Author's Note:

I'm so sorry it's taken so long for this to come up. My laptop crashed and all of my documents went with it. :'( All of my hard work on this has been deleted so I had to strat it again. It wasn't just this chapter that got lost, a couple more did too. Sorry for making you wait :)

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Chapter Ten - Emails

Hi Bells,

Where are you? I get back to Jacksonville and find that you and the Sullens are gone.

I wennt to stay at my uncle John's. He lives on a farm about fifty miles away from Jacksonville. You could have told me you were moving. I just needed some space. I did want to be friends.

I helped my uncle out and about on the farm. I helped with the harvest and built a barn for the cows. My uncle kept me busy!

Look, I'm sorry for everything that happened. For what I said and then running off. It's not like you can help being like the rest of the scum you like to call vampires. I loved you Bella, even though you're a vampire and I'm a wolf. We are supposed to hate eachohter but I couldn't help but fall in love with you.

But all that's changed. After having some time on my own, I've realised that we're better off without eachother. You weren't good for me Bella. I'm sorry but you weren't. I was constantly angry; I had to frequently concerntrate on staying human, even though my instincts were telling me to be a wolf and to kill you.

And there's something else. While I was away, I found someone esle. A human, someone normal. She's amazing. She's beautiful, funny. kind, clever and perfect. Just perfect. I imprinted on her Bella. She's my life now. I'm sorry. But I can't exist without her. She's in Jacksonville with me. We came up to visit my dad and I was hoping to see you, but I heard you upped and left. Not long after I went.

It wasn't because of me was it? I didn't make yo move? I'm sorry if I was the reason you had to change your lives. But it was coming anyway; you were in hidig for like a month.

I still want to be friends though. I'm going back to kIngsway next weekend, maybe we could see eachother before then, just once. Grab a cup of coffee? A bite to eat? I'm sorry for everything that I've caused. I still love you. Just not enough. I love Cindy more. I'm sorry Bells. You'll always be my best friend.

You're forever in my heart.

Jake xxx

I held it in. I read and reread the words written by Jake. Well, he wasn't mine anymore, he was Cindy's Jake. I held all feelings and emotions in. 'Not yet,' I told myself, 'not yet. I need to do this first.'

Jake,

I'm forever in your heart? What a load of bullshit Jake! You have forgotten about me for like four months, not answering my calls, not replying to my texts or emails. Yeah because I'm in your heart forever.

To start with, we're not scum. We can't exactly help being what we are, just like you can't help being a wolf. Second-of-all, it's Cullen not Sullen. I'm a Cullen Jake, I'm a vampire, are you going to call me names like Sullen and scum, because, I'm not putting up with it. I'm not putting up with you.

Yeah I'm a vampire, I don't drink coffee or eat pizza or stuff. They taste like crap. It's nice of you to consider me in your plans. Even if I did do ordinary things, I wouldn't want to meet up with you Jacob, because I want you out of my life. There hasn't been a day that's gone by where I haven't thought about you and yet, you leave and find someone else, I kept myself from my friends and family because of you. I wasn't myself, because you were a part of me.

We moved. TWice. We moved to a town called... actually, I'm not going to tell you because you'll hunt me down. And I don't want to EVER see your face again. You understand that? You've caused me and my family too much pain as it is. If you dare try to talk to me ever again, I'll hunt you and your precious little Cindy down! And yes, we did move because of you. We were going to get a fresh start. And then Carlisle and someone he knew from a while ago, got together and so we moved in with her and her clan. And for the first time in six months, I was happy. I didn't burst into tears at the thought of your name. Just once, I didn't.

Yeah for some reason, I don't think we're going to be best friends anymore. Do you? I don't want you coming anywhere near me or my family. You got that? I don't want to hear from you ever again.

Isabella Cullen

The mouse was hovering over the send button. The thought of him reading it made me feel better and yet so much worse. Knowing that I would hurt him like he hurt me was enough to put anyone off. But I wanted revenge. He hurt me badly. Not just by the email but leaving me and then finding someone else and telling me about it out-of-the-blue, four months later. My mind was made up.

It was done. Nothing could change it now. No going back. I just hoped he wouldn't reply. I didn't want to hear from him ever again. After a few seconds, a message appeared on the scrren. "Message Sent".

Next thing I know, I'm running. Running non-stop. I was out of the house in a millisecond. I ran through the pouring rain into the forest. I let the rain soak me, my body absorbing each and every drop. It acted like a barrier, blocking the rest of the world out. Letting me be alone.

I could hardly see through the thick layer of tears shieldig my eyes. Each time I blinked those tears escaped and another layer invaded. I didn't let that stop me though. I carried on running.

Eventually I stopped. I leant on a nearby tree. And let it out. Tears were leaking non-stop out of my eyes, pouring down my face. I could taste the salt as they dripped into my mouth. He'd replaced me. He found someone elsee. He wasn't bothered about me anymore. He never was. I couldn't believe I ever thought he would come back and be with me. What an idiot I was. My knees keeled over and I collapsed on the ground.

The sobs couldn't be held back any longer. They took over my body, making me shake. The animals in the bushes ran off quickly in the other direction. They were running away from me, the sounds of sobs coming out of my mouth, even the insects ran off.

I rolled up into a ball on the ground. The dirt was sticking to my wet cheeks. I felt like I was bursting open, the glue that was holding me togetherr wasn't sticking anymore. The pain was tattooed into me. Into my heart and into my memory. It wouldn't ever go away, I'd just learn to cope with it.

Suddenly someone picked me up. They wrapped their arms around me and pulled me into their chest. 'Shhhh. It's ok. Shhhh forget about him Bella. He doesn't deserve you.' Edward scooped my head into his hands and looked me in the eye. 'You don't need him,' he said as he wiped away my tears. He leaned in and kissed my forehead. 'You've got me.'