9. HIKERS

"Yes of course you can come in." Carlisle said happily.

I stepped inside and went to the living room. His house was gorgeous big, white and open. Magnificent simply magnificent. "Your house is amazing Carlisle." I said my irritation dying down.

"Thank you Bella." He said while showing me to the living room.

They all coupled off and I felt very out of the lope type thing I looked at Edward who was sitting on the couch I sat down next to him simply because I wanted to and because there was no other seat but there. I leaned over and said "You've lived like this for a long time."

"What do you mean?" He asked.

"I would feel totally left out, with all this couple things going on, don't you have a…Umm… what do vampires call it oh yeah mate. Don't you have a mate somewhere." I asked but I wont deny I was hoping for a no, big time.

"Nope our Eddie is all alone." Emmett said.

Edward growled and I was confused why would Edward be alone, he clearly is handsome anyone with eyes could see that. "What's up with your feelings Bells?" Jasper said teasingly.

I froze at the name and waited for the pain to come there was none? That got me more confused, I got pain every time that Charlie said it to me and not Jasper. "What are you waiting for?" Jasper asked confused.

"The pain." I said simply, they all flinched.

"Why?" Edward said sounding worried again.

"Because Jasper called me Bells, my dad use to call me that and whenever I am reminded of him I get like a sharp pain in my chest." I said and continued the wait there was nothing; I sighed and said "Umm…Weird."

"Why were you confused about Edward before?" Jasper said and then I clicked.

"Oh so you're the empath and which one is the lucky girl who gets painless visions?" I asked, they froze I laughed you would think vampires could handle some shock then said "What Carlisle's the one who use to brag about you all the time, I use to love hearing the stories he told me, it seemed like…heaven." I smiled remembering the same when I had said when Carlisle first told me stories of them. "Carlisle was like the my cool uncle/over protecting father in my family, he said he was going to work at a hospital and live in a small town with his family, I use to dream about being part of the family and having painless visions and doing nothing but play the piano all day, not having to worry about who sees you having a vision or when your gong to have to the next one, it was like my fairytale."

"I'm sorry Bella." Carlisle said.

I opened my eyes and said "Don't be, you kept me alive Carlisle I always promised myself that when I got older I would come to your family and beg there forgiveness."

"Why?" Carlisle asked.

I winced at the memory "Because I thought the Volturi killed you, I wanted to die Carlisle I spent my whole life wishing I would get lucky in a near death accident and finally die, but it never happened I jumped off a cliff and somehow I lived, I was recently hit by a five wheeler and smashed into a house and yet I still live. How? I don't know. why? Maybe someone finds it amusing. I don't know the doctors always said I was lucky, I said I was cursed. I even thought about wearing a sticky note around that said if I was in an accident then to let me die." They all looked at me horror stricken they had no idea.

Then the ripping happened again, not as bad as last time but it still hurt. I sighed and said "How long was I out." I clenched my fists when the pain got worse and rolled into a ball.

"About two days you stopped screaming an hour later but you didn't wake up." Edward said pain in his voice, I started to fight the vision so I could comfort him but then an electric blot shot through my body and I jumped. Right no fighting the visions, only makes them worse.

"Lovely I wonder what it will be this time, most likely fire." I said and then shut my eyes allowing it to come. I dug my nails into my skin but didn't make them bleed I wouldn't put them through any pain because of me. Then the flashes came.

It was the Cullen's house, and then it flashed to a bloody hiker, then to jasper attacking. Then the clear vision came. Umm not many flashes good cuts back on the pain.

I looked at the clock first thing and it was going to happen in about thirty minutes, okay so I had a little time. The bloody hiker was being carried to the front door by another one. The door bell rang, Emmett, Rosalie, and Edward where holding Jasper back. His eyes black with thrust.

"Help please, help we were attacked." One of the hikers said from outside, I could smell the rusty blood floating in the air. Boy did they pick the wrong house. Carlisle got the door and led them to the kitchen while Jasper was upstairs going crazy.

He knocked Edward, Rose and Emmett down and ran down the stairs. I felt his thrust override everything inside me Jasper had no control then I felt the hikers fear as Jasper leaped on him, the pain he was already in and then I felt like I was slowly dying.

Jasper threw the body aside and turned to the next one Carlisle was trying to talk since into him but he was in no control it wasn't his fault I knew it, Jasper wasn't like the Volturi who kill for fun he didn't have control. All he felt was bloodlust and his burning throat. I felt it all like I was him and then he leaped on the other one.

The hiker was trying to fight back so Jasper used his claws/hands to cut threw his skin. The hiker screamed in pain and stopped fighting I felt the pain as the venom entered the hikers body, then I felt the thrust being quenched. It was weird to love the taste of human blood. Normally I wouldn't feel anything just smell the rusty salt smell.

It flickered to flashes now Jasper coming to his senses, Jasper saying sorry over and over again, Then bodies being 'disposed' of, then I felt Jasper's guilt crush me he was so sorry, He felt hopeless and unworthy to even be alive like I felt everyday only mine was nothing compared to what Jasper was feeling.

