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Chapter Ten: I Want to Hold Your Hand

"The contract ends here. Let's get a divorce."

These words kept mulling around in her head the whole awkward car ride back to Syaoran's apartment. She told herself that she should be happy. She was finally free, and that she wouldn't have to be thrust into the spotlight anymore. However, another part of her, which she wasn't for sure if she wanted to admit yet, was breaking.

He had become a constant figure in her life. Sure he started off as a nuisance, and then that nuisance turned into an almost relationship. Who knows what would have happened between them if they hadn't found out the truth.

Sakura shook her head scolding herself. They still didn't know for sure. However, she couldn't help but to think if they ended up being siblings then at least she could still have some kind of relationship with him… even if it was brotherly affection.

"I will still go with you," she heard him say.

Looking up she saw that he was still intently staring out of his own window.

She didn't have to ask what he meant, that he would go with her to speak with Ryuuren, so instead she said, "Thank you… Syaoran-kun."

Hearing his name hit him like a weight. He knew this was for the best, but a small part of him reminded him that he also thought not telling her the truth was for the best. Sakura frowned when she saw him reach into his wallet.

"Here," he said passing her the picture.

Sakura gasped taking in the picture he held out to her. She had thought she lost it. It was one of her most favorite pictures of her and her father. She had run her first full marathon in honor of her mother, and her father had been at the finish line cheering her on. She remembered being so happy, and flinging her arms around him in triumph. Touya quickly snapped the picture, and captured the perfect moment between father and daughter.

Looking up at Syaoran she asked, "How did you-? "

"I took it," he answered cutting her off. "From your journal. I don't even know why I took it," he admitted staring down into his lap guilty. He found himself laughing, "I guess I've sort of started to think of it as a good luck charm, but I guess it apparently doesn't work." Looking up he was startled to see her green eyes so close.

"Why did you take it, Syaoran?" she asked. She didn't say it accusingly; instead it sounded like she was asking him a different question all together.

Clearing his throat he quickly backed away. "Anyway, you can take your time moving out this week. I have a pretty busy schedule so no rush."

"Oh okay," Sakura said sounding defeated. "What do you have going on?" she asked curious.

"It's crazy to say, but I'm finally starting to record my album, "he started to say but was cut off by a crushing hug.

"That's great! Congratulations!" she cried gleefully.

He couldn't help but to laugh, and pat her back. "Not really. I have no idea what I'm doing."

Pulling back she smiled joyfully up at him. "You will do great, Syaoran-kun."

He felt his cheeks heating up, and quickly backed away again. "Psht I know I'll do fine," he said gruffly.

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"Welcome home Mr. and Mrs. Li," Wei greeted warmly.

"Wei, what are you doing here?" Syaoran said surprised walking in, and setting down his luggage.

"I came to drop off some documents for you to look at, and took the liberty of bringing in some packages that were left for you downstairs," Wei said taking off Syaoran's jacket without him needing to ask.

Wei had started off as the family butler that quickly became a trusted confidant. Now Wei helped run the Li Corporation as an adviser, but old habits still died hard especially where the young master was concerned.

"Wei!" Sakura greeted running up, and forgetting all formalities and giving him a big hug.

Wei laughed a little uncomfortable at her American ways. "Ah, Mrs. Li-"

"Sakura is just fine Wei," Sakura scolded.

"Mrs. Li-," he began again choosing to ignore her request, "One of the packages was for you. I sat it in your room for you."

With one gleeful cry Sakura scurried to her room thinking it was a care package from her father. Every month he sent her one containing her favorite American products that you just couldn't get in China. However instead of finding her favorite deodorant, tampons (seriously why aren't there any good tampons in China?), and of course coffee beans (why so much tea?) she was instead greeted with a blank box.

With shaking hands she reached into the box, and screamed aloud when her hand came back bloody.

Hearing her scream, Syaoran quickly ran into the room without knocking and was shocked when he saw her bloody hand.

"Sakura?! What-"he started to say, but then stopped when she looked up at him with terrified eyes.

He was at her side in a moment, and quickly pulled her to him facing her away from the box. With tentative eyes Syaoran looked into the package, and his stomach did flip flops. A cherry blossom twig lay in the box covered with blood. The only explanation was a typed note that said: Stay away from Li Xiao Lang… or else.

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She was still shaking a little bit when he handed her a mug of milk and honey. "I don't understand… who would do this?"

Syaoran sighed running his hands through his hair. "I'm sad to say that I have some pretty crazy fans out there, but up until this point they have been pretty harmless."

