AN: I want to clear something out, in some of your reviews, you speak to me as if I was the writer of this story, I'm not writing it, please just don't forget that, I wouldn't want anyone thinking that, I just TRANSLATE IT! okay now that's cleared out... Here's chapter 10! Thank you to ButtonUpKitten (ButtonUpJuno on twitter) your story is awesome, thank you for letting me translate it!
The sound of my mother's voice, humming a song makes me smile while I go downstairs. I had been sleeping all afternoon and I feel a little groggy and disoriented. Just like when you just get up from a nap in the afternoon. I walk to the kitchen and see myself doing some sort of dessert.
Hey sleepyhead -. She tells me smiling -. Are you okay?, your father asked me if you're sick or something.
I sit on one of the stools.
-I'm not sick, I just was sleepy.
She looks at me a moment, then smiles a little.
-You wouldn't be that sleepy if you wouldn't come so late at night.
I look at her still half sleepy but say nothing. What can I say?, with my mother anything you say can and will be used against you. As good lawyer she has a very good memory.
-Would be nice to bring that guy home one of these days -. She says suddenly mixing flour and eggs.
-I'm not going to talk about that -. I say looking at her with my arms crossed.
-Okay then. She says still smiling -. Hand me that chocolate bar that is in the fridge, go -. I get up with heavy feet and walk to the refrigerator.
These days were pretty intense. Castle and I saw each other almost every day, especially at his home. And the truth is I couldn't say that we talk too much when we saw each other. It was amazing how physical we could get when we were together. It was as if we could not stop touching.
However it was more than that, it was more than the wonderful sex we shared. It was more than his body on mine making me scream and sigh, making me feel a huge pleasure. It was more than my mouth devouring his, devouring his body.
It was much more. It was a connection that I myself couldn't explain.
I always knew what I felt for him. I always knew that my feelings went beyond the physical. But now I have a suspicion that Castle has feelings for me too. Or maybe I'm really dumb. I don't know.
I see as my mother begins to melt the chocolate and the smell reminds me that afternoon where I had gone to look after Alexis, and when she had gone to sleep at night Castle had deeply kissed me in the hallway as I smiled and knew precisely his mouth tasted like chocolate. "I love chocolate" He had replied when I told him that I loved how he tasted. "I wonder how it will taste on your skin..." he had whispered kissing my neck.
-Kate? Kaaaate mom's voice brings me out of my memories.
I blushed a little when I realized that my nipples are hardened and my skin has goose bumps only from that memory.
- Mmm?.
-Pass me the butter, please -. She tells me with a grin -. Are you still sleepy? -. She asks me concentrated on her thing.
-No. Are you making a chocolate cake?.
-Aha -. I sigh and she looks at me laughing.
- What?.
-I've never seen you like this.
- How ?.
-So distracted and sighing in every corner.
-I'm not sighing in every corner. - I say defensively.
-Certainly not -. She says laughing -. Ah, did you see that Castle was in the paper?.
I try not to tense up at the mention of Castle.
I had two days without him because he told me he would be busy with some stuff from his publisher and his new book, so I just kept my desire to see him and respected his work.
-Oh yeah? -. I say faking indifference.
-Yes, something about a writers event... - She said handing me the newspaper.
On the photo Castle is talking very closely and confidently with a blonde, just as he likes them . I feel a heat that is expended on my chest, and try not to feel uncomfortable, but the moment I read the small letters under the picture I cannot help it: "The mystery writer Richard Castle whose novels have erupted in recent absolute Best Sellers is presumed to have his new conquest, the model Jessica Harris, who was his partner all night "
I put the newspaper down and try to control the jealousy that invades me suddenly. Then I finally realize that I'm not entitled to claim anything to Castle. He never promised me anything, he never told me that I would be the only girl he'd see, he never told me that we were something. And I was fine with that, I conformed with that. Until I saw this picture.
My mother looks at me sideways while still mixing.
-Of course he wasn't alone -. She says -. I wonder if at some point he will settle down. Guess not, he's not that kind of men. Although he is super charming and handsome, he's not the kind of man you want to marry-. She says casually.
I feel a lump in my throat and I get up from the stool.
-I'm gonna take a shower. - I say without commenting anything else.
-Okay -. She tells me indifferent to all the emotions I'm feeling at the time.
Above all disappointment. No with Rick, but with me. Because I always thought I was the kind of girl who wouldn't someone use her, a girl that wouldn't be manipulated by any man. Now I see I'm a fool who sighs in all the corners while he is having fun at parties with other women.
