Hah! How quick was the update for this one? lolz... I hope you guys love me for this... *fingers cross*
-Previously-
"Let me show you," Joey breathes, "how much I love you."
With that, Joey stood pulling Charlie up with her; intertwining their fingers and hands, Joey lead Charlie to their bedroom. Charlie holds on to Joey's hand while she found herself following Joey's lead.
Joey closed the door behind her, once they were both inside the room. Charlie waited for Joey, standing just behind the said woman; everything felt like in slow motion and warning bells were going off relentlessly in Charlie's head but the brunette chose to ignore them. She was aware that by letting things go beyond hugs and kisses, she would be officially cheating on Brett and would officially be taking advantage but, who's to condemn her for loving Joey more that she ought to… more than she should? Love is love. Sometimes, you just can't control it even if you tried. And one day if Joey finally get her memories back and everything goes back to normal and everyone are playing their rightful role, Charlie thought at least she would have the memory of tonight to hold on to; that, once upon a time, she was blessed enough to experience heaven with the one she truly loves; Joey.
Joey turned to Charlie and like earlier, took the woman's hand in hers and guides her towards the bed. When they both reached the side, Joey carefully guided Charlie to seat with Charlie did willingly. Joey then kneeled in front f Charlie, holding both of Charlie's hand in hers as she made sure to have Charlie's eyes directly focus on her brown ones.
"I know that you worry that I may not be physically ready," Joey started, "But I am; both physically and emotionally. I need you Charlie. I missed you and I love you more than you know… more than anything. And, I'm running out of ways to show you and I know you'll say that I don't have to 'cause you know just how much I love you and I don't doubt that you do know, but… I don't think my words were enough."
Charlie's eyes started to well up with tears as she listened to Joey's words and gaze at the woman's warm, assuring, loving eyes that made everything so real for Charlie.
"Because, what I feel for you…it's beyond words; it's like… it's like a necessity to me. It's like the need to breathe so I could live; because not loving you Charlie, it's like not needing to breathe and it's impossible" Joey continued.
Tears left Charlie's eyes and cascaded down the woman's cheeks. Joey reached for Charlie's face to wipe away her tears.
"I…" Joey continued but started leaning in, giving Charlie's forehead a soft kiss.
"Love," Joey descends her lips on Charlie's eyes, kissing both of them as if kissing Charlie's tears away.
"You," Joey finished and closed the gap between them as she pressed her lips against Charlie's.
Joey kissed Charlie's lips ever so lightly, not wanting to push Charlie, if just in case, she so happens to be not sure. But to Joey's delight, Charlie reciprocated the kiss with so much passion that Charlie actually snaked her hand onto Joey's nape holding Joey in place while both deepened the kiss. Joey smiled against Charlie's lips, opening her eyes to find Charlie's blue orbs looking soulfully at hers. Pulling away a little bit, Joey saw a small smile on Charlie's lips too.
"I love you Joey," Charlie said, "more than you know."
Standing in front of each other, both Charlie and Joey stood with their eyes locked with each other. Charlie was excited and anxious at the same time. For her, it felt like it'll be her first time again –although it would actually be her first time with a girl for that matter; with Joey nevertheless. However, Charlie was sure that she –for the rest of the years that she had lived- haven't been so sure about anything in her life, other than loving the beautiful brown-eyed-woman in front of her. And so, as anxious as she was, she ignored it, as not only did Charlie want to offer Joey herself, but also, the whole of her with no other unwanted emotions or feelings or thoughts involved other than love for Joey.
Joey smiled sweetly at Charlie and then slowly took her t-shirt off. Charlie watched with anticipation as Joey's toned stomach and bra clad breast appeared before her. Smiling back at Joey, Charlie with shaky hands started unbuttoning her top. Joey longingly gazes at every expose skin that she sees as button after another gets undone. Once Charlie unbuttoned the rest, she carefully eases the material off her shoulder and let the blouse fall onto the floor. Joey eyes marvel at the tanned and toned upper portion of Charlie's body. It wasn't like she haven't seen it before, but there was something about the moment, that she couldn't quite explain what, that the very sight of Charlie's half naked body over-whelmed her beyond belief.
Meeting Charlie's eyes again, Joey with her eyes still locked with Charlie's blue pools, begun undoing the button of her shorts, followed by unzipping it and pulling the garment down slowly, afraid that if she hurry the spell might break and their lingering gaze along with it.
