Nyla POV
After all the fighting I managed to get a little sleep. When I woke up I convinced myself that non of that happened. It was all a bad dream and wasn't real. Sarah Tom are my parents and my sister didn't give birth to me and dipped. That argument between Sarah Jazmine didn't happen either they just said 'I loved you' to each other real loud. That's what I told myself until I woke up to hear this shit...
"How do you even know the kid is mine?"
"What the hell are you saying? You mean you can't look at her and see yourself?"
My birth parents argue. Not many people get to say that.
"That could be anyone's"
"Well it's not anyones she's yours"
"Whatever. So I'm supposed to just accept this and take your word for it?"
"You don't have a choice! She's your seed you will deal!"
I'm not a seed. I'm a tree.
"Jazmine just how are you so sure that I'm the father and this is my child?"
"Since you really wanna know then fine. I was a virgin that night and you was my first. Newsflash you didn't use a condom,you came inside me and that's how it happened. I wasn't with anyone else until after she was born and I FUCKED your best friend."
She could've kept that one to herself .
I get she's hurt but trying to provoke him by telling him that was not it.
"What did you just say?" He sounds like he wanted to cry.
"You heard me. I slept with Michael Caesar,right here in this very room,while you was away.I sucked all the life out of him and he ate my pussy."
What kind of 'hoe is life' shit is that?
"YOU BITCH! You do that spiteful shit after you had my baby?"
"What? I was supposed to sit here and wait on your stupid ass? That's messed up Huey. We weren't even together."
"Now I'm glad I didn't fall for your little pillow talk that night. Of all people my best friend ?"
"You had no problem fucking Angela when she was my friend."
"First of all Angela was my girlfriend that's not the same shit."
"Whatever. Just go away."
"I want a DNA test on that little girl."
"Fine! Go right ahead. Test her. But I told you she's your daughter and no one else. I wouldn't lie to you."
Yeah but...you know what never mind we get the point.
Two doors slammed really loud and I lay my head back on the pillow. I didn't really want Huey to be my dad but why would he deny me like that? Jazmine may have kept secrets all my life but I believed her on this.
Dasia walked in holding DeeDee.
" Hey baby what's up?."
" hey"
"You get a good night sleep?"
" not really but at least you was knocked out and didn't have to deal with everything downstairs."
"Oh right. I'm sorry."
She kinda just stood there holding the dog but I knew she wanted to ask something by the way she pressed her lips together.
"You know if you heard that conversation between those two you know you can talk about it with me right?"
she finally let a breath out
"so... I think I overheard your sister/mom say she smashed our friend's newly engaged brother and your alleged daddy dated my mom." She giggled at that
"Yup. Try not to repeat that first part to Mia."
"Sealed sis.Well if you want Mr and Mrs.DuBois made you breakfast in the microwave and they are across the street right now."
"Thanks. Can I have a minute alone with DeeDee?"
The dog ran to my lap once Dasia put her down and licked my face.
"You wouldn't betray me."
DeeDee was still licking my face when Jazmine appeared at my door.
"Hey mind if I come in?"
I motion for her to come in and she sat on my bed with a pink decorated photo album in her hands.
"So did you hear anything from Huey me?"
"Yup. Heard all of last night too."
"Oh...so you heard all that."
"Including the stripper and drugs parts."
"...this is uncomfortable."
"Very.Are we gonna talk about that?"
"Actually that's one thing I'm not ready to discuss ."
"Oh."
We just sat there looking at each other then I decided to talk.
"You know I don't what to call you now."
"You can call me whatever you want."
"Just don't expect 'mom'."
"I won't. I wanted to tell you myself but Riley beat me to it."
"Wouldn't matter. Doesn't change the fact that you left me here and let me believe a lie all my life."
"I know and believe me I regret it everyday. But I can be here now if you let me."
"Why didn't you want me?"
"That's not true. You are my world. I was at a really dark place and had no where to go. That wouldn't have been good for you. I loved you and I'd die for you. You came here at just a really unexpected time for me."
"But why didn't you tell me?"
