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Chapter 10:
Kagome's POV - Those words coming out of his mouth made my body go into shock. I knew that he was mad at me, but I never imagined that he would be able to insult me like that. Is true that he hurt me like no one has ever done, but the truth is that even after he told me that he was bi my feelings for him didn't changed. I know is crazy, but the way we kissed after we save Miroku, made me felt in heaven. But I guess that if I had any chance of having something serious with him is gone, because of the way I acted.
I don't know how long has it been since Inuyasha left, because my mind was succumbed by the darkness, after I heard the words you are just acting like a real bitch come out of his mouth. I knew that I could make him get really mad at me, sometimes after we fought he wouldn't even talk with me like in 2 or 3 days, but this time things are different, cause I think that I really push it to far. I could feel the tears coming out of eyes and roll down my face, but I couldn't do anything to stop them, because I my body wasn't responding to my brain. I got really scared after all the time I passed in the dark, because what felt like hours could be days, this wasn't the first time I got this feeling because other times I had felt it but not this much time. I feel alone, I'm cold, and the most important thing is that I don't have a reason to live, assuming that I'm alive.
I can hear something "Kagome? Kagome!" a voice calling my name. I'm sure that the voice isn't Inuyasha's because this one is more childish, is... is... is Sota's voice.
"Kagome?" Sota called again, and all I could do was open my eyes. I couldn't see very well, because of the light, so I blinked several times for my eyes to adjust to the light but nothing changed, my vision was still blurry. "Kagome?" he yelled and I tried to say something but instead I coughed on several times, because my throat was very dry.
"Kagome are you okay?" Sota asked very worried, but I still couldn't talk, lucky me? Uh. All of the sudden I saw a black-haired woman wrapping her warms arms around me, at first I stiffened a little because I couldn't well, but when I heard her say my name, I knew that it was Mama.
The word Mama escaped from my mouth, as I felt her warmth spreading around my entire body. I talked, I talked, Wuju! is true that I talked in a very weak voice, but still I talked. I was afraid that from all the pain I felt yesterday, my voice would be gone, but since that wasn't the case I was really happy.
"Kagome!" I heard everyone say happily, as happy as that made me feel, I still didn't hear the voice of the person that I wanted, Inuyasha!. I suppose that he isn't coming back for me this time, but if I were in his position, I wouldn't either. He was right I had treated him like crap and for that I didn't deserved any mercy. I know Inuyasha, good enough to say that if he wanted me to know that he was bi, is because he has a good reason. I know him, and the fact that he wanted me to know that he is bi, now that I'm thinking clearly is very strange, because he usually is not that explicit when it comes to his personal life.
Now that I remember, he also told me that he wanted to explain everything to me, but after that, he called me a bitch. Even though I deserved to be called a bitch after what I did to him, but that still doesn't leave out the fact that he insulted me. I know that I'm acting like the victim, when actually I'm the guilty one, and he is the victim.
I think I should go apologize to him, but I should get some rest first.
"Kagome... Kagome, can you walk?" Mama said, helping me get up. I just nodded *no* and she hugged me.
"Kagome, did you spent the whole night here?" Sota said, pointing around the well house. I nodded in approval, embracing Mama. I saw Grampa staring down the bone-eater's well, with a curious look. I couldn't asked him, what was happening, but I was very sure that there was something wrong.
Mama got me inside the house and helped me undressed so that I could take a bath. While she was preparing my bath I was sitting in the toilet thinking of with what face could I go back to see Inuyasha. He probably hates me, and I don't judge him.
"Kagome, I'm done. I'll be making you breakfast downstairs, Ok!" Mama said, closing the door on her way out. I nodded and went into the tub, that was filled with hot water, which was causing my body to relax. While I just sat there in the tub I could feel everyone of my muscles relaxing and minutes later I felt like new, I felt like my body was alive again. I went out of the tub half an hour later. While I was dressing I couldn't resist the urge of looking myself in the bathroom mirror. Now I looked alive, my body was pale but not paper like.
"Kagome, breakfast is ready!" I heard Sota yell from behind the door.
"Okay I'll go down in a couple of minutes!" I said, and my started to filled with tears, because I wanted to talk so bad. But first things first, I need to ask Mama for a advice on what to do with Inuyasha. I'm sure that she'll scold me for what I did to Inuyasha, but I deserve it. I washed my mouth, used the toilet and well now is time to eat. Yummy! Mama made my favorite breakfast. The food was delicious and after I finished with my food, I went upo to my room to get some sleep, because tomorrow was the big day.
The next morning...
I was awake pretty early so I went to take bath and then packed some things in case I choose to stay at the feudal era for a couple of days. But I haven't talked with Mama yet, so I have to wait. After I finished packing I heard Mama, Grandpa and Sota downstairs so I raced down the stairs to give Mama a big hug, which made everybody's jaw drop.
"You seem really happy today, why is that?" Mama asked, not knowing that I was happy at the outside but really hurting at the inside.
"Uh!, nothing in particular" I said keeping up with the happy façade.
"Does it has something to do with the boy with the dog ears?" Sota asked from the other side of the table, and that made my façade disappear, as I started to get depressed again.
Holding the pain, was something that I had become used to at this point of my life.
Mama left her food and went to my side to hug me. Everytime she hugs me, I don't know why but that makes me feel safe and I like it. Well I think this should be the best time to ask for her advice.
