~Chapter 10: So Now I'm a Fairy of Male Testosterone~

Dear Macey,

So I heard your a girl who helps people. So my problem is that I'm a completely and kinda strange confused person. I guess you could say I has no social life. Most people would reference me as cute.

But with guys, its much stranger. I always seem to to crush on guys who turn out to be complete assholes or just really weird. The worst part is that I'm usually a shy person, so I don't speak much. The worst part is that with those guys, I'm always nice them. But I have boy issues. To the point that I don't even when like it when boys hug me. Does this make me weird?

The thing is that sometimes the guy pisses me off in some way (*cough, cough* bully jerks) and I end up getting over them, but then a couple weeks later, it starts all over of the time I tend to be nice to them, and they treat me kindly back. But when 8th grade ended for me, the only things guys wrote in my yearbook was '' Thanks for the help in science'' and some shit like that. I'm starting to think that their is maybe a downside to being a nerd, because that may be the only thing that people think of me. :(

Now don't get me wrong, a bunch of girls said other stuff :). I guess maybe I'm simply too young to be thinking of boys like that. I kinda already know I'm desperate, but the question the confuses me is: Do boys actually like me? Or am I just another nice kinda-geek to them? It would be nice for guys to think more of me, because I know I have some good qualities :) This year I've learned to come out of my shell, and most or the girls in my class learned that I'm actually a fun and smart person, but when it comes to boys, I'm still the same calm and reserved person, but that's it.

I guess I have no luck with boys, bit I kinda don't wanna end up growing up, old and alone with seven cats :(. I've convinced myself that I'm simply a feminist, but I doubt it, and now I'm so confused :(

This year, a guy who was an asshole to me last year was really kinda...flirty with me all year (that I noticed). He even asked me to the semi formal this year, but I declined because

1. I wasn't going and
2. I was seriously considering this was a joke (I mean, its not like I would say yes, even if I wad going).

I'm not looking to date (yet. My parents would kill me!) It would just be nice if some guys noticed me more as answers to the English final :(. And as for the guys who are actually kinda nice...sometimes...

I kinda wanna know if a guys asks me out if its a joke or not (I mean, it's not like I've had the best luck with guys before...)

Help, oh wise fairy of male testosterone. Help!

- A kinda guy desperate gal with feminism issues...

~:*:~

Dear Kinda Guy Desperate Gal With Feminism Issues,

How are you? :) Okay, well I guess that was sort of a dumb question because you're obviously unhappy. Have no fear! Because I am here to give you a pep talk to change that :)
(sorry it took me so long I JUST GOT HOME AND SAT DOWN...like its literally been over 24 hours...crazy summer happenings...)

So anyway, I totally understand where you are. There are so many ladies out there, that have absolutely nothing wrong with them. I mean, don't get me wrong, nobody's perfect, but sometimes I look at people and just think, "Why does SHE have a boyfriend? Why don't I have a boyfriend? I must not be good enough."

And I'm here to say, that that's not true.

There are so many guys out there. And so many girls out there. And all of us are unique. All of us have our own special qualities that make us who we are.

One of my favorite quotes is from Dr. Seuss. "Be who you are and say what you want. Because those who mind, don't matter. And those who matter don't mind."

You're asking me if boys like you. Well, I obviously don't know you, but if a boy asks you to a dance, he likes you. You can't be so insecure enough to think, "It must not be real. I mean, who would like me?"

You can't think like that. Nobody's perfect. You have a bog nose? Who cares? Even if you had a perfect nose, you'd still be unhappy. That's just the way girls are. We look at ourselves under a microscope. "Ugh, there's no gap between my thighs." "Ugh, I have a pimple."

But the people that matter. The people thy are important. The people who are worth your time. They don't notice.

To get something you've never had, you have to do something you've never done.

Honestly, right now I'm sitting on the floor making tie dye with my two best friends in the world. I couldn't be happier! (okay well I probably could be if Josh Hutcherson showed up right now...but you all know how that is...)

