I tried pulling myself together but it was in vain, I was clearly falling apart and sharpay knew it! But still.. I tried to appear strong.. as strong as possible. I stood up and faced sharpay and said 'if you are here to gloat I don't feel like it now sharpay.' And I was turning to leave when she said 'gabriella.. he loves you..' I thought that I heard wrong, I mean this is sharpay! She wouldn't do something nice to anyone, especially not for me! So I faced her again and looked into her eyes trying to detect any signs of sarcasm or deceive but I didn't find any. For the first time, sharpay was actually being serious!
She said 'when you saw us together, I was kissing him, and he was pushing me away, he was fighting me gabriella..' I said 'sharpay, do you realize what you are saying?' she took a deep breath and said 'yes.. yes I do.. gabriella, he told me that you were all he thought about.. that his heart ached so bad when he saw you but couldn't come to hold you, that you were the only one who made his heart skip a beat, that you were the only one he loved and always will love..' I wasn't believing what I was hearing! Troy said all that about me? How? And why? I am just me! So I swallowed and then said 'sharpay.. it doesn't matter because… well because I don't love him..' when I said that I felt tears falling from my eyes, I fought so hard to stop them but I felt like I was going to explode! Like my heart can't take any more pain! So she laughed in sarcasm and said 'come on gabriella! Who are you kidding? Those tears? Are they invisible?' I whipped my tears away and said 'no sharpay, those tears aren't over troy..' she said 'well gabriella.. whatever floats your boat.. but I thought that by telling you I would have nothing to feel guilty about.. because gabriella, not everyday do we find a guy that loves us that much.. and a good guy too? That's very rare' I said 'well sharpay, if it isn't meant to be..' she said 'okay..gabriella..' and then she turned around leaving when I said 'and sharpay?' she faced me when I said 'thanks..' she nodded with a smile and left.
Then I walked home, as slow as possible, I need as much time by myself as I could get. When I got home my mum was waiting for me, she said 'gabriella where were you? The school called saying that you left 3 hours ago! Where have you been?' I said 'I walked for a while..' she said 'walked? Have you thought about me? I was worried sick!' I said 'mum I am fine!' she said 'no gabriella you are not! Stop pretending! I can see your swallon eyes! I can hear you crying at night! I can feel your broken heart! Don't lie to me anymore!' my eyes were getting filled with tears but I stopped them and it took all I had of strength! I said 'mum I am fine.. everything is fine' she said 'gabby! If everything is fine, where is troy then?' I didn't know where troy was, I didn't want to know, troy was out of my life, or so I said to myself. So instead of saying those thoughts out loud I just walked towards the stairs and mumbled 'go look for him and tell me if you find him' but my mum pulled me back from my arm and said 'I won't leave you until you talk!' I said 'mum! There is nothing to talk about!' I could see that she was furious, I could see that she was worried about me, that she feared losing me again, but I just couldn't talk about it, because if I did, I would lose myself, and I couldn't, not again! So I said 'mum.. let me go..' she said 'gabriella.. not because your grandma died so.. ' when I heard her saying grandma I looked into her eyes, with tears forming in my eyes, but this time I couldn't stop them, my mum said 'just because she is dead doesn't mean you are alone!' I said 'mum stop it! Stop talking about her! Stop pushing me! She is dead! And there is nothing to talk about! So please mum just leave me alone' I pulled my arm away and tried to walk when she caught me again and said 'gabby..' I yelled 'God mum! What do you want from me? I am going to go now!' she said 'what? Where?' I said ' I will go for another walk!' and I took my jacket and ran out of the house.
I walked and walked without even knowing where I was going. I walked thinking about troy, sharpay, my grandma, my mum, myself, everything. I was trying to know what went wrong? How did I get here? I couldn't feel the time, I didn't even know where I was now, or how far have I gone away from home.
At the meantime, my mother fell on the floor crying at home, and when my dad heard her he came running and fell next to her and just held her until she could let it all out. It was now 12 am and I still hadn't returned home, my mum was calling all of my friends and family asking about me, and my dad took his car and went looking for me. Then while my mum was waiting for any news about me, she heard a knock on the door, when she opened she heard 'okay gabby I can't take this anymore! We need to..' it was troy. He was looking on the floor and then when he faced the door it was my mum so he said 'oh mrs. Montez, sorry, is gabriella here?' my mum was standing still fighting her tears when troy noticed something was wrong so he said 'mrs. Montez.. is there something wrong?' he found her answering him with tears! So he said 'where is she mrs. Montez?' my mum said 'she ran away.. today at about 3 pm we had a fight, and she left me! She said she was going for a walk, but she was very upset troy! I don't know what to do!' he got out his phone and dialed saying 'have you tried calling her?' my mum nodded and said 'many times! But she isn't answering! Troy.. what if something happened to her? Oh God I can't face that! Oh God no!' troy put his hand on her shoulders and said 'hey mrs. Montez we don't know anything yet, gabriella is very strong, I am sure she will be fine!' my mum said crying 'I hope so! Her father went looking for her!' so troy said ' I will go look for her too, but please if you knew anything..' my mum said 'I will let you know troy.' And he left and just kept running in the streets, he didn't know where to begin, or where not to look, he only knew one thing, he was sure of what he was looking for, he was looking for his only hope, for the love of his life, for his other half, he was looking for gabriella Montez, the only girl who gave him weak knees!
He looked where we went for our first date, he looked where we had our first kiss, he looked where we had our first fight, he looked where I told him 'I love you', he looked where he told me 'I love you' for the first time, he looked everywhere! But he still didn't find me, he felt like he couldn't breathe! How could he when I am gone? When we broke up, he was heart broke, but atleast he knew that I was out there somewhere near, but now I was lost and he couldn't find me, and that made him die a little inside.
He was losing hope, he felt like his world was falling apart and he couldn't do anything to stop it! He sat on the chair where he first told me how he would always be there for me, he sat and thought, about what could have been, he was almost crying but then he remembered something very important! My grandma! Maybe I went to her graveyard! She was my best friend, I always said she was the only person I had! At that point he ran to the graveyards, he ran as if his life depended on it! It was now 4 am, my mum was calling troy every 15 minutes or so, and my dad had returned home after looking in every place he could think of.
Troy was now in the cemetery, he was looking everywhere for me, then he saw my grandmother's graveyard, and he saw a figure infront of it, he ran towards it and found me laying there with my eyes closed! He got so worried! He fell next to me and saw how pale I was, and how red my eyes were, he could see that I have been crying so hard, and that broke his heart. He put his hand on my hair and called my name 'gabriella.. sweetie can you hear me?' I didn't answer. He then put my head on his lap and gave me a kiss on the forehead and said 'gabriella wake up.. please.. I am begging you! I can't.. I can't lose you.. please gabby! Come back and if you never want to see my face again I will disappear, but you have to listen to me first.. gabriella I love you more than I ever thought was possible.. I love you so much that there is no place in my heart for anyone else! Gabriella you are my whole life, my whole world, gabriella please.. if you love me.. if you ever loved me.. open your eyes!' then a tear escaped from his eyes and fell on my face, at that point I was gradually opening my eyes, I was coughing, but I was gradually waking up! And then I said 'I love you too'.