"Mom, I need your advice on something. Is about Inuyasha but this time, is different. So I'll just tell you the short story, Ok!" I started breathing heavily, while pausing. "The short story is that Inuyasha told me that he was Bi. Then I threatened him with killing him, if he didn't go away. After he called me a Bitch!" I told her, crying into her chest.
"Oh... Kagome I'm sure he didn't mean it" Mama said, hugging me tightly, and continued saying "If you really threatened him like that, is normal that he had that kind of reaction" and I started crying, because she was right, is very normal that he would react like that, but that made me feel even worst.
"But Mama, what if now he doesn't want me?" I paused to try to slow down my breathing, because I was breathing like 20 times per minute. "I know I have to apologize to him, but I'm afraid that he doesn't want to see me again" I felt Mama's arms holding my head, and I felt safe.
"Kagome go talk to him, he needs to know, that you're sorry for what you did to him. Go and try to talk with him, I'm sure that he'll listen to you. Kagome I'm your mother and I love you with all my heart, but you need to tell him how you really feel" Mama said, breaking the hug. I couldn't speak because, I felt I had a wad in the throat, so I just nodded in approval. "Let's go pack your things" Mama said in a silly way, and I laughed weakly.
As we made our way up to my room, I was wondering if going directly to Inuyasha when I go back or going to Kaede so that she could explain to me about demon sex, or something like that.
"That's all?" Mama gasped when she saw that my bag was bigger then Buyo. Obviously she hadn't seen my bag other days, but since I'm not going to stay in the feudal world for long, I thought to bring a little surprise for my friends.
"Yes. Mama that's all" I said and then I showed her the gives I was going to give to the gang. Mama lightly nodded and gave me a bear hug, and then I went out running to the well house.
When I was inside of the well house, I saw the big hole on the ground next to the well, in that spot was where Inuyasha was standing when I sat him, like 10 times. My eyes were getting teary as I had a flashback of that night.
How could I be so stupid, he was right on calling me a bitch that night because I was acting like one. As I jump into the well, I couldn't stop thinking about all the injuries that I had caused him. I was brought back to reality when I heard a scream "Kagome!" that was when I notice that I was back in the feudal world. The screaming voice sounded familiar, but it wasn't Inuyasha's so I got out of the well to find Shippo standing infront of the well with a huge smile on his face.
"Kagome" he jumped to my lap and hugged me.
"Shippo, how did you know I was here?" I asked him very curious, because the only one of us, who had a strong sense of smell was Inuyasha, but he wasn't here.
"Inuyasha told me, but he left as soon as he told me" he said. Fuck!, if he left then that means he doesn't want to see me. Well that's natural, since I told him that I was going to kill him, so I'm just gonna give him time.
Shippo and me started walking towards Kaede's village, because I have to talk to her about *my little problem with Inuyasha*, so today I will not be seeing the boys, or Sango. When I arrived at Kaede's house, we greeted each other, and I sent Shippo away so that I could have my privacy to talk with Kaede.
"Kagome this is about Inuyasha, isn't it?" she asked worried, and I was shocked how could she know that I was going to talk about him, but since she was right I nodded in approval and she took a deep breath.
"Do you know about what happened?" I asked her, because if she knew that I wanted to talk with her about Inuyasha then that means she knows something about what happened.
"Yes, indeed. Inuyasha told me the day after, and he also told me that you would want to know about demon sex, and if I'm not mistaking you're here to ask me about that, right?" she asked and I nodded. At this point I was completely in shock. Inuyasha told everything to Kaede, so that means that Sango, Miroku and Shippo, know too. Maybe that's the reason they aren't in the village.
"Well Kagome, demon sex is very complicated to explain, but Inuyasha told me that in your time, is quite normal" I nodded because I knew what she was talking about. "Good! then in your words, a person that likes boys and girls is called bi?" she asked and I nodded again, because I couldn't talk, still in shock. "Well demons are bi. Demons have one lover that is the same gender and maybe several mates, who are the opposite gender. Some half-breeds like Inuyasha are bi, and some are not. In Inuyasha's case he has a lover, and is looking for a mate" my mouth fell open when I heard that Inuyasha has a lover.
"What? Inuyasha has a lover already, and let me guess he wanted me to become his mate, right?" I asked in an angry tone, because the fact that he has a lover and didn't told was reason enough for me to kick his ass. Kaede was amazed when she realized that I was angry.
"That part Inuyasha didn't told me, I'm sorry. But what I can tell you is that Miroku told me that he and Inuyasha were going to visit Mushin, and Sango is coming later, she was called to exterminate a monster, that was attacking a close by village.
"Great!, at least I'm going to see Sango" I said, but still thinking about Inuyasha's lover. It can't be Miroku because Miroku likes Sango, and Shippo is a child. I gasped and said out loud "I hope that is not Koga" Kaede looked at me and sighed.
"Do you really want to know who's Inuyasha's lover?" Kaede asked, and I nodded. "Go ask him, Mushin's temple is just a couple of hours away, but if you take Kirara it will only take a couple of minutes" she suggested.
I went out to get some fresh air, when I heard a voice behind me call "Kagome, you're here!" and I turned around to see Sango and Kirara standing in front of me. "Did you talked with Kaede?" she asked.
"Yes. Hey can I borrow Kirara for a couple of hours is just that I want to visit someone" I asked her, and she nodded in approval.
As Kirara and I were in our way to Mushin's temple, I was wondering who could be Inuyasha's lover. That thought was the only one, in my head right one.
A/N: This is the first time I've ever writen from a character's POV. What do you think? Worth reviewing?