"I just couldn't I had too much baggage, you didn't have a dad and I would've screwed up"
So many excuses.
"I wanted to have you adopted to avoid this kind of thing but that didn't go as planned."
"You would've been better off having an abortion."
Stupid evil bitch. She didn't and now your miserable ass is here.
Jazmine looked really hurt by my statement but she didn't cry. She worked really hard to keep the tears in.
"Look I'm really sorry for that. I didn't mean it. So do you really wanna take me to NewYork to live with you?"
"It's ok you're just angry that's all and Yes. I wanted to take you years prior but it was never a good time."
Her feelings are really hurt.
"Why now?"
"Because I really want to make up for all the time we lost but only if you want this too.
If you want I'll answer anything you wanna know."
She picked up the pink book and put it on her lap.
"I had this since I found out I was pregnant with you. I called it 'the origins of Nyla.' I was supposed to give it to whoever was going to adopt you but since that didn't happen I just continued it. It was supposed to be your birthday gift"
"Thanks but can you tell me how you ended up with that guy? He's a jerk."
"Who Huey?"
"Yeah"
She opened up the book and the first picture was two children with large afros , the girl had hers in two puffballs, sitting next to a tree.
It's like seeing two different versions of me.
Huey is totally my dad. We had the same side profile,nose and thick eyebrows. He even had a scowl in the picture that my friends like to call my natural resting bitch face. From Jazmine I had her coloring,her 5 head and eye shape. My hair texture was from both and my eye color was a combination of both of theirs.
"Huey and I had been best friends since we were 10. He moved here from Chicago with Robert and Riley after his parents was killed. When I first saw him I thought he was cute and I liked his fro. Wasn't a lot of people in Woodcrest with hair like mines."
"So how did you meet?"
"On his porch."
*flashback no POV *
source boondocks comics
"Um hi."
Huey turns around to see a girl his age behind him.
"My name is Jazmine and I live across the street. What's yours?"
"Huey. It's good to have more black people around"
"Um gee...what made you think I was black?"
"First of all Mariah,your Afro is bigger than mines"
Jazmine got offended because one her name is not mariah and 2 how was he going to tell her she had a fro?
" I don't have an Afro my hair is just a little frizzy today."
"Angela Davis hair was a 'little frizzy' you have an Afro."
"I DO NOT!!! Who is Angela Davis?"
*end flashback back to Nyla POV*
So he was the first to call you Mariah Carey."
"Yeah he was. He use to call me 'soul sista'
and 'Nubian Princess.' but as a joke to tell people I was half black ."
"He sounded kinda mean yet you developed a crush on him?"
Jazmine blushed and her cheeks was red.
" You could say that."
" I heard you say he would make you cry on purpose. That doesn't sound like a friend that's a bully."
"True he was a little bastard but he was always there for me and Daddy. Once I tried to make money with a lemonade stand and Wuncler scammed me. I didn't listen to Huey so he put on this protest to get me out which ultimately backfired and set the stand on fire."
"Isn't that the one dad said you tried to use to get a pony?"
She covered her face in shame.
"Yes! God I was a cringe worthy kid."
"Still are."
"Hey watch it! Now anyway let's continue. So after that fiasco we got closer and I accepted him as my best friend. We did everything together. We sat on the hill together,he went to my tea parties even tho he didn't want to, he let my family stay during the fried chicken flu which turned out to be salmonella and I went to his little political meeting although he tried to kick Miss.Wellington out."
She gave me that doll when I was little
"He had tried to save a man off death row. I think his name was Shabazz or something."
"Wait? Shabazz K Milton Berle?"
"Yeah that's it. How'd you know?"
"I have all his books and I wrote him once. He wrote back before he died. I have it on my wall"
"Really? Huey would love that."
She continued to show me childhood pictures of her and Huey some with Riley, Cindy and Michael. Micheal joined them a year after making the three the perfect trio. Like me and my friends. The 3 amigos.