Charlie's eyes reluctantly left Joey's and as if has a mind of its own, started gazing at Joey's shapely legs; starting from Joey's feet, slowly up her to-die-for legs and then continued on Joey's well-proportioned thighs. Charlie's breath got caught in her throat however; when her eyes reached Joey's mid-section. Joey was wearing a black laces panty that matches her black bra that made Joey's body tad more enticing, with the contrast of Joey's natural healthy pale skin against the material of her black laced undergarments.
Joey smiled to herself as she noticed Charlie's stare at her body. It was not in a just lustful way although it was there; the stare Charlie was giving her was more of adoration over-powering the lust.
Charlie recovering from her moment of Joey's body induced daze, started doing the same; she begun unbuttoning her shorts, one by one and then eased herself out of it, letting the short fall and pooled on her feet, before stepping out of it.
Joey's eyes were on the floor as it automatically followed the shorts when it dropped on the floor; from the shorts, Joey's eyes moved its attention onto Charlie's feet that stepped out of the piece of clothing. Her gaze then travelled automatically up Charlie's toned, slender, tanned, neve ending legs that made Joey's throat dry. Joey's eyes continued to gaze up to Charlie's shapely thighs and then, she suddenly stop breathing as her eyes landed its gaze on Charlie's red-laced lingerie that matched the woman's bra. Joey could remember preparing it for the said woman, but it still didn't made a difference on that effect it had on her; Joey, swore right there and then that she haven't seen such glorious sight before… or at least as far as her memory could extend.
Joey couldn't explain what she feels. She feels elated but at the same time unsure. She wants to be with Charlie that was for sure, but she couldn't explain how or why she feels like she's about to embark on to an unfamiliar territory; it felt like she haven't done it before… at least haven't done it before with Charlie. Then again, Joey thought, she hadn't made love to Charlie in a while, explaining, maybe why she feels the way she feels; unsure yet very excited and over-whelmed by the known beauty of Charlie's whole being.
Joey's eyes continued to move upward, gliding its gaze up Charlie's body up to the brunette's face, meeting the darker shade of blue of Charlie's eyes. Smiling at Charlie, Joey once again locks her eyes on Charlie's while carefully reaching behind her, unhooking her own bra. Once undone, Joey slowly ease the strap off her shoulder and gracefully releasing herself from the confinement of her bra, letting the garment fall, joining her discarded clothes.
For the briefest of moment since Joey's bra hit the ground, Charlie though she'll pass out. She was aware that she had seen Joey at this state of undress, but this moment, it was different; even different from the time they spent in the tub together, when she first literally gave in to her heart's mercy and of Joey's. Because this time, it held a purpose… an intentional purpose and will, that would lead Charlie to the next step; next level.
Letting out the breath she didn't know she was holding, Charlie slowly reached behind her to the clasp of her bra. But with all the nerves and excitement enveloping her body, Charlie had trouble doing her task and in a blink of an eye, Joey was in front of her. The woman's eyes looking lovingly at Charlie's as Charlie felt the woman's hand replacing her own and with not a moment longer, skilfully unhooked the brunette's bra.
Smiling softly at each other, Joey and Charlie leaned in and together, close the gap between them. Sparks ignite once both lips touched as if it was the first. The kiss started as soft and tentative but soon escalate into a more passionate dance, both moving in perfect rhythm.
Pulling apart for the needed air, Joey let her lips descends to Charlie's neck, kissing and inhaling Charlie's intoxicating scent. Charlie tilted her head and offered her exposed neck to Joey's soft kisses. Joey smiled at the gesture and continued moving her lips down Charlie's shoulder. Reaching the strap of Charlie's bra with her lips, Joey slowly pulled the strap down Charlie's shoulder all the while planting sensual soft kisses along with it as the strap eased down Charlie's arm; Joey continued planting soft loving kisses on her way to the other side and did the same until the garment joined the other clothes on the floor. Satisfied, ridding the brunette off her bra, Joey once again made her way back to Charlie's lips.
Charlie welcomed Joey's lips with so much longing that she actually held the woman's face with her palm in place, just so she could kiss Joey with all that she was worth. Once again, the kiss developed into more, hungry, needing kiss and slowly, Joey started moving, leaning, guiding Charlie to seat and carefully lie the woman down on the bed with her landing gently on top, not breaking their lip lock.
Reluctantly pulling away, Joey gazed down at Charlie who still has her eyes closed. Slowly after savouring the taste of their kiss, Charlie slowly opened her eyes just to meet the intense loving gaze of Joey's brown orbs.
