Hello my stars to my univerze, I apologize for not updating as soon as i can but i would like you to know, after reading so many fairy tail fan fictions at 2 in the morning, it inspired me to write another chapter. I will try to update as much as i can but i can't promise you guys anything. Alright I love you guys thanks for reading!

WARNING These ships are NOT the final ship. It is NOT the final ship. I repeat it is NOT NOT NOT the final ship. I will have a vote to see whos the final. I do NOT own fairy tail.

OKAY let's get started.

Natsu woke in the morning with a groan looking around not completely sure of what had happened last night. All he truly remembers was fucking Lisanna while thinking about Lucy. To be completely honest Natsu had a problem, a huge problem. He was madly in love with Lucy and she ruined him. She got him kicked out of the guild, she took away his friends and family, she took everything he ever loved away. He is in denial, refusing to believe that he is the problem.

Natsu was slowly getting lost in his thoughts before he heard a soft groan coming from the silver haired mage next to him. He looked over at her with a raised eyebrow. He had to admit she was cute but she still never compared to Lucy and how gorgeous she was.

"Hmmm… Good morning Natsu…" she mumbled as she sat up rubbing her eyes trying to get rid of the tiredness. Natsu nodding at her as he got out of bed walking to the kitchen making a cup of coffee for himself and for her. Lisanna slowly came trudging in and sat down, yawning once more before sipping the coffee.

"Where you going?" He spoke in a confused voice as she walked out of the kitchen with her coffee, she hadn't answered him before walking back in a few moments later dressed in tight blue jeans, with a black crop top and flip flops.

"I'm going home" she spoke like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

"What why?" he tilted his head in confusion but in reality he knew why she was going home.

"Because, i was just a good time for you. Natsu i know you're hung up on Lucy. Don't get me wrong i'm glad i came over yesterday and i'm glad we fucked but you're insane for her. Sometimes i envy that, i've tried everything to get your attention. I even got you to hate her but you still went back to her. I love you natsu, but… You're still hung up on her. So i suppose i'll just give up on you." she shrugged as she put her mug into the sink starting to head to the living room, grabbing her coat.

Natsu didn't even bother to say anything as she walked out of the house, gently closing the door behind her. His heart belonged to Lucy and he would do anything to get her back. Sometimes he thinks to himself he should give up on her and go for Lisanna but then he constantly thinks about all the things he loved about her. He loses his mind seeing her. He wants her and everyone knows. But so far the only two people who can truly change Natsu would be Lucy or Lisanna.

A FEW WEEKS LATER -

He sat on his porch staring up at the sky with a sigh closing his eyes, getting lost in thought before slowly drifting off to sleep. After a while he awoke and looked around slightly confused as it was now evening before realizing where he was. He slowly got up and walked inside taking a nice warm shower before putting on clothes. He grabbed a hat and sunglasses walking outside and through the town.

It has been a few weeks since he last saw Lucy or anyone at the least. He's been very quiet, and very kept to himself. Whenever he leaves his house he normally has something to hide who he his. He hates it but there's nothing he can truly do about it anymore. He's spent the few weeks also trying to get over his obsession of her. He's tried and tried but it's so fucking HARD for him. He's been with many, many girls. Trying to get her off his mind but the blonde always kept crowding his mind.

He took a deep breath, enjoying his walk through town as no one recognised him. He was perfectly fine until he saw a bit of blonde. He blinked a couple of times thinking maybe he was just seeing things, before looking.

There she was… Lucy.

She was smiling and laughing happily as she and Levy walked along, talking about god knows what. He wanted to run up and hug her but at the same time he knew he really could NOT do that. He took a deep breath making him calm down as he watched. He had to talk to her but alone, he was going to ATTEMPT to keep control of himself.

He wrote something down on a piece of paper, before walking past them "accidently" bumping into Lucy, slipping the piece of paper into her hand. Fear passing through Lucy's eyes as she saw the pink hair she knew too well. After that natsu decided to head home and lay on his bed waiting for the time to come.

"Lucy? Lucy are you okay?" Levy asked concerned

"Huh? Oh yeah, i'm fine Levy thanks for asking." she smiled softly "I should get going i'll talk to you later" Levy only nodded mumbling a small goodbye as she watched Lucy walk away.

Lucy took a deep breath before looking down at the note, tempted to throw it away but she sighs thinking "why the heck not" as she begins to open the note reading it:

Lucy,

I know you probably don't want to hear from me, but I would like to explain myself on what happened. I promise i won't do anything if it makes you feel better i'll even keep my distance or you can bring someone. If you want to meet me, i'll be at the park tonight at 8. Hopefully you'll meet me if not then i understand.

