Authors Note: I'm just gonna let everyone know now, Bella won't be pregnant, at least not now. She's on the pill of course, she's an adult and should be. I'm not saying I won't ever... But I just don't know about it. I wasn't ever a fan of the child that shall not be named.. Whats your feels on the subject?
Bella:
A smile curled my lips as I felt the soft bed underneath of me. Flashes of the prevous night floated across my closed lids. My body felt good, like the feeling you got after a good work out. Although between my legs was a little tender, and there was a little aching spot on my neck. I didn't mind though, we'd work out all of the kinks. I felt cool finger tips dance across my exposed back. I rolled over to see my golden angel still shirtless and under the blankets beside me. A smile barely played on his lips. Oh those lips..
"Hi." I said shyly, but I didn't move up the blankets that were shifting down me.
"Hello." His grin was full-blown now. "How do you feel?" He curled his body closer to mine, kissing my lips lightly, and pulling me to his chest.
"Good." I murmured, kissing him again. He chuckled slightly, pulling back for a moment. I frowned at him.
"Your a little bruised," His eyes went down between us towards my thighs."I'm afraid you neck is a little red too. "
"You try to bite me Carlisle?" I said in mock horror.
"I just wanted to leave my mark is all." He kissed me after, so I couldn't reply to that comment.
We soon got carried away with our kissing, I knew what it was leading to, and I quickly wiggled from his grasp. I ran butt-naked out the room and into the bathroom across the hall. He laughed, chasing me at a human speed. "Where are you going little girl!"
I turned on the shower once I was there grinning back at him. The door slammed shot after he entered the just as much him, as the rest of the home, bathroom.
After we got clean... That really wasn't the right word though. I had to put on Carlisle's clothing since I still hadn't prepared very well. I wore a button up white long sleeve shirt and pair of his boxes like shorts. Carlisle was dressed quicker than I, already downstairs removing things from the fridge to cook for me. Much to my happiness, he wasn't wearing a shirt.
"It's a little late for breakfast, do you want lunch or?" He asked as I happily watched him from my seat by the kitchen island.
"Breakfast." I grinned remembering that, that was more than likely the only thing he knew how to cook. I tore my eyes away from his chest to look for a clock. "What time is it?"
"One fifteen." He replied. Holly hell! I dashed up into the living room, looking for my purse.
"Bella?" He called out.
"Just need to check my phone and take my stuff." I said padding back into the kitchen, lucky to find my purse discarding close by the door.
"Stuff?"
"Vitatamin, and birth control. " I had always had a vitamin D deficiency ever since I was little. Besides, I hated getting sick.
"Yes, I'm glad you kept up your supplements. I forgot for a moment though. Why birth control?" He was attempting to sound casual. I idly thought if he thought I had been with more men than the one I told him about.
"Makes my periods lighter. " I answered simply. "I haven't been with anyone.. Besides you.. Since, well you know." I added to stop any thoughts he might have.
"I haven't either.. " He said, his back turned from me. "Your my very first human by the way." I just knew he was grinning.
"Really?"
"Yes really. I'm hurt that you think I sleep around. I've only been with.. Esmé. I never loved anyone else. I guess like you, I think sex and love go together."
Wait.. Did that mean he loved me? I didn't know what I felt about Carlisle at that moment. I knew I loved him, that was sure. But I wasn't for sure if I was in love with him. Could I even trust another to let my self go that completely? If I fell for him hard, like much to my.. Shame? Regret? No I don't regret that my heart was telling me to fall, and fall hard. My brain was just a little beyond worried that he would leave me.. Like everyone else had in some way.
"Say something." He interrupted my inner rambles, and I was thankful.
"I just didn't think there was many like me anymore."
"Well Bella I am from a very different time."
Breakfast/lunch/very late brunch went very well, much like before he was a wonderful cook. We talked about less heavy subjects, eventually leading us to the back yard. We currently lay on a blanket in the hot sun. My hand was tracing the muscles in his arm as I thought about how to word my thoughts to him.
"Carlisle.." I started.
"Whats wrong?"