At the time I start going upstairs, someone knocks on the door. I walk over and when I open it all the feelings I was feeling exploded inside me, burning my chest.
It's Castle.
His eyes look at me with that heat and passion as ever and I feel even more stupid for irrational urge to throw myself into his arms that's invading me.
-Hi -. He tells me with a smile.
-Hi my dry response.
He looks around.
- Is anybody home? -. whispered.
-Yes, my mother is in the kitchen.
-Oh -. I notice that his face approaches to mine and I turn away.
- What are you doing here? -. I ask.
- Is everything all right? -. He tells me entering the house without me saying he could come in.
Too many years coming home to know that he doesn't need an invitation.
- All great. Especially for you.
- What? -. He tells me confused -. What's wrong Kate?
- I'm an idiot. But clearly it's not your fault .
He looks at me confused.
-I don't understand ...
-No need to.
He tries to approach me
-I'm going to go shower - I say walking towards the stairs.
-Kate, wait ... - He grabs my arm and looks into the kitchen.
Next thing I know is that he's dragging me upstairs to my room .
-Okay, what's happening? Are you upset about something?.
I look at him while he is standing there with his casual clothes, height and perfect hair, and then I hate him for the things that he makes me feel.
-I told you, I'm upset because I'm a fool.
- Why do you say that?.
-You shouldn't be in my room.
-Kate, what happened?. I came to see you ...
-I suppose you've already visited her too.
He looks confused even me.
- What?.
I close my eyes and take a deep breath. Trying to remember that I can't, I have no right to say anything.
-I saw you with the model you went to that writers party -. I say trying to sound calm. - And yes, I know I have no right to say anything, you never promised me anything nor told me that we were exclusive but Castle, I can't ... - I see him laughing and I stare at him confused -. are you laughing?.
-Of course I'm laughing -. He looks at me with hands on his waist -. Kate, Jessica is a friend only. And if I wanted to sleep with her, which I don't, it could never happen because I'm not her type -. He says smiling -. Jessica likes women.
The heat that had built up in my chest begins to dissipate.
-Oh -. staring, I say with my arms crossed -. ... So?.
He begins to approach me and I stay still, expecting his masculine scent to flood my nostrils.
-I could not sleep with another woman , because I just think of you, Kate -. He whispers getting closer and closer to me. He cocks his head and places with his fingers a strand of hair behind my ear -. Do you believe me?.
I nod.
-Still, we never said we were exclusive, and honestly I do not want to sound like a silly girl...
-You never sound like a silly girl -. His face is close to mine, his eyes watching me intently -. Not sound nor look like a girl at all, believe me -. He said looking at me passionately.
I can only think of getting lost in his lips, in the taste of his mouth, in the heat of his body.
Was I really upset a few seconds ago?, I can't remember. Castle has enormous power over me and my body.
-I mean, not to sound neurotic or ... - His fingers caress my mouth while hissing for me to shush.
-I'm not sleeping with anyone else, I don't want to sleep with anyone else and will not sleep with anyone else -. His lips brush mine -. From now on we officially are exclusive. Better?.
I nod with my eyes closed, waiting again a caress from his lips.
-God, I don't know what you've done to me, really -. He says laughing.
- No more blondes then? -. Hear what I say and laugh again.
-And no Josh.
I open my eyes and looked at him wryly.
-Josh is a friend.
-So is Jessica.
-The newspaper said it was a new conquest.
-In the paper many things are said. Nearly no one knows her preferences, but on the contrary, everyone knows about my ... fondness for women.
-Blondes.
-You're not blonde.
-No, I'm not -. I say smiling and stealing a kiss.
His hands surround my waist tightly and his lips kiss me with desire. Our bodies are entangled with caresses and scratches and we fall on my bed, where Castle still kisses me until we can't breathe.
He looks at me and smiles at me stroking my cheek.
-We ... we have something right? -. he says in a whisper.
-I think so. I think we have something.
-I think I'm too old to call what we have a "something".
-You're not old. - I say laughing while my finger caresses his right eyebrow -. What then?, what is this "something"?.
-You're my girl.
- I'm your girl?.
-And I'm your guy.
I smile sticking my fingers in his hair.
-Something like ... boyfriend and girlfriend?.
He grimaced.
-I don't like those words.
- Why not?.
-Because it sounds for kids.
-And you are an old man ... - I say jokingly.
-Who acts like a kid because of you.
I laugh.
-You shouldn't be here, on top of me. Someone can get here ...
-Aha, but also no one could come and we could do it fast ...
We're not going to do it in my room, Castle -. I say, laughing.
- Why not?.
-Because my mother is downstairs smiles ..
