Author's Note: After a request, and listening to "Secrets" by "One Republic" this fic grew into a final one. Warning before you read: Anger, sadness, angst, hurt/comfort... that's about it, wait, a little bit of violence too, not alot though, I promise.
Disclaimer: I have build a bears that look like BTR, but there not really them -though I wish they were. I don't own them, Nick does.
Requested by: Sufergal23
Worldwide: Kella One-Shots
Secrets
Over the past few days, something seemed off about Kendall. He scarcley did anything. When him and Bella went on dates, he wouldn't hold her hand, or put his arm around her shoulder like he usually would. Instead, he just did whatever she wanted, staring in the distance with glassy eyes, deep in thought it seemed.
Bella watched as the days went by, and noticed the symptoms got worse for every day that passed. His singing was flat, his dancing was clubsy. He seemed like the walking dead now, like a part of him was missing. Now he was just a body, with no soul left inside.
Kendall only did the things he had to do. He ate, he drank, he washed, but then he retrited back into his room, where the pitch black darkness engulfed him.
Bella started to worry, he ate less and less every meal, and when he usually would eat a bunch of fish-sticks and tator tots on 'Fish Stick Friday', he ate only one fishstick, and two tots. Then, he got up, and left back into his room.
Knowing something must have really been bothering him, Bella asked that same night to the other guys and Katie, "What do you think is wrong? He usually eats loads of tater tots and fish sticks."
Carlos nodded, his mouth full with food, "Mmmhmm. He must 'ave somethin' wron' 'ith 'im." He said between trying to force the food down, and repeated, "He's got to have something wrong with him, he never leaves the table when there's still food there. We always fight for the last Fish stick."
James, who was standing in the other room, as Mrs. Knight didn't let him comb his hair near the dinner table, replied, "Probably just over worked or something. Gustavo's making the singing and dancing harder, I'll probably have to take a nap after dinner just to get my stregth up to go to the gym." He said, yawning.
Getting up, Logan said, "He's been acting like this for a few days, aren't any of you guys worried?"
Bella nodded, while Carlos and James were fighting with their food again. She rolled her eyes, before turning back to him, "Yeah, I'm really worried. He's secluding himself in his room, and he hasnt uttered a word to me in nearly a weak." I miss his voice. She thought, I miss him saying that he loves me, and putting his arms around me. Something must really be wrong.
Carlos, who still had foor in his mouth, chomped, "Go and talk to him then." He stuffed more food in his mouth, "I'm eating whatever he isn't."
Suddenly, a tall frame flew over the table, knocking Carlos over, and Bella heard James' voice say, "Give me some of those tots!" very loudly, and she shook her head to the side at her brother's behavior. He was such like a five year old kid sometimes, and he still whined about people taking his stuff -food and cuda products being the top two.
Bella got up, pushing her chair away from the table. She pulled James off Carlos -with the help of Logan. Bella grabbed her plate, tipping the contents onto her brother's plate, "Take mine, I'm gonna go and talk to Kendall." She gave the two childish boys another look, and then silently begged Logan to make sure they didn't fight.
Walking out of the dinning area, Bella walked down the hallway where the guys rooms were. Bella saw Kendall's door closed, the hockey stickers and a jersey pinned on the front. A sign at the top said, "Hockey Player Parking Only." She sighed, laughing a bit, as she hadn't seen the sign before. Knocking on the door, she waited for an answer.
Of course, there wasnt a sound coming from Kendall's room, and when she reached for the lock, and tried to turn it, it was stuck. Great, he'd locked the door.
Bella walked back into the other room, and called, "Katie!"
Out of nowhere, Katie popped in front of her, "Hey Bella, what'cha need?"
The taller brunette smiled, "I need to pick a lock, do you have a paper clip, bobby pin? Anything like that?" She asked Katie.
Katie nodded, reaching inside her poket and grabbing a bent up papper clip, handing it to her brother's girlfriend, "Here, I used it to get into Bitter's office a few weeks ago. Who's door do you need to get into anyways?"
Bella shrugged, "Your brother's, something is up with him, andd I want to know what it is." She replied, "Thanks again Katie." She said, before turning back down the hall.
Reaching Kendall's door, she inserted the paper clip into the lock, and after twisting it around for a few seconds, she heard a 'click' that made her smile.
