Hello Kittyberries, i hope it hasnt been too long :3. how are you all?. its been hella hot today and im still wide awake at 1:20AM... i think i have a slight case of insomnia as im going to sleep when the sun comes up, does any one know of any good remedies for this, please?... anyway before i start rambling on with the story.

Warnings: Language, spelling and grammar, yaoi, emotions, fluff, mentions of rape, quite abit of dialogue.

Disclaimer: i do not own and i never will.

Aizen tapped his fingers on his chin as he still thinks of a plan to capture Ichigo. He has been sat in the same spot for almost four days. He decides that he wont send his Espada to capture Ichigo, he decides that he will go himself, that he will break Ichigo and force him to submit to him fully. A smirk appears on his lips as he thinks of the orange haired boy submitting to him fully. He thinks of all the ways he can take advantage of the boy's body and have him do nothing about it, he thinks of how Grimmjow will break at seeing the most important person in his life submit to another. Aizen knows where they are staying, he always has he just hasn't done anything about it until now. He's always known about Grimmjow, always known that he was the next king, the next person to take over his legacy and make his plans come true. Aizen could feel his body weakening every day but he never let it show, only in the privacy of his own room did he take in the way his body was becoming weaker. Aizen pushes himself up from the chair and holds in a grunt of pain as his muscles and bones protest at being moved, walks over to the full length mirror. He lets the white coat fall from his shoulders and it pools on the floor next to his feet. He runs his eyes over his body in the mirror and he can see every one of his ribs. His collar bones stick out more as the skin is stretched over them. He sternum can be seen, he runs his fingers over it and winces as pain flares through his body and he drops his hand away. His skin as taken on a ashy color, he veins are more prominent than they used to be. His eyes move to his face and he can see his cheekbones more than he used to be able to. He eyes have lost color and they look dull and lifeless, they have lost their shine and evilness. He finds it difficult to change between his human and demon form. When he does he is in excruciating pain, he can feel the fire running through his veins and he can feel every joint pop when he changes, he tries to stay in one form for long periods of time but its too taxing on his body so every few months he switches from human to demon and vice versa. He can feel a tickle in the back of his throat and he coughs to get rid of it. The smaller coughs turn into painful body racking coughs, he falls to his hands and knees as he struggles for breath. Black spots appear in his eyes, he feels something wet hit his hands and he knows that he has coughed up blood. He eventually stops coughing, he takes deep breathes and his lungs rattle and wet noises can be heard from him breathing. He slowly pulls himself up off the floor and walks to his bathroom and cleans himself up, he decides that he is going to go after Ichigo the day after tomorrow.

Ichigo is woken by someone poking his forehead. He grunts and peels his eyes open. He sees his brother sat on his chest poking his head. He grabs the finger and twists it and Shiro yelps in pain. Ichigo bucks Shiro off him and sits up still holding his brothers finger. Shiro tries pulling his finger out of Ichigo's hand but he cant so he reaches across and digs his fingers under Ichigo's ribs and the younger man lets go with a yelp. He rubs his ribs and turns to glare at his twin.

"ya really wanna play this game" he asks

Shiro grins and lunges at his brother and digs his fingers into Ichigo's ribs and tickles him. Ichigo tries to push his brother off but he cant because he's laughing hysterically, he can feel tears of laughter run down his cheeks. This carries on for a few minutes until Ichigo shouts,

"Stop im gonna pee!"

Shiro stops and lets his baby twin up. Ichigo jumps up and runs to the bathroom and slams the door. A few minutes later he comes out and breathes a sigh of relief. He walks back over to his bed and sits bedside his brother, he can feel like something is bugging his brother so he asks,

"S'matter Shi"

Shiro looks at him and says, "Was thinkin about tha day ya got took when we were kids"

"Y'know I never blamed ya for it Shi"

"Felt like ya did"

Ichigo watched as Shiro's shoulders slumped and Ichigo felt a wave of guilt wash over him, he hated seeing his brother in pain, he hated it even worse when he was the one that caused the pain. He may have caused it years ago but seeing how much it still hurt his brother he wanted to go back in time to change it.