-A few days ago you were willing to do it in a park, tell me about that -. Approaching his lips to mine and then he kisses me.
I still laughing try to push him away but he is very big and very heavy.
I ended up giving in to the power of his lips and his body rubs against mine while he's devouring my mouth.
His fingers get inside my pants and I moan almost inaudibly.
He starts playing with my folds and I notice that he stops kissing me to watch me while he touches me.
I bite my lower lip and he just looks at me intently while moving his fingers. He knows I love what he's doing, that it drives me crazy, my body burns every time he touches me and kisses me.
I know he has been with many women, but as silly as it sounds , he always makes me feel special. As if I really, was different.
His perfume makes me shudder and I close my eyes letting myself be carried by pleasure.
Richard Castle is an expert in pleasure, and is an expert in giving such pleasure to me.
- Kate voice of my mother causes my eyes to be wide open.
However Castle seems completely unfazed.
- Kate are you in there?.
Castle looked at me and he smiles as his fingers are still moving inside my pants.
-Ummm ... yeah ... - I say trying to make my voice sound normal, which is not easy.
Rick begins to lift my shirt and his lips land on one of my breasts.
-Castle ... - I whisper. But he seems very focused. - Stop -. I take Castle by the hair lifting his head and apparently he looks at me innocently.
- weren't you going to take a shower? -. Asked my mother -. Is this door is closed?.
-Yeah, uh ... I'm getting dressed -. I say trying to calm my voice .
-Well when you finish can you come downstairs?, I need to ask you something.
-Okay.
When I hear the footsteps of my mother leaving I breath relieved and look at Castle, he seems busy with the skin of my abdomen. His finger goes over my skin in gentle circles.
- Are you completely insane -. I say as reprimand sitting in bed.
The door was closed -. He says as an excuse.
-Still ... - sigh -. You gotta get out of here.
-No, I don't have to. You heard what your mother said, "when you finish, come downstairs" I - I still haven't made you finish, honey.
I press my lips to keep me from smiling.
-Speak lower okay? -.I whisper while smiling like an idiot.
-Come here -. He takes me by the arm.
-No, Castle, ... release my arm ... Castle! -. I laugh rising from the bed to completely get away from him and his sensual hands that make me cringe every time he touches me -. Seriously, you gotta get out of here .
I hate this situation. - He said frowning.
-God my heart will leave my chest. - I say with a hand on my chest. - That was close.
-You need to relax a little.
-Apparently you're very used to these situations aren't you?.
He shrugs, also standing.
-I've had my moments.
I roll my eyes.
-Come on, you have to leave, we'll make as if you touch the bell again -. I sigh -. But first I have to change.
He places his hands on my shoulders.
-Calm down -. He tells me with a smile -.I'll go out while you change okay? -. He steals a kiss and walk out the door looking down the hall -. Clear -. He tells me before leaving and I feel my heart beat a mile a minute.
When I finally change, unable to shower, I go downstairs still a little nervous about the whole situation , and I find Castle chatting with my mother about desserts. I free the air I'd been holding and walk into the kitchen with a cheerful step.
-Hey, Castle -. I say greeting him as I hadn't seen him before ... and as if his hand hadn't been inside my pants earlier.
-Hi -. He answered with his usual gallantry, but tries not to get close to me and greet me with a kiss as he normally does.
-It turns out that the questions I was going to ask you I asked them to at Castle , he seems to be an excellent baker -. My mother says, smiling triumphantly at Castle.
- Oh yeah? - I say with a smile sitting in front of him.
-Desserts are my specialty -. He nods.
-I didn't know that -. I say.
-Nor did I -. My mother tells me -. Oh by the way, Castle, tell her what you told me just now.
I look at Rick curious.
-It turns out that this week is the launch of my new book, and to celebrate a little I will do a small gathering at my house in the Hamptons. I just bought it -. He says -. So, book and house debut.
-I don't understand.
-Well, your father, you and I are invited to this "meeting".
-All weekend -. He says smiling -. Of course, there will be a couple of friends, but only very close people.
- The three of us? -. I ask shocked . - In the Hamptons?.
-It'll be great. Although I haven't mentioned this to Jim but I'm sure he can manage some free time in his agenda.
-Sure he will -. My mother supports him.
I just stood there not knowing what to say.
A whole weekend with my parents and in the same house?. This was going to be torture, I tell myself to remember how my heart raced and my adrenaline shot when my mother knocked on the door of my room a few seconds ago.
And why the hell Castle hadn't said anything to me while we were in my room?
I look at Castle and he stares back at me. Somehow he's up to something.