1Bella was fast asleep within minutes. Her head was tucked into the crook of my neck and I took a deep breathe and looked down at her nude body. I couldn't breathe, purplish bruises were already starting to form on her shoulders and forehead. I felt guilt wash over me and I clutched her to me, never wanted to let go.

It was only about two hours since we had actual sex, and I never felt so guilty in my life. I hurt her, I was an animal a monster, I hurt the most beautiful perfect angel in the world, and I tainted her beauty. I sucked in a deep breathe, wrapping arms around her. My body started to tremble in sadness, I hurt her for my own pleasure. I shouldn't have let her do that, I shouldn't have let it get that far.

I wanted to touch her warm skin and take the bruises away, but I couldn't now, and I was the one who put them there. I shifted my body to the left, making Bella stir, her chocolate brown eyes looking up at me and smiling happily. Suddenly I was flooded with anger, I wanted nothing more then to hurt myself.

"How bad are you hurt?" Her happy face instantly fell into a puzzled frown.

"What are you talking about?" I exhaled loudly, sighing.

"Don't tell me your fine, I hurt you, how much pain are you in." She looked down at her body, brushing some of the dirt and grass I pulled up without noticing. Her eyes widened at the sight of the bruises, but they instantly softened and her smile returned.

"Oh Edward, it was so amazing, you are so amazing, thank you so much." She was thanking me, thanking me for being a monster, thanking me for hurting her. I frowned, disgusted with myself on so many levels. I felt a wave of depression over take me and I shut my eyes as images of cutting myself almost 90 years ago flooded my mind. Could vampires even cut themselves? I thought of it before, but never tried it, now it wasn't sounding so bad, I hurt Bella, why shouldn't I be hurt as well?

"No Bella, don't even try it, your hurt, tell me right now what's wrong." Her eyes were full of hurt but I was to mad with myself to care that my words hurt her.

"Didn't it feel good?" My jaw dropped, she was worried if it felt good? I was worried how she felt now and she was worried if I was pleasured enough at the time?

"Of course it felt good, it was amazing." I let my voice trail off, I couldn't let her distract me, if I did I wouldn't know if she was okay or not.

"But that's not the point Bella, look at you, you have bruises on every inch of your skin." I took my hands and fit them into each purple bruise on her to show my point. She watched my hands then looked back up at me, smiling.

"Its alright Edward, I understand that you can't control yourself sometimes, its not as bad as I expected." Its not as bad as she expected? So she expected worse damage then this, and she still let this happen?

"You expected worse and you did it anyway? Bella what is wrong with you?!" I felt even more mad now, if that was possible.

"No, I didn't expect worse, but I did think of everything that could have happened, and this is the not the worse that I imagined."

"We shouldn't have done this, I am to dangerous and you are to breakable." She rolled her eyes.

"Edward, its not your fault that you are what you are, you were only 17 when you were changed, and it was 1918, teenagers didn't have sex at 14, its not your fault you were that young and born during that time, so just because you didn't get a chance to grow up, doesn't mean you have to turn out to be the 500 year old virgin." I never looked at it that way, but it doesn't mean it was right that we did what we did. I grew up were it was wrong, a sin, to have sex before marriage, but this wasn't 1910 anymore.

"Your right, but we should have waited, made sure I wouldn't hurt you." She was already shaking her head.

"No Edward, you didn't do anything wrong, it was your first time too, you didn't know what to expect, it wasn't your fault, and I am not in any pain, I am a little sore, but that's expected, other wise I have never been so happy, your ruining it for me." I sighed, closing my eyes again as she kissed my chest.

"Please don't ruin this for me, I'm not to educated when it comes to love, but after sex, isn't it supposed to be full of love for each other?

"I do love you, a lot." Enough to risk your life to make you happy. She smiled at me, kissing my lips quickly and gently.

"I love you more, I can't believe we just did that." I forced a miracle at her, I had to admit, we were amazing together, I dreamed about that for a long time.

"I can't believe it neither, it was amazing Bella, you are amazing, the most amazing woman in the world and I want to spend forever and ever with you, and I am sorry I put you through that whole thing this morning this morning, I don't want to leave you." I looked at her, shocked to see tears in her eyes.

"That is the most sweet thing I have ever heard in my life, do you have any idea how much you mean to me?" I smirked at her and smiled.

"I don't think you understand just how much you mean to me, just how much I love you." She kissed me again, deeper this time. I loved the feeling of her soft warm lips against my cold hard lips. There was nothing better then the feeling of us kissing, and I wish we could do it more often, but it was to dangerous, just because we pushed the invisible lines that I drew a long time ago, doesn't mean we could keep pushing them, being reckless was when someone was going to get hurt, and that someone was not going to be me.

"I want to spend forever with you Edward." She sighed in content and looked around the beautiful meadow, the sun giving her skin a beautiful tint.

"Edward, can you believe that our first everything was in this meadow?" I looked around, staring at the spot in the grass by the patch of flowers where we spent that first day together. I could almost see us sitting there in the short soft grass, her head against my chest, my arms wrapped around her. Almost see the look on her face when I told her how I felt for her. It put a smile on my face, it was the best day of my existence, it was the day I became whole.

"I know, who knew such a beautiful miracle could happen in such a beautiful place." The smells and the colors in the meadow were tripled to my enlightened senses, making everything even more beautiful, more beautiful then Bella could ever imagine, but with her here, laying in all her naked glory in my arms, there was nothing in compare to how beautiful she was.

"I agree, its like a fairy tail come true." She looked up at me. "It is a fairy tail, the most amazing man in the world falls in love with the simple girl."

"Your not simple Bella, but it is a fairy tail, the most beautiful, sweet girl in the world, lets the most hideous, gory, creature into her life. They fall in love and she loves him enough to look past all his flaws, look past all the fear she should be feeling, go against nature and believe in something that no one ever knew was real. They make the most beautiful relationship together, and it starts in the most beautiful place on the planet, a place so beautiful its almost unreal, it is a fairy tail." She giggled.

"How about we agree on this, it's a beautiful fairy tail that we have made here, but we disagree on how we see each other?"

"Fair enough." I agreed even though I knew she was so wrong.