I felt my vision fade from view and I was in Edward's arms. I looked up at him and he looked horrified and scared. I unclenched my jaw and fists and rubbed my temples.

"Damn what I would give to see happy things." I said bitterly and winched at the pounding head ache I had.

Edward laughed a little humorlessly and full of nervousness and worry then said "That is the scariest thing to watch you know that Bella."

"Talk to your dad he use to watch me every night and tell me stories." I said and then shook my head "No this is not the point." I scowled myself for being pulled off topic.

I stood up and said "You guys need to get Jasper out of here now."

They looked at me like I was crazy that just annoyed me I had like thirty minutes to save the whole house from erupting into chaos and they choose now to look at me like a pyshco "Hello, unless you want him to eat two hikers that are going to knock on your door in the next thirty minutes I suggest you listen to me and run Jasper far away from here." They at me looked horrified and wide eyes finally, but no one was moving.

I walked over to Jasper and pulled him up, looked in his shocked eyes and said surly "Jasper I felt it, you will feel horrible more than horrible you will feel like you don't deserve to live like you're a failure and I will not let you go through that also I should save the two humans, anyway you don't want that so leave you can come back in the morning trust me I don't have good visions, I only see death and destruction."

"Thank you." He said softly, hugged me and then took off in the backyard.

I sunk down into the couch and rubbed my temples. "God I really hate the after effects of my visions." I opened my eyes and they were all looking at me horror stricken and shocked. "What." I said self conscious.

"Well what do we do now?" Carlisle said shaking his head at my confused and self conscious face. I could practically him thinking she would forget at a time like this.

"Oh right the hikers…Umm…" I looked at the clock and said the first thing that popped into my head "Does anyone not like blood." Then smacked my head for being so stupid they were vampires for crying out loud.

They laughed and Edward said "Bella were vampires we love blood, what did you see."

"In my defense I am still trying to deal with the splitting head ache and the blood lust thing that was left behind it's really weird to want blood all of a sudden when you use to not want it not to mention that normally I don't do this, well all because I can never save anyone, well except for that girl and the car but this is new alright." I said rubbing my temples again; I don't do well under pressure.

"Bella how long do we have." Edward said, and then hugged me tightly to him. I breathed in his scent and calmed down.

"Your father use to calm me down by his scent too." I said without thinking and then blushed and scowled myself again "Focus Bella forget about Edward."

He chuckled and said "You know your talking to yourself right."

I breathed in again and decided to brush that statement off, then said "Okay well they will be here in about ten minutes, so I suggest if any of you have a very hard time dealing with a lot of blood you should probably go as far away from here as possible, because it looked like he got mauled by a bear or something, he had a lot of blood. Oh and keep him outside Esme isn't happy about burning everything on the bottom floor."

"Anything else." Carlisle said at little amused but also in serious doctor and father mood. I bit my lip to stop a laugh from escaping.

"Uh…Yeah do you need my help or can I go up stairs, blood makes me well right now makes me both get a even worse head ache and then want to drink it so not really sure which one I like the best right now, but do not bring them inside set up outside, once he came in the blood consumed the air." I said remembering how the blood consumed everything on the first floor.

"Anything else?" Carlisle asked trying to be serious but I could tell he wanted to laugh.

"Yeah, do you live with that all the time?" I asked feeling the burn in my throat.

"Live with what and why is your shirt ripped" Carlisle asked confused but also in protective dad mood. Pft you'd think he'd remember my party favors, just because my skin is as hard as diamond doesn't mean my clothes are and they should know that being vampires and all.

"Damn it I loved this shirt." I said looking down and then added "Party favors remember, I just heal quicker now, Carlisle use to bandage me up after my visions." They looked at me horror stricken again.

"Right now live with what?" He asked.

"Oh yeah that burning in your throat geez it's like my throat was on fire when is this whole bloodlust thing going to where off." I said.

They laughed and Edward said "Yes but it gets easier over time."

"Sucks to be you then." I said and they laughed again and then I added "Though I would definitely take that over visions any day, now can I go to lay down or do you need my help Carlisle."

"No you can sleep; I'll take care of the hikers." He said smiling.

"Thanks." I said and started to walk up stairs, the stopped, ran back to Carlisle and gave him a big huge and said "I missed you a lot Carlisle." Which was a major understatement I missed him more than my own parents.

He hugged me back tighter and said in my ear "Not as much as I missed you princess."

He set me down and I a tear fell down my check, he whipped it away and said "What have I always said you're too special to cry, but never be afraid to."

I smiled and said "You know what I think I would rather help bandage some hikers well one the other one wont survive, but still it could be fun."

"And you know how to do that?" Carlisle said questionably.

"I figured I had to bandage myself after all these years might as well learn how to do it right, though it was pretty hard in Asia, I'll tell you about it later but you wont be happy." I said and walked toward to the door.

"Why won't I be happy Bella and why were you in Asia?" Carlisle said sternly like I was seven again.

"Because you don't like fighting and that's want I did for six years." I said simply and walked out side just as to hikers broke through the trees.