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"Isn't it a wonderful day?"

Kurt looked up at Sebastian who was seemingly too busy being happy with his own life to see how miserable he felt, although it was obvious for anyone who just looked at him. Kurt felt like he was the most unhappy person of the world. Long days had passed since that night when he had admitted everything to Blaine. More than a week, to be exact, since the last time he had talked to the man. First he had thought that giving Blaine some time to process the news and think about what he wanted to do was a good thing. Now he knew that it wasn't. At least Blaine should have texted him or something to let him know what he wanted. But nothing. Not a phone call, not a short text message, nothing. And Kurt missed him so much. He had gotten so used to Blaine's presence in his life that now it felt like he couldn't live without it. Blaine was like the air he needed to survive. Without him, Kurt felt so lost. He couldn't sleep, he couldn't eat, he couldn't focus on his job or find the joy in his pregnancy. All he could think about was what a huge mistake he had made and that he had lost his only chance for a real relationship. With the most loving man of the world.

He sighed heavily as he watched Sebastian walk around him, humming happily. It seemed so surreal. How could people be so happy when the world was such a cruel and unfair place? Okay, it was him who had made that decision but how was he supposed to know that it would end like this? He had been searching for the right man for over a decade and what had he found? Absolutely nothing. And now that he finally decided that he was better on his own and found the real reason of his existence, he bumped into the perfect guy. Only it was too late for that. Yes, life was definitely not fair.

"Why aren't you happy?" Sebastian asked as he finally looked at him and saw the obvious signs of how not well Kurt felt.

"Why should I be?" Kurt whispered.

"Because I have your test results" Sebastian singsonged, showing the folder he held in his hand. "Come on, give me that crazily excited preggo face!"

"I'm not in the mood, Seb" Kurt sighed and turned his head away.

"You're ruining my mood. That's not fair" Sebastian said. "Okay. Tell me what's wrong."

"Blaine" Kurt said. Even saying his name out loud made his heart hurt a little more. When had it happened? He had had no idea that he was in love with Blaine. But he certainly was.

"What? Did you have a fight over your weird cravings?" Sebastian asked.

"I told him everything" Kurt said quietly.

"Ouch" Sebastian grimaced. "I guess he didn't take it well."

"He said that he didn't want to see me. And then he left" Kurt said. He was crying again, no matter how hard he tried not to. "It's been days! He won't come back, right? I screwed up and I lost him. He won't come back to me because I lied to him and I-I did something horrible and now he doesn't want to see me and he won't talk to me ever again…"

"Probably yeah" Sebastian shrugged.

"Shouldn't you make me feel a little better? I'm your friend after all" Kurt said.

"Would it make you feel better if I lied to you?" Sebastian asked.

"No" Kurt admitted.

"See?" Sebastian smiled. "But I know how to make you feel better."

"You can't say anything to make me feel better" Kurt said.

"Not even with the ultrasound?" Sebastian asked.

"Does it mean you can tell the baby's gender?" Kurt asked. That would be great. He needed shopping. That always made him feel a little less horrible, but he hadn't bought any clothes for the baby or anything but some basic supplies that would be good for a boy or a girl, too.

"Nah, it's still too early for that" Sebastian snorted. "But I can tell you if the baby's healthy!"

"That would be great, too" Kurt muttered. It was the most important actually. He had lost Blaine but he certainly didn't want to lose his baby. It would kill him.

~ o ~

"Oh, she's so beautiful!"

Kurt smiled weakly as he watched the girls, cooing over the sonogram photo of the baby. He felt somewhat better now that he knew that the baby was perfectly fine, healthy, just the perfect size. It was a relief. He had stupidly read a lot about possible dangers that might occur during the pregnancy, diseases he had never heard about before and sad stories about miscarriage. They only made him more worried, he always noticed a sign on himself that might cause trouble. But at least for a while he was relieved. Sebastian had checked on the baby, he had taken his time to go through the smallest details and now they knew that the baby was just like it should be. Perfectly fine. It finally looked like a real human being with arms and legs and a cute, large head. The baby had been awake when Sebastian had checked on them, kicked and moved a lot, much to Kurt's delight. It was such an amazing sight. He couldn't wait to finally have his child in his arms.

