I saw a deer in our backyard today.
I got my permit yesterday.
There's no more summerschool.
I'M EXCITED! :D:D lots of wonderful news.

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"Look, I just...just...okay, fine. You win," she said and went back inside.

"I'm not looking to win. You have so, SO much explaining to do."

"No I don't."

"Yes, you do. First of all, what were you doing on the street in the middle of the night? Then, why the hell did you decide to sneak out of the hospital to go to San Francisco? Third, why are you avoiding me? And why can't you just tell me what is going on?"

"There is nothing going on."

"Yes, there is, I'm not stupid, Lily. You're acting different."

"No, I am not. I'm fine, normal, better than ever."

"I hardly believe that."

"I know, and that's sad, because don't you trust what I say?"

"I do, but it's hard to blindly accept something without any explanation. What happened the night you were attacked?"

"I don't remember."

"Just tell me."

"I'm telling you, I don't remember."

"Fine, why did you need to sneak out?"

"I had business to handle. Family issues; I had to take care of them alone."

"What sort of issues?"

"The normal kind."

"Just tell me."

"It's not important."

"Well, if it isn't important, why do you have to keep it a secret?"

"I don't. You don't need to know."

"I'm worried about you, you should tell me."

"It's nothing."

"Stop with the nothing excuse."

"I'm telling you, there's nothing to be concerned about, okay?"

"Yes there is, and I think I deserve to know."

"You deserve? DESERVE? No, you don't, okay? I have the right to keep everything to myself, I don't need to say anything to you!"

"See, there is something you're hiding. I'm here. Tell me what's wrong," Kaiba said, taking hold of her hand and sitting closer to her. She flinched and tensed up when he put his arm around her, "Are you scared I'm going to hurt you?"

"No, no, it's nothing."

"There you go again, nothing. For someone with nothing going on, you're sure saying nothing a lot. What happened to cause you to change so much?"

Pushing him away, she replied, "I'm not different."

"Yes, you are, you just acted if I was about to hit you."

"No, I didn't."

"Really?" He walked over to her and touched her shoulder to turn her around, and she reacted by shifting away from his touch, "See what I mean?"

"It's just..."

"Yes?"

"No...just leave, please. Kaiba, just go."

"Fine," he muttered. With that, he exited her apartment, slamming the door on his way out.

This is the best way, not to let him know...it's no time to break down now, Lily, you can handle this. Okay, breathe in, breathe out, everything is fine...He doesn't need to know...Just get over it. It's okay, things are fine. I just have to cover things up better...

That night she cried herself to sleep, something she hadn't done since she was eleven, when she realized that she couldn't wallow herself in the past. She had to accept what life threw at her and would prove better than the troubles she faced.

Because it was break, the next day, Lily wasted her time, watching TV and playing games. When she was tired of doing that, she took a nap. When she had more energy, she shopped her way through her problem.

What better way to show him that I'm fine than to give them Christmas presents?

After many days of careful consideration, much time investigating shops, as well as frustration, she found the perfect gifts for the Kaiba brothers and for Yugi, since she felt she owed him something after he picked her up off the street to bring her to the hospital.

She had three weeks until Christmas (It's weird that its so much time into break, but I need her to heal first, so I'm stretching things a bit.) and she spent five days deliberating on what to write in their cards.

Dear Mokuba Kaiba,
You don't know how hard it is to shop for someone who can buy anything he wants, so I decided to give you a dictionary. I figured, you know, that you might just need it for school, and it doesn't hurt to expand your vocabulary. It can be quite a handy tool. I'm just kidding, but if you opened your present before you read this then you would have known. But, I did get you a book; a cooking book. I know, you're too young to take on the kitchen, but one day, you'll be sick of eating out all the time, and you'll find this book. Then you'll be able to show off with these simple recipes and this is way in the future, but when you get married your wife will be pleased to know you cook. Now I'm just scaring you, huh? Well, I did get you something to enjoy right now. It's a toy; actually, it's really old- school and it's not even high tech whatsoever. You use your hand to play with it, but it's not one of those things you can play for hours, unless you're just obsessed with it. Well, I guess I should just tell you now, it's a yo-yo! I actually can do a few tricks with it; really simple ones, but it's nothing compared with the pros. Well, I hope you enjoy it, otherwise, just put it away, and tell your friends you got an antique for Christmas. Hope you have a wonderful Christmas!
 Love,
Lily

She finished and sealed the envelope and decided to take a nap. The next day she started to write Yugi's.

