Author's Note: this one IS a drabble...

Pathetic Excuse for a Killer

To kill or not to kill: that is the question:

Whether 'tis wiser in the mind to suffer

The curses and hexes of outrageous Dark Lords,

Or to take arms against a sea of Death Eaters,

And by opposing die horribly? To kill; to torture;

No more;

Oh, who am I kidding? I can't do this! I can't do any of this! I'm a pathetic excuse for a Malfoy—I'd say my father was right about me, except if he knew what he was doing, he wouldn't be in Azkaban, would he?

My whole life is falling apart.

Mother walks through the manor like a ghost, like this whole thing is already killing her, and even the portraits look sympathetic. Last time I was home, one of them actually told me:

"Do not fear, scion of my house; this too shall pass."

Just what I need; help from dead people.

Too bad I've got that, actually; that's the one thing I do have: Myrtle. She's not so bad, once you realize a person really could have that much to moan about.

No one understands: not Greg or Vince, not Pansy, not Snape, and sure as hell not the teachers. If they knew what I was planning, they'd—

I don't even know. I guess they wouldn't kill me, but what difference would that make? Any hint of my disloyalty or complete incapability of doing the job reaches the Dark Lord's ears, I'm doomed.

And so's Mother.

No—I can't let anything happen to her, I can't!

But—to kill Dumbl—no, by Salazar, Draco, you'd think after all these years in Slytherin you'd know better than to write down incriminating evidence!

I'm more than pathetic; I'm totally undeserving of Mother's confidence, or Father's pride, or the Malfoy name—

I don't know why I even try; I'll never be enough for darling Auntie Bellatrix, much less the Dark Lord—I shouldn't even bother.

But what choice do I have?

(This spare bit of parchment, heavily hexed and spattered with drops of liquid (diplomatically presumed to have been caused by Moaning Myrtle's watery temper tantrums), was found wedged in a crack in the wall on the first floor of Hogwarts, after the Final Battle.

It was used—much against its writer's will—as evidence in the famous Malfoy Trials, after which it was transferred to form part of the official war memorial at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry.)