"When we was 13 he gave me my first kiss. It was terrible but I realized I was in love. I never told anyone besides Cindy because I thought we was too young for love and I didn't know if he felt the same way about me. So I waited out to see if it would go away and that was the worst thing I could ever do. When we was 14 he was dating this girl named Angela from my ballet school"
"Angela as in Mrs.Davis? Dasia's mom?"
"Yeah her. Back then she went by Angela Carter the worst part was I was the one to introduce them."
flash back*
Jazmine was walking to the Freeman home from ballet practice with a new friend. She wanted her to meet Huey and Ceaser so bad because she was interested in the same things as her guys and the plus side was Jazmine wouldn't be the only girl in the crew. She had Cindy sure but Cindy was always with Riley so why not add someone new?
Angela Carter was tall for her age, had a perfect rounded fro and her complexion was similar to Beyoncés. She liked reading, was anti social and loved politics.
She did ballet with Jazmine for 3 years and was homeschooled until now.
She and Jazmines guys was gonna get along just fine.
Riley answered the door and let the two girls in. Huey was in the living room with Ceaser when he spotted this beautiful soul sista behind Jazmine. He had to speak to her but Jazmine already spoke.
"Hi guys this is Angela. We have dance class together but she'll be going to our school with us."
Angela. Like the political activist Angela Davis.
"Angela this is Michael, Riley and that is Huey. We have a Cindy but she's not here yet."
Angela was staring at Huey like he was too good to be true. Perfect fro and shares the same name as the revolutionary Huey P Newton.
Huey almost ran over Jazmine to get to the new girl.
"Hello Soul Sista."
Jazmine was...confused.
That was his name for her.
The two ignored the other kids in the room with them and carried out a conversation among themselves. Jazmine was hurt. An hour past and Jazmine gathered her things to go home. She let him know but Huey didn't give her a second glance. He just shoos her away
end flashback*
"I saw them at school holding hands the next day. After we got to high school I realized neither was really good friends to me. Angela didn't really like me anymore. We'd make plans and stood me up to hang out with her. She told me I shouldn't be friends with Huey anymore cause he didn't need a dumb mulatto distracting him and I didn't understand what it means to be a revolutionary."
"Huey even neglected Ceaser Riley for her because they share the same love for hip hop culture which was 'damaging our people' as she put it. Riley Ceaser had no problem putting her in her place while I just paid her no mind."
"As for Huey me we was still friends but he made me feel so stupid in public. He told his other friends that I had self hatred because I had nails and started straightening my hair a little, when he thought I wasn't listening he told someone he only hung out with me out of sympathy and would insult me for whatever reason like the way I dressed or hanging with white guys. Ceaser eventually had to step in."
*flashback no POV*
"Man what the hell is your problem? I just saw Jazmine crying. She said you said something to her."
"She's being dramatic."
"Huey what did you say?"
"Nothing I just told her that white boy is going to use her and she's too naive to see it."
"She said you told her that she's pathetic and these white kids will never like her because Phil asked her on a date? Nigga you doing too much. She's not a 'stupid little girl' for that."
"Man whatever it's the truth. She wants to be one of them so bad it's draining. These white boys don't know shit about her. Phil can have her dumb ass"
"First of all she turned that kid down."
Huey felt stupid. He said all that mean stuff to Jazmine and he didn't even know why he cared.
"2nd she doesn't wanna be them she's over that little identity crisis.
3rd you have a girlfriend that you're so consumed with that you don't even have time for us anymore. Why do you care about whoever she's dating?All you do is criticize her.One day she's not gonna tolerate this toxic shit from you."
*end flashback.*
"So you turned down a date because of how he reacted? He didn't deserve you."
"He apologize the next day and that was the first time he's ever done that. I still loved him through our junior year even tho he was with her. So I had to deal with her throwing shots and coming for me till they broke up."
Michael did the right thing telling him off but that reminded me of something.
"I think you was wrong for telling him about you and Michael. It was mean. You're much better than that."
She let out a sigh and said I was right. She only wanted to be petty and hurt him back.
"So what happened to him and Mrs.Davis?"
