Disclaimer: I own a smurf, one of my best friends gave me, not Degrassi or any of the song's mentioned in this chapter =)

But you asked me to love you and I did
Traded my emotions for a contract to commit

Eli P. O. V.

She asked me to love her and I did. Well, maybe not in those words, but still the idea was there. She wanted me to be there for her and I was. She was gentle and kind to me, she came to me when I needed her and always made me feel better. Like I had a goal to be working towards, like I had to earn her trust, her smiles, her hugs, and most importantly her heart.

The human heart, it's actually a funny thing. How can something as small as a pear hold all these emotions. Is it not busy pumping blood through our bodies, making sure we maintain homeostasis and dynamic equilibrium? Love, now that's a hilarious word, a word that we abuse on constant basis. We throw around the words as if they were a pair of I don't know, sneakers. Yeah, sneakers- we wear them, we kind of sort of need them, but in the end, they always end up underneath our beds or somewhere of unimportance.

They say we're too young for love, that we have no clue what it is. Well, newsflash people, have you not been 16 or 17 before? Have you not experienced that warm fuzzy feelings or those chills (1) up and down your spine? Have you not believed that, this one person was you're everything, that they could make you or break you? Oh that's right; you don't remember the feeling because you don't believe we're capable of those feelings. After all didn't you guys say "When your 15 and somebody tells they love you, you're going to believe them?"(2)

She knew the state I was in before we started this relationship, in a way I asked her to trade her sanity to be with me. I have always thought she was … dumb… for being with me. I told her that the only thing I'd do, is hurt her and yet she still stayed. I never believed that she would turn on me and hurt me like she did. She really was my everything, my rock, my little ray of sunshine, my heart, my love, my everything.

You told me to love you and I did
Tied my soul into a knot and got me to submit

I told her to love me and she did. I guess I took away every redeeming quality she had when she became a part of me. And even now no one is going to save her, much less me. I wanted her I needed her to be with me. It is now all coming back down, fuck karma's a bitch. I let myself believe that she genuinely cared about me. Well, on some level she did, otherwise, why would she stay, just to mess with my already fucked up heart? No, she loved me only because I asked her too. Though I don't regret it, she probably does which is why she tore my heart in two.

I did something I've never done before; I waited after class for her. I helped her with drama, I stayed up till 7 in the morning talking about nothing and everything, and It was all for her! I have no one to blame but myself, I got her to submit. And now it's coming back to me. How can one person mean so much to me? How can this one girl be the world to me? It's all my fault, I asked her to love me and she did. Yeah, didn't really think about the consequences that would happen in the end.

These walls we've put up, well, baby they're tumbling down (3) and maybe just maybe it's for the best. You know what, fuck it. It's not for the best. Do you not get the part about tearing my heart apart in two? Did you not get the memo that stated that I was your boyfriend therefore obligated to protect you? Do you not remember the words you told me, "You're stuck with me?" God, damn it, I fucking love you with all my heart and, wow you just tore it straight down the middle in two.

Don't you dare fucking lie to me; you knew what you were doing when you said we needed a break. I wanted to know what I did wrong so I could fix it. But no, you just wanted a break. Well, sweetie you got what you wanted. We are on break and I'm a fucking mess. I needed you and you needed me and after all we've been through…

"You Ripped My Heart Out."

AUTHOR'SNOTE: are you guys ready to hear my lame excuses for not updating 1-I'm apart of my school's mock trial thing so that's been occupying my time, 2- honor classes are harder than i remembered(i just got transfered into them), 3- my legalstudies teacher still has my USB, 4- i haven't really been inspired to write. So with that being said, I am open for suggestions once again and ima make it my goal to try to update as best as i can. i'm sorry that this one was so short. You guy's can probably see my inspiration for this one-shot. ummm I used a variety of songs though the main song is "Dead Memories" By SlipKnot

(1) Love The Way You Lie Eminem ft. Rihanna

(2)Fifteen Taylor Swift

(3) Halo Beyonce.

I hope you guys enjoyed =)

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