I looked out the window, the fields of grass rolling by. The show that night had been fantastic, everyone was on point.
The next few weeks would be hectic. It was June 17. 10 days before Jeff was set to marry Beth. We were all on our way home. had given all of us the time off. "Are you okay?" Shane questioned, breaking the long silence that had fallen over us within the last couple hours. "I guess" We were driving through the end of Arkansas. "You guess?" I looked over at Shane. He had worry filling his eyes. "Yeah" "What does that mean?" "Well, I'm not sure if I can do this" "Do?" "Jeff's wedding" "Why not?" I sighed, "You know how long I've had feelings for him Shane. Yes I'm in a committed relationship with you, but I can't help but think how I never told him, that had feelings for him. I try to live with no regrets, but" "This is one?" "Yeah, Don't get me wrong, I love being with you, I just wonder sometimes, what would it have been like if I had just told Jeff that I had feelings for him. I'm sure he wouldn't have left Beth. He loves her" "he never told you" "who never told me what" "Jeff, he never told you what he thought of you when he first met you, or seen you" "of course not" "Well, he thought you were beautiful, he still does. He almost left Beth for you" "I don't believe you" I whispered in dis belief. "It's true. But he never thought you'd go for someone like him, Until years later, until he was engaged to Beth" "what do you mean?" "He got to know you, he seen the other guys you dated, he seen how you really were. He loves what you are in a woman, Beth isn't that" "then why is he going to marry her?" "I have no idea" I nodded, "Did you know Beth doesn't want kids, but he's dying for them" "I didn't know that" Shane nodded "it's true, He's to nice of a guy to break it off with her, So he'll live with it" "oh" I almost couldn't get it out. I'd always wanted kids, Jeff was the exact guy I'd always imagined myself being with. The car ride fell back into silence. Skillet filling the silence. What was I thinking, why did I let him go?
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Shane pulled up the Matt's house. I figured that Matt and Nikki were back by then. I could see the Legends truck, Jeff's black truck and Shan's white truck. I got out of the truck, grabbing my bag I waited for Shane. Walking to the front of his truck, he wrapped his arm around my shoulders as we walked in. "Hey y'all!" I called once we found everyone laying around the living room. "Hey you two" Matt said. I smiled and plopped down on the couch with Shane beside Jeff. I looked over at Nikki, she had a look on her face that I wasn't too sure I liked. "Where's your girl?" I questioned looking around to not find Beth. "She left me" "what?" we all questioned in unison, complete unawareness filling the room. "That what I was trying to tell y'all before Sky and Shane got here" I looked at him. "I'm so sorry" "It wasn't your fault, she's just a bitch" I nodded slightly. Why would she leave him? "Why? I have no idea, Especially when our wedding is only 10 days away" I sighed. I felt terrible for Jeff. "Whatever, I'll get over it. I wasn't even sure why I was going to marry her. She wasn't right for me. There's one girl right for me, but she's already taken by a great guy" Jeff said standing up. "Uh, babe I'll be right back" I looked at Shane. "Okay," He smiled, kissed me quickly but softly before going after Jeff. I was alone on the couch now. "What just happened?" Matt questioned looking over at me. "How am I supposed to know?" "You should," "Why!" "You really don't know?" I looked over at Nikki when she questioned. "What the hell are you talking about!" I watched as the all looked at each other. "He was talking about you. Why did Shane leave?" Shannon said. "I have no idea!" why did they expect me to know! "Explain this right now." "Beth broke up with Jeff. You should know about it" Julie said. "Why should I! I've been with Shane!" I looked at them all in disbelief "Blame me all you want. I have No idea what's going on." I stood up. "Where are you going" I turned to Shannon. "Wherever the hell I want. Since y'all have decided I'm ruining everything" I snapped. I turned away from them all and walked out of the front door.
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