"Well they broke up in the winter of junior year. Ceaser and Riley said they saw her with some other guy. He asked her about it and she confessed she was madly in love with someone else.It wasn't messy or anything he just let her go and agreed to be friends."
"Aww that's really sweet."
"Last I heard was she married that guy and they had your little friend downstairs. I think she's only a month older than you."
"She is."
It really is funny but confirms Dasia and I was meant to be best friends.
"So how did you two...?"
She's blushing again
"Well after they broke up we hung out like old times and we got even closer. Mommy,Daddy,Mr.Freeman and Riley went to the Wunclers annual New Year's Eve party. I could've went but I wanted to hang out with my best friend. The Dick Clark New Years Eve special was on and I wanted to watch. I was aggravating him,as usual, about the ball and New Years resolutions. He didn't have any and it seemed like he honestly didn't care."
"I told him I felt like this year was going to be different for me but I didn't know how."
She looks at me and takes my hand.
"I just knew the new year would be life changing. We only had a few seconds left and I told him to kiss me for good luck."
"And you believed that?"
She giggles
"That's the same thing he said. Of course I didn't but I also wanted an open opportunity for a kiss."
"Yuck" I said as I stuck my tongue out.
"So anyway he gave it to me and it felt right. We kissed again and the 2nd one took my breath away. The room was hot."
Gross this is the part where they get together.
"That's when I knew I wanted to go all out this year and with him."
Jazmine had a dreamy look on her face.
Was she really thinking about sex with him?
"If you want I can skip that part."
"Please."
"Ok. After we was done I told him how I felt. He didn't say anything back. And that's how you was conceived. He was gone the next morning. Your uncle Riley found me in his bed. I never felt so dirty in my entire life."
flashback*
"Jazmine!"
Jazmine woke up to the sound of Riley Freemans booming voice.
"Girl what the hell you doing here?"
She was naked and her lower body was sore. She couldn't feel her legs. She sat up but didn't cover her chests up and accidentally flashed Riley.
"Ewww girl. Put them mosquito bites up."
He said covering his face.
"Yo where the hell my brother at?"
What kind of question was that to ask her? Clearly he was right next to..., oh
"Um...he was just here?"
"Don't play with me Jazmine. Where is Huey?
I can't find him anywhere. I come here and find yo naked ass. Why the fuck you in my brother room naked?"
"Um...well you see we..."
Riley finally realized what happened and why she was in here. He laughed
"Oh man look like that gay nigga ain't so gay after all."
No he was not.
Riley kept laughing until he heard his grandfather downstairs.
"HUEY!! COME MAKE BREAKFAST!"
The boy got scared and was frantic.
"Oh shit. JAZ! When did y'all come up here?"
"Uh...around 12 after the ball dropped."
"God damn Jazzy where did he go?"
"I don't know" the girl was scared crying "I fell asleep after."
"Man what the hell im going to do?"
"Maybe he's at the hill?"
"NO! Huey always has breakfast first and he never leaves the house without telling nobody."
This was bad. Jazmine started crying hysterically. The only boy she's ever loved was gone after taking her virginity.
"Ok Jaz we gotta calm down. Give it some time. Get dressed and go home alright? I'll handle it."
"Ok. Please don't tell anyone about..."
"Girl I don't care about that no more. But if my brother missing you gotta tell em you was the last one seen with him."
end flashback*
"A month later I found out I was pregnant with you. Riley held my hand the entire time. Daddy was really pissed and Mommy was upset I didn't tell her from the beginning"
"And granddaddy Robert?"
"He fainted."
We both laughed because he was over the top.
Next was serval pictures of a young Jazmine with her large belly and my birth pictures my baby foot prints.
"What was it like?"
"What?"
"You know having a baby so young."
"Well when I found out I was pregnant I cried for a week. I just wanted to make it go away. I did consider abortion but I ran out the facility." So I was meant to be here.
"Your birth wasn't the easiest either. It was too late for an epidural and I thought I was dying."
"It hurt?"
"Hurt isn't even the word to describe it. It felt like a preview of being shot 20 times over."