Dear Yugi Moto,
I want to thank you for helping me out and bringing me to the hospital, and I appreciate you keeping what happened to me quiet. Since you value friendship so much, I thought I'd give you $100 gift certificate (11 000 yen) to the restaurant Casita in downtown, (This restaurant actually exists in Japan.) so that you could treat your friends to dinner or something, even though to me, your tastes in friends are a bit questionable. Anyway, it seems like that would be the best place for a friend get-together, and so I hope you guys enjoy that. Have an incredible holiday break.
Yours truly,
Lily
p.s. When are you gonna ask Tea out already? I can totally tell you're crushing big time, after noticing the way you guys act for a few months now. Better yet, use this to take her out! Take my advice, or you'll regret it. This is your excuse, say, hey Tea, I have this gift certificate, so how would you like to join me this Friday for dinner? And then, she'll say, of course Yugi, and then you'll say, all right, pick you up at six? And then voila, you've done it! Well, I've done all the dirty work, so go. There's nothing to lose.

She finished it feeling smug about playing matchmaker. Her grin faded, though when she looked at Kaiba's card. She had no idea what to write, and wasn't even so sure about giving him her, ahem, "virginity". Her reasoning was that it would prove that she still wanted to be with him, and that she wasn't avoiding him. It would distract him from his suspicion and cover up anything if she became pregnant or something. After all, she couldn't say that her baby was his if she didn't even sleep with him. Plus, she would show that she was recovered from the attack. She had thought about it so much and concluded that it was the best way. It wasn't what she planned, but it would have to do. She planned on giving the card the next morning after they, well, you know.

Dear Seto Kaiba,
I know you're angry with me for being so inward lately. It's just that I'm still working on accepting the fact that I was attacked. I'm not ready to put things out in the open yet. I know it must be hard for you because I haven't said much, and I'm sorry that I'm not ready, but the time will come on its own.

She paused, thinking of what to say. Unable to conjure up any words, she exercised a bit, helping her arm to heal. She decided that she should go to the doctor's office and see how her condition was, although she wasn't too excited to hear what he would say about sneaking out.

The doctor gave her a short lecture, but was pleased to see that she was recovering rapidly. She set up another appointment for five days later. Lily returned to her home and stared for a moment at the incomplete letter.

Other than that, I'm doing very well. I'm enjoying break immensely, and the free time and relaxation is wonderful. I don't feel much pain anymore, and I'm sure I'll fully recover in a few weeks.

She stopped again as she thought about her brother. Unable to focus afterwards, she looked to see what time it was: 8:27. After a small yawn escaped from her mouth, she decided to call it a night.

A week and a half passed and she hadn't been able to continue the message on the card. Although Lily delivered her gift to Yugi, she didn't talk to Kaiba about their situation yet. Seems like he's learned to be more stubborn since the first time they weren't communicating. Christmas Eve was slowly approaching, and it wasn't until two days before when she finished the card.

Well, it's been a few weeks, and to tell you the truth, I couldn't think of what to say to you. We haven't communicated much, and I'm sorry for that. If all goes well, you'll read this Christmas morning and things will be better. Best Wishes for the holidays!
Love, wth all my heart,
Lily

She sealed the envelope with a sigh and picked up her phone.

"Hello?"

"Seto?"

"Yes, that's me."

"Uh, well, I was wondering..." she trailed off.

"You were wondering..."

"Well, Christmas is soon, and I was thinking maybe we should get together?"

"Mokuba is expecting me to spend the day with him," he said coldly.

"Oh, well, I was hoping we could be alone..."

"Well, I'll have to think about it."

"All right, well, you know where to find me," she said with false cheer and hung up.

"Who was that big brother?"

"Lily."

"Is she okay?"

"Yeah, perfectly fine."

"Is she coming over for Christmas?"

"No."

"Are you going to her apartment?"

"No."

"Are you two even going to spend time together?"

"Maybe."

"Maybe? What's wrong? During school you never got home until late."

"What is your point Mokuba?"

"My point is, that when two people spend so much time together, it's strange for them not to celebrate holidays together."

"So?"

"Fine, but just to let you know, I'll let you slide on spending Christmas day with me, just as long as you go see Lily."

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okay, i don't like this chapter that much, but that's okay! :D ahem, so, review, but be nice.