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Edward POV
"I'm sorry I'm not good enough" He almost whispered. I could hear the pain, and sorrow, and longing laced deeply in his voice. His words stopped me short. I had managed to keep my promise the last week. I decided he was not worth crying over. Or at least I told myself that.
It was the next morning now, and no one has seen or heard from Jasper. He hasn't come back to my door, and had his locks changed on his dorm room, but no one has seen him.
I felt like shit. Everything in my head and body yelled at me to just let him talk. But I saw what my mom did to my dad before she passed. How she had repeatedly cheated on my father. And every time he found out, she promised she would never cheat again. I
watched as my father's world crumbled around him. I refused to let that happen to me.
I knew Jasper was hurting right now, but he'd forget about me, and he'd fall for someone else, and be happy again.
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It was Saturday. Jasper's teachers had told Emmett that he was back in class, but still no one has seen him. Emmett and Rose were beginning to worry. I knew Jasper was just cutting himself off of any ties to me. He was giving me everything as an apology.
"Seriously Edward, No one has seen him. The guards say that they only see Jasper leave in the morning, and return right after class. The lunch guys haven't seen him except lunch. It's like he's disappeared."
"Good" I stated and walked from the dorm. Emmett followed me but kept quiet. We were on our way to the campus bar, and we had to pass Jasper's dorm. Emmett grunted and grabbed my arm. I watched where he pointed as Jasper snuck out from a door in the back, and climbed onto his bike. He pealed out of the parking lot so fast you blinked and he was gone.
"I wonder where he's off to in such a rush" Emmett pondered. I shrugged his hand off and replied coolly
"Probably to fuck James"
"Edward" Emmett sighed. I just left him standing there and headed to the bar.
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Emmett though he was being sly but I knew Emmett and Rose were watching Jasper's dorm to see if he sunk out. I didn't care anymore. I was back in classes and even thought my heart was still broken, and I was still stupidly in love with Jasper, I still didn't care.
I had not received one call, or text from Jasper, nor had he decided to grace my hallway again. He was never anywhere near where I was, and I had not caught a glimpse of him. I was starting to miss him. I missed his smile, and his smell. I still wore the sweatshirt Emmett put on me that first night. I slept in his t-shirt and boxers, and I still slept off to the side of the bed, leaving room for him. My heart and head were still warring against each other, and I was starting to feel the effects. I know I was being unfair to Rose and Emmett, but I was bitchy. I snapped at them over anything, and brooded over everything.
Rose still hasn't said much to me, but she is quiet. So I just ignore her and keep quiet in my seat. I just wasn't alive anymore. I was empty with out Jasper.
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Hey guys!
Thanks for the reviews. This is a look into Edward's psyche.
Enjoy, there's major drama in the next few chapters.
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Kai