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Chapter 10 - Nightmare
Usagi clipped at the extending branches of the small bushes in the backyard.
She sighed.
Mamoru had been true to his words. Everything went back to the way it was..or maybe even less.
She had came down in the morning for breakfast and he had barely looked at her.
They ate in silence while Mamoru read the newspapers, then he had rushed to put everything in the sink and left after saying a quick goodbye.
It had seemed so easy for him.
Just last night she had fell asleep with him in her lap. But when she woke up Mamoru was already downstairs and she was tucked under the blanket on his bed.
He hadn't mentioned a word of the night or the week before like he said.
It was what they agreed on but it left Usagi feeling empty.
Usagi stared at the bush in front of her and sighed again.
She had unconciously clipped a huge chunk out of the bush.
Setting the tool down, Usagi got up and straightened out her cloth and stared up through the glass ceiling covering the small garden in the back yard.
It was sunny outside.
She stared at the small garden sheltered under the warmth of glass roof.
Did Mamoru notice how she cleared it up? Did he even come out to the backyard?
She couldn't get him out of her mind. Everything that she did seem to somehow revolve around him.
She needed to change that. Things had to stop revolving around Mamoru.
She should go make dinner, Mamoru would be home soon.
Usagi opened the door and stepped inside of the house.
She walked to the kitchen to grab a cool drink.
Usagi jumped when she felt a hand on her shoulder.
Startled she whipped around.
Equally alarmed grey eyes looked back at her.
"Damon..." Usagi breathed, her heart still pounding.
"Sorry didn't mean to startle you, I thought you heard the front door open." Damon raised his hand revealing a box. "I brought some cake."
Usagi regarded him. The she brushed her bangs away from her eyes. "Did you want something?"
Damon walked passed her and set the box on the kitchen counter. "Just dropping by to see how you were doing"
Usagi went to grab some cups. "You know..if you want the past to be hidden..you shouldn't be coming over."
Damon opened the box. "I do...but it's what you want too isn't it?"
Usagi didn't answer, she poured warm tea into the cups.
"What would Mamoru think of his adopted "child" if he knew? You're not as innocent as you look Usagi."
Usagi's cheeks flushed. A set of emotions pushed at her chest. Her hand paused over the cups.
"Don't be so tense.." She heard Damon get up. "All Rei would be is heartbroken if she ever found out, so i'm keeping this secret for her sake. But Mamoru-kun...I heard he hates liars. What he think if he found out there was one living right under his roof?"
Usagi turned around to look at him. "Damon.."
She abruptly stopped talking. Damon stood inches away from her, turning around had brought her face to face with him.
Damon leaned closer and put one finger on her lips, the other hand closed around her waist. "Am i right...Usagi?"
Usagi didn't even register what happened when he slammed his mouth on hers.
Deja Vu of that night passed through Usagi. She fought to escape as he pushed her and pinned against the kitchen wall.
"No!"
Damon pushed both of her arms aboved her head and pressed her hands against the wall.
"Ohh Usagi..if you disappeared then you would have never see me again, but unfortunately for you and fortunately for me you happened to be adopted into the family of my fiancee." Damon licked the side of her face.
Usagi turned away in disgust. "You told me you loved Rei." Her voice shook with anger and disgust. "Just yesterday..you told me you loved her!"
"Love..?" Damon smirked. "I thought you'd know me by now. Love is just the disguise...Making love is the purpose."
Usagi pressed her face into the wall. Her heart thudded painfully. Anger flared through her as she thought of Rei's happy expression when she talked about Damon. "If you didn't love her..why did you asked her to marry you?!"
"Ohh i didn't..that was my father's idea. " Damon pulled Usagi roughly and forcefully slammed her on the counter, his body trapping hers.
"She wasn't bad". Damon dipped his free hand into the cake. "Theres no harm in trying things out with her. I"ve never had experience with an older woman before. " He smirked and traced her lips with the chocolate frosting he wiped off the cake. "If i didn't see you i would have left her a good memory before i ended everything."
He leaned in and kissed Usagi on the lips, then he ran his tongue across his lips. "But you Usagi...I would have left you a just as good memory...but i couldn't hold myself..not when it comes to you..theres just something about you..." Damon slipped one of his hands under her shirt.