Just enjoy being a girl. Enjoy pining over the guy you see walking past the cafeteria everyday between third and fourth period. Enjoy staying up late watching chick flicks. Enjoy pigging out on chocolate ice cream with your besties. Dance in the rain. Be yourself. And don't you think for one second that you're gonna be a cat lady. Because one day, the right guy will come along. And he'll really see how special you are.

Lots of love,

~m

~:*:~

Dear m,

Let me just say, where have you been! I've been waiting for you like, all well! (lol joking XD). But on a serious note, thanks a bunch! I already feel much better about myself, and I think I gained some of my confidence back :) I think I'll just enjoy being a teen, and whoever comes along comes along :)

I really can't thank you enough :D Again, thanks a bunch :)

- A kinda not so much insecure gal who got her spunk back :)

...Actually, while the opportunity may, I'm going to write another letter to you and see if you respond.

Dear Macey,

So, I'm very grateful to your last letter :] but I'm still a bit sad. I guess I still feel a little insecure about myself. BUT, this time I know why.

Its my brother.

So like any other normal sibling relationship, we tease. We bother. And we annoy. The difference that makes ours different is that my brother is an asshole. It will be an average day of annoying each other, and I'll be playfully annoying my dear ol' brother, but them e some stupid shit like ''well, your ugly'' and every time I even remotely mention anything that isn't healthy (I mean really, who doesn't love ice cream?), our even if I'm standing in front of him, he'll say something about me having a fat ass (even though I'm pretty sure I'm the skinniest person in the house) but it still hurts my feelings because, well, its my brother. And it feels like he constantly bullies me because he thinks he can because I'm the youngest and he my older brother. I mean, I can take a joke, but he takes it to far, and it gets annoying.

The worst part its that when we were younger, we got along just fine. In fact, we were really close, but now, I just can't find what went wrong...

What do I do? How do I just get my brother to shut the hell up with all the insults?

~:*:~

Hey,
I'm really sorry about you're brother. Fighting sucks bad enough and when it's with someone you live with, it sucks even more. (because you can't really escape the person who's bedroom door is right next to yours.)
I would honestly consider telling your parents about it. Just tell them how he makes you uncomfortable and is unnecessarily rude. How he's taking too far. How it's making you self conscious.
You could try talking to him. But if he's an asshole, then he probably won't listen.
You could give it right back to him.
But mainly, I would just bring the parents into it.
I hope this helps.

Love,

~m

Dear Macey,

There's this guy. And he's not just any guy, he's my friend's boyfriend.

And I like him.

It kinda seems like he likes me too, because he's always touching me. Putting his arm around my shoulder and/or waist, poking my sides, attempting to tickle me... Am I over analyzing this, or is it just like, platonic feelings? And he hugs me Every. Time. He. Sees. Me. And if I don't hug him right away he's all like "Where's my hug?"

I'm so confused:P

Help me?

~Forever

~:*:~

Dear Forever,

I know, trust me, there's always a guy. But that's okay because you have me here to help you. The wise fairy of male testosterone.

Now tell me about this friend of yours. Is she the "lets go shopping and have sleepovers and cry together" type. Or is she the "only person you talk to in Biology because everyone else is ghetto" type?

Because if she's the first type, then I'd say you're in a sticky situation...

If not, then maybe a boy likes you heheh yay let's internet stalk him for the next six hours.

Not.

That is not how you get guys to like you ladies. Not the right way. The way is of long and mysterious methods that I will take the liberty to explain to you all with my magical male testosterone expertise another time.

I honestly recommend being straight forward with this boy. If he's being obvious like tickling and hugging and touching, then I think it would better to just put it all out there in the open. I don't know about you but hug demanding sounds pretty serious ;D

Tell him you like him. If he doesn't, then maybe he will, knowing that you like him. Let's face it, why would any sane person waste their time demanding hugs from people they don't care about.

I mean if Josh Hutcherson and I were married I'd just demand hugs from him ALL THE FREAKING TIME.

Good luck and tell me how everything goes? :)

Your's Truly,

~Macey McHenry