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Once again, I woke up with light hitting my eyes. I growled and rolled over, snuggling into what I assumed was covers. They chuckled and I felt the rumble from the action, but my tired mind still didn't put one and one together.
"So you want to cuddle now huh?" I heard Sasuke's voice ask me, and I just yawned in response and cuddled even closer to the 'covers'. Once more they chuckled and I felt a pair of arms wrap around me. I sighed and breathed in a scent. A scent I knew. It took my tired mind a few minutes to process what it belonged to. Sasuke. My eyes slowly opened to meet a dark blue material. I moved back slightly and followed the blue material to a face. Oh my God I was cuddling Sasuke! I jumped and rolled out of his grasp, quickly standing and fixing my clothes which consisted of a light cotton shirt way too big for me and a pair of shorts that went a bit above my knees.
I don't remember changing, I thought and remembered last night. I came home with Sasuke and fell right to sleep. I then turned and glared at Sasuke.
"You changed me while I was asleep?!" I asked him with disbelief, my jaw hanging open while my eyes glared at him with a mixture of shock. He grinned and nodded his head.
"Well yes. I had to wash them, they were filthy. So I went out and bought those for you," he replied with a grin and a twinkle in his eyes.
"You-oh-argh!" I yelled, not even able to make a full sentence as I balled my fists. "You give me my clothes back now," I told him in a deadly tone and pointed my finger at him. He chuckled and stood up, that same grin on his face. He walked to the bathroom and came out with my clothes, clean and folded. I snatched them out of his grasp and walked to the bathroom. I slammed the door shut, unable to hear Sasuke's smart ass remark. I changed my clothes, but was grateful for the sleepwear either way. I only had one good pair of pants and a shirt, my others had gotten ruined somewhere along the line.
I walked out of the bathroom, carrying the shorts and shirt and put them inside my bag. Sasuke watched my movements from the counter where he ate the noodles, which I had found out, was called Ramen. Chicken Ramen to be exact. I walked over to the bowl waiting for me and ignored the chop sticks, not even going to try it as I slurped down the delicious soup and ate the noodles afterward. Sasuke had that glint in his eyes, always reminding me of what he did. I could smack him, but I restrained myself.
I put my bowl in the sink and washed it out this time, putting the now clean bowl upside down next to the sink to dry out. I ignored Sasuke and simply walked right out the door, hearing him walking behind me.
Good, at least I don't have to talk to him on the way there, I thought harshly as I glanced back at him. I lead the way to the training field we were at yesterday and we met up with Sakura and Naruto as we walked up. Naruto grinned and said his welcome to us, which was a bit to enthusiastic, as for Sakura, she simply nodded her head and smiled at us, but lingering on Sasuke. I could've growled, but I didn't as the memory of this morning popped in my mind. He was going to regret doing that.
I walked away from the group of ninja's momentarily looked around. Well where's our crazy teacher? I asked myself, but was taken off guard as a glint showed in front of me. I wasn't sure what it was, but I reacted instantly and moved out of the way, crouching close to the ground and changing forms in the process, growling and snarling already headed toward the direction the glint came from. It had turned out that the shiny thing was a kunai, coming straight at me. Yet, if I hadn't moved, it probably would've caught me, but I ran passed it as I ran to the person who had thrown it.
I heard the silent footsteps behind me and knew the others had noticed the commotion as well. Good, because I wasn't too sure if this was normal training or an actual attack. I guess I'd find out soon enough.
The bushes rustled as I came to the edge of the field and I leaped forward, my jaws open and ready to tear apart anything that went near my jaws. Yet when my paws landed on the ground, nothing was around me but blackness. I wondered what was going on, but I wasn't sure. All I could see was black. I carefully looked around me before I saw something ahead. I ran toward it, but it seemed forever before I reached it. It was Sasuke, but he looked at me with disgust. I tilted my head, wondering why he looked at me like that, but he suddenly started to yell at me, telling me that I was worthless and nothing but waste, a mistake. I felt the confusion as well as a stinging at my eyes as I turned into my human form, looking at him with a hurt expression.