Ouch.
My birth certificate that i have never seen before.
So this is it.
Certificate of live birth
Nyla Treasure DuBois
George Washington University Hospital
Washington,DC
September 3rd
2:15pm
Female
Single
Mother:Jazmine Elizabeth DuBois
Father_
And that's how this felt like a reality. A disappointing reality.
"Why'd you have me in a whole different state?"
"Because I didn't want anyone here too see or know. Cindy and Ceaser didn't find out till after you was born. Washington was only an hour away."
"Oh...I see."
" I wasn't ashamed of you but I was ashamed of myself. I was scared of being judged by my community and peers and I didn't wanna put stress on you. You're the most beautiful thing I've ever created."
" Ok but why'd you leave me?"
"Because mommy was making all the decisions and wouldn't let me do anything. It's like I did nothing right according to her.I wasn't breastfeeding right ,I couldn't dress you,I held you wrong and bullshit. She just took over.I got accepted in College and we just had a big fight."
flashback*
11 months after Nyla's birth.
The baby was asleep and Jazmine had to make a decision. She could either move away from home and away from her daughter to College of Staten Island or stay home with her baby and just go to University of Maryland.
"Jazmine,Your father and I have already agreed to take care of her while you get an education." Sarah said
"But I don't wanna leave her. I'll go to CSI and get an apartment with her. I don't need a dorm."
"Jazmine New York is no place for a baby. You can't take care of her,school and work."
"She's going to be a year old. She won't require much anymore."
"Wrong Jazmine. She'll be a toddler that can walk. She'll get into everything and hurt herself. She'll need more attention and daycare. You can't handle rent and daycare."
"You just want my daughter all to yourself."
"Yes Jazmine I want your daughter." She said sarcastically "Your daughter that I have been taking care of."
"I didn't ask you to do that. You wanted to."
"So I could help you."
Jazmine was frustrated because Sarah was right. She was tired of her mother being right all the time. She felt like could take care of Nyla and go to school but how?
"Jazmine just let me help you and Nyla."
Before Jazmine could respond a baby cry was heard. She went to the nursery to go check on the baby with her mother right behind her.
She got the crying girl out the crib but that didn't stop her from crying. Jazmine tried to feed her but she didn't want the titty . She went to change her diaper but her baby was still crying. What could she possibly want?
"Do you think you can do this every night miles miles away from home by yourself? And work? And keep up with school?"Her mother asked.
Jazmine didn't answer that she just gave her the crying baby and went to go fix a bottle. Once she made it to the kitchen Jazmine broke down crying. Nothing was getting better. She was still shook up about Huey, she just finished senior year as a teenaged mother and her mother really didn't trust her with her own daughter. Nothing would ever get better.
She dried up her tears and returned to her child.
Before she went in she saw the baby wasn't crying anymore. She was actually smiling,laughing and playing with Sarah. She was always happier with Sarah. Jazmine was crushed. Her mother could calm her baby before she could. All Nyla ever wanted was Sarah. Jazmine was her mommy. Not Sarah. It was like loosing Huey all over again. The two people she loved didn't want her and rejected her. Jazmine thought that maybe for now she's better off here. With that she packed up her things(she'll get the rest in the mail) walked out the door into her car and drove away but she'll come back for her daughter. Just not now.
"What could possibly go wrong?" She said to herself unaware of the unforeseen circumstances over the following years.
end flashbacks*
She flipped through the pages with more pictures of me through time.
My first birthday, getting my ears pierced, my first steps,some with her, kindergarten, my best friends all the way up till last year on my 12th. She documented everything in my entire life.
"So if I was supposed to be adopted how did I end up with your mom dad?" I asked her
"Well Treasure that's a long and very complicated story."
End chapter/
FINALLY!!! This chapter is long as hell. I don't know what I was thinking with all these flashbacks but I had to get it all out. The sad thing is I'll have another chapter this long with extra flashbacks but If OITNB can have hour long episodes with 1000 back stories so can I I just gotta flow it better.