When she left Loki's cell to meet with Fandral, her hands were still shaking a little bit. She didn't know what to think, what to do… Even if she was nervous, somewhere deep inside she felt warmer. She was heading slowly to the place where they were supposed to meet.
"Hello", Fandral's voice reached her as if he was behind some curtain. She looked at him a little distracted and smiled automatically, slightly nodding her head to welcome him. He looked at her with wide smile, noticing cute blushes on her cheeks. He loved how shy this girl was.
"So… Now we can go?", he asked, offering her arm. She accepted it and looked at him again, still distracted.
"Yes…", she murmured. Obediently, she followed Fandral as he guided her slowly out of the castle. He was telling her one of those "mighty Thor and friends" stories. Not like she paid any attention, just from time to time she nodded or laughed.
It was a bit stupid, but Eir still felt Loki's lips on hers. It was her first kiss with man and she must admit that it was nice. Really nice, to be exact. Damn good. Just… What stepped into him? What happened, why did he do that? He never looked as if he cared about her. Well, maybe he liked her a little bit – she was his only visitor for quite a while and it's nice to spend time with someone else from time to time when you are locked in small room all alone. So maybe it was the same thing? Maybe he simply… Well… He was a man, older than her, maybe he just… Oh, they have their needs!
"Oh, I am sorry, maybe it was too scary for you?", Fandral asked concerned, seeing blushes on her cheeks. She looked at him in surprise. What…?
"I scared you? Maybe I shouldn't describe those Frost Giants so closely, I am really sorry.", he said, caressing her hand, which he still held close to his side. She looked down at his fingers. She was gently touching her very own hand, brushing it slightly. When she looked back up, she saw him smiling to her. Ok, so what happened when she was contemplating Loki's behavior? Did she miss something? Half of a date or something?
He turned to stand in front of her, letting her hand go and caressing her cheek. She moved a bit back, but then she felt trunk behind her back. Typical. She pressed her back to the tree, imagining that she can disappear. His smile widened as he leaned a bit down to her. He placed his right hand on the trunk right above her head, second hand playing with strand of her hair. Fandral kept looking into her eyes, one of his hands still tangled in her hair. Then, slowly, he started moving his face closer to her. She opened her mouth to protest, but then she felt his lips on hers. She pushed him away with all her strength and when he stepped back in surprise, she ran away.
Barely catching her breath, she reached castle and then she finally stopped, hands on her knees, breathing deeply. She felt that her face was red and warm, but she couldn't decide whether it was from anger, abashment or simply because she was running as fast as she could.
Fandral stood under the tree, exactly where she left him. He looked as tiny redheaded figure ran to castle, almost falling over two times on her way. Damn, maybe it was too fast for her. Shaking his head, he decided to apologize her and beg to start all over again. It came to his mind, that she was just a young girl, probably he scared her. It's fine, she likes him, he just shouldn't rush like this. Today he will leave her be, but tomorrow he will apologize. Yes, that's exactly what he will do!
I still have Queen's permission to visit Loki whenever I want, she kept repeating herself, as she was jumping off the stairs leading to the prison. Tears were running down her cheeks and she wasn't quite sure why is she crying. Honestly, she didn't care, she was obsessed with one thought: she needs to see Loki. Now. Immediately.
She stopped at the bottom of the stairs, wiping her face. It is quite dark in here, so this should do for now. Besides, she didn't feel like going to her room to clean her face right now. She started walking again, brushing her hair with fingers. Angrily, she removed leaf from them, throwing it out to the floor. As usual, she nodded to the guards and even if they were surprised with her presence, they didn't say a word.
Eir went into the room, locking door behind her. When she localized Loki at his chair, looking at her with one of his eyebrows up, she simply run to him, fell on her knees and hugged to his legs. He looked at her in amazement. Gently, he pushed her away from his legs, stood up and made her do the same. Then he hugged her firmly, basing his chin on top of her head. She felt that again there was some illusion hiding them, but she couldn't tell when he made it. She didn't really care. She encircled her arms around him. After a few minutes, or maybe it was hours, he pushed her away again, holding her arms.
"Now tell me what happened.", he demanded, looking at her carefully. He could have seen that she was crying short time ago, her green eyes still shining from tears and her face a bit red.
"Well…", she started, biting her bottom lip, "Actually nothing happened, I just…"
She stopped, not sure how to finish the sentence. She what? Frightened, because man was trying to kiss her? Felt uncomfortably, because man was trying to kiss her? What on Earth was in her mind when she came here? Nothing happened, she was just acting childishly. She wasn't thinking about reasons when she was on her way here, interested only in his presence next to her.
She looked up into his emerald eyes, blushing, suddenly feeling incredibly stupid.
"I… It is nothing actually… Just… I was with Fandral, he was talking something I didn't really listen and…", she stopped again, feeling as his hands tightened on her arms. She looked at his left hand holding her arm.