Before I knew it, he was attacking me, scratches forming all over my body. I cried and was useless as I fell to the ground in a heap. This couldn't be happening! I was suddenly pulled, and I opened my blurry eyes to see Sasuke standing above me, the trees, ground, sky and everything else back to normal. I could feel the tears that had fallen, and the scratches I bore. I looked at myself and saw them. I wasn't sure what had happened, but someone would pay. I turned back into my wolf form, seeing as how I was in my human form. I rolled over and stood, glaring at everything that my eyes met; including Sasuke. Whatever had happened to me had caused not only my stress levels to sky rocket, but my emotions to take over.
I leaped at Sasuke, growling and snarling. I felt something inside me shift and knew I was beginning to lose it, but I didn't care. I needed to kill something. Now. I reached Sasuke's neck and snapped it in half, shock written all over his face. Suddenly a poof sounded and I looked down to a chewed log. I snarled in my madness and wheeled around to see Jiraya standing there with a grin on that stupid face of his.
"Well done Kira, nice work. Except, don't kill friends," he replied and chuckled. I then turned on him and snarled, getting into a fighting position. He was pushing my already pressed buttons. My whole body felt invincible and the scratches I couldn't feel. Jiraya watched me with a calm expression and I finally realized I was supposed to be training. I took a deep, ragged breath and looked at Jiraya with a light glare.
"If you pulled some sort of trick on me, I swear to anything that's holy that I'll rip your throat out," I snarled at him, still a bit emotional from what had strangely happened. The white haired man simply laughed and bent down to my level.
"Kira, what happened was you were in a dream like state," he replied and pointed to my scratches. "Those were inflicted in your dream, correct? Well, I was the one who had performed the task without touching you," he replied, explaining to me what had happened. I sat down and huffed, still angry and remembering the tears I had shed moments earlier.
"You mean to tell me what I saw wasn't real?" I asked him, a growl in my tone. If he was going to tell me that he caused an emotional breakdown just for training, he was dead. He grinned and nodded his head.
"Although your fear is quite different from what I expected," he replied and a thoughtful expression passed over his face. I growled at him, a warning, letting him know if he was to tell anyone he'd have me to answer to.
He chuckled at my growl and nodded his head. "Not to worry wolf," he said in a whisper. "You're secret is safe."
I nodded my head before I looked out to the field. Sasuke, Naruto, and Sakura were fighting 50 or so guys, all looking the same and clothed in black. I heard a lot of 'poofs' and smoke followed afterwards and it seemed the ninja were disappearing easily. I watched interested, but when I turned to look at Jiraya, he had gone. Damn ninja, I thought before I ran out of the woods and started to attack the poofing ninjas. As soon as I managed to get my jaws around the necks of some, they would poof into air and my jaws would slam shut with a loud snap. I thought at some point my teeth might crack.
After a while, all of the ninja's were gone and Jiraya showed up. How I wanted to sink my teeth into his neck, but I held myself together.
"Great job you guys! You can all go home now," he replied, but it was only mid-day. I wondered why he dismissed us so early, but I shrugged and changed into my human form before I started to follow the others.
"Kira, can you stay behind?" he suddenly asked and I stopped dead in my tracks. Greeeeaaat, I thought sarcastically and rolled my eyes. Sasuke stopped and looked back at me, giving me a wondering glance. I wasn't sure what that was about, but I gestured for him to go on as I turned around to face Jiraya.
"So, what's up?" I asked him and folded my arms across my chest. He smiled and gestured to me.
"You. We're going to work a bit," he replied and I gave him a look of 'what the fuck?' He chuckled and smiled. "Before I noticed you eyes. That was definitely different, I'm sure, especially from someone from you're world," he explained and I nodded my head.
"Yeah, when I get severely pissed off I tend to lose it . . . thanks to you," I ended in a growl and he just laughed.
"Well, we're going to control that. I noticed a lot when that happened, and if you control that, you could be stronger than you thought," he replied and grinned. I didn't like where this was going. I feared I was going to have another breakdown or worse. I looked at him with my eyebrow raised and a hard look on my features, telling him clearly that if he brought me to that state again, I would kill him.
"Okay, first we're going to start off pretty simple. Sit down and close your eyes."
I sat down on the ground cautiously, following his directions, but didn't want to close my eyes, remembering what happened last time.
"Don't worry, no more dreams," he replied with a chuckled and I glared at him before I closed my eyes.