Bella walked inside the room, and was surprised. Usually, Kendall was organized, and he would keep his things in a decent order, but it was a complete caos. Shirts were thrown aimlessly, pants hanging from random places. Truthfully, it looked like a clothes volcano had blown up, and this was the aftermass.
Making her way through the dirty clothes, she saw a bump under Kendall's covers by his bed. Standing next to the bed, Bella whispered, "Kendall, please talk to me." She asked, almost desperatly. He didn't murmer a word, "I haven't heard your voice in nearly a week, please Kendall, your scaring me."
He continued to just lay there, staring at the wall blankly. Bella tried to pull him to look at her, but he refused to move. "Kendall, please." She begged, tears falling down her cheeks, dripping to the carpet below. "Kendall, tell me what's wrong, please!" She exclaimed, still crying as she watched him stare into nothing.
Kendall just fidgeted, but said nothing. She lightly pounded her fists on his chest, "Kendall, I can't help if you don't tell me what's wrong. Please..." She trailed off into a sob.
"Do something." Bella begged, "You haven't done anything other than the things that will keep you alive. You haven't shown any one emotion in a week, just tell me what happened. I can fix it, I promise."
Suddenly, he threw the blanket off of himself, it flying into a wall, and he looked at her intently, "That's the problem, you can't fix this! Bella, I can't fix this, and neither can you!" He yelled.
Bella rubbed his arm soothingly, "Tell me what's wrong."
Kendall harshly pulled away from her gentle touch, "Just leave me alone Bella, I want to be alone."
She got a hurt expression on her face, and lightly asked, "What did I do?"
He harshly grabbed her arm, and pushed her towards the door, "You came in. Just leave me alone, I want to just be alone!" He yelled, before slamming the door in her face.
Bella felt tears streaking down her cheeks, down to the ground. She curled up into a ball against Kendall's door, more tears falling freely down her face.
It seemed like an eternity before James came looking for Bella down the hallway. Once he spotted her, he immediatly ran over to her, "Bella, what happened?" He asked, brushing some of his little sister's hairs from her eyes. He took her into his arms, letting her ruin his new lucky white V neck with tears.
She finally could get a word out, and sobbed, "Kendall." She felt James tense around her, and slowly let her go, before kicking Kendall's door open, and barging inside.
Bella crawled to the side of the doorframe, afraid of what might happen. James grabbed Kendall from where he was sleeping on the bed, throwing him onto the ground, a mean look in his usually nice brown eyes. "What did you do to her?" He seethed.
Kendall groggily got up, "Leave me alone." He muttered, trying to get past the taller boy to his bed. James grabbed his shoulders, pushing him back before delivering a punch to the stomach. "Umph."
James glared at the blonde boy, "I'll repeat it one more time. What. Did. You. Do. To. Her?" He asked, every word it's own sentance.
The blonde stumbled for air, and then weakly asked, "Who are you talking about?"
"Bella!" James yelled, punching him in the eye, making him gasp in pain.
Bella finally got up off the ground, just as James was about to punch Kendall in the jaw. "James, stop it! Let me deal with this!" She yelled at him, trying to pull his arm back and away from Kendall.
Kendall breathed a sigh of relief, and Bella gave him an icy glare he had never seen before, "I'm not done talking with you."
James glared at his best friend, but slumped out of the room, sending one last death glare before trudging down the hall to his room. Kendall looked at her, a black eye already forming from where James had punched him, "What do you want?" He asked bitterly.
Bella tried to soften her expression, "I just want to help you. Something's wrong, and I just want to help!"
Kendall stood up, towering over her by a good four inches, "Leave it alone Bella, just leave me alone!"
"What's wrong?" She yelled back at him, more tears pouring down her face.
Kendall was so worked up, he blurted out, "What's wrong is that I kissed Jo!" He yelled.
Bella sunk down, "That happened a long time ago Kendall, you shouldn't be angry about it."
He looked her in the eyes, still very angry, "I kissed her a week ago, and I can't take it back! I want to take it back so badly, but I can't! And now you know! And you hate me for it I bet!"
She looked up, hurt, "Kendall, it wouldn't have been as bad if you had told me." She got up, and started to go towards the door, only turning to say, "But you didn't. Last time this happened, I could forgive you, but twice? How do you kiss someone twice and not mean it?" She took her promise ring off her finger, tossing it at him, happy when it bounced off his head, "That promise ring signified that one day we would get married, you marry people that you trust -and I can't trust you anymore, it's worthless now Kendall. We're over." She screamed between sobs, running down the hallway, and out of 2J, into her own appartment.