"Well I guess that's it then," Sakura said sitting down her mug. "I'll leave before morning-"

"If you think I'm letting you out of my sight for one moment now you are crazy."

Sakura looked up stunned. "But the note said-"

"I don't care what that note said. That was a blatant threat on my wife, and there is no way I'm letting you leave my sight," he said standing up and pacing the room. "I'm going to have to get you bodyguards and a security detail. I'm so stupid that I haven't done it up until now."

"Syaoran-kun-"Sakura tried to say, but was cut off.

"Of course we will have to do background checks on everyone we know. Not everyone knows this address."

"Syaoran-kun-"Sakura tried again.

"Thank god school hasn't started back up yet. You should give up teaching for the time being as well."

"Li Xiao Lang!" Sakura said this time more forcibly causing Syaoran to stop pacing.

"What? Are you okay? Are you hurt?" he asked concerned coming back to her side, and taking her hand. "Damn there are still traces of red on your hand. Here, let me go get a towel-"

"Would you shut up for a moment?" Sakura said forcing him to sit back down. "Syaoran-kun, I'm okay. I was just really surprised that's all. So you can breathe," she added with a smile.

He didn't realize he had been holding his breath. Feeling his heart rate go back to normal he let out a long sigh. "I'm sorry but I don't think we can get a divorce now."

All he got was a smile in return. "You called me your wife just then."

"I did?" he asked shocked.

Sakura nodded happily. "You said that was a blatant threat on my wife."

"Oh I guess I did," Syaoran said not meeting her eyes.

"I liked it," he heard her barely whisper. Looking up he was greeted with those shining eyes of hers. "I liked hearing you say I'm your wife."

They both stared at each other for a moment completely lost for words. It was the kind of silence that you could almost hear. Shifting closer to her he reached out with a shaking hand, and gently cupped her face. He felt her let out a shaky breath that only made his pulse quicken once more.

"I want to kiss you… is that wrong?" he found himself asking aloud.

"And is it wrong that I want you to?" was the only answer he got.

He tensely leaned forward, and looked into her eyes one last time for permission. She gave a small nod, and that was all he needed. He closed the distance in a heartbeat, and both felt their pulses sky rocket as their lips met in their forbidden kiss. This kiss was different. The others they had shared were heated and urgent, but this was soft and delicate. Like they both knew that this perfect moment couldn't last.

Pulling away Sakura sniffed, "This is so unfair," she found herself asking again, "Why did it have to be you?"

Now Syaoran didn't need to be confused to know what she meant because he felt the same. Kissing her one last time on the forehead he drew her close, and rested his head on hers. "I know Sakura… I know."

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"Oh Sakura-chan I'm so sorry," Tomoyo said sadly staring up at her maid of honor.

Sakura was over at Tomoyo's house for the maid of honor's dress fitting. Tomoyo could hardly believe that next month she would be getting married.

"No I don't want you to be sad Tomoyo-chan this is a happy day," Sakura said putting on a cheerful face. "And this dress is beautiful!" she exclaimed twirling around.

It was a beautiful, deep lavender with a sweetheart neckline. The entire bodice was a delicate purple lace with capped sleeves that billowed out to a flowing skirt. It was definitely a lot more restrained than a normal Tomoyo design.

Tomoyo blushed prettily. "Thank you, I worked very hard on it."

Once Sakura spun back around Tomoyo couldn't help but to stare up at her friend sadly. She knew Sakura was putting a brave face for her sake. She had finally managed to get Sakura to tell her everything that was going on. It broke her heart for her friend to know she was in love, but it was a possible forbidden love.

"Where's your dress?!" Sakura asked excitedly.

Tomoyo smiled and went to fetch it.

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"Sakura!"

She heard someone yell from the distance. Confused she turned around only to be greeted with Blake's smiling face.

"Blake!" she greeted.

Sakura was meeting Blake at Starbucks to catch up since he had been gone for awhile on holiday.

"So are you excited for the new semester to start?" Blake asked tearing off a piece of lemon cake, and dunking it in his coffee.

She took her time sipping her macchiato before she replied, "Actually I'm not coming back this semester."

He looked up at her shocked. "What? Why?!"

Clearing her throat uncomfortably she said, "Syaoran and I feel that it's for the best right now-"

"Li Syaoran," he muttered a dark look coming over his face.

"What?" Sakura asked blinking.

The look left as quickly as it come. "Nothing," he said putting back on his warm smile. "So what are you going to do instead? Sit and home and knit?"

"Haha," Sakura said playfully. "I'm not for sure yet."

He couldn't help but to notice that her hands were shaking slightly. "Sakura, are you okay?" he asked concerned.