"And?", he urged, shaking her slightly.
"Andhetriedtokissme.", she said, not looking at Loki, focusing on fingers holding her arm. All of a sudden she felt that she is making idiot out of her. She should have been aware that Fandral might try to do such a thing, and yet she freaked out and slipped away. She is such a child.
Eir felt as Loki's hands released her arms, when he was looking at her coldly with his emerald eyes. He didn't say a single word, he was just staring straight into her eyes.
"I… I know it was stupid what I did, to run in here like this, I just…", she felt urge to speak when he was so quiet, but she didn't know what to say. Without thinking, she took his hand into hers and entwined their fingers, hugging to his arm.
What was he thinking? He was just a prisoner. Who would possibly care about some monster, locked in prison? He should have known that from the moment he lost control and showed her his real face. And he couldn't even blame her that she preferred Fandral, he could at least provide her future. And what can he possibly give her? Meetings in prison?
Besides, she is just a servant and after all, he is still a prince of Asgard. He won't bother with this maid. He always knew that he is not like his brother – he might have sort of physical needs, but he never cared about any female and it's not going to change.
Suddenly, he noticed he was hugging her again, slowly caressing her soft, red hair. Why can't he let it go? He must tell her not to come here. It will be better for both of them.
"Eir…", he whispered, looking down at her. She moved her head to look at him. Her green eyes were still wet from tears. Something inside him budged when he was staring into her eyes. So innocent…
"Yes?", she whispered back, feeling as her heart tries to leave her chest. He was holding her so close. Voice inside of her head begged to stay like this forever. It felt so… Safely.
"I want you to go.", he whispered, still looking into her eyes. "I want you to go and forget about today."
She opened her mouth and closed it again. For a short moment she was sure she saw pain in his eyes, but this impression disappeared quickly. His eyes were as cold and calm as usual, no sign of emotion in them. It must have been some reflection of light she saw.
"Why…", she started, barely able to speak. She hemmed nervously, unwittingly pressing herself against him stronger. She felt his hands moving to her back, caressing it.
Loki clenched his jaw. He must stop this before it goes too far. She wasn't making it easier, when he felt every curve of her body so close. Her breasts pressing against his body, her big, green eyes looking at him anxiously made him want nothing more but to make her stay, lay her down on his bed…
"Please, go.", he whispered, still moving his hands on her back. "Go and forget about what happened here today."
She wanted to say something, but he kissed her lips quickly and repeated, "Please."
Eir nodded, moving backwards to the door. She felt really cold right now. Cold inside.
Next morning as she left Queen's chamber, she collided with someone. When she looked up, she felt like cursing aloud. Is this idiot everywhere? Maybe he has got twin brother… Or ten twin brothers, chasing her all the time.
"Hello", Fandral started, smiling slightly. He looked at her blushed face and he thought that she was really cute when she acted so shyly. He liked her more and more every day.
"Hi.", she answered shortly, passing him by, but he started walking next to her.
"I am sorry.", he said as they were walking, looking at her with corner of his eye. She was still blushed and her green eyes were shining beautifully.
"It's fine.", she said, not looking at him, hastening. Well, maybe after all Loki will have her in cell next to his. She will kill this… She will kill him if he won't leave her alone. She doesn't care he is bigger. Seriously, if he won't leave right away, she will simply kill him.
"Do you think we can go for a walk another day?", he asked, looking at her red hair.
"Maybe.", she said, stopping by the door of the library. "Goodbye.", she said, walking inside. If he will chase her, it will really happen. She started wondering if they will lock her for long for murder.
Fandral shook his head, standing next to the library entrance. She was so shy!
When she took book, she sat in the corner, looking through the window. She wasn't sure how to act next to Loki right now. Even now, far away from him, she felt urge to touch him, so it will probably be way worse when she will have to face him. But she will not make an idiot out of her again, if he wants her to act as if he didn't kiss her, let it be.
What does she exactly feel to him?
Oh, silly one, he was the first man to kiss you, you are simply confused, you don't even like him a lot!
She touched her lips with fingertips, remembering how sweet Loki's kiss tasted. She was aware that he was way, way, way more experienced than she was (well, it's not hard, dear Eir, she thought to herself, blushing slightly) and that he knew what he was doing. It was… It was like butterflies. It sounded absurdly even in her thoughts, but the first thing which came to her mind when she was thinking about his kisses were butterflies. And she couldn't exactly explain why.
Do you know how is it like to touch the sky with your toes still on the ground? Or how is it like to feel the rainbow on your lips? How does it feel to spread your hands and simply fly (not the Thor hammer-way, just like a bird…)? Do you know how a cloud feels? How is it like to dance in dew with bare feet? Because that's how she felt when he kissed her. And it wasn't normal.
Oh, no. Something was not damn right here.
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