"You look so beautiful," Joey whispered.
Charlie blushed unwillingly.
"I love you," Joey declared softly, sincerely.
"I love you too," Charlie replied.
Both smiled at each other and again found themselves expressing the unspoken/wordless feeling with their lips together. The kiss this time however was different as it didn't start soft or tentatively; this time, the kiss was straight away deep in knowing passion that only got deeper by the second as if the their feelings that words could never comprehend were successfully conveyed by their lips, gracefully dance and in perfect sync.
Charlie forcefully opened her eyes as she tried to regulate her breathing. Looking down, Joey's loving brown orbs met Charlie's eyes; brown orbs watching Charlie, as Joey's lips softly wrapped itself around the peak of Charlie's breast. Biting her lower lip and groaning a little, Charlie continued to watch Joey's action all the while fighting her hardest not to close her eyes in the pleasure as she felt Joey's hands skilfully puling the last piece of clothing she had left.
Joey continued to shower her attention to Charlie's hardened peaks that she had become a fan of, while her gaze never wavered from Charlie's beautiful face. Joey had successfully removed Charlie's last undergarment and the look of pleasure in Charlie's darker shade of blue pools when Joey 's finger grazed ever so softly on to Charlie's heated centre was a vision to die for. Joey almost felt herself to the edge by just looking and hearing Charlie's moans and groans.
Charlie gasped as she felt Joey's soft hand covered her heated centre. Her fingers clawed onto Joey's back -that she had been caressing- as she manages to watch Joey moved her lovely warm mouth to her other very ready nipple. Charlie continued to breathe heavily at the euphoric sensation that Joey's every touch provided and then realised her rather not-so-gently grip on Joey's back, Charlie again begun running her hand up and down's Joey's spine, earning her a moan from the woman who were currently nursing her sensitive nipple; wanting to hear the music of Joey's moan, Charlie heaved her thigh in between Joey's and begun pushing, pressing on Joey's undeniably moist centre through her underwear.
Joey's eyes rolled back as she felt the pressure of Charlie's thigh on her, giving her pretty much the same feeling of what Charlie was feeling with her hand caressing the brunette's moist womanhood.
"Take…" Charlie tried to voice in between her heavy breathing.
"Take… take it off… please," she breathes, looking at Joey's darker shade of brown eyes.
Not needing to be asked twice, Joey quickly freed herself out of her underwear; easing herself back on to of Charlie, both moaned loudly when one another's womanhood touched, sending electric, tingling sensation all through both bodies; moving their hips in perfect sync with each other, Joey leaned and was eagerly welcomed by Charlie's lips in a passionate searing kiss that was both filled with lust and love. Tongues brushing and lips grazing as both bodies danced against each other with both breathing laboured and mind clouded with nothing but the anticipation of reaching heaven.
Charlie ran her hand down from Joey's nape down her back once again memorising the woman's curves, every once in a while letting her nails graze lightly onto the soft skin of Joey Collins. Joey pulled onto Charlie's lower lip, before taking a deep breath only to release the air as a moan on Charlie's lips, and then moving down onto the brunette's enticing neck. Sucking on Charlie's pulse point every so gently, Joey at the same time, felt Charlie's teeth grazing her shoulder's with a melodic groan together with it.
Both women's moved became more eager, very much aware of their bodies pressed against one another; their lips on each other's skin, their breasts against each other with both pair of hardened peaks once in a while brushing together and most of all, their very moist and ready core dancing and grinding against each other, mixing their arousal together.
Opening their eyes at the same time, Charlie and Joey stared at each other, both looking deep in one another's soul as one of each hands travelled down between them. Without a word being uttered, both women opened their thighs a little giving the other's hand room for its task. Both hands then started caressing each other's moist womanhood at the same time as both eyes rolled back with a united moan eliciting from both lips. Keeping their eyes closed, both Charlie and Joey continued to make love with each other's private, readying one another for their inevitable union.
With both bodies heaving, once again both Charlie and Joey opened their eyes in unison and straight away saw one another's soul.
"I love you," Joey mumbled in between her laboured breathing.
"I love you," Charlie whispered back, and leaning in to capture Joey's lips.
With words of love spoken, both in unison penetrated each other and moaned in each other's mouth as they pushed deeper in inside one another.