Truthfully, she was not okay. It had been a little over two weeks since her first death threat, and since then they were coming in daily. Syaoran had been super strict about her staying with her security detail at all times, but today she had just wanted a little break. She knew he would be furious at her, but it was a risk she felt she needed to take.

"I'm fine," she said smiling and sitting down her now empty grande container. "Actually I need to get going," she said standing and collecting her things. "I was supposed to be home an hour ago. Syaoran's probably having a conniption-"

She stopped when Blake's hand shot out and grabbed her wrist. She looked up at him shocked. "Why do you stay with him, Sakura?"

Forcing her wrist out of his grip she said, "I think that's an inappropriate thing to ask."

Again, she swore she saw a dark look on this face, but as quickly as she saw it disappeared again. "You're right. I'm sorry. I'll… see you around then… Sakura."

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She knew he would be angry, but she didn't realize how furious he would be until she saw his flashing amber eyes.

"Where were you?!"

"I was at Tomoyo's, and then I ran into Blake-"

"You left without your security. I thought we talked about this-"Syaoran growled.

"Well excuse me for wanting to go talk about private matters with my best friend without a large man breathing down my back the whole time," Sakura countered with flashing emerald eyes.

"You could have been killed Sakura-"Syaoran began.

"But I wasn't!" Sakura screamed.

"They knew where you were, Sakura," Syaoran said handing her envelope.

With trembling hand she opened the envelope to see pictures of her entering Tomoyo's apartment, leaving Tomoyo's apartment, and then having coffee with Blake.

Losing her strength, the pictures cascaded to the floor. Staring up at this with defeated eyes Sakura said, "I'm sorry."

Pulling her into a hug he gruffly got out, "Thank god they didn't realize you were by yourself. But Sakura you have to promise me," he said holding her out again at arm's length, "No more going out without security."

"I promise."

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It turned out Syaoran's solution was to have Sakura with him 24/7. She was forced awake at the crack of dawn to go running with him, have breakfast at an un-godly hour, and then sit through boring meetings with Da-Xie much to both girls' disagreement.

The one thing Sakura didn't mind, however, was getting to be in the recording studio with him. Currently she sat behind the glass with the producer, and watched enraptured as Syaoran got fitted with his special headphones and mic.

The producer turned to the pianist that was also in the room with Syaoran, and said over the speaker: "Okay remember to come in slowly, and Li wait for my cue. We will add in everything else once we have this part completed."

The pianist nodded and started to the beginning of the song. Sakura bobbed her head to the melody. It was very pretty and soothing. She could almost imagine how the song would be with maybe guitars as well. She didn't even notice when Syaoran got his cue until he started singing:

I can't express with words on earth
My heart toward you over flowering more and more
I can't estimate with worldly counting
My endless love grows deeper and deeper

Nobody has made me laugh and cry as you have done
It's not like me

I wanna see only you and hear you only
I wanna let you live within me
Look at me, come to my arms
You're my every my everything

There was no denying that he had a good voice as much as he tried to protest that he didn't. However, something just seemed off. Frowning she looked over at the producer, and noted that he also knew something didn't work.

It wasn't until Syaoran finished the last note that she realized what was wrong. "He's not singing with emotion," she said aloud. The producer turned to her shocked. "He knows the words, and is singing with pitch, but he's not putting any emotion behind the lyrics."

"I agree," was all the producer said before pushing the button to speak over in the intercom. "That was a great Li but let's try it one more time. This time feel the lyrics."

Syaoran frowned but nodded in understanding. The song began again, and this time it was a like carbon copy of the first. Sakura shook her head sadly. She saw the producer took off his headphones and rubbed his temples. "It's been like this for weeks now. He's just not getting it."

"Let me talk to him," Sakura said slipping off her stool, and pushing the intercom button, "Syaoran? I'm coming in okay?"

He looked up confused as she entered into the room. The pianist sensed what needed to happen so he politely took his leave.

Syaoran sighed taking off his headphones, "I suck, don't I?"

"Yeah you do," Sakura said point blank causing him to stumble.

"Geez you could have at least lied," he grinned taking a drink of water.

Walking over to the piano Sakura took a seat, and quickly did a quick scale. It was tuned beautifully. Looking over her shoulder she smiled, and patted the bench next to her. Shaking his head he walked up and sat beside her. He was surprised when he saw her reach into her bag, and pull out her notebook resting it on the music stand.

Turning to him she said, "You have a great voice but no emotion. You sing about this person being your everything and how your love has grown deeper, but as the audience, I don't believe you." Syaoran nodded not arguing. Taking her hand she rested it on his heart and said, "Feel the music here, and not here," she said moving her hand to his head.