"Now, go to either form works best when you fight, which is what I assume your wolf form," he told me and I complied, changing from a sitting human, to a sitting wolf in a instant. My eyes were still closed, but my senses were heightened, giving me the slight advantage to make sure Jiraya didn't move closer.
"Think," he replied. "What makes you very upset or mad? A memory maybe?" he asked and I growled. I didn't like going back through my memories, they brought back to much emotion. I left them be and let them go. I had decided that a long time ago . . . seven years to estimate things.
A thought suddenly came in front of my closed wolf eyes, my former self turning to see Josh, my best friend for years, with blood on his chest.
"Josh!" I screamed as I ran toward him. I caught him as he fell to the ground. I sat down, with him in my arms. I started crying now, without even realizing it. I rocked him back and forth.
"Kira," he sputtered as a little bit of blood spilled out of his mouth. I looked at him, hoping he would say more. He gripped my hand tightly, never letting go.
"Remember, I helped you, alright?" he asked. I nodded my head, my tears hitting his jacket. He nodded his head faintly. "You be careful, and tell Brad and Julie I'm sorry," he said as his breathing slowed.
"Josh," I whispered as I felt his hand loose grip on mine. I gently laid him back down on the ground, but never let go of his hand. I felt someone's hand on my shoulder and I looked up to see Sasuke, but he wasn't looking at me, he was glaring at Will. I looked back at Josh and put his hand on his chest.
"Good-bye my friend," I whispered . . .
I couldn't take it anymore and opened my eyes. I felt the stinging of tears and also fresh anger for what had happened, but I shook my head. Jiraya was still sitting in front of me, watching me with curious and slightly worried eyes.
"I can't Jiraya," I replied as I shook my head, a tear running down and into my fur. I changed into my human form then and stood, wiping the tears that had formed. I looked up to Jiraya and said a soft sorry before I turned and walked away. Only then did I realize how late it had gotten. The sky was dark and the first stars had started to come out.
I sighed as I locked up the old memory and walked back to the apartment, hoping I would make it and not get lost on the way. I managed to find it without any problems and walked up the stairs and opened up the apartment Sasuke and I were staying at. Well, it was supposed to be just me, but it seemed Sasuke had decided to stay permanently.
I walked in, keeping my head down and letting my hair fall into my face. The emotions from before still lingered, but I did my best to hide that fact. I turned to face the door as I closed it and stood there for a long moment. I heard another person in the room and knew it was Sasuke. I sighed and turned around, not looking at him as I passed the figure sitting at the counter. I grabbed my bag and walked to the bathroom and closed the door. I got into my new night clothes and returned to the living room, placing my bag down and glanced at Sasuke who was still sitting at the counter, watching me with worried eyes.
"Kira? What happened?" he asked me, but I just shook my head and climbed into bed, sitting Indian style on the bed and pulled the sheets up to cover my knees before I stared out the window in front of me, showing Kohana. I heard him move and watched as he walked over and sat down beside me, looking at me and trying to figure out what was wrong I'm sure. I sighed and shook my head.
"Forget it Sasuke, it's nothing to worry about," I told him and felt the tears brimming my eyes again. That's when I laid down and curled up in a ball and fell asleep, trying to escape my emotions and my past.
Josh's dead body burned in my mind, all my feelings and movement surrounding the body that lay before me. I cried out in pain, but it wasn't physical. It was like my emotions were being tortured. I screamed and screamed, tears streaking down my face as I suddenly turned to look at a person: Will. He laughed and pointed at Josh, saying he was nothing and he was never my friend, just getting close to kill me. My heart ripped in two as his words stung my body and I started to fall, screaming and crying . . .
I suddenly woke up, crying my eyes out and arms wrapped around my stomach, holding me close and trying to calm me down. I sat up, the arms removing themselves and I continued to cry, the dream I had before still vivid in my mind. Arms wrapped around my shoulder and pulled me close and I let them as I cried into someone's bare chest, but I didn't care.
I managed to get a hold of myself and sniffled, but didn't move, but neither did the arms that rocked and rubbed my back. A ragged sigh escaped my lips as tiredness overcame my tired body. I leaned back, and so did Sasuke. I knew it was him, for who else would it be? We laid there a long time, him holding me while I snuggled closer to him.
"Sorry," I muttered in a very sleepy voice before I fell asleep again, feeling fingers running through my hair before I was developed in a comforting blackness.
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