"Nothing it's just.. Can we take this slow now? I mean I love this. " Kissed where his heart would be gently. "But I actually want to date you. Really get to know you, sappy movies, roses, restaurants and dancing. I've never had that really. I want that. I- I-..."
"You can't just jump into love again?" He finished for me.
"Yes." I breathed, but it's to late Carlisle.
"Then you'll have all of that. I know we shouldn't have done what we did last night to soon, but I just couldn't stop. Isabella.. I think I've always wanted you. It was just too much for me to take in all at once. I had to have you. It seemed like you felt the same way.."
"I did, and I did too. Always felt that way towards you." I smiled as I remembered the day he walked into the emergency room after that fateful van. My jaw had literally dropped a bit, my heart rate pounded more than it did with Edward. I even felt arousal towards him whenever he was near. That very last night I saw him, I had wanted more than ever to know what he felt like to kiss. Yet I felt such shame for it.
"I wonder what would have happened if one of us acted on our feelings."
"It would be the very first Jerry Springer: Vampire Edition. The case of when a Sire or rather father figure does his' son's eighteen year old girlfriend on his office desk." I mimicked an announcer's voice as much as I could.
Carlisle started laughing loudly. "Oh lord." He shook his head grinning.
I grinned back, giggling only a little bit. I was so happy in this moment. He was so easy to talk too. He was as easy as breathing, but not in the same way. He wasn't 'good' for me, but he was at the same time. He listened, and understood. Actually understood, and if he didn't, he asked questions actually caring on a deep conversation with me. He was... Carlisle. There was no other words.
I leaned over him, kissing him deeply.
He groaned unhappily. "Bella your phone's ringing."
"You know. I never looked at my phone."
"It seems I distracted you with bacon. Among other things.."
"Yes. Yes you did. " I lazily got up to go get the phone. I'd call whoever it was back later.
Carlisle leaned against the counter as I read the fifteen texts, and four missed calls.
Zoey- omgjygybugvjgbkjouj
I'm pretty sure that must have been a pocket text, but you never know, it could be Zoey language.
Zoey-
AH! ME AND JACK! AH!
Zoey-
GIRL! CALL ME! I WANNA SPILL!
Zoey-
B?
Zoey-
BELLLLLLLLLLLLA
Zoey-
Did you go home with doctor yummy?
Zoey-
You went home with doctor yummy!
Zoey-
I went to your house!
Zoey-
YOU MUST TELL ME EVERYTHING YOU LITTLE MINX!
Zoey-
It's not fair really.. I bet he was better than Jack. You lucky whore.
Zoey-
Seriously call me.
Zoey seriously needed to stop thinking about sex all the time. I sure as hell wasn't giving her all the details.. I prayed she didn't let it slip to anyone that I was wish Carlisle. It really was against policy. I didn't want Carlisle or my job to be lost.
Angie-
Hey Bella, it's been a couple of weeks. How are you faring back in AZ? Still like the new hosp? Meet anyone yet? Maybe I could come out on break! Ben and I sure need a vac.! Call me sweets.
I smiled, I did miss Angie. She was studying to be a kindergarten teacher, doing her first year as student teacher. I was proud of her.
Mom-
Looks like we might be heading to Arizona honey! I'll call you with more details!
That wouldn't be good.. I glanced up at Carlisle. Nope. Not good at all. He looked amused by watching me.
"My mom might be coming down soon. Zoey's insane, and Angela wants to come down in a few months. Just two more now. " I said scrolling down to see who the latest was from.
"Good, I can stay hidden. It would be a little hard to explain.. " He trailed off.
It was an unknown number, but I clicked it open anyway.
Listen, I know you don't want to hear from me anymore. It's just that I've thought of you alot. I know you haven't taken any of my letters or calls, but I asked you Dad for you cell phone number for the millionth time. I miss you. So much Bells. I'm sorry, so sorry. Beyond sorry. I just wish we could start over now, but there's no hope for that is there? No I'm not drunk or anything either. I just miss my girl. I'm a stupid fuck I know. Please.. Just text me back.
Jake.
AN: Yell at me, go ahead. I deserve it.