"Easy for you to say," Syaoran said crossing his arms. "I've been trained to be a robot. This stuff is beyond me."

"Well that's where I come in," Sakura said smiling, and opening up her notebook. Finding the right page she opened to a song simply titled: This Isn't It.

"Follow my lead," was all she said before she started to play.

I still love you
I wanted to tell you,
The one who couldn't take it anymore and
Gave up in the end.
I miss you more than I hate you
I long for you more than I'm sad
Is this not it? Is this not it?

He found it hard to start at first, but then eventually he found himself harmonizing with her easily.

If we bump into each other, what would happen?
Would I hide from you amongst the crowd,
Even if it's only a waste of insignificant feelings.

Sakura sang with so much emotion that it was easy for him to match her and to understand the meaning of the song. Sensing the tempo was changing he decided to sing more boldly:

I worry throughout the day,
The medicine of time has passed,
But this isn't it, this isn't it, this isn't it.

You may be smiling from happiness now.
You, the person who left hurtful scars more than happy memories,
I miss you more than I hate you,
I long for you more than I'm sad.
Is this not it? Is this not it?

It was so familiar from the start,
More than a long-time couple,
And now it's nothing but insignificant memories

I worry throughout the day,
The medicine of time has passed,
But this isn't it, this isn't it, this isn't it.

I tried emptying out my heart that's filled with you,
Hoping something movie-like would happen to me.

I worry throughout the day,
The medicine of time has passed,
But this isn't it, this isn't it, this isn't it.

He found himself staring at Sakura as she played. Her golden hair had come undone, and her emerald eyes shone brightly. He could tell she put every bit of herself into the song. He knew he had loved her for awhile, but seeing her like this, doing what she truly loved, confirmed it for him. He loved her and he didn't care anymore if that was wrong. Looking over at him she smiled, and let her voice truly go belting out the lyrics:

Even I feel sorry for myself,
I want to bury this finished love,
But this can't be it, this can't be it, this can't be it.

Da-Xie walked into the studio getting ready to demand what was taking so long, but stopped at hearing them sing. "What's going on?" she asked.

The producer quickly took off his headset and beamed. "Sakura is teaching him to sing. Really sing," sheepishly he said, "I couldn't help it I started recording. This song is brilliant. Don't worry though I'll delete it-"

"No, keep it!" Da-Xie said quickly surprising him her eyes gleaming.

Back in the studio, Sakura and Syaoran ended harmonizing with one another as she ended the very last note of the song. They found themselves staring at each other almost breathless suddenly they couldn't hold it anymore and laughed heartily.

"That was a beautiful song," Syaoran said once he calmed down.

"It was my mother's," Sakura beamed taking back her notebook. "It's the only song I think she ever truly finished. It's my greatest treasure."

"Well she would be proud to hear you sing it. Again I have to ask, why am I the one with a record deal and not you?"

Sakura laughed playfully, but didn't say anything.

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They were just about to leave for the day when Da-Xie pulled Sakura aside. "Sorry Xiao-"seeing his look she corrected herself, "Li- but I need to borrow Sakura for a moment."

They shared a confused look as Da-Xie pulled her back in the studio alone. "Sorry dear, this won't take long I just need you to sign some papers for me."

"What are they?" Sakura asked taking the paperwork.

"Oh it's silly really but you know how legal everything is now days. Basically it says that just because you sat in the studio with him doesn't mean that you helped write or let's say own any of the songs that will be on his album."

"Oh of course," Sakura said quickly signing without bothering to read the papers. Da-Xie smiled and took the papers from her. "Thank you, for looking out for him Da-Xie."

"Oh no Sakura, thank you."

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Author's Note

I've had this chapter in mind since the beginning. When I heard the song: This Isn't It with

the duet with Ailee and Taeyang I got the idea for this story. So pleaaaaaaaaaaaaaase Youtube: This Isn't It by Tae yang ft. Ailee.

Like I've said in previous chapters Ailee has always been my voice for Sakura and Taeyang has been my voice for Syaoran.

I Want to Hold Your Hand… probably one of my top favorite songs by the Beatles. I thought it fit perfectly with how Syaoran felt during this chapter.

So Sakura has a stalker, and next chapter she will finally get to speak with Ryuuren. Also, next chapter will also be Tomoyo's wedding!

The first song Syaoran tries to sing is called: You're My Everything by Lee Min Ho. Now I will be the first person to admit that I'm a total fangirl for Lee Min Ho. I would run off with him in a heartbeat, however!, I do not think that song does him justice at all. I think he sounds kind of like a robot… just my opinion!

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