~ Natsu

Lucy was debating whether or not to go but after a fierce battle in her head she decided to go. She saw no harm in it, and just in case she would have a knife with her incase he did try something. She started get lost in thought as she went home to prepare herself for tonight.

These last few weeks have been nice for her, Natsu kept his distance while she was having some fun. There had been a ball and she danced with Gajeel and Laxus. She was still having a hard time to choose who she wanted to be with and what was nice was they understood, but eventually even she knew she would have to choose. As for Sting and Rogue, Rogue finally had made his move on the lovely Mirajane Strauss. They're actually a pretty cute couple or well at least they were in HER opinion. Sting finally straightened up and asked Yukino. At first she had turned him down, but after a day or two she told Sting yes.

After she was done getting dressed it was about 7:45 which meant she had 15 minutes to get to the park which was only a 10 minute walk there.

Once she got to the park she saw Natsu who looked nervous as ever which was weird, because SHE was the one who was suppose to be nervous. She sat down in front of him her expression serious along with slightly dangerous.

"Alright, explain." She just wanted to get this over with.

"Okay… Where should I begin?" He spoke softly more of asking the question to himself than to her

"Start with why you kicked me off the team, then go into why you attempted to rape me, and finally why you called me here." She spoke bluntly.

"Alright… Well it all started when Lisanna came back. I was so happy to see her, especially after the accident. Me and her started hanging out more and more, she began to tell me things that you've done to her-" he was gonna continue but Lucy quickly interrupted him

"What do you mean by the things I've done to her?"

"She said that you constantly bullied her, called her a slut, whore, bitch. She told me that you told her to drop dead and for her to kill herself… You never said that.. Did you?" He spoke softly as she looked shocked nodding slowly.

"Uhm… Continue…"

"Oh right... Well after that I grew too slowly hate you, and then… Yeah. How she managed to get the guild to dislike you at the time was beyond me to be honest. After seeing you constantly, I knew deep down inside I loved you and I wanted to be with you. But… You hated. I was slowly losing my mind. I had… Taken some things along with some drinks before the night I went to your house. I really wanted you to forgive me, but I ended up almost raping you. Believe me" he laughed dryly "I wish I could take it back.

Even now, I still want to fuck you senseless but I won't do that. I'm holding myself back, I'm trying to change for my own good. Finally, as for why I called you here…" He sat up with a cough "I plan to leave. I'm clearly not welcomed back to the guild, nor saber. I'm not really welcomed anywhere but I'm going to start a new. Dye my hair, change my name, become a new person I suppose." He shrugged while Lucy's eyes widened at the sudden information. Part of her wanted to hug him but the other half told her not to and that it would be a horrible idea.

"Natsu… You're kidding… Right?" She spoke slowly and hesitantly

"Huh? No why would I kid about this? I'm being serious Lucy, I'm leaving. Here." He slid her the address to his new house in a somewhat nearby town "It's not that far from here, if you want you can come visit." He smiled softly. Not his normally big grin but a normal one this caused Lucy eyes to slowly form tears. She was crying because even after what happened she was sad to see him go, but she was also happy for him because he was gonna start a new.

"Natsu… I wish you the best of luck in your new… Life." She got up and hugged him gently, kissing his cheek. She looked at him with a small smile letting out a small laugh.

"There's the smile that I fell in love with…" He whispered softly causing her to blush slightly. But she shook her head stepping back

"I should go… Goodbye Natsu." She turned and walked away, after a little.

On her way home her mind was lost. She was happy for him, but at the same time she couldn't believe him. Even after what happened. She walked inside of her apartment and sat down with a soft sigh. After a few moments of sitting down she got up and showered getting ready for bed. Once she was done she laid down cuddling her pillow, nuzzling it softly as she allowed sleep to take over.

Meanwhile Natsu was at the park his heart hurt but this was for the best… Or so he thought. He was walking through the woods with a small smile on his face mumbling softly to himself.

"Goodbye… Luce…"

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"So… have you told her yet?" He spoke in a huff with a raised eyebrow

"Not yet, I haven't worked up the courage to tell her yet." The man closed his eyes with a soft sigh.

"If you don't tell her, I will. She deserves better than you lying to her and the other woman. I'll give you one more week after that, I'M telling her Laxus. Understand?" Laxus slowly nodded before watching the metal slayer walk away.

"Oh god... What am I going to do..." He sighed deeply shoving his hands in his pockets walking home, while the night sky with lit with bright shining stars

ALLLLLRIGHTY THEN. That's the end of this chapter. Ya'll are probably wondering what's happened to Natsu, why is he like this? What happened to his INSANITY?! Well my dears, let me tell you. I got to thinking and I decided… That I'm going make him a tiny bit normal. Well… A lot normal, after all I ship him and Lisanna so they should be happy together.

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