She didn't look up when a pair of strong arms wrapped around her, and she burried her head into a rock hard chest. James, of course he'd make sure Bella was alright.
Maybe Bella had just wished that it was Kendall who wrapped his arms around her, comforting her, appologizing profoundly. But he didn't follow her, he never made a move to take the step forward.
Bella looked up, tears clouding her eyes, "Maybe you were right James, me and Kendall shouldn't have dated." She whispered, as he pressed a kiss to her forehead.
"Don't talk about him." James mumbled, cradling his little sister as she sobbed over the first guy she had loved. The guy that she thought was truely her true love, until he slipped up one to many times.
Logan stormed into Kendall's room after seeing Bella run out of the appartment crying, James following her. Kendall was curled in a ball, and Logan shoved his side, his protectivness over Bella comming out. "Kendall, what did you do?" He asked through clenched teeth.
Kendall turned around, and Logan looked at him. He was holding his stomach, revealing a large bruise there, his lip was puffy and swollen, and he was sporting a nice black eye. "What happened to you?"
"James punched me in the face." He gritted out, flopping back against the pillows, "And I just completely screwed up my entire relationship with Bella." He said to his pillow.
Logan sat at the desk chair, resisting the urge to punch him too. Normally, Logan was calm and collected, but he, along with the other guys, were very protective of Bella. And when he saw her running away, crying her eyes out, he wanted to give Kendall a matching black eye. "What did you do to Bella?" He asked, trying to keep his tone nuetral.
Kendall buiried his face into his pillow, "URG! I kissed Jo last week, and I didn't want to tell Bella about it, but then it slipped out, and then James got mad and-" But he was cut off by Logan's fist connecting to his jaw, a satisfying cruch filling the room. "Owe!" He glared at Logan, "He did that!"
The smart boy just stood there, arms crossed, "You do realise that you just broke Bella's heart, and threw away the peices. She tried to understand the reason you did it the first time, but again... no Kendall, I don't think she, James, or I will forgive you for this."
Kendall grabbed the boys arm as he started to try and get out of the room, "Jo disguised herself-" He started, and Logan turned around, "She dyed her hair and eyebrows brown, and wore something Bella would have. I wrapped my arms around her, because I thought it was Bella, and then I kissed her. When I pulled away I noticed it was Jo and ran away! I didn't do it on purpose. I love Bella, I wouldn't do that." He mumbled, looking down at the promise ring that Bella had thrown at his head sitting in his hand. "I love her so much." He repeated, a tear falling from his eye.
Logan actually believed him. Kendall wasn't a great liar, and he'd never be able to think up that story in only a few seconds. "You've got to believe me Logan!" Kendall begged.
The smart boy finally sunk into a chair, "I'll give you the benifit of doubt." Kendall looked at him confused, "I'll give you a chance to prove that, before I help you. If you really thought it was Bella, get me an example."
Kendall finally smiled after a week, "I've got just the way." He grabbed Logan's arm, pulling him out of the room.
Bella stopped crying, and saw that James was asleep. She got up, and whiped the tears away from her eyes. She needed to leave him behind. He cheated on her twice with the same girl! It shouldn't be a hard thing to do. Bella looked at the picture of her and Kendall at the beach, the frame sitting on the counter in the kitchen, and ended up throwing a book at it in frustration. The frame and glass shattering over the ground, but Bella didn't care.
Finally, she got a bright idea. She needed someone to go out with that would make her happy, and there was one guy that she had in mind.
Grabbing her phone, she pressed call on one of the numbers.
"Hello?"
Bella sighed, making sure she wanted to do this, "Hey Dak, it's Bella."
She could hear him brighten over the phone, "Hey Bella, how're you doing?" He asked.
"Alright... you?" She replied tenitivly.
"Good, I just finished working on Vampire Varsity 3. I got your new single you just put out, it's really good." Dak replied.
Guess she would have to be the one to break the ice, "How about we go get coffee -if you're not doing anything." She added.
He seemed surprised, but immediatly said, "Sure, where?"
"Starbucks, just down the street from the Palm Woods."
"Alright, see you there."
Bella hung up the phone, and sighed. She needed to get her mind off of Kendall, and Dak may be able to do that. Hopefully.
Logan and Kendall ran downstairs to the lobby, right up to Mr. Bitter's desk. Bitter's asked, "What do you two want?" In a snarky voice, taking a bit of his hot dog.