"When we got you back, you could barely look at me Ichi. Every time I tried to talk to you, you would shout at me or throw something at me. You became closed off and it felt like you were blaming me"

Ichigo swallowed thickly, he turned towards his brother hand pulled him into a hug. He felt Shiro's hands grip his t-shirt and hug him back. The memories of being a dick towards his brother slammed in his brain and he knew he had to tell his brother why. He had to tell him the things that happened to him while he was taken. He took a deep breath and steadied himself. He pulled back from his brother and said,

"Shi, there are some thing that I didn't tell you when you got me back. I don't want you to say anything I just want you to listen. The second day that I was there, I was taken into the bosses office, he knew that I wasn't you. He said that he had taken me to get back at you but I didn't understand what you had done wrong until he had told me that you had kicked the shit out of one of the gang members and put them in hospital. It turned out that the member that you had put in hospital was his nephew."

Ichigo took a breath and felt tears burning in his eyes. He looked up when Shiro took his hand "his nephew was on life support and he was getting worse. As he told me I thought why you would do that, why would you hurt someone that bad?, but then I remembered the day that I got jumped walking home from school, you were sick that day and didn't come in to school so I had to walk home on my own, I remembered that the guy that jumped me looked like the kid in the picture so I just smiled and told him that I was glad. He got pissed and beat me until I blacked out. When I woke I was tied to a bed"

Shiro's hands tightened on his brothers, he could see that Ichigo was petrified about telling this story so he just listened, he didn't break his bothers train of though but he had a sinking feeling in his stomach about what his brother was telling him, he had a feeling that he knew what had happened.

" My clothes were gone" Ichigo continued " and I struggled to get free but I couldn't, I could hear him laughing at me. I could hear him taking off his clothes and dread filled my body. I knew what was about to happen and I fought harder to get free but the ropes cut further into my skin. I could feel his hands touching me and I begged him to stop. I was crying so hard that I couldn't breathe, I told him that I was sorry and that I didn't mean what I said. He just laughed and said that what he was going to do was penance for what you had done"

Shiro watched as the tears ran down Ichigo's face, he could feel his hands trembling under his own, oh god; here it comes Shiro thought to himself.

"Then all I felt was pain as he forced himself into me. He took my innocence in just one thrust"

Shiro closed his eyes and the tears that had built up ran down his cheeks, he pulled his brother close to him and they held each other as they both cried,

"Im sorry Ichi. Im so so so so sorry"

"It's not your fault, Shi. I never blamed you, I never have and I never will. Its my fault that it happened, I wasn't strong enough to fight him off. That's why I didn't talk to you; I was so ashamed about what had happened I knew that I had to get stronger so that I could protect you instead of you having to look out for your pain in the ass little brother"

"We protect each other"

They both lay down holding each other until Shiro broke the silence and said,

"So the thing that happened between you and Grimmjow in the kitchen, is it getting serious"

Ichigo felt his cheeks flame and stuttered," i..i-"

"Don't even think about lying, you were loud"

"I love him Shi but im scared about…. Y'know"

"He wouldn't hurt ya Ichi, id kill 'im if he did"

Ichigo laughs at that and he snuggles closer to his twin. They spend the rest of the day together, talking about old memories and laughing. Grimmjow eventually comes into Ichigo's room and sees them holding each other laughing and smiling and he cant help but grin at them when they look up at him. Shiro decides to leave but not until he pokes fun at Grimmjow and the bigger man growls at him. Grimmjow walks over to the bed and Ichigo sits up and smiles at Grimmjow. The bigger man fiddles with his fingers and takes a deep breath,

"I um, I heard what you said to Shiro"

Ichigo's smile instantly falls, the colour drains from the mans face and tears fill his eyes, "y-you weren't supposed to know"

"Im sorry Ichi, I now I shouldn't of listened. Just know that I won't force or rush you into anything. If you never want me to take you, you can take me"

Ichigo blinks and says," You'd do that, for me?"

Grimmjow smiles sadly and places his hand on Ichigo's cheek and rubs his thumb over the smaller mans cheekbone. The orange haired man leans into the touch and sighs.

"For you, I'd do anything"

And here it is, i hope that you all liked this chapter :3. im thinking of doing about 5 more chapters for this then ending it but i dont know yet!. as for my other story The Life And Death Of A Spy, a chapter will be posted soon for those who care :). i want to say thanks to the reviewers that make my day when they review!

Till Next Time

Meesh :3