"I don't know if it's a girl" Kurt pointed out. "I have to wait a few more weeks to find out."

"Don't you want to do one of those genetic tests?" Mercedes asked. "They can tell if the baby is healthy and also tell you its gender."

"Come on, we all know that it's a girl" Rachel said.

"I agree" Santana nodded. "It can't be anything else."

Kurt smiled at his friends. They all agreed that it had to be a girl, although Kurt had no idea how they had come to the conclusion. He accepted it for now. It was easier to imagine the baby as a beautiful little girl – with Blaine's bright eyes and curly hair, oh and his loving nature – than considering it a stranger. Yes, he could certainly imagine himself with a daughter. Not that he wouldn't be happy to have a son. It really didn't matter. He only hoped that the baby got the best parts of Blaine. Kurt wanted his child to be like the other man. It was stupid to think about his child as a reminder of the man he had lost but still… He couldn't help it. The pain was still too fresh and strong.

"Have you told Blaine?" Mercedes asked suddenly.

"What?" Kurt asked back.

"Blaine. The guy you are dating" Mercedes said slowly. "You surely told him that you are pregnant. Right?"

Kurt sighed heavily. That was something he certainly didn't want to talk about. Especially since Santana was around who knew everything.

"Yes, I told him" he said quietly.

"And?" Rachel asked.

"And he wasn't too happy" Kurt said, hoping that it would be enough for the girls. He didn't want to tell them the truth. They would hate him and he couldn't take that. Not now.

"What does it mean?" Santana asked.

"It means that he needs time to think" Kurt said in frustration. "Look, I really don't want to talk about this."

"Oh, honey. I'm so sorry" Mercedes said and pulled Kurt into a hug.

"We don't have to talk about it if you don't want to" Rachel said.

"Yes, we do."

Kurt pulled back to look at Santana. Oh, no. He knew this look.

"Santana…"

"What? Do you want to live in a lie forever? Do you want to lie to your child when it comes to that?" Santana asked.

"What are you talking about?" Rachel asked.

"Tell them" Santana said seriously.

"Tell us what?" Mercedes asked in confusion.

"No? Then I'll do it" Santana said. "Blaine is the baby's father."

"What?" the girls asked in unison.

"That's right. He fucked Lady Hummel on his birthday party and surprise! They are having a baby together" Santana said.

"Is it true?" Rachel asked.

"It's not what you…"

"I'm really disappointed in that guy" Santana said, shaking her head.

"What?" Kurt frowned.

"He has to take responsibility for his actions" Santana said. "Is he angry with you because you lied to him? Fine! But the baby is just as his as yours and he can't just act like he has nothing to do with it."

"You did what?" Mercedes asked.

"You don't understand anything" Kurt said.

"Oh, yes, I do" Santana said. "And I'm right. He has to grow up and take care of his child."

"What does she mean by you lied to him?" Rachel asked.

"We didn't use protection, okay?" Kurt almost shouted. He felt bad without anybody telling him what a horrible person he was. He didn't need the girls to point it out again. He had screwed up, he knew. But he needed his friends more than ever.

"You didn't tell him that you could get pregnant" Mercedes said slowly.

"No" Kurt muttered. "The doctor said that my chances to get pregnant weren't the best, that I had to go through a lot of tests and wait for months… And he was there and I thought 'Hey, I have nothing to lose. I won't even see this guy ever again.' But I was wrong. We started dating and I figured out what an amazing person he was. So I told him. I had to. I knew exactly how he would take the news but I couldn't lie to him anymore. He deserved to know the truth. And now he's gone."

He did his best not to cry again but he failed miserably. Those damn hormones.

"For the first time in my life, I'm in love with someone. But it doesn't matter. I lost him" he cried.

"Oh, Kurt" Rachel said gently. "I'm so sorry."

"I know I was an idiot, so you don't have to tell me again" Kurt said.

"Nobody's going to hurt you" Santana said. "Yes, it was stupid, but it's not like it was entirely your fault."

"Of course it was" Kurt said. "I had a chance for a real relationship for once in my life but I screwed up before it started. And I didn't have a chance to make it better."

He closed his eyes and took a few calming breaths. He felt sick again. Great.

