AN: I didn't kill Jo. Dean was transported to "If he stayed in hell" universe. And when I say 'she' in bold it is not referring to Anna. It is referring to mystery woman.

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Chapter Ten Part One: Daydreaming (Fell Asleep Beneath The Flowers)

Dean wanted out of here.

Fast.

If Jo had killed herself, he was still in hell.

Sam? What would have happened to Sam?

Ruby...

Dean didn't want to think about this. He wanted to get back to the real world. The present. Where he was alone, where he didn't have to worry about Sam or Jo or anyone.

He pulled his cellphone out of his pocket.

He barely choked out the words to the 911 operator.

This wasn't how it was supposed to be, no matter what Cas had said. Jo was supposed to be alive, with someone who deserved her, with a family. Not dead.

How did misfortune find the Winchesters so easily?

Why couldn't he be normal?

He ran out of the apartment. He didn't want to be there when the ambulance got there. He didn't want to see Jo's lifeless body.

This time it was his fault to. He had to have given in. Had to touch her.

Those ten days...

If only...

He might have meant something to Jo, but those ten days did it. She had said so in the letter to her mother.

Do I have to tell you everything?

The voice slid back into his mind.

"What does that mean?" Dean asked, aloud when he got outside.

Think about it, Dean. Either way, hell or not, Jo dies.

"I didn't save her, if I would have..." He broke off, what could he have done?

EXACTLY! You couldn't save her. Realization number two. Keep going, maybe one day, it will be over.

"What will be over?"

He heard nothing, only felt dizzy.

"WHAT WILL BE OVER?"

OOOO

Anna was frowning at him, "I'm worried about you."

"Don't be." Castiel shoveled a spoonful of chicken noodle soup into his mouth.

"Baby, you've been sick for two months. Of course, I am going to be worried." Anna sat on the edge of the couch.

Two months?

Anna got blurry.

All Cas saw was darkness. She had finally pulled him away from that.

"Castiel, this is getting old." She said, her voice as sarcastic as the day he had met her.

"Then return my grace." He was a step away from pleading. He hated humanity, especially when he was put in physical pain when he was around the only one he would be human for.

"Now, you see. I'd like to, but I can't there are orders from higher up, and I gotta follow them. You need to get over this human thing, or else..."

"Or else, what?"

"Are you questioning me, Castiel?"

"Why are you doing this, Eve?" He was tired, and still weak from.

"You are beginning to let human instincts change your way of thinking. This needs to stop." Eve replied, her voice serious, "The higher up will have your grace if you don't stop."

"I do not want to be human." He said through clenched teeth.

"Then you have to put these feelings to rest. Destroy them. Because once they hear about Anna..." She paused, "I wouldn't want to be you"

"I don't know,what you or they want from me. I have tried...its hard to destroy something..." Cas couldn't get it it out.

Saying what he wanted to say would be the end, to admit the truth of his feelings.

He took a deep breath, not remembering that he didn't need them, "They are gone."

The darkness cleared, and he saw her.

"Good." Eve looked tired, but she sent him a small smile, "If only Dean could catch on as easily as you."

"Dean? What are you doing to Dean?"

"Again, with the questions. You don't question, humans do." Her face twisted, "You lied."

She lifted a hand, and the darkness surrounded him again.

OOOO

Dean was still in the parking lot of the apartment building when the ambulance came.

He was still there when they left.

He had just gotten ahold of himself when a small child ran up to him.

"Have you seen my daddy?" She asked.

She was cute. She had on a little white dress and extremely red hair.

Looks kind of like Anna, Dean thought.

"What does he look like?" Dean asked, pushing his feelings away.

"Well, he's tall, and he-" The girl was about to say something when she yelled, "MOMMY!"

Dean looked.

Anna.

What the hell?

Anna ran over there to him, "I'm soo sorry."

"Anna?"

Anna looked at him strangely, and slightly tilted her head, "Do I know you?"

No. She wouldn't know him.

"No, you just look like someone I do know." He felt lame with that lie.

She smiled, "Well, thats weird, my name is Anna."

She laughed.

"We were waiting in our car for my husband, and he hasn't came down yet, Lily thought he went missing."

"Your husband?"

Anna was married?

"What room do you live in?" She asked, finally realizing that she was talking to a 'stranger'.

"402." He said.

That was Jo's apartment number, and he had lived there.

For ten days.

"Oh, you're with Jo." Anna smiled, "We live on the eighth, I'm Anna Novack, are you new? Because my husband has been sick awhile, thats why you might not know him."

"Yeah, I'm new."

"Castiel, where have you been?" She was looking past Dean with a stern face.

Dean turned, "Cas?"

OOOO

AN: Ummmkayyy, this isn't a full chapter, this is just half, because I needed to get this posted because some have been misreading my intentions.

In previous chapters when I referred to she in bold, I was not talking about Anna. Anna for all purposes is human in this.

Dean is stuck in a world where he stayed in hell, so no, Jo didn't kill herself for the outcome of this story. She will be back.

But I am not done with this world yet...

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Also, I am working on a new Supernatural fic, that is an AU if Sam had beat Jake, and Dean never died. Someone probably has done that 1000x over, but I hope if you enjoy my writing you will check it out.

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