A/N: Last conflict is resolved in this chapter, which makes me happy! Chase gets a little more face time. As annoying as he is, I actually really like Chase. But do you know what I like more? Reviews! I would very much so appreciate more reviews. It made me very happy that I got one more. Yup, enjoy, review!

I don't belong here, I think while doing my laundry Saturday night. This is a house for heroes, the ones that protect the city that, more than once, I've almost destroyed. Even though Robin told me early this morning that I'm a hero, I'm having trouble believing it. It's time for me to go, and not only because tomorrow's Sunday. It's time for me to face the truth and leave the Titans forever. If I don't quit now, I never will. And now that all of this has happened, I can't stay. I almost turned on my friends again, wanted to destroy them...it's too much. I can't handle it any more. I need to forget again, and I find myself wishing that I had never regained my memory.

I pause outside the common room and take a deep breath. They're all going to be in there, watching Beast Boy's zombie movie, asking me to join them. And then I'll break their hearts and mine as I tell them my decision. The smiles will fade, replaced by expressions of sorrow. But sooner or later, it has to be done.

The lights are off, the late-night sky is dark, and the Titans are watching people be turned into zombies and take over the world. I smile sadly at them, especially Raven, behind whom Starfire is hiding.

Robin turns around at the light that's streaming in from the hallway with the door open. I apologize and close the door.

"Terra, come watch with us!" he says. My heart wrenches in pain.

"I...I can't," I reply, refusing to let any tears come to my eyes. No, I've done enough crying in the past week.

"Come on, Terra!" begs Beast Boy. "It's getting even better than I thought it would be!"

"Yeah, Raven joins in. "You're not easily scared. Get Starfire away from me."

"Please, friend, join us!" Starfire dares to peek at the screen, and quickly hides again with a squeal.

"We've got extra popcorn!" Cyborg holds up a huge container of the snack.

"Sorry, I didn't come for the movie or popcorn." I take a deep, pained breath. "I came to say goodbye."

The movie is immediately paused and there are five devastated pairs of eyes looking at me in a way that I am again reminded of how much they really love me.

"Terra...why?" asks Beast Boy, the first to speak.

"I need to get back to my life. I can't keep pretending. I can't be a hero and in high school. My finals are this week, and I haven't studied; I'm gonna fail them all. And I almost turned on you—again! I don't want to put you in danger any more than I have before. Besides, my mom won't let me keep going on like this. It's time for our last goodbye."

"What's wrong with staying here, other than not studying?" Robin looks positively broken, just as much as Beast Boy does. "It's almost summer. There's no studying to be done. Terra, you have to stay. You and I finally have family."

"I know...but having Batman's ex sidekick as your brother, and a villain as your father, right after being normal for months, it just freaks me out. I'm just glad that Slade's been arrested. But I can't do this."

"Yes, you can." I'm surprised that Raven has spoken. "Your dad is Slade. So what? My dad is a demon that tried to end the world, and torments my every thought. You and Robin have got it off easy." She looks down. "And I shouldn't have been so hard on you about Slade, since I helped Trigon end the world."

"But you knew for your whole life that he was your father! I just found out last week, and now, after fifteen years, I'm finally finding out that my dead father and brother are actually alive, and I've worked under both of them without knowing it." I turn to Robin, wishing I could see his eyes again. "How have you been able to live through this, knowing Slade is your father?"

Robin comes and puts his hand on my shoulder. "It hurts to know that he's my father. Since the people who raised me died, I always saw Batman as my father. And now that I know my real father is the one person who has tried multiple times to kill me and my friends, I'm falling apart inside."

"Then how are you still so happy?"

He smiles. "I still have a great family. All of the Titans are my family. And I've found one of my little sisters."

"But don't you think you were better off without a sister to take care of?"

"No, of course not. Terra, my earliest memory is being held by my father, looking at my mother with my two new baby sisters. All these years, I thought it was a dream. I'm glad it's real." He laughs. "I've always wanted a sibling."

I shake my head. "Ever since I met you, I knew that you were way stronger than I ever will be when it comes to things like this. I ran from all of you when you mentioned my trouble controlling my powers. You kept a level head while I freaked out. And you wouldn't want someone who freaks out like that on your team. Or as your troublesome sister. I'll go now." I turn away from them and open the door. In a flash, there is a pair of arms wrapped around me from behind, and Cyborg is standing in front of the door. The arms, I find out, belong to Beast Boy.

"Please don't go," he says.

I remove his arms and face him. "I have to."

"It would give me such joy if you would stay," sniffs Starfire, who has been crying for the past few minutes.