"You'll get through him" Mercedes said reassuringly. "We'll help you."

"Just don't talk about him, please" Kurt said. "It's so hard. I can't stop thinking about him but I'm certainly not ready to talk. It's just too painful."

"Of course" Rachel nodded. "Uhm…"

"Does your dad know?" Santana asked suddenly before anybody else had a chance to change topic.

"No" Kurt said.

"And when do you want to tell him?" Santana asked.

"Preferably never" Kurt answered. "You know my dad. He would ask the right questions and figure out everything within a blink. I don't want him to be disappointed in me."

He would be, for sure. His father was a great man but he certainly wouldn't be too happy for his son's decision. Kurt wished he could tell him, though. He needed his father more than ever.

Santana watched him thoughtfully. Maybe they weren't the best friends but she knew Kurt, probably more than anybody else. She read him so easily. And she knew exactly what Kurt needed. He was too upset to make the right steps but luckily, she was here to help him. Santana smiled as a plan started to form in her head. It wouldn't even be that hard. She only had to talk to the right people and if she was correct, Kurt would get everything he needed soon.

~ o ~

"You look horrible, dude."

Blaine simply ignored Jeff. He knew that he didn't look his best, not that he cared. It didn't matter. It wasn't like he wanted to impress anyone. Not anymore. He sighed as his thoughts found their way back to Kurt again. Kurt. He couldn't stop thinking about the man. Everything had been so wonderful, so perfect, but then… then suddenly wasn't. Because Kurt had lied to him, about something serious.

Blaine honestly didn't know how to feel about Kurt anymore. He still liked him, maybe even loved him, he certainly missed him. But again, there was the thing with the baby… Blaine had been ready to marry Kurt when he had thought that it was just an accident, that Kurt was just as innocent in this as he was. He had thought that it could work and that was what they needed to do. But then Kurt had told him everything and suddenly everything felt so confusing and he was so hurt and… And he had no idea what to do.

"So I guess he kicked you out" Jeff sighed as he sat down beside his friend. "I'm sorry, man."

"It's not that" Blaine muttered.

"You look like crap. Really" Jeff sighed. "You should drink something."

"That's what I'm doing" Blaine said, raising his cup.

"I mean alcohol" Jeff said. "A coffee wouldn't solve anything."

"I don't drink" Blaine said.

"Well, you certainly should" Jeff said. "I would help you forget."

Forget. Was it really what he wanted? Forget Kurt and the baby? The chance for a happy life with the two of them? Blaine smiled weakly as he thought about a future with Kurt. Just for a brief moment, he wouldn't allow more for himself. He was the hopeless romantic type, he let those stupid thoughts affect his decisions way too often and it only led to disaster. No, he wouldn't let that happen again. He would stay reasonable and make the right decision. But for a brief moment, he let himself dream, about a future where he had a beautiful baby with Kurt, where the two of them were together without secrets, where they were married and happy and everything was so perfect...

"You are doing that again" Jeff said.

"Doing what?" Blaine asked innocently.

"Just forget about him, Blaine. You do remember how it ended the last time, right?" Jeff asked.

Blaine sighed again. Yes, he remembered how stupid he had been. He would never forget that. Serenading his intended at his workplace, that was such a stupid idea. Even if he would have loved getting such a surprise from someone.

"Yes, I do" Blaine muttered. "Believe me, that won't happen this time."

"Was it really that bad?" Jeff asked.

"You have no idea" Blaine replied. He hadn't told anyone about this but maybe he should. Maybe his friends would give him an advice. He looked at Jeff skeptically. Maybe Jeff wasn't his best choice, but since there was no one else around… "Okay. I'm going to tell you everything but you have to promise me that you won't make fun of me."

"Now I'm certainly interested" Jeff smiled.

"Jeff, it's serious!" Blaine said.

"Okay, fine" Jeff sighed. "Just tell me."

"You heard about carriers, right?" Blaine asked.

"Yes, I… Oh, God" Jeff said. "You knocked him up."

"Sort of" Blaine shrugged.

"Uhm, Blaine, it's not really something you can 'sort of' do" Jeff said slowly.