The two boys said at once, "We need to see your sercurity video's!... Now!" They yelled.
Bitter's glared at them, "Why would I do that?"
Kendall tried to look innocent, "Because we're your favorite guests, and you would do anything for us?" He tried, biting his lip.
Bitter's shook his head, and Logan sighed, reaching into his wallet and grabbing a twenty dollar bill. "Here." He slid the money onto the counter, pushing it towards Bitters.
The chubby fingers snatched the bill, and he motioned him to follow him into a room. "This is the security room, what do you need to see?" He asked, sitting down.
Logan looked at Kendall, "What time did you kiss Jo?"
Bitter's looked up, interested, but Kendall thought for a minutes, "Around 12:30 I think, because we had just gotten lunch break from rehersals."
Bitter's flipped throught the tapes, and finally slowed down when he reached around that time. Finally, a picture of Kendall wrapping his arms around a girl with wavy brown hair was across the camera, and then them kissing, "That's it!" Logan yelled, "We need that tape, just of that. Please Bitters!" He begged.
Bitter's thought, and then finally held out his hands, "I still need money for voice over lessons, twenty more bucks." Reluctantly, the boy gave his cash over as Bitters printed the cd for them, and before they left, he called, "That never happened, got it?"
Both boys nodded, and Kendall turned to Logan, "I just show the tape to Bella, and it'll work out?" He asked.
Logan frowned, "Well, she'll still be mad, but she may take you back. It depends on how much you love her."
Kendall nodded, "Alright, where do we go?"
"I saw her going towards the coffee shop."
"We were filming and the sound dude dropped the mic, and it hit my co-star in the head, she tripped over some wires, and then fell off the stage." Dak was saying, "She was alright though, just a few bruises."
"Mmm..." Bella mumbled back, she really couldn't concentrate on what he was saying. Her mind was on Kendall, how much she loved him, like when he wrapped his arms around her and kissed her -she stopped those thoughts. He kissed Jo, the girl that broke his heart. Guess it was a pattern, she breaks his heart, he breaks Bella's heart.
Dak noticed her staring off into space, "You've got something on your mind." He didn't ask, rather just stated.
Bella bit her lip, "Well, just something little. It's nothing." She lied.
"It's about Kendall?" Dak asked, and she nodded just a little bit, "I guessed when I didn't see that ring -plus, he wouldn't like you talking with me."
She hung her head, "Sorry, you must think that I am using you. I just really needed a distraction..." She trailed off.
Dak just laughed, "I've done that enough to others, it's time someone did it to me." Bella smiled at him a bit.
Putting her hand onto his, she said, "Thanks for understanding."
He opened his mouth, but it wasn't his voice that said, "Bella!"
She knew the voice, but she refused to turn her head around and look at him. Soon, Kendall and Logan were standing on either sides of their table.
Kendall looked at her, "I've got proof." When she didn't respond, he continued, "I have proof I thought it was you when I kissed Jo."
Bella looked up curiously, "Jo and I look nothing alike. You need an eye check."
"Logan, show her the tape." Kendall said, and Logan pulled a small laptop from behind his back, opening it and clicking a few buttons.
Finally, there was a video with a girl that looked alot like her from the back, Kendall wrapped his arms around her, and then turned her around and kissed her. "Look though." Logan said, pausing it, blowing up their faces so that Bella could see them better. Jo.
She turned to Kendall, "So, you didn't kiss Jo -knowingly I mean-?"
He shook his head, and that was all it took for her to fet up from the chair, hugging him tighly. Once she let go, Kendall held out his closed fist, opening it to reveal her Promise Ring. "I promise not to kiss anyone I'm sure it's you."
Bella had to stiffle a laugh, and said, "I promise not to act like a jealous girlfriend again."
He slipped the ring back onto her middle finger, where it should stay. Both of them leaning up to capture the lips they had missed so much.
In the backround, Dak asked, "Is it a bad time to ask why he has a black eye?"
Author's Note: This made me cry writting it, Kendall got hit three times, ruined his relationship with Bella, and is saying how much he loves her. I felt so sad, I was crying over the computer as I wrote those scenes. At least it worked in the end, right?
-Surfergal23 I hope that was close to your request, I mean... they did have a fight. Er... yeah, moving on.
-I put Dak back into the fic because I faintly remember a reviewer asking for him to come back -that's for you!
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