Chapter 9
I was almost back at the house and still trying to think of what to tell my family. As I said I would be gone for an hour or two, and that was yesterday. How was I supposed to tell them that I thought she was know one of us because of me and that Alice and Jasper were hiding her somewhere close by. It did not help that I had very little evidence; just a coat and a scent that only I knew the importance of. Would they believe me? And if they did what would we then do? Or the more likely option, they would just think I had completely lost it. I would not blame them if they did think I had lost it you know. After all I am starting to think that myself. As I neared the edge of the forest I allowed myself to hear inside the house. Emmet was still trying to calm Rose down, whilst she was ready to rip my head off (maybe I should avoid her for a while). Esme was trying to stay calm, but I could tell by her thoughts she was worried. And Carlisle, he knew I was close by, I could tell this by the way he was reciting some of Shakespeare's sonnets. I did not want to, but I knew I had to talk to him before seeing anyone else.
I went to the back of the house to see if his study window was open. It was, he was probably expecting me, I thought as a made the simple leap into his study landing silently.
"Where the hell have you been?" Carlisle asked me in a harsh whisper "we thought you would be back hours ago, Esme has been worried out of her mind, she thought you might have left for good."
"I know I'm sorry I just got a bit sidetracked" I said even quieter than Carlisle had knowing fully well that he could hear me. Most probably the rest of the house could too.
"Sidetracked! How can you get sidetracked for over eight hours whilst hunting? I know you've been through a lot lately but you have no idea how worried we were" We can not cope with losing you" he said staring at the floor, and adding silently "not again" at that I felt a twinge of guilt I knew I had hurt them when I left but, not this much. Ever since that incident all those years ago, Carlisle never brought it up. Just by those two simple silent words I knew I could not leave again. No matter how much pain it could end up causing me.
What was I supposed to say? That I thought Alice and Jasper had Bella, who was now a vampire because of me, and were currently hiding out close by? I could not tell anyone that even Carlisle, they would think I was mad.
"I…I caught a trail, and it seemed quite recent, it was Alice and Jasper, I thought they might be close so I went to see if I could track them" I partially lied , not quiet looking Carlisle in they eye.
"But as you can see I was unsuccessful, the trail just ended about 80nmiles away from the house." I knew I should tell Carlisle the truth but I was not ready, not yet at any rate.
"Oh…okay…" said a slight stunned Carlisle "well as long as you're ok. But next time can you call one of us please, we were worried. All of us were." It really is amazing how the oldest and wisest of our family could be so thick sometimes. It as obvious a certain member of the family, not wanting to mention any names, but she would be very please if I were to leave and never return.
As I left Carlisle's study and headed straight to my room I caught my reflection in the mirror. I was appalled my appearance or specifically my eyes. My eyes although now topaz again still had a reddish tint to them. And unfortunately the colour of ones eyes does not undo the terrible deed I had committed. For I may have forced this existence onto another person. I would never wish it upon anyone. If I could become human again I would in a heart beat.
I know it is quiet a short one but have been busy with exams and they are still not over :-(. Please Review - I love to hear any feedback.
Also please read my other stories: Morte Prima Del Mezzogiorno - The Edward Cullen Diaries - The Wedding.