"Fine. Yes, he's pregnant. With my baby" Blaine said. "I thought it was an accident. You know, when we were together, we didn't use protection. I thought he didn't know about his condition and it was a surprise for him just as much as it was for me… But then it turned out it wasn't. He knew that it could happen. And he didn't tell me anything."

"The bitch" Jeff said.

"I don't know what I should do" Blaine said, shaking his head. "I-I really like him. He's a nice guy, even with those weird habits… I guess most of them are because of the pregnancy…"

"You are doing that again" Jeff said when he was that dreamy expression on Blaine's face. He snapped his fingers to drag his friend back to reality.

"Right" Blaine nodded. "So everything was fine until I figured out about the pregnancy."

"It's a huge thing. It's completely understandable that you freaked out" Jeff said.

"You don't get it" Blaine said. "I thought we could make it work. I know it's too fresh but it's not like I don't want a baby. I think I do. I'm ready for that. So I proposed and…"

"Oh, no, no, no" Jeff said. "We already talked about this, Blaine. You can't make such decisions before discussing them with me."

"But it is the right step" Blaine reasoned. "I mean, I thought it was before I figured out that he did it on purpose…"

"No, Blaine" Jeff sighed. "Look, I know you love these huge romantic gestures but you certainly need to stop before you do something crazy."

"What? I never…"

"Like buying 100 roses for your boyfriend…"

"It was Valentine's day" Blaine said.

"...Or taking him to Hawaii…"

"To celebrate our two months together" Blaine glared at his friend.

"Or serenading him in the middle of GAP…"

"Okay, that was too much" Blaine admitted.

"You always give too much and see what you get in return. They just take advantage on you" Jeff said.

"So what should I do?" Blaine asked.

"Get the guy out of your head" Jeff said. "I already know what you should do. Do you see that man in the corner?"

"Yes?" Blaine said hesitantly.

"He keeps watching you all night" Jeff said. "Go. Buy him a drink and talk to him."

"I don't think it'll solve my problem" Blaine said.

"Of course it will" Jeff said. "That's what you need, a distraction. Go. I'll stay here and make sure you don't run off with him to Vegas and get married."

Blaine only rolled his eyes. He really liked Jeff but he had no idea how to heal heartbreak.

~ o ~

Kurt did his best not to think about Blaine too much but he failed. He couldn't stop thinking about him, he couldn't stop crying and it certainly wasn't good for him or the baby. He knew he had to do something about it but he couldn't make himself move from his couch or stop eating every kind of unhealthy food he found in his fridge. He even ordered himself a pizza with extra cheese and couldn't wait to get it. He would probably eat it all, too. He would get so fat if he kept this up but he couldn't help it. When he had been with Blaine, it had been a lot easier to stop thinking about the constant hunger but now that Blaine was gone, it was all that made him a little bit better. It was so stupid, he knew. A few million calories and those stupid romantic movies wouldn't make anything better, he would just feel worse after that. And probably sick of all the food he had. But he was so weak.

He watched the couple on the screen in front of him. They seemed so happy but Kurt knew the truth. One mistake, one small mistake was enough and they would break up. They would never be back together and they would be miserable for the rest of their lives, they would grow old and die all alone...

"You shouldn't have fallen in love at all" he muttered.

Love was such a cruel thing. He had dreamed about it so much but now that he was there… He wished he had never fallen in love with Blaine. It was killing him and there was nothing that could have made him feel a little better.

Suddenly, the doorbell rang. Kurt forced himself to leave the couch and walked to the door, grabbing his wallet on the way. The pizza was finally here. Great. He was getting hungry again.

He opened the door, forcing out a small smile. He certainly didn't want to seem rude just because he was dying inside. But his smile disappeared the second he realized that the person in front of him wasn't the one he expected.

"Dad?" he asked with wide eyes.

"Hello, son" Burt said as he walked inside.

"What are you doing here?" Kurt asked. "I-I thought you were in Washington…"

"I was" Burt nodded. "But then I decided to pay you a short visit."

Kurt gulped nervously. He knew this look...

"So tell me, son" Burt said after taking a deep breath. "When did you want to tell me that I'm gonna be grandfather soon?"

Kurt closed his eyes, inhaling deeply. He had no idea which one of his friends decided that it was a good idea to talk to his dad but he would kill them for sure. If he survived this conversation, of course.