who had a puzzled look on his face as well, "Hey Em if you're done fooling around get up here."

I walked back over to the bed and sat down still wondering what happened. I looked up to see Em and Jasper standing by the window talking.

"Hey Jazz what the hell was that man?"

"I don't know, why did you break Bella's window, now she is going to catch a cold from all the cold air coming in."

"What are you talking about I didn't do that on purpose, all I was doing was standing at the window watching you guys and then the next thing I remember was feeling be pushed right out the window! I didn't see anyone but then again nothing could just push me out the window, I'm fucking strong like He-man!"

"Hmmm.....I don't know Em you kind act like a little girl sometimes!"

"Fuck you Jazz! Talk to the hand cause the face don't want to listen."

I couldn't help but laugh as I watched those two argue, Emmett had his hand up in a stop motion and his other hand on his hip!

"Ok ok why don't you girls have a seat?"

Emmett ran over to me and picked me up off the bed and gave me a giant bear hug.

"Em can't breathe!"

"Oh sorry sis."

"Thanks Em so why are you here."

"Well dad and mom called me about some new monster trying to attack you, I came to do some tracking but I guess the only monster I see is my brother over there!"

"Emmett be nice, he is not the monster."

"Oh Bella don't cover for him, what did that little pervert do to you? Did he use his emotion trick to get you in bed? Oh Bella are you okay?"

"Fuck you Em I would never trick Bella into something like that and I would never use my power over her like that! Fuck you man!"

"Yah Em Jazz would never do something like that! But thanks for interrupting you big goof!"

"Well that's what I am here for; to protect my lil sis from perverts who want to steal their innocents away from them! Wait a minute I am not too late am I?"

Ah crap why would he go and ask me a question like that! Shit how am I supposed to answer him without scaring Jasper off!

"Well BIG brother if you must know..........NO you're not too late, gees' what a nosey ass!"

"Ah come on Bells don't me mad! I just want to keep you pure and innocent that's all! I don't want you to turn in a sex crazed pervert like my dear brother over there and my wife!"

I could feel my face starting to blush when I was looking at Jasper and he had a small smile on his face that I knew he had to be trying to hold it back. Crap I hope I don't scare Jasper away! I really really wish that he would come over here and interrupt my dear old brother bear before I die of embarrassment!

"Hey Em as much as I know Bella is enjoying her dear old brother bear here, why don't you let her get some sleep its 6am and Bella has work at 10!"

"Oh my god it's that late! Crap I'm going to be so fucking tired!"

"Bella darlin' don't worry just go and take my bed while me and Em fix your window!"

"Sure thanks Jazz." I stood up and gave Em a big hug and gave Jasper a kiss on his cheek before I left the room. I walked to Jasper's room still wondering what the hell was going on. Did I just toss Emmett out the window, and did Jasper just come over and do what I was hoping for him to do? What the fuck is going on here? I crawled into Jasper's bed and I couldn't believe how comfortable I was in it! It smelt just like him, I always thought that he smelt like hay and magnolias! I grabbed one of his pillows and pulled it close pretending that it was him as I drifted into sleep. Hmmmm good night my sweet southern love.

A/N Okay so I know there were no real lemons but I'm working my way up to it! I don't want to just give it straight to you because where is the fun in that! Just imagine that your favorite Cullen boy is playing with you and he won't let you cum or give you what you really want until he is ready to! That is the same for me; I know what you want but you're not getting it yet! Please be gentle and let me know what you think! If I like your review maybe I will send you a message with your own private peak into what is coming down the road! So at the end of your review let me know what you would like to see! Love yah, Angel