Usagi struggled, her legs trapped under Damon's.
"You can't do this...Rei would be heart broken...please don't do this..." Usagi whispered. If anything happened here how would she ever face Rei?
Damon brushed his hand over her cheek. "Ohhh look..you have mud prints on your face..." He ran his fingers across his cheek, his other hand reaching up to the hook of her bra. "The only way she would be heart broken is if she found out..now you wouldn't want that would you?"
Usagi shook her head violently. "Please.." Her voice wavered. Not this again...If anything happened here again. It would be over...everything. She would never be able to face Rei and Mamoru. "Damon..please!" Usagi begged, tears sipping out the corner of her eyes.
Damon ignored her and unhooked her bra, then he reached the rim of her shirt to pull it off. Usagi pushed at his shoulders with her hand. She had forgotten how strong he was.
Then she heard the front door click open.
Usagi felt a wave of panic. Mamoru..!!
She shoved at Damon struggling to get off the counter. Damon released her hearing the door. He quickly straightened his shirt.
Usagi, hands shaking fumbled with the hook of her bra and roughly pulled her shirt down just as Mamoru walked into the kitchen.
"Usag--" Mamoru stopped as he entered the kitchen.
He looked surprised. "Damon."
Damon, hands in his pockets, smiled with ease. "Mamoru-kun"
Before Mamoru could say more. Damon buttoned his jacket. "I brought over some cake...I thought you'd be home. Rei said you were on a break."
Mamoru ran his hand through his hair and smiled tiredly. "Yea i was suppose to be..something happened at the office, i had to go back to take care of it."
Damon nodded. "Take care of youself...Rei would be worried. I should get going." Damon walked towards the door.
"Would you like to stay for dinner?" Mamoru said, surprised at Damon's sudden rush.
"No it's fine." Damon smiled and looked at Usagi. His eyes taunting. "Usagi made tea already. Rei's waiting for me to eat dinner with her."
Mamoru looked at Usagi with eyes Usagi couldn't read and nodded slowly.
"I"ll come visit with Rei some other time."
Mamoru smiled lightly and walked Damon out the door.
Usagi stood stiffly in the kitchen. Her hands still tremoring.
She forced herself to look at Mamoru when he walked back to the kitchen.
"I..sorry I haven't made dinner yet. Damon...showed up and i haven't gotten to it yet..."
"It's fine." Mamoru smiled at her.
He walked over to the cake. "He brought cake..." He looked at the open box. "...and theres a finger dent in it." Mamoru raised an eyebrow at her.
Usagi forced herself to laugh. "S..Sorry i couldn't help myself."
Mamoru laughed amused. "Welll we could have this for desert."
Usagi nodded weakly. She wanted to throw the cake out.
Knowing the truth that Damon's finger that been in that cake made her want to puke.
She forced herself out of her rooted position.
"I'..I'll make dinner now."
Mamoru rolling up the sleeves of his white dress shirt smiled at her. "I'll make it..please let me, i haven't made you dinner for a while now. So let me make it tonight."
Usagi smiled lightly back at him.
Their eyes met for a second. Usagi pulled her gaze away.
"I..I'm sorry i just remember i left the laundry in the dryer. It's been there since morning. I tota..totally forgot about it. " Usagi gestured towards the laundry room stammering. "I'll go get it now."
She slipped out of the kitchen quickly and into the laundry room.
Closing the door of the laundry room, she leaned on it.
Hearing Mamoru starting to chop vegetables, Usagi slid down and sat on the ground.
She covered her mouth with both hands to muffle her cry.
Just yesterday she thought she found a new side to Damon.
Just yesterday she had slept with Mamoru in her arms...Just yesterday..she had decided to let Mamoru go for all of them and start new and forget the past.
So why..?
Usagi bit her lips so hard she drew blood.
Why must it be so unfair?
Didn't she deserve a chance to start over?
She thought of the happy time she had with Naomi before she met Damon.
Naomi...
She missed her so much...
Usagi clenched her shirt, hot tears glided down her cheek.
She had never felt so hopeless.
She cried silently.
To be continued...
Author's note: Heres the updateee, thanks for the reviews again. keep them coming please haha. Enjoy!