Charlie unconsciously bit her lower lip and involuntarily had her eyes close. Not in a million years had she imagine a feeling so pure that to compare it to what she had experience before would be an insult. Joey; her best friend; the love of her life, being inside her was the most unearthly beautiful feeling she never though existed and known to be blessed enough to experience. And to feel and be inside of the woman of her affection was beyond words. Charlie didn't have single word to describe what it felt like to feel her and Joey's body as one. Perfect wouldn't give justice to what it felt and even heavenly would still be an understatement. But in the amidst of heaven, Charlie thought loved would be enough; she felt loved and complete.
Joey just like Charlie unconsciously closed her eyes the moment she felt Charlie inside her and her inside Charlie. She could swear right there and then that if she dies any minute, she would die happy and contented. She couldn't explain why, she was sure that she and Charlie had done the deed before but somehow, it felt like they haven't; like it was their first or rather it was 'her' first taste of heaven; of Charlie. But she wasn't complaining, feeling that no matter how many times it'd be, it would always be like the first. Joey could feel their movement, in time with each other and how magical it felt. She was aware of how they both seemed to have picked up their speed and it only made Joey go deeper, wanting to be inside Charlie as further as she could, while she grind herself onto Charlie's; she wanted both of them to be as close as if they are one. But nevertheless, Joey knew that they 'are' one. They share body; they share soul and share one love.
Both women felt so close to the edge. Charlie went deeper as so did Joey, both feeling the contracting muscles of their beloved. Both Charlie and Joey continue in a perfect dance with each other's moans as their music. And then, with one swift move, deeper inside, both women let themselves go in each other's touch, releasing the built up love that both of them had caused.
Charlie eyes opened and tears fell from her eyes as she arched her back from the bed. Her body meeting Joey's as Joey's tensed body leaned down while they both reached the heaven.
Joey saw the tears that fell in the brunette's eyes and as soon as she calmed, she gently leaned in and placed a delicate kiss in each of Charlie's eyes. Charlie, feeling the soft lips of Joey left her eyes, she slowly then opened it to be met by Joey's warm loving smile. Charlie smiled back, her hands running up and down Joey's spin again, making the woman's skin tingle again. Joey brought her hand up and run her fingertip along the feature of Charlie's face, all the while mesmerised by the woman beneath her.
"You are really beautiful," Joey breathes again unconsciously.
Charlie bit her bottom lip, failing to stop the blush from creeping on her face. Joey noticed Charlie's cheeks turned into an adorable shade of pink and gently grazed her thumb onto it, all the while smiling at the blushing brunette.
"Do you know how much I love you Charlie?" Joey asked looking deeply in Charlie's piercing blue ones.
Charlie nodded.
'Like how much you would love a best friend,' she thought and answered in her head.
Joey smiled at Charlie more.
"I love you so much," Joey started anyway, "that even with my eyes closed and my unconscious mind wonders off to somewhere, the love I have for you is the only thing that remains the same; that even in my sleep and in my dreams… you would always be the one that I love the most." Joey said.
"Always," she repeated,
Unable to form a word and stop the tears from falling, Charlie pulled Joey's body down against hers, gently wrapping her arms around the brown-eyed-woman, locking her in her arms and hugging her tightly as if her life depended on it. Charlie's lips against Joey's head, memorising her scent and how soft her body is, the curves and contours…. Everything about what it feels like to be in Joey's arms and Joey in 'her' arms.
Joey smiled silently against Charlie, burying her face in the crook of the woman's neck, where every inhale she takes smells like Charlie; gently, beautiful, heavenly scent of Charlie
Buckton. Feeling Charlie's lips never leaving her head, Joey nuzzle into Charlie's neck more, 'till her lips touch Charlie's soft skin and there, her lips planned to remain.
In the quietness of the night, both Charlie and Joey feel asleep in each other's arms; both contented and complete and… happy. Reality be damned, as for Charlie, this is her reality; in Joey's loving arms as her girlfriend. Joey couldn't careless of what she might or might not did in the past; it didn't matter what kind of what were the events that her memory failed to re-call; for Joey whether or not she cheated on Charlie, whatever other relationship she might or might not had, hers and Charlie's relationship would always and forever be the real thing. And she knows that the second life given to her was to spend the rest of it loving her beautiful girlfriend; her rightful partner; her soul mate; her Charlie Buckton.
Anyways... i know i had been apologising a lot, but i am really nervous about this chapter. I know i had done it before... but writting things like this it never gets easy... it's always hard... so... uhm... sorry if i failed epically with this one. i just hope that its still enjoyable to read... And if you still havent had enough WHEN THE PAST COMES BACK is waiting to be visited...