"You know we want you around when I'm asking you to stay." Raven is the only one that doesn't seem heartbroken, but she's finally being nice to me again. As I'm about to leave.

"Terra." I look at Beast Boy. "One more night. For me."

"And for me." Robin pulls me into a protective hug. "Just one."

I take a deep breath. "One more night. I'm leaving tomorrow morning."

There is a collective cheer and Beast Boy drags me over to the couch to watch the movie with them. I end up sitting between Beast Boy and Robin, the two I've always been closest to and felt comfortable with. It's much to Raven's dismay, as Starfire is still hiding behind her. We watch the zombies destroy cities like Tokyo and new York City. I'm holding Beast Boy's hand and leaning on Robin. I have to admit, it's nice to have a big brother, especially when he's a superhero, the leader of the heroes of the city.

I fall asleep at the climax—proving that I'm not easily scared (and that the whole Slade situation is really throwing me off because it's the one thing that has been scaring me). One of the boys must have carried me to my bed, because I wake up under the stars on my ceiling. It just makes me want to stay.

My bag is packed from last night, since I packed most of the things in my room in expectation that I would already be back home. I sling my bag over my shoulder, going to find the Titans in combat training. They all stop to give me hugs—well, except Raven.

"Beast Boy," I hear Robin whisper. "Walk her home."

Beast Boy comes over to me. "Do you want me to carry your bag?"

"I can get it," I tell him. "Thanks, though." I turn to the rest of the Titans. "Well...this is it. Goodbye." Honestly, there is a twinge of guilt inside me that I'm leaving my brother just a week after finding out that we're related.

Beast Boy and I begin to walk away without a word. A hand gently grabs my arm and stops me. I turn to see Raven. She pulls me into a firm hug. After recovering from a moment of shock, I return the hug.

"Let her go Rae," says Cyborg, coming over to us. "You're only making it harder on all of us."

We back away from each other, and before I can have any second thoughts, I turn and take off at a jog with Beast boy trailing behind me. Only once I lift a large rock from the ground to take us to the city do I slow down. Now it's too late to go back. I've made my decision, and I'm not changing my mind.

"I'm going to miss you, Terra," Beast Boy says sadly, taking my hand.

"I'm going to miss you, too. But you understand, don't you? My life can't continue like this. I have to choose a family, and I can't choose Slade's. Not again."

"Yeah...I guess so. But...can I still come and see you?"

"No. I need to leave you guys behind. I'm going to start going by Macy again, and next school year, I'll focus on my homework and keep my grades up."

"Why do you feel you need to leave us behind?"

I take a deep breath as we reach the doorstep of my home. "We live in different worlds now, Beast Boy. You're a Teen Titan, and I'm an average high school girl. In my world, the only things that matter are keeping up with chores and getting good grades. As a Titan, you don't go to school, and you barely have any chores, unless you count saving the city on a daily basis. It's a great world. It's just not mine."

"But Terra, you're a Titan too. And you've gotten great control over your powers."

"I was a Titan. You've seen me lately. My powers are strongest when I'm with Slade, and who knows if I'll go back to him again? Me being a Titan only ever leads to me turning on you and trying to take over the city. It's happened twice. Well, close to twice. He's the only one that's ever been able to help me, and after vowing that I never would, I went back to him, even though I was undercover. I can't go to my father again."

"We can help you! To strengthen your powers and to resist Slade! You know we can help you! Please, Terra, don't do this!" I see him fighting back the tears that begin to overwhelm his eyes, and I swat a tear off my own cheek as well. I'm annoyed that I'm crying again. Why does this week need to be so emotional?

"I hate to say this to you again, but things change. And sometimes you have to let them. I know it's hard, but we need to let go." Tears are flowing steadily down both our faces now. "I have a life right through that door, and at some point, I need to get back to it. I can't keep pretending. It's time to face the fact that I will never again be a Titan. It just won't work—stop crying, Beast Boy!" I'm wiping my face repeatedly because it won't dry due to my crying. Beast boy and I are both sobbing on my doorstep, trying to accept these truths, and doing a very bad job.

"I'm sorry, Terra! I can't! I'm not myself when you're not at the tower. I miss you so much when you're gone. And I believe you can be a Titan again."

"It just wouldn't work. That's not my life, even my world anymore. Now I need to get inside. It's my turn to clean the kitchen, and I can't slack off. And my name isn't Terra. It's Macy. Goodbye, Beast Boy." I turn from him and just as I reach for the doorknob, my arm is grabbed and the green boy yanks me back to face him again. Then he pulls me toward him and presses his lips to mine. Momentarily, I have no idea what to do and almost fight it. But no, I close my eyes and return the kiss, allowing more soft, silent tears to roll down my cheeks.

When we part, not crying nearly as hard, we stare at each other for a second before Beast Boy wraps his arms around me protectively. As he speaks, his voice is breaking, but still kept fairly even. "If this is what you want, then I won't stop you. Just know that I love you and that you mean the world to me." He pulls away and holds my shoulders at arms length. Then he takes out a silver butterfly hair clip and puts it in my hair. "Goodbye, Terra."

I walk into the house, trying to dry my face with the black sleeve of my Titans uniform. I see the usual thing: Tony is playing with his action figures, Sally is using the computer for homework, Dad—thank goodness I can call him Dad instead of calling Slade my dad—Is in his recliner, reading the Sunday news paper, Mom is on the phone, and Chase is nowhere to be seen, because he's probably still asleep.

"Welcome back, sweetie," says Dad. They've all figured out their own nicknames for me so they can avoid calling me Macy or Terra because they tend to get confused.

"Thanks, Dad," I say, and take a deep breath. "By the way, I won't be going to see the Titans anymore."

He looks at me from over his glasses and lowers the news paper. His expression changes to concern. "Is something wrong? What happened?"

"Nothing," I reply, flashing a smile.

Dad furrows his eyebrows. "You sure, sweetie?"

"Yeah, everything's fine. The Titans are really busy lately, and they need to focus on fighting crime. Besides, I'll have summer reading to do soon."

"Hmm. Okay. It's just not like you to so willingly leave them, especially if you're not going back. You've been so happy with them."

"I know. But I don't want to fall behind in classes again next school year." I pause. "All right, I'm going up to my room. Later, Dad." Dad. I dwell sadly on how he's not my real father. I've known that the whole time I've lived with these people, but my real father is the one person I can't imagine facing ever again.

"So, Titan sister," says Chase as he comes into my room. "When am I going to see your friend Raven again?"

"Never." I refuse to look at him. "And...you can call me Macy again."

Chase doesn't say anything for a moment, then comes to sit on the edge of my bed. His voice takes on the same note of concern as his father. "I've seen her like three times. Now never? We can call you Macy again? What's up?"

"I'm not going to see the Titans anymore."

"Figured that out. For the past what, two months, you've been demanding that your name is Terra, and talking about the Titans. Why aren't you going to see them? What happened?"

"Absolutely nothing."

"Terra, I know a lie when I hear one."

My head snaps up and I finally make eye contact with him. That's the first time he's ever called me Terra, even act like he cares for me. I give a defeated sign and quietly explain everything to him—including the facts that I was previously Slade's apprentice, I just about died, and that I almost betrayed all my friends again. Chase doesn't interrupt me, except for an occasional question to better understand. I end by telling him that I know I can only live one life with one family, and I've chosen my normal one.

"Well, why did you do that?" he asks.

"Because...wait...that's a stupid question!"

"No, it's not. I can tell that even through your bad past, and fear of Slade, and confusion about where you stand, on the good or bad side, with one family member on each, you're happier with the Titans. You're happier on the good side, not in the neutral zone. You may think you belong here, being named Macy, going to high school, but you'll be more miserable knowing you're not normal while trying to pretend you are, than you will be facing your past head-on and accepting who you are."

"So you're saying that I should tell everyone at school what I am?"

"I'm saying you shouldn't have chosen us."

"But if I chose the Titans, I'd be leaving all of you and dropping out of school! I'd be giving up everything."

"Except the happiness of yourself, your brother, your friends, your little green boyfriend—I saw the two of you outside—and the safety of the city. We'll all be a lot safer with six Titans, rather than five."

After a moment, I nod. I know he's right. I'll never be happy pretending I'm normal. I'm almost as far from normal as a person can be. The only way to be happy with how strange I am is to be around people as weird as I am. To be a Titan. That's always been the only way.

Chase hugs me. "I'm here for you, little sister. You can come to me about anything, even while you're living with the Titans."

"Yeah. Okay."

"When are you going to tell Mom and Dad that you're dropping out of school and leaving?"

"Later in the week." I let go of Chase and lay down on my bed. "When Mom isn't frantic about anything. And who knows? Maybe it won't be for good. I'm still going to visit you guys, and maybe even the school. I'll have to keep in touch with Julie and Sierra anyway."

"Well, good." He winks at me. "Besides, I need to see your friend Raven again. And I'll never forgive you if you didn't visit me." Chase gets up and starts to walk out of my room.

"Hey Chase." He turns and looks back at me. I smile. "Thanks."

"Anytime." Chase leaves